两年〇七个月。。。
加油加油再加油

即使同事不友善、不真诚、不明白，
我也不愿不亲切、不纯真、不谅解

向往自由无拘束的心灵，会否也在庸碌匆忙的日子里渐渐地融入失去梦想的平凡。。。
可否出于碌而不庸、出于凡而不愚

Facing great inertia to get started on work.

I had a dream...

Recently I had a dream. In that dream, I was telling another person that I was going to resign. It was with a little more certainty than what I thought my heart feels. I was a little shocked by myself as I said those words in my dream, but deep down, somewhere very deep down in my subconsciousness, I felt a tinge of relief and happiness.

Is that what my heart is telling me to do?

The journey of a beginning teacher is somewhat similar to FYP. It has been an emotional roller coaster, there are times where you feel like you found some meaning from what you are doing, you enjoy it and are happy. There are times when you feel like you totally sux at it, you are getting nowhere, and everything is bleak and gloomy.

Only recently I managed to find out what's lacking in my life. Passion and Excitement. Going back to NUS for the Biosymposium, I realised how much I miss research. The joy of finding out more about that something worth investigating. The joy of designing a method to go about doing it, and when you finally obtain some results that can have some impact to conservation, you share it with the community and have a fruitful discussion with others.

I need some excitment in life. It's pretty sad when you can only dream up some adventures only in your dreams.

What do you do when there are only two Bio classes, and your colleague has the habit of giving hints to her class for tests and exams. The class you took over from her are used to scoring well with hints and now that you refused to provide hints, they moan and grumble, and flock to their friends next door for hints. =(

Sighs

I've made it clear to them that no hints would be given to them, coz no one will be able to give them hints for O levels. No one gives you any hints in life anyway. On the other hand, I dont want the supposed Best Express Class to do badly coz there's a stiff competition with their peers, and I hope I wont end up with a 'tea session' with people downstairs.

What's education afterall? It's to equip our younger generation with life skills that they can use to improve their lives. Who really cares about Bio knowledge 10 years down the road if you aint going into this field? Are we doing all the thinking, organising, summarising for our kids such that their brains only serve as ornaments? How can I help my kids acquire all these skills?

Teaching is a very meaningful job and you can accumulate a lot of merits from it.
Teaching can help others grow in wisdom; at the same time you will grow in wisdom as well.
Shouldnt have the idea that you are the only one who is doing the right thing and that everyone else is wrong. Others can be doing the right thing but from a differnt approach.
We should learn to appreciate everything that happened to us, be it good or bad, as these experiences can teach us valuable lessons.

Sharing by Sayalay Sujata, a Thai nun friend whom I met in Ipoh, via Msn =)

我不知道要说什么， 突然脑海里一片空白

我什么也不想做，也不想想。。。
就让我漂流吧。。。

“朝九晚五”

原本是用来形容工作从早上九时至傍晚五时。。。　

可是“朝九晚五”这个词应该也跟时代并进呢？

更恰当的形容词应该是”朝六晚六”吧。。。　

好累

真得好累啊

像蔡妈妈所说的“努力努力再努力！”　

加油吧！

I just made a new Voki. See it here:

给十五岁的自己

知道吗 我总是惦记

十五岁不快乐的你

我多想 把哭泣的你

搂进我怀里

不确定 自己的形状

动不动就和世界碰撞

那些伤 我终于为你

都一一抚平

那一年最难的习题

也不过短短的几行笔记

现在我却总爱回忆

回忆当时不服输的你

天空 会不会雨停

会不会放晴

会不会幸福在终点

等著我和你

会不会是我忘记

还能勇敢地去淋雨

我们继续走下去

继续往前进

继续走向期待中的未知旅行

感觉累了的时候

抱著我们的真心

静静 好好地休息

这些年 我还算可以

至少都对得起自己

谢谢你 是你的单纯

给了我指引

遇见过 很多很多人

完成了一些些事情

你一定 还无法想象

多精彩过瘾

谁说人生是公平的

它才不管我们想要怎样

很感激 你那么倔强

我才能变成今天这样

我们继续走下去

继续往前进

看这条路肯让我们走到哪里

我们想去的地方

一定也有人很想去

我们都不要放弃

都别说灰心

永远听从刻在心中那些声音

感觉累了的时候

请你把我的手握紧

没有地图

人生只能凭着手上的梦想 Oh~

循著它的光

曲折转弯找到有光的地方

Lalala Lalala Lalala

那年的梦想

Lalala Lalala Lalala

人要有梦想

勇敢的梦想

疯狂的梦想

继续走下去

继续往前进

路旁有花 心中有歌 天上有星

我们要去的那里

一定有最美丽的风景

Oh~ 都不要放弃

都别说灰心

不要辜负心里

那个干净的自己

痛到想哭的时候

就让泪水洗掉委屈

我们要相信自己

永远都相信

来到这个世界不是没有意义

我们做过的事情

都会留在人心里

会被回忆而珍惜

有一天 我将会老去

希望你会觉得满意

我没有 对不起那个

十五岁的自己

就当觉得生命有时就是那么的不公平，有时那么的祸不单行， 那么的没有意义，

生命里一些小小的事物总是能给与一丝丝的启发

都别说灰心

不要辜负心里

那个干净的自己

痛到想哭的时候

就让泪水洗掉委屈

哭也哭过， 是时候站起来

才不会对不起十五岁的自己

在我在这世上呼出最后一口时，

不会有任何遗憾

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