失眠。

我也不知道为什么只有在失眠的时候才想起部落格。
或许是想对自己聊聊天才会回来这里。
本以为在新的一个月里会是新生活，新环境，新挑战，
怎知那么快就被一些不愉快的事情打倒了。
那一天是我第一次觉得时间怎么会过得那么慢的一天吧。
从中午到深夜，看着你努力的在和病魔对抗。
我们都以为会没事的...会熬过的...
最终还是不行吧，你很辛苦吧？也很累了吧？
所以才选择离开了吧？
我知道我们的心痛也比不上你病发时的疼痛...
所以我一直叫您放心的走，不用担心我们，我们会好好照顾自己。
真的很抱歉，答应了不哭，却个个都办不到，因为我们真的很舍不得啊！
不知道现在的你在另外一个世界过得怎样？身前你每次都帮助有需要的人，坚强又开朗的性格，现在一定是在天堂保佑着我们吧...
其实还有很多很多话想跟你说，可是在灵堂都只顾着望你，呵呵！
我真的很想很想你，还是很不习惯，回到哪儿没再看到你...坐在客厅，房间，饭厅...


大家都在期待你会报梦给我们噢...
答应你，我会努力工作，努力读书，你说过的话都会记在心里！
请您安息了。
=']

Hello?

Wow. I can't believe that it's already been over 6 months since my last post? And i nearly couldn't remember my password to log in for my blog. What a poor neglected blog. sorreeeeee. :( hahas.
There was a lot of happening in the past few months, and i don't think i can find the right words to write all about it. Well, the reason for me to come back here is because of having insomnia tonight? Recall some old memories, i had been so playful, unintelligent, childish, selfish after the broken relationship with him. I met a lot of different people in my life, i made many new friends, they bring me out very often, and some of them taught me a lot of stuff, they make me smile at times. I appreciated. These past have really changed me, i had growing up and get to know myself much better.


Sometimes, it is very hard to express the feeling into words...I am so sorry for being rude to you. We've have been knowing each other for many years and we've had so many memories along the way. I guess I don't hate you now and i don't think i will...
And i am truly sorry to you as well, i don't understand how much i was hurting you, yet still a thankyou to you for being there when i needed help the most...

I know because of my indecision, i hurted people that cares about me. I knew my failures and i promised myself that i would never do all these again.
Forgive me for all my sins....


Stop here.
End.

I have ruined up my life.

I felt so fucking numb to all these thing. I messed up my life. Is it i'm destined to live in agony and mental torture life? Seriously, i am SO exhausted. Every time feels like a struggle to get through all these feeling... I thought i can handle it very well, but at the end i lost myself...


And YOU, you made a BIG mistake and you can't fix what you break because you had ruined our life ! I know people make mistakes and  learn from mistakes in order not to making the same thing but why you are repeating them !
YOU JERK ! YOU SUCH A FUCKING JERK !




I'm very sick of it.
What should i do to make myself  better? 
Please tell me how to make it? I have no idea how to fix it right. Perhaps the best way is to make an honest attempt at solving the problems. 
Keep telling myself that i should accepting the changes that come with it...


I crave for PEACE.again.
and again.




p/s: friends, i deleted my facebook account. i know is a bit crazy.
but i will create a new one soon. 
Stay tough my girl. =]

即使是知错反悔了也好，这道疤我永远都不想再被看见。

大家各自活在各自的生活里

坦然地...

或是伪装着很幸福都好...

别再搞杂了...也不想再回到从前了。

所以请你原谅我的不原谅...

因为这样我才会一直静静地...
默默地祝福你。
和你。

情人节快乐

冬至到了~

这是我们的第二次聚在一起搓汤圆，

也是我们的第二次没有回家过冬至了。

听说，过冬大过年，人们都会回家和家人吃团圆饭。

我们这些离家出城读书的孩子，怎么可能会抽到时间回家呢。

但是，我们也没有错过这冬至习俗，那就是准备汤圆啦~

昨晚Jestin call来去他家帮忙。

我们准备了芒果，milo,白咖啡，还有Pandan口味的汤圆。

听起来很特别吧？都是乱来的。

哈哈哈哈哈~

开工咯~

兴俊负责的芒果汤圆

好像大便色的白咖啡汤圆 =.=

完成咯！

ShengHuang负责煮糖水

似模似样吧？

还没等到煮熟它们我就回家准备出去吃晚餐了~

今天也终于吃了一小碗的汤圆，

祈盼着团圆也祈盼着来年更美好的生活。

在此祝大家万事好意头，冬至快乐=)

Testing 1,2,3

Helloo people!

I have changed my link so sudden :)

sorry for troubling you all to relink me.

Okay.

I just hope i can keep my blog active 

HEHEHE.

have a great night!

till then,

stay tuned.

为什么心情还是不能够好起来

那颗心是到了极限

还是我根本是在伪装自己

不想谈 也不想理

或许再过多几天又会恢复正常

不开心的就尽量忘了吧。

是时候滚去读书了。

明天又考试了=(