I call it the January blues.
This mixture of emotions is killing me.
Everybody seeks that perfect response, a response also quite unattainable.
Should I act remorseful?
Or maybe a sprinkling of humour?
Put on ignorant front?
Act bloody defiant?
A combination of all?
This all " let's-all-be-angry-at-reuben" phase is coming too fast and furious for me.
I apologise.
here, read again.
I apologise.
But how should I do it? Apologise that is.
How about putting a simple apology facade? Adding in relavant points that will appeal to the heart?
Or maybe.
A apology with a simple/complicated excuse.
Or most likely.
Just a simple sorry, with no facades or excuses.
It might work, cuz facades and excuses are risky.
Frankly, it's not mine turn to explode now.
So I can't..
Well, let everybody else explode now.
I've been very patient. A little more won't hurt.
However, one question lingers like a sour taste in my gut.
Why?
Why do they get angry?
THEY.
Judging from comments, and writings, and outside sources, here's a list why.
- They feel pain, hence uncomfortability, hence setting them on the brink of exploda-ville.
- Bad moods. They just got lambasted/scolded somewhere and jokes are not a good way of curing them.
- Fed-up. They're fed up of me as a friend and want to get rid of me, hoping I'll take the hint. Why else so many of them have found seemingly innocuous/minor reasons for anger.
- Fun. They all know my worst fear of angering friends and are playing a nice little sick cruel game to toy with me and see the various foolish attempts to make up. " eh he sorry le! I not angry la. But just play with him la, he scared one what. HAHAHA. Shd record sia! Funny le.
- Tiredness. Dizzy and lightheaded. Yet with still a surmounting task ahead, headaches occur and my laughter of them ain't no panadol.
- A collection of (1) and (2). Somewhere, something in their bodies is hurting and at the same time somebody's scolding them for something they did not do. AND THEN, stupid me comes along at the wrong time.
- A collage of (1), (2) and (5). I.e. My back hurts like hell, my feet feel like a steamroller went over them, my mum's scolding me for coming back late at 10. My sibling's pissing me off gamboling all over the place. I want to relax and lie down. I can't. I'm tired. Oh look! Here's Reuben... .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. . .. . . .. .. . . . .. .. . .. . . .. . ... . .. . . . . . .. . . .. . . . .. . . . . . . . . WHAT!
- A joint partership of (3) and (4). Reuben is no longer wanted. " eh, he scared people angry right?" OK , I take first slot ar. Then You and you and you and you and you and you and you. ---- ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Eh! he sorry le. Heck care him la .. Come play w him. His feelings? Whu the hell gives a damn?
NO REFERRAL IS MADE TO ANYBODY.
Or so I think. Would'nt do to have more people angry with me over my apology letter.
But my writings are mostly based on personal experience. So yea.
I have nothing against anybody.
I love all my friends!
Ah wells.
I hope nothing will go wrong.
But here, to everybody and anybody who I have ever offended, be it now, yesterday, tomorrow >10 years later, <10 years ago.
I am sincerely, earnestly, genuinely, really, truthfully, deeply, wholeheartedly, from the bottom of my very heart/soul and what not am.
SORRY
Sorry
sOrry
soRry
sorRy
sorrY
sorRy
soRry
sOrry
Sorry
Do forgive me.
And I feel better. Maybe february will get better. It's coming SOON!
Cheers!
It's been so long.
I haven't got a lot of time lately.
Or its mainly cuz I'm lazy.
I have a lot to write, but its difficult to put it into words.
Anyway, first off.
I seem to be pissing off my friends a lot lately.
I do apologise for that, for whatever i inadvertedly done or said, or what I basically ignored.
Rest assured that my best would be put in to it not happening again.
Second in, to make this post nice and decent and long and nice and decent and long.
Here's something that's uniquely mine, yet so not mine.
Johor, KL, Malacca, Kuantan, Langkawi, Penang, Genting, Port Dickson, Bangkok, Manila, Cebu, Shanghai, Hangzhou, Suzhou, Nanjing, Beijing, Chengde, Perth, Brisbane, GoldCoast, Auckland Coolangatta, Christchurch, Dunedin, TeAnau, Queenstown, Greymouth, Jakarta, Surubaya, Semerang, Batam, Bali, Bandung, Zurich, Interlarken, Geneva, Jurnfrunchz, Bern, Frankfurt, Rhinefall, London, Newcastle, Yorkshire, Glasgow, Cardiff, Liverpool, Earl's Court, Shinjiku, Tokyo, Yokohama.
Just for fun.
Any way. I wonder how this word came about.
Anyway.
Anyway?
Anyway!
Does'nt really make English sense.
Any - way.
Ok. Reportiore of nonsense extending.
Thirdly, SCHOOL.
Oh, I like school.
Oh, I like school.
Oh, I like to be by the seaside.
As the famous saying goes.
Hahaha.
My results firstly, or 3.1.
Marketing, Business Accounting 2 and Business Statistics - A.
MicroEconomics - B
Principle of Management - C.
Nothing intended here. Simply a memior.
Enter 3.2 on a platter with a red dead delicious lobster.
Lol.
School is going so fast. Days pass like. School, Then the feeling that I need to study. Then Home. Then Housework, Then Manu match. weeks pass fast.
3.3 thus canters in on 3 broken legs and a glass eye.
-Grin-
Tests, Exams, Gauges, Timetravel. In order of importance.
I have 3 tests coming up. Lovely lovely tests.
I need to study.
3.4 is stuck in the doorway by his ego.
Friends.
This is rarely done.
Very rarely. For someone of Hajduk meanings.
I'm gonna name em. The friends I hang out most with.
In no particular order.
Calvin, Valencia, Gerald, Xuewen, Kenny.
Here. in the open.
Where 3-d rabbits run.
Let me describe them, Cuz we all love to read about ourselves.
A portfolio of me.
Calvin - Liverpool fan. Fear of horizontal Growth.
Valencia - Girl. Fear of similar stature. Man Utd fan.
Gerald - Cold. Like of Genpai Tea. Man Utd fan.
Xuewen - Walks. Like of teasing people of silver spoons. Man Utd fan.
Kenny - Cap. Fear of short showers. Man Utd fan.
There. Nice and stipulated.
Lastly.
The very last thing.
Where Due course meets NOW.
I Have a last resolution for 2007.
A very important, long due-date one.
I will now thus answer most questions posted to me.
However, this last resolution is basically sacre bleu.
Cause I condemn gratefulness.
Subway awaits.
Cheers.
It's been a while.
Up to post 90.
I just returned from the Philipines, hence the delay.
It was certainly a far cry from JAP, ENG,SWI and so on.
It was enjoyable though.
1st day, fly.
Singapore-Manila-Cebu.
Clem was sick.
Stupid buggers at CEBU PACIFIC almost didn't let us on board.
Eh, well.
2nd day, Nic sick. ( Good Graciousness)
3rd day, erm..
Forgot really.
Pastor Cleto brought us around, together with Sister Dolores, Given and Precious.
What cool names.
Anyway, Pastor Cleto is like in charge of the churches in the Visayas region. So thats about 40 to 50 churches.
He's damn funny, very cheerful guy. A pleasure being with him.
Well, basically my holiday turned into a mission trip.
Dad, who somehow became a Reverand was asked to preach at the youth camp there, they had this banner. Big huge thing - "Welcome Reverand Victor Ho and Family"
Haha..
Den Mum was asked to preach at the children ministry.
Pastor's calling.
Whew.
Den dad preached again on Sunday.
I became songleader that day while clem played keyboard.
Veryvery eventful.
Bloody damn!
Ah wells, it the trip was not bad.
just a bit unexpected.
The only HOLIDAY highlight was that I got to Jet-ski.
And it was so cool.
I hour alone, can go anywhere, no boundaries.
Woo!
My ramblings end.
Cheers.