I've moved (: ask me and I might tell you.

This blog's gonna be gone in prolly a month's time. Take care people (:

Virgo

VIRGO - The Perfectionist (Aug 23 - Sept 22)

Dominant In relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word.
Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager.
Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to.Hard to please. Harsh.
Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.

Oh my Oh my. Why does the above sound so familiar!

2 days to ZL coming back from S.Africa!
2 days to WJ passing out!
17 days till YY's back from Down Under!
A gazillion days till Jane's back(looks like we can't go out this hols ): )

sigh

Cause everything we've been through

And everything about you

Seems to be a lie

A guiltless twisted lie

It made me learn to hate you

Or hate myself for letting it pass by

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I should learn how not to be so trusting.

I miss.

Zhenli. Weijie. Brian. Haine. Joyce. Yao. Yin. JaneW. Vocip(Vietnam+Singapore) team. CK.

& all the people+things that I'll never get back.

This is Huimin.

You better lose yourself in the music, the moment

You own it, you better never let it go

You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow

This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo

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As of yesterday, I'm done with performing. It's quite sad, but it's life. Went out with most of sc10 and we caught Indianna Jones(to my objection initially). I fell asleep at the first part but I'd say the second part was exciting nEhxXxX (: so okay, I'm glad I watched it actually (: think it's the first time I caught a movie with sc10 (: went for dinner at the hkcafe and then we went shopping! I was so excited because we saw an orange Lambo outside Meritus Mandarin yay! Haha (:

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I'm going to try my best to put my thoughts into words and suitable for public discretion because Diana said something about since I want my blog to be public, I have to be careful of what I say. Recent events have led me thinking to how "practical" I have becomed. I don't like it because I'm afraid one day, all decisions would be based on how practical it is, and not be based on what I really want to do, what my heart tells me to do.

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I've been thinking about how people tend to judge others based on how they look, based on what others tell them. It's very convenient to add on to the gossip, to contribute your two cents worth to whatever that is being said. But have you ever thought about the credibility of what your friend have said? Every opinion that you have of the other party is based on what you heard, but how do you know that it is correct?

Have you bothered knowing the person for who he/she is? Have you bothered to look beyond his/her facial features and look at her heart/character? I should have been used to all these remarks about how unapproachable I look by now, because it has been the case since secondary school. But I'm still very much annoyed. It makes me wonder about how shallow you are, because you judge people based on how they look.

It has been almost a year and a half. That's why it's really quite sad that majority of you do not talk to me because apparently I'm unapproachable, apparently I'm fierce. Have you all bothered to look at how I carry myself, how I do things. After all, I'm in constant interaction with you for most of the week. Have you all bothered to talk to me, to know me before forming your opinion of me. If you have, then I have nothing to say.

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I think I'm going to face a lot of problems when I go out to work next time, because I'm quite a stick in the mud when issues concerning what I believe in arises. I don't know about you, but I won't trade my soul because everyone around me is doing so. I've always stuck to being myself for the simple reason of not wanting to be untrue to myself. But recent situations have made me realise that sometimes, you just have to be someone you're not.

I don't get it because I don't see the point of being nice to you when I don't like you. It makes me feel plastic. Yes it's being tactful and diplomatic and all that rubbish, but I feel very hypocritical. Naive me used to believe that everyone's nice and all that, but again, recent situations have taught me that some people don't mean it most of the time and I was just plain stupid to believe so.

Perhaps it's the way of life. But then again I question, if being able to survive on this Earth means having to trade in your soul and your integrity and who you are, then what for are you living? You're just going to be like one of the "cookie" from the cookie mould, ordinary like the others. What's the point of your one shot at life? Each of us are supposed to be living for a purpose, we are all supposed to have our own unique personality and character. Whatever happened to all of it?

I've reached a conclusion somewhat I suppose. Regarding the people I have issues with, I'm not going to talk to you unless you do, for the simple reason of not wanting to feel fake. I have this certain belief in life that I have to be who I am. Maybe that part of me annoys some people, especially those of the opposite gender, because I strongly believe in doing what's right and I know how I think won't agree with many people, especially those of the opposite gender.

I'm not your typical bimbotic feminine brainless girl and I'm proud of who I am. Maybe that's why I come off as being harsh and fierce. But I think ultimately, you don't have anyone to answer to, except yourself. I do not follow the crowd and I have a reason for the way I am now, for the way I do things. So, please do not assume. I'm glad for people like Aud and Mich because it's heartwarming to know that they, like me, will always stick to being themselves. I'm proud of you girls (:

If you can live your life being ordinary just because you don't want to step on anyone's toes, then by all means. It's your life anyway. But it's not the case for me. I'd say the situations that I've been in has taught me a lot. I'm going to stick to being myself as much as possible simply because it's only very Huimin-ish to do so. And I know that those people who know me for who I am would be proud of that. And also because I think that one would garner more respect this way.

And next time before you say or contribute into gossip, I hope you'd think through about whether it's credible and whether you are just doing so because you want to follow the norm. And it'd just be very sad if you take people for what they say, and not try to know the other party more. I should think from this, you can tell who your friends are. Because friends trust you and they are different from the likes of people like you, they won't jump into conclusions. They will not take things as what you said but instead question the credibility.

Because Slut, please get your facts right.

But whatever, thou shalt not let thee affect me.

Like it or not, this is who I am.

Harp

So, I've decided to continue blogging here till perhaps I find the perfect template for my other site. And I feel as though through what I write, I can somewhat change the mindset and opinions of people?



AC Harp Ensemble performed at Esplanade Concourse(yes I know it's just the concourse) on Monday. As much as I would not want to admit it, I did enjoy myself. I somehow felt closer to this bunch of people after a year, I somehow felt like I wanted to know them more, I wanted to know them for who they are. But yeah, time's running out, in fact, I don't think I can do anything anymore.



Next Friday would be our last concert. I think I'd be quite sad to let everything go, although I thought I didn't really like being in Harp. But I guess few would understand the kind of feeling that we get, when we perform together. It always felt different with Harp as compared to Eorch and now I finally understood why.



Because I actually wanted to play well for Harp, I wanted to perform with the Ensemble, I enjoyed myself. That was what was lacking all this time.



Part of me regrets not making the effort to communicate with the people outside my 4peoplegroup. But yeah, it's too late. What I can do is to ensure that the last performance for this group of people is a blast and that I enjoy every single minute of it. (:



You juniors are a interesting bunch of people, but it's just too bad that we started talking too late. Without CCA practises, I'd hardly see most of you around, though part of me really wants t know all of you better.



Watching the CO concert today made me think of how many many people (including me) would not really appreciate the kind of music that they were playing. But from the sight of the orchestra, I could tell that everyone was enjoying themselves, I could tell that everyone wanted to put in their two cents worth to make the entire concert a success. There is no need for the audience to enjoy themselves in my opinion, that would be an extra bonus. What is most important is that the people performing enjoyed themselves (:



I know many of you people would not understand unless you're part of the team, but performing together is really a wonderful experience and there's this inexplicable pride and joy in you that you'd want to share with everybody.



It's just too bad that my last performance of the year and perhaps my life, would be next Friday.



Believe me or not, I'll miss Harp Ensemble and maybe the insane practices we have sometimes.



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Today is the birthday of someone who used to be very very special. Although we had our downs more than we had our ups, I think you were still the best I ever had. Our lives may not cross at all in the future, but thank you, because if not for you, I wldn't be who I am today, I wldn't have learnt so many things and most importantly, I wldn't have learnt how to treasure the people around me, especially the ones who mean the most - my family.



I know you won't read this, but THANK YOU for everything. I've never told you this before, but thank you, really.



Today, I learnt something new and it's also because of you.



Why is it that humans tend to remember the bad but not the good? You're right, life's too short to remember the bad. I shall try to focus on the good of people from now on and I think life would be a lot more easier too (:



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I'm feeling a lot more light-hearted nowadays because I'm choosing not to bother about the things that just ain't worth bothering. I have to learn that some things are just part of life and that sometimes, at some instances, you just have to be someone you're not.



Thankyou Sam.

The importance of things can be measured by how much time we are willing to invest in them.

The more time you give to something,

the more you reveal its importance and value to you.

If you want to know a person's priorities,

just look at how they use their time.

Time is your most precious gift becaue you only have a set amount of it.

You can make more money but not make more time.

When you give someone your time,

you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back.

Your time is your life.

That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time.

The above is grabbed from Iris's blog, which I have found to be very true and meaningful. (:

Thank God for the sprained ankle, because it has allowed me to see for myself how heartless people can get. My "unfeeling" friends would never do that to me. Never. The use of this word here can just prove how much faith I have in them. So, thankyou guys for opening up my eyes.

Weijie's back in Tekong after his first weekend out. Back to a msg a day ): can't wait for labour day, maybe I can see him and his bald head :D Roars, I miss having him around. He's one of the two, other than my family that I'd trust my life with.

Four day work week. Surely I can survive this. Well, circumstances force me to. Not that I have any choice.