huimints! ♥

Tuesday, June 30, 2009, 10:17 AM

We're a picture in my mind. And when I want to find you, I just close my eyes

shucks..huimints when to bed at 3am cos she was doing stats hw with her grp
and now her head is spinning..
and huimints has a whole pile of work waiting for her..she havent noticed it till now? hahas..there's like 2 letters to write, POA tut, econs tut, excel and maketing hw...gahh..tsk tsk..
okie..but being busy is good =D
yes, i need to focus my thots and energy into something productive..

later need to go out and meet ppl.. and i need to stock-up supplies in my kitchen..hahas
i miss my rice krispies!! hahas.. i'm the only one in my family that likes to eat that..
sometimes i cant help but wonder are there any rice krispies fan out there..HAHA

hmm..and i wanna meet some zai musicians to listen to and improve guitar..
okay..one thing at a time

Monday, June 29, 2009, 9:53 PM

And I know there'll be days, When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You...Jesus, bring the rain

huimints spent the evening sitting by the window, enjoying the awesome cool breeze and admiring the skies..

ahh..and huimints is thankful for e-learning..hahas.. today only had to watch some 5-mins video..then nth else lehs..no way to take attendance cos video wasnt sch de..hahas..not bad hurr..

:) yay! u friday no school!! can meet =D

11:57 AM

i really dun wanna eat maggie mee..
but im too tired to go out..
hais.......

a lot of thots.. maybe some other time to post
yes, i changed to a simple blogskin

Saturday, June 27, 2009, 8:47 PM

yay! today sarah passed me three very important notes..the 'do not open unless you are very, very sad note' and then there one for moody and angry..hahas..i dunoe abt angry thou..cant rmb when i was really angry last time..i guess, anger always becomes sadness in the end for me in everything..hahas..anyway, thanks..
retail therapy was awesome.. =D

hmm friday..

for youth cell, there was only me, ellen and david in the grp.. but it was a very awesome discussion, just the three of us.. out of the blue, they talked about how comfortable they feel being in this cell..even thou they only joined us not too long ago.. but it made me look back and realise how far we have come as a cell group.. and that made huimin very happy =D

and friday was the first time we went home with david.. and we took circle line..it was like 11pm plus.. then we walked past a group of guys and they were saying something about gang fight.. den david was staring at them then they stared back..until they saw minghui(who had a lot of fake tatoos on him because he is helping jolene with her video) then they kept quiet and looked away! haha! then we reached serangoon station and we took the long travelator cos me and bro have to take purple line mahs..then we reach liao then david took the long travelator back again! he pei us just to say goodbye..hahas..sweet =D

friday.. prayer's request from me was simple..just to have joy..

usually, i dun really care how im feeling..just as long as the ppl around me are happy then it's enough..i mean it is not wrong but sometimes, u hav to pretend becos u rather not make the person feel horrible, bad, worried or anything.. ai ya..i not making sense here right..hahas..

but anyway, my week so far if u wanna know.. was just sad lahs..but i made it thru the week =D spend a few days in school from morning till ike 7:30pm during project..made new frens.. hmm..and i got my first BLUE ear-ring today.. hahas..

next week is e-learn week.. im so not a morning person! everyday starts at 8am online lehs..

oh wellssss...anyway, huimin for now..one thing at a time..

and MJ's death.. a wake-up call that life is really very short..and unpredictable

Monday, June 22, 2009, 12:23 AM

Happy daddy's day!

today after church, went to suntec to have father's day lunch.. dined at Kenny Rogers..
havent eaten there for a ling time le..
my fave is still the chessy seashells macronie
me and sis ate it and said together "Kenny's sea-shells are the greatest!"
ohh..and i got a BLUE straw for my drink while the rest had purple straws..HAHA
after that, walked ard.. they had some senior citizens thingy going on at the fountain of wealth..so ironic that they played the song 'Staying Alive'..hahas..
after that went with the youths for some band dynamics workshop..

huimin has been praying for the last few months..
that she didnt have to go thru this or at least not to face it..
but God has His plan..
and i realise that no matter how or wat u do to prepare to take it.. it still gonna hurt
and it really does hurt..
even thou it really hurts right now.. and probably still would for the next few days/months..
but she still trusts God..
One day, i will ask God why when i see Him..

i really very sian of only being able to sleep at 7am plus for the last few days lehs..
and huimints have a really really long day in sch on tues so she really need to get her body clock back to normal..
hurrrrrrrr...why

and if u dun see me online for a while
no, im not overseas or sick..
(:

Friday, June 19, 2009, 11:59 PM

There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive,
no past so bitter that love cannot accept,
and no love so little that we cannot start all over with

huimints today stomach very pain..
took four painkillers..
and i spent the whole afternoon in bed =(

funny, i didnt realise snowie was waiting below at my bedside..
it's like his eyes were asking 'what's wrong? why u still in bed?'
can sense his fear.. so cute sia..
and that alone made my day =D

and today....
When the eyes met, I knew we had a conversation that was never said.

2:14 AM

argh..huimints cant sleep?! it's gonna be four am?!
hurrrrrrrrrrrr
im feeling numb now i guess..
which is really really good (:

my head's is in a mess..
shall clear my head first..i can deal with my heart later
and now i think...today(thursday) is the most unproductive day ever..
hahas..

i wanna go star-gazing again..
would u just sit with me here and just forgot the world for a while?

Thursday, June 18, 2009, 2:24 PM

last nite in corps..more like playing Rockband, only with real instruments..but everyone was doing their own thing so not really a 'Band'..it's more like emoing yourself playing with just by yourself..huimints managed to jus close her eyes at 5:30 only to be called to go have breakfast the next few seconds..5:30 breakfast..zzz...

Sarah's busy with her painting and i really should go start on my school work no matter how i am feeling now or how hard is it to do so..yeah..really really need to..i'll try not to get lost in thots..
huimints wants her smile back for today
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009, 12:46 PM

SARAH is the reason for my smile!
ps:i didnt bring my lappy today =( anything jus sms..
once someone have a place in your heart..they will always be there no matter the distance..ahh..sweet
everything means nothing if i aint got u! hahas..
okay..short post..i know =D

Tuesday, June 16, 2009, 7:29 PM

Pictures of you, pictures of me...Remind us all of what we used to be

'Popiah Galore'
today spent the afternoon at fon's house..
sry didnt take any peek-tures of our creation thou =x
but we got to play RockBand! =DD

notice anything?

Princess sammy =D

tingyi screaming into mike..just like a true rocker =D

awesome!

Where's Sarah and Amirah? =(

and im already thinking abt our next meeting..hahahas..

u peeps will be missed in the meantime..and keagan plz take care overseas (:

tmr spending the night at corps..hais..at least got my lappy..

huimints have been thinking..for the past few days...

it's amazing how some ppl in her life are able to listen/know wat i DUN say..

it's like i dun need to say wat's wrong..

it's like they know that even thou im smiling, they can tell im actually breaking inside..that kind of thing..guess im bit 'transparent' hmm...

but it is when they know that's somthing's wrong but when i jus cant put it in words wat is it then it becomes so frustrating =(

Sunday, June 14, 2009, 12:17 AM

Just look into my eyes, Cause the heart never lies

okay..after cell, i tried this on my brother, Minghui...
huimin: *Cups hands* "This is the Earth, the Earth is heavy. Can you help me hold it?"
Ming: "Okay.." *Cups hand*
Huimin: *Passes 'Earth' to Ming* "Okay, now give Earth back to me."
Ming *Passes Earth back*
Huimin: "Okay, can u find Singapore?"
Ming, "Okay, here." *points*
Huimin, "Okay, can you take Singapore out?"
Ming, "Ok," *takes Sg out of Earth*
Huimin "Okay, Shake Singapore."
Ming, *shakes his hand(Singapore)*

ALL OF A SUDDEN,Huimin: Woahhhhh!?!?!??! *ACTS AS IF THERE'S A EARTHQUAKE*

hahahas.. his reactions was priceless!! it was 11.30pm and the bus-stop was deserted..hahas.. yeah..huimints shall try on her father next

anyway.. before that, while me and bro were walking to the bust-stop.. we always discuss abt cell during this time..
yeah..so u can say that huimin is the middle person
and it is pretty obvious everyone is not on the same pace..
i dun know the real prob..
it seems like on one end..
one was quick to point out that it doesnt matter whether there are more leaders than followers but it is more about the people.....
but did we ask victor why THAT mattered as a problem to him.. so for the rest of the meeting he was very mood out..which is very sad can..and this will probably cause ppl like him not to share anymore
than one the other hand.. the rest always feel like everything is the leaders' jobs so when things dun go the way they want, they get upset...but then again, there are so many things that the rest are uphappy about and that they jus dun want to say...and IF THIS GOES ON, no matter wat is carried out in cell, people will always be unhappy...

Please dun dwell on the above..u know very well, i dun aim anyone with this..i still think this whole thing is still everyone's responsibility..and it seems like both sides has their own frustrations and WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY IS..that even thou there will always be different views and ideas BUT WE still have to have the SAME foundation which is that this youth cell is built upon the fact that we love God and so we are called to love one another and we do all things for God, for His glory and we are called to do it as ONE united body of Christ...
it's not the best solution i know...need more time to know the whole situation..and huimin being a simple girl.. always try to look for simple answer which is so not for this case..

yeah.. after u read this, u will probable think huimin is in her 'Barney-let's love each other' mood..yeah =D and if she can, she would have make everyone hug each other..hahahahs...not that she has anyone in mind that she wants to hug...hahahas..

am i just babbling here again.. argh.. but i need answers.. hahas.. and i know who has them =DDD dun ask me y i bother.. because we both belong to it

my random thot for today is:
i guess the good thing bout being really really sad, is from there, you can only be happier (:
hmm..still so many things to do even thou now my hols juz started..
huimints is helping yurong with the new ministry.. i finished a book during the weekend..awesome..now i need to get more resources..need to go hunt, hunt, hunt.
anyways..looking forward to tues..
it's so tingyi to come up with a name for the meet-up XD
yay! something to look forward to =D

Thursday, June 11, 2009, 12:42 AM

ahh.. juz reached home from wedding dinner..
will delete this post and write a new one when my bro upload today's peek-tures!!!!
tmr is my last paper! after the test tmr, will have to rush stats project with frens then later rush down to meet Yurong..yes.. u can tell im slacking now when i should be studying..lalala..guess i wont be sleeping tonight..hahas..

PS: huimints looks DIFFERENT! u will know when u see me tmr or on fri.. hahahahahas...

i look at my msn window and sigh

Tuesday, June 9, 2009, 11:14 PM

today....
i ended school early at 5:20pm and i was suppose to meet my fren but my fren couldnt make it but i still decided to go Plaza Sing anyway..went to shop and walk around alone..
havent been there for a long long time..
somehow going back there alone feels different..
that place bring back nice memories, like last year me, bertrand and eileen went opp to slack at the water area there..cant rmb when or why we went there, only can rmb bertrand was sketching..while we two were just chilling out =D then there was me and jaselyn at precious moments hugging the teddy bears there..
somwhow, huimints is thanful for this 'alone time' .. seems to me i still have lots on my mind..need to clear thots..ahh.. i should do this again.. but the next time, hopefully i can go Punggol End..the very much deserted beach..there is this long stretch of wall there where everyone would leave a message there.. i cant rmb what i wrote when i when there during my Secondary sch days..i shall go back soon and search =D

hmm.. i've been thinking abt the phrase huimin being independent..i dunoe.. hahas..somehow there are still times huimin hates feeling so fragile and there are times well, she doesnt mind..but i will always be the girl who will always need a shoulder to cry on, hugs to make her feel better and God whom huimints knows she can find rest and comfort =D we all do, dont we? =D

remeber the phrase in my one of my post, "the way to love is to realise that it may be lost"..
i cant help but wonder if it is to late to say 'I Love You' to some ppl..okay, not really.. hmm.. but i shall not wait till it becomes a regret..and YOU! yes, YOU.. you know that u are loved and thanks for caring enough to read =)

Sunday, June 7, 2009, 5:32 PM

You are beautiful my sweet, sweet song

today in church, my bro helped me give out the envelop with the encouragements for the leaders by the whole youth group..then half-way he asked very loudly "Who is Xinghui?!?!" it took a while before he realise that it was 'Minghui' -_-" hahas.. my handwriting..lols..

ytd nite huimints didnt sleep well.. and she didn't realise how tired she felt until she reached her grandfather's house after church just now..hahas.. i guess last night she was juz reflecting on the last two weeks.. crazy times..yeah.. i read my blog the previous posts to ytd's one..so amazing..and it is not by huimint's might that got her thru but God's =) and songs really help.. u can tell huimints was so discouraged and sad and if she juz go straight into prayer, she'd probably start asking God a lot of 'why's..so a lot of songs helped in a way to made me see things in a diff way, calming me self down first before praying and asking how can i be used instead..like the song the medley by third day.. really really awesome =) somehow, hopefully the leaders can always look back at the encouragements the rest wrote, for hope when they face diff situations in the future =)

and ytd nite.. huimints was online and yu chang talked to her and shared abt his past..yeah nice.. yeah, love is abt sacrifice =) and this quote probably makes more sense " There is dignity in not giving up on someone you truly love.But there is more dignity in letting them go so they can experience better love " hmm.. yeah and huimints wants to do the same for duckie

hmm.. today on the way home.. we took bus 161 and i was wondering y this guy kept starting at me so i stared back and it really really took a while before she realised it was Zhongkai!! gosh.. it shows, how slows huimint's brain was working..hahahas...then half-way on the expressway, someone messaged me 'Hellos =) studying?' i took a while looking thru my phone book cos i dunoe who the person is.. then in the end, the person replied 'i am on the same bus as u' hahahas...ai ya, i thot some classmate msg me asking whether im studying for tmr's test mahs.. lols.. so in the end, the rest of the bus trip, u can imagine two silly ppl grinning at their handphone msging..while my family was sitting ard us, sleeping..hahas.. he reminded me that it has been 1 and a half years since we last saw each other..wahs.. it's kind of hard to believe so fast..

and i am also reminded abt the ppl i was suppose to meet up for the last two weeks but somwhow couldnt cos our timing clashed..and next week too cos she will be busy till friday afternoon..ahh.. and this wed, is her cousin's wedding.. do i really have to wear a dress?! hahas..
Fabian, we go suntec soon for our ice-cream treat k?? hahas!

and today, i opened up Sarah's 'open this when you're sad. very, very sad' note and huimints feels better =)
hahas.. my sis is hooked on the song 'Touch my hand' by David Archuleta

Saw you from the distance,
Saw you from the stage,
Something 'bout the look in your eyes,
Something 'bout your beautiful face,
In a sea of people, There was only you,
I never knew what this song was about,
But suddenly now I do

I'll never see you again

Saturday, June 6, 2009, 7:58 PM

okay i shall blog abt friday
(even thou none of her church frens knows abt this blog and u guys may not understand..hahas.. okay except jerrold)

huimints was is church at ard 5.40 and she's so glad ming ren came early too cos we were suppose to practice at 7:15..so we got to practice until 6.30pm and it was nice lahs..
then ming ren jammed on his electric guitar, trying all kinds of weird noises..hahas
while huimints concentrate on writing notes.. and she's thankful for that acroustic guitar there cos she got to play and it helped her to relaxed A LOT!
so u can imagine two people jamming in the big hall..

somehow im thankful then friday was manageble with a small group of 15 ppl..and singing in a circle was a very nice change..in a circle, it's feels less distanced from each other.. and cosy.. HAHA.. and huimints lead everything in just that circle(yes, ellen was so damn happy then we didnt have to spilt)

somehow it is very sad that some of the guys came in like ard 10pm juz to play soccer..yes, huimints was silly in a way to feel like that even thou it was probably expected but somehow cant help but wonder when did it became like that?

hais.. somehow i dun really know how to answer the question 'How was it'
ya we did completed the objectives(except the mass game)
but somehow, i jus feel like the discussion wasnt that deep la just ppl's views and it's hard when ppl's hearts are not there..but ai ya.. i duno la.. really really tried la..
but somehow someone was nice enough to msg at 11:40 to say like to him it was well done, considering the situation..haha.. probably jus to cheer me up but at least it made the long 45mins journey home much more nicer..

but anyway, she is thanful for ppl like how Wilson helped her in any way he could.. and huimints exprienced a lot of 'First's ytd.. hahas.. and she's thankful for meeting new friends during the last few weeks that juz came into her life that gave her renewed hope..hahas
and huimints is often reminded that only God can change ppl's hearts..

next week, three more papers.. then she can have a good rest and she will probably grab amirah to meet =D hmm.. and the fact that duckie can never know who duckie is will never change.. random thot..hahas..

To jess, some things happened that we cant understand.. and it's okie to be sad.. but it really broke my heart to see u cry.. but u know that im here if u need me =D *hugs*

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