It is traditionally the time of Hannukah, Boxing Day and December where my posts dry up.
It's now 5 am though.
It gives me time , ample. To Gather my thoughts.
which I treasure, so.
Holidays, today marks the end of which.
It has been reasonable.
I haven't seen much of my friends, namely Val, Cal, Evon, Faa a lot.
It's ok. I'm being clearheaded here.
Yes, I do miss them, occasionally.
I'm still meeting HongWei and Sherman, and that's awesome.
Gawd! It's quiet at 5 am.
Christmas was all about music.
Again I thank God for allowing me to play music.
The highlight Of it was most definately the Christmas @ Odean Katong.
Drums for Grace's band.
Unnervingly Exciting.
Then there was the Service on the Eve.
It sounds so cool that to say me ZJ and Clem rattled off in impromptu jazz, bossanova and others. But we did. And It was the best.
Best sounds so....
But I'll leave my Family Instincts behind.
Then the Filipinos came.
There are two stayin at my house now.
Nice people.
Friendly.
Don't know their names but I like em.
Judalin, James and Rehma are here. Always a pleasure.
Got to know the Impact Band.
They're an awesome group from the Philipines. And to say I know them personally is somewhat of an honour.
Oh, And I stopped tuition for the holidays cuz I a bit lazy.
And Money doesn't appeal to me.
To hear that Christmas is a drag for some people is unsettling.
the "true meaning of Christmas" is indeed a true life cliche.
Commercialized, a perception gotten by many already.
Parties are not for me. While I'm forced to concede that, I'm currently displayed as an amatuer blogger of little sense.
It's true though. Clearheadedness is the theme here.
Drinking binges and lewd or stupid acts are well, plain stupid.
I've come to enjoy the simple quietness of stuff.
I enjoy rain, I enjoy flowers and fish. I probably have a life most people would die to have.
But they probably won't admit it.
Sure there are projects to do.
but it all seems so doable.
It's all to God, I see things in a different light.
Dear Lord, I thank You for this time.
I thank You for My time.
Make me sorry of the sins I've committed. Amen.
I can see things more clearly than before and I am grateful.
In addition to all that boring stuff. ( Sounds Contradictory in my head)
I wanna talk about Music.
I have been playing the keyboard for almost 4 years.
I love it. I play it in church every week.
The fear of it growing stagnant is there. Worship is something not taken lightly.
To the average person Worship is a word of awe. You don't say you worship a singer for example.
To a Christian worship can mean - ho hum.
My proficency of the keyboard is reasonable.
I realised , while not boasting, I am the better FEW , I reiterate better in church.
Yet my confidence frequently low, I rattle out safe zones In keys of G and C . And partly due to laziness.
Yet my contention point here is that I wish that I could learn more dynamics, on how praise and worship works. I did. From the Filipinos.
I learn a lot when I sit and stare. Ha!
Diminished, Add9's, Augmented. I've yet to master that. Soon.
Jazz - 1 measely scale.
Bossanova - 1 measely progression.
I am proud of something though.
The ability of impromptu playing.
It's enjoyable.
Drums.
I have looked at people playing the drums before as the keyboard, longingly.
I can play now.
But there's so much to learn.
My left leg's like a lifeless log.
My right occasionally spins out of control.
Coordination CAN be better.
Beats seem so boring.
Paradiddles , half paradiddles.
Need to master them all.
Drums are a joy.
I love drums.
I am proud That I can play the drums.
Guitar
My guitar skills are improving rapidly.
Thanks to me who keeps playing in church.
Practicing , I found it. Helps!
I like guitar.
It's handy and easy.
Many people can play guitar.
I don't like that.
But I like me.
Ha.
I don't know if music would be a solid part of my life.
There's always someone better than me.
Thinking about music leads me to an insighful conversation I had.
It made me realise my inadequacy as a Christian.
My heart feels like an insatiable sponge.
I want to soak up whatever knowledge that comes.
I want to be wise and learned.
I wanna rattle tabernacle theology.
It is so vital to be wise.
Then I can teach.
I realised something, I am happy.
I wish others to be happy.
No wonder I occasionally want them to conform to me.
It's impossible I know.
But
the
Phrase
"i know"
Is insignificant. We all know stuff.
We all can intepret, perceive and judge.
I would probably put "but its blahblahblah thats important"
No.
Well, in a more solitary emotion.
It's sickening.
We should all accept advice.
Learning has helped me a lot.
Someone teach me!
Cheers.