Godfrey Howe

I have so much to say to you and I can't stop crying. I miss you so much...
There is so much pain in me....

Been awhile ..

It's a good thing that my passwords are pretty much generalized. Else, I wouldn't been blogging right now. So much have happened this year and already, the year is slowly edging to a closure.

I'm not ready to let go yet. Not sure if being stubborn is a good thing but I honestly hope it will turn out well. After all, one can only hope.

PS: I will see you soon.

Alas

It's hard to walk together when we don't have a common goal.
I've tried so hard - sometimes in ways not easily defined by actions or words.
What more should I do to prove that I'm worthy of your effort and time?

It never was and it never will be easy being me.

After 3+ months

Lazy is my excuse for not updating..

Been working my butt off in the past couple of months and honestly did learnt quite a bit from the tasks that I've juggled so far (despite me lamenting from time to time that it's mundane and that I want to be steered toward the direction that I thought me would be good at but apparently not so).

One thing great about this year so far, I've been spending tons of time with my parents and Meiji though I've been rather distant from some friends.. & work is taking a toll on me. Really miss my time in Perth, wish I was back there studying :(

Hmm,

My dad was just sharing something with me whilst we walked home from dinner. This church friend of his is facing a dilemma whereby his wife who'd just passed away, willed her house to him, an unmarried son and two other married children. No idea why the uncle didn't have his name placed under the house ownership but right now, the two other married kids want to sell the house hence he and the unmarried son will be homeless. And this is all because we can't own 2 HDBs in Singapore. I don't know how true this is but that's what my dad said. 

Prior to my starting on this temp job, I was still living in this tiny bubble. Not knowing about so many things (i.e) that singles cannot purchase a flat until he/she is 35 years old. & the only way to buy one before this age, is to get engaged or something and co-own. Makes me feel restricted to live in Singapore. Because my family members and I have our own differences, I want to move out as soon as I can. Don't get me mistaken, I love my family but I have this mild (maybe) OCD whereby hardly anybody can understand where I'm coming from. So having my own place pretty much solves this problem and other unnamed factors. 

Planning is something I'm good at but right now, I don't know where to start from. Prolly, getting a stable job? Life just can't get any simpler here in Singapore - exorbitant living in so many ways. No wonder my brother wants to migrate. Since I've chosen to stay in Singapore, this is something I must deal with so instead of worrying, I gotta make an effort to climb higher.