Dearie me, bless my soul.
I haven't blogged about the end of school have I?

I just saw Faiz post and it was very nice so I won't do credits to people today, you read his one.
After the glamour dies off, then tell me then I write one.

The celebration of learning was very good and well thought out with a very decent MC to boot which i usually rip into.

In that part credits to Faiz (Cos i know he helped) and whoever else that serves credit.

The movie Marley and Me was nice and I want to buy a dog now which is as big as the one in the film but not so as energetic.

Haha, I feel odd.

Anyway im yes gonna pack my table today. And I mean today , i tend to Procrestinate, or wait damn long then do so Please in that aspect forgive me.

I really miss blogging, I really do, I love reading blogs and yeah.

Pardon the sloppy dressing on this post.

I caught the Fulham match.

Which means manutd vs fulham.
I hardly watch the rest.

Scholesy was freakin awesome.
Think even trying not to, everybody's focusing on VDS's record, even he.
Just get a clean sheet against blackburn tonight and it'll be second in the european records?
Pretty good, to say in the future I experienced the record going.
The other one I'll be proud to say is that famous European night Manutd 7 (boy I had to stretch far on the keyboard for that) Roma 1.
Awesome night and of course the Manutd trimph in Russia.
Not quite as exciting but bloody awesome.

Hoo boy, pity not much people share my love for manutd.
Some do on soccer/football, but they usually support loser teams ha..

Watching football makes me feel good.
Tonights at 1am again,
Worst Time Ever

MA's over. And Law's next, think I've got quite a lot in my head.
Its not just the facts, its how to answer the question. (Sound like sec sch humans)

Hope I'll do well.

Think I'll go stay over ahma's tomorrow.
Wonder how long it takes to go to TP from there.

Drumming tomorrow and hopefully more in the future in Tuesday's service.

I also have my Basic Theory coming up.

I got plans, now lets keep to it.

Hoo yeah

Too many people have sneaky stat counters. or whatever that track people visiting

I'd better be more careful.

Manutd 4 Derby County 1

Nani, Gibson, Ronaldo, Welbeck

Like this Welbeck kid, languid and Henry-esqe at times.

Still fawning over Giggs, Scholesy, Carrick, Berba and Vidic.

Ronaldo's getting whiny and bad

Guess what?

I am one of them.
I am one who ridicules those who try to understand.
and write about it, in a attempt to understand it.

Then I do the same, I write. The norm is to ridicule it.
And I do it to conform you see, its no harm to me, its not hard and it benefits.

That little bit to be cunning, that little intelligence to gain the upper hand in conversations and dealings. That is the norm, that is the given, that people desire, that people look out for.
I wrote about values today on BTJ's whim. and I wrote a lot.
Isn't that accepted? That help wont be given; only if it affects you directly.
Is that right? Compromise I sure have come across.

Still, I guess that analysing these aspects of life, which I conveniently place under the term sociology (even if I dont know what it is) ((even if I studied Socio))
isn't really worth anything, in this little circle of worlds, it is needed and accepted.
That gauging and sizing up has been so much, I should know, I do a lot of it.

The cocking of head, that extra blink, the smile, the face up of palm, the shifting of feet, the gait, the standing position, the response, the communication.
Pity, pity indeed. All adjusted to the "we all are different' mantra but still essentially defined for us.

Which isn't a problem so to speak, if you're happy then we're mostly happy.
It's arbitary at worst. Is it a problem? Do people suffer because of it? No, because they don't, or they don't show it.

Then the differences come in and everybody starts thinking which essentially also makes them actualize some part of themselves. "I think therefore I am".
Then the responses which are different which should be known as "I do therefore I respond"
the actions follow the thought, the train and the manner of movement of thought to word. Some the fast, some the slow, some the long some the written, then all have some element of different.

Some people ridicule. Some people like, some people copy.

Why?

Is it going to be like that forever? Where people move in unison and continue killing and murdering (figuratively and literally). Therefore, if it is true, this utter disdain will always go in unison.
And unison will lead to unison legal, and soon the world WILL be united. And, soon, you cannot buy or sell, you cannot eat or drink, unless the world knows it.

If not they are not safe. They think they are not safe, if there is trouble. You'll have to be punished, because it is a deterrent. It is, it works and everything falls into place. Everything is there for you. It deters you, you are part of a unison, you are a part in a big union.
You feel good sometimes, we all have our own brains, very interesting, sometimes you feel sad. But mostly, you have reasonable freedom, food in your bellies and drink in your stomach.

Then, deterrance will spead. It is important, order is paramount, order is above logic. Logic is simply words, logic is for the smart and wealthy. The logic part will not be decided by you, it is decided for you.
Logic will be overridden. Not much, here and there, values fall apart. Again not much, here and there.
Soon it will be alright to this and to do that. Little by little it is fine.
Little by Little it becomes daily and normal. Daily, it becomes routine.
No harm! Of course, by logic there is no harm. But logic is relative as the intelligent people will say.
Logic is there, they understand logic.
Everything is fine, everything is fine, everything is fine.

Expressions are getting dangerous, expressions makes things un-fine.
Maybe if we take away the word "Bad" people cannot express when they're feeling bad (1984 credits), then they would only be "un-fine"

Tsk.
Still, the future is something quite contentious isn't it.
But mark my words.

Logic and reason will change. Logic has changed before and will change again.
Reason will change, the conscience can be trained.
People just find ways around your mind, your little mass of nerves and the other stuff.
No problem.

It is fine, It is fine, It is fine.


Wait,
I digress.
I was talking about behaviour.
Behaviour interest me, where intonations of voice and "split-second" determined speech.
Simple?
Maybe, but sometimes I think it is meaningless.
Change.

Mark me.

Theres something bothering me and I quite cant put my finger on it.

I met a dreamer today, rare to say the least. The perspective different, the words varied.
It was nice.
It was unlike the professionalism, the "have to do it becos have to do it"
It ain't so much of the system, its more of the ignominy of me.

Enter the music scene, tap the music knowledge and score in a comfortable environment.
Having a new term to an old person.

The lukewarmity of it all, just warm, warm and disgusting. Like water, warm water, not ice cold, or sipping hot.

Still, I rationalize and the life doesnt seem so bad.
The reasons that plungenate that world I reside in permeates.

Pity, to say the least.
Pity.

it might be the nights in school
it might be the work I face
but my mind's clear, my mind's relishing whats to come.
My mind to spread goodwill, and to love someone.

To love, no matter the uncertainty.
To be clear and to visualize my goal.

Cheers,
I m gonna miss TP.

I WILL not let some stinking girl better me in keyboard

Diminishes augs and what nots here i come

*not u pat. :)

well, I jus realised the utter complexity of my posts .

well there is no utter complexity.

Perhaps I should write about my life-changing trip to Cebu.

Well nobody seems much interested, including myself. So i put it off.
I think I have a great clique of friends though

So I got an A for both MA tests.
Big deal.

Im so utterly discouraged right now.

Things are not going my way.
I've worked hard.

I need to get in a local uni.

Things are just not going so well...
Esp things that I care about, and things that affect me in the long-run.

I'd suppose this is life but sod off

" hi Reuben, are you busy?"

"well, I've five minutes to a test but go on..."

"Well, just want to say that I've marked your report and it was very well done, I thoroughly enjoyed reading it. It was very good work, Very well done"

"oh, ok thanks :)"

"Also, the other component, the presentation was very good, the video was a bit long, but overall excellent presentation, you're very confident and all the teachers liked your presentation. You basically did excellent for both components"

"oh, haha, thanks"

"but I'm sorry to say that I can't moderate your appraisal to get you a Pass with Commendation. They're quite strict and you only got a 39, I can't go all the way up to a 48 for you"

"oh? 39? I was pretty sure it was 43."

"It was 39, I hope you understand, I cannot raise it all the way up"

"ok"

"ok thanks, Reuben, very well done for the report though, and the e-journals you sent were a pleasure to read and that final reflection was a very good wrap up as well"

"ok"

"thanks! good luck for your test! Hope you aren't too disappointed but you did very well for the other parts"

"Ok Thanks Ms, Bye"




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