Perfection.

In our quest to be perfect, we suffer. As we move towards perfection, the finishing line keeps moving away from us and we can never reach our destination. This is something I finally realized and came to terms recently. 

I should never aim for perfection, and postpone my happiness to later, or I will never be truly happy.

Be happy in the moment.

Vulnerability

"To share your weakness is to make yourself vulnerable; to make yourself vulnerable is to show your strength."

I guess, the strongest person is not afraid to be vulnerable in front of others... I am still weak, I guess...

A Happy Wife

"A happy worker is a happy wife." - the good doctor.
He said it's never the other way round. He is willing to cut down my workload, pay for my Masters and let me work from home.

Ah well, I was holding back tears when the good doctor talked to me last week :(((( . I was so afraid of scaring him so I held back the tears. It was so hard. :(
Should I stay or leave the workplace? 

I said, I don't want to live this life this way. I have the ability to change things. I have the ability to change my situation. I am not sure if I will regret leaving this job, but I know, for this moment, everything else is more important than work, and I know if I don't try to change things, they stay the same forever, and I will work like hell for the next 30 years.

I don't want to be buried in work nor do well at work while everything else fails. I don't want to be a failed daughter, a failed friend and a failed wife.

I can literally picture myself in 30 years' time. Divorced, no kids, all alone, and parents still worrying for me. 

I have a week to think: Should I still continue to have faith in boss and pray that he doesn't give me tons of work? ;(

Overoptimism

Some people choose to see the ugliness of this world... I choose to see the beauty.
Some people say... Overoptimism will kill me. Haha. I choose, now, to be a realist, not just an optimist.

"A permissist complains about the wind;
An optimist expects it to change;
A realist adjusts his sails."

Sometimes I admit that being optimistic isn't going to change things... To make my own life history is really up to me. If I have tried over and over again, and every month for the past 3 years, I told myself, "Yes, next month it will be better... Next month..." And it never did.

It's tiring... I decided that I am the decider of my own life. It's time to move on. Find something that treats you more humanely... that you have time for your husband and family.. It's sad that you miss your husband even though he's in the same house as you.

Appreciate the people who have saved your lives.

This story was cited in our meeting last week: 

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/darren-hardy/whos-packing-your-parachu_b_6038568.html

Be appreciative to the people who work behind the scenes!

Compassion hurts.

Self-Compassion

It's all too easy to go all hard on yourself, but please don't be. Learn to be imperfectly prefect.

The art of self-compassion:

http://ed.ted.com/featured/pDulIc5E