extremely grateful to my tungling friends,
They make me feel very good.
I like them.
been a while since I've blogged.
My thoughts always revolve around army.
And I want to be through with it. I figure all the things I learnt in army isn't enough for me to want to go through it.
I have lost some of the happiness and simple understanding of things that I will never get back.
I have changed.
And I don't like it.
But change is necessary,
but i don't care.
I wanna let loose a bit.
I realise no matter how much friends I have in the army, or the knowledge I've gained, I don't really like the army. Sure I have to defend my land, but many of the inner workings don't work out.
I look forward to weekends so bad, and when it comes I dread going in.
I'll be honest, I absolutely dread going in. Its a terrible feeling when I know that I'm not my own man.
Still I suppose I'm selfish, there is that patriotism thing that sticks, but I'm just plain ol sick of it.
Still, its a few more weeks.
Tough weeks.