Friday, November 13, 2009
I'm so tired recently.. so many thing hs happen.. Unexpectedly.
Feeling with emotion- Sad,hurt,confusion,tears..etc.. but without Anger.
Without knowing what path to choose and what I really want.
Sometime i just hope that all this did not happen, i even feel like running away and i just want a break.
But i know No matter how far i can run i can never run away from it. But to give myself time to think it through and through althought i know i will think for very long.
How i wish someone will tell me what to do. and i just follow.
I feeling that i feel so tempted to give in to my choice :
Love + Comfort + Enjoyment + ??abt wat i want in life.
Love + fun + ??abt wat i wan in life.
Walk my own path.. my own way.
My First Love = Christ.
no one can serve 2 master.
I believe all this happen for a reason.
To help me learn what are something that i need to improve or change.
Realising the mistake that i had made.
All i hope is that all this will just be normal as before.
YYYY am i alway so undecisive.
Time to learn to be decisive.
Time to know what should be done and not done.
Time to change.
If only i can chnage the time how good will it be.
Thing alway come the least you expected it.
If this problem is Big.. Then wat is the BIGGEST problem??
I can only look up the sky and be positive and courageous.
Evaluation:
What is my Goal in Life?
Seeking for temporary or permenent presure?
I have side track for very long le..
Time to adjust and come back to my own Value, Dignity, Goal, The Women that i wan to be... and more.
No matter Good memories or bad memories it is a gift of Wonderful memories.
In can only stay in my heart.
At least i once have such na wonderful memories before.
Thank for the memories.. I never regret having all this problem that i may face along the way.
The past will be the past.
Hope that all this thing will fall in place again.
Thing will be back to normal soon.
Jia you worx.. there is still alot of thing that i have to do. No slacking le.. Seeking for my goal.
Thank sistz and friend for being there wit me all this while. Understanding me, being with me, lending me shoulder to lean on,
I am out
@ |Friday, November 13, 2009|
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Last Tue we have our y-hope aliumum camp.. In the nitx.. all the DI meet tgt to go the camp.
We meet at woodland to have our dinner first befor we go to singapore sport school.
When we reach there.. There is opening ceremony and they even welcome the OLD BIRD.. heex:p.There is praise and worship too.. The most exciting thing abt the camp is that.. Pastor Simon is there. The teaching is so inspiring lor..
A Learning and Remembering time..
- God Vision is not locally but globally
- We must challenge ourselves to put e church as out top piority.
- When is say that [When your Life is completely Christian]
=your life is not your own
=He is the master of our life
- To be a servant we must submit to whathe want us to do.
- ps simon he did not put his work first althought he can be a CEO.. but he put God first.
- Attitude of a disciple is very important..
eg: We tell other u cannot use my song. But if we have the right attitude. We can use the song to bless other.
- there are many more thing that i learn..
see.. when i got time i update the Singapore Sport sch photo.
I am out
@ |Saturday, December 15, 2007|
Monday, November 26, 2007
Last Fri... was such a busy day sia... After sch i went to meet my sheph..
We went to city hall walk walk. Then after she accompany me go bugis.
After bugis.. i went to far east to meet my sistx. they all..
Then after that I went off to go to RP.. for the Arise rehearsal.
We stay at RP from 7pm++ to abt 11.15pm.
Then by the time we wanted to take bus hm.. by the time sure no bus hm.. so we all share $$ to take cab hm.
Woo.. It was quit ex that nitx.. as it got nitx charge... total abt $30
Then after i went hm.. i quickly go do my thing and went to sleep abt 2am.Then in the morning i suppose to wake up at 5am.
I think maybe becox i was too tired... that i wake up at abt 7plus..
THen i quicky bath.. and i went to meet nichlos and Ezrkial.. Then we all take cab to NYP.
As we got drama run through..Then after a few rehearsal then got time to eat my breakfast.. hahha.
Really thk God for everyone there.. They put in all theif time and effort. And i also get to knw a lot of ppl there.
I really scared that from scren 2-scren 3.. i scared got no time to change.. but how we knw we got time to change cloth..
But thk God.. we mange to change cloth on time.. after i act finish.. i really can see that i'm not using my own strength to do thing.
I really can feel itAll thk to Winnie and Pei Xin.. They really.. help us a lot.. They even encourage us. Then after the event we all have a photo taking session.
We take lot of photo.. haha=)
Then winnie even ak us.. to think about why are we here for ?? There must be a reason.
- to build up Confident level.
- Motive have to be right
-not using our own strength
[LEARN]
Xue ting- she is so courageous.. she make up all over her face. until like very ugly.
Pei Xing-Humble spirit... she is the incharger and she dun need to be the one acting. she let other ppl.. so it.
May-so helpful.
.... and many more.
Lastly also thank to winnie.. she shared to me some of her story. I asked her abt PEACE..
She is a very understanding sistx. Althought we are not that close.. but i love talking to her..
After the whole event.. we went to have our lunch then we went to help out to be the facilitator for ARISE.
We lack of ppl to participated.. but it ok.. Then some of the facilitor.. and the participated join us and we form a team.
Total there are 8 ppl: chist,Agustin,jame,,jeremy,,jame frenx, winnie, winner hushband, me, Ezekial
Everyone get the chance to do the trust fall.. I'm really scared to fall. but all my grp member really very encouraging..
The team work spirit that we all have.. I really enjoy the day..the fun and etc...
I learn a lot of thing...
Totally: we do 233 trust fall as a grp tgt.=)
I am out
@ |Monday, November 26, 2007|
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Yesterday so last min got th Arise event.. Yesterday went for cca...if i knw i would choose not to go trainning.. the trainning is abit tough sia.. now.. all obver my body all pain.. then only 3 week later is grading.. Y i dun want to go is becox a lot of thing change...
Time going to be tough.. i was thinking i should continue karate a not.. after i pass out..heex
But think it doesn't matter..becox no matter hw tough it will be i will still hold on.
After my cca.. i rush to istana park for the rehearsal.It is a good opporunity for me to build up my confident level.. After the rehearsal.. pei xin and me.. we take bus hm tgt.
We share alot of thing. I also did learn something from her..
Terti ppl is more inward where by youth ppl ismore outward.
We doesn't have to change ourselves.. but to learn and balance it..
There is a reason y we tranfer to terti..
not veryone will understand what i mean.. but i knw it haha
in terti it is a differnt level of thing that we have to learn.. and we have to hold on..
We can't alway depend on ppl..But to depend on us and our Father.
End of Nov: 2 sheep
seeing myself grow in some area of my life.
I am out
@ |Tuesday, November 13, 2007|
Saturday, November 10, 2007
hmm..it has been so long ever since i really go online and also update my journal.. haha.Finally feel much releax as i only left 1 last paper..But that time i 1week plus did not go sch.. i got so manything to do..Tue i got 2 test and 1 presentation. Then wed i got test too..The presentatio i have to present a lont sia..Althought i'm alone.. but i will do my best hahaa =)
woo.. yesterday went out with carole and zhen we went shopping frm afternoon till nitx.. hahait has been a long time ever since i go out with them. heex =)I buy a lot of thinhg sia.. but there is still alot of ting i want to buy but no $$.. haha..christmas is coming have to save $$ to buy present.
Thing to see myself grow:
-more humble
-LOve ppl more
-self control
I am out
@ |Saturday, November 10, 2007|
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Today dun knw y so restless.. until in e late afternoon.. then i'm normal..
Today so happy.. IT has been a very long time.. ever since i'm at hm and even go out for dinner with my family or mum..Today went out with sistx and mum.,. While on e bus to interchange.. i'm very happy.. As i'm disturbling my sistx.. and we just keep laughing. Actually i'm laughing at myself.. haha =)We went to eat KFC... woo the quee is long sia..
I haven really shop for abt 1 month to buy the stuff that i wanted.. But finally i get to shop.. ahahaI buy 1 short and a dress.=) Actually there is a lot of thing i want to buy. But it ok..
Althought there will be up and down time.. but i still lov my family.. heex =)
I am out
@ |Sunday, October 07, 2007|
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Today.. i working a 1day job work.. at somewhere near my sch. Then.. i wake up very late.. sia.. I meet dickson they all at 8am but i wake up at at 8am.. haha.. As before that dy i sleep very late. I slept at 4am in e morning. Today.. we went to work we do packing stuff.. I do very fast and they was like shock sia.As usually they do slowly.. heex=)Also we got alot of time to do finish waht we need to do..Then i was like keep laughing sia.. Dun knw why i find it very funny heex.=)I can laugh until i squeeze on e ground.
I find that packing is very fun then i'm very happy.. I'm not tired too althought i sleep late.Then.. we have to pack abt 500++ thing. We even eat sambal fried rice.
After work is abt 5.15pm.. I cannot possiblely go hm ritx? As i got nitx class later. Then.. we wanted to go find wen ting.. Then we called her. We are at a different place. Then when we wanted togo find her.. She also leave tat place..so biang xiang, dickson adn mewe went around and shop. THere is nth to shop lor.Only food that got the most thing that we would want heex=) I buy ota and a cup of drink. .Then as we was walking around.. We went when to find a place to seat down and eat ice kachang.There is a crazy women.. She was talking to herslef sia.. Then is like scolding us.. When we did not even do anything. I also did not care much..abt the old women..
.. I really enjoy myself ytd..and also i did nt thinkof smth so much already..hmm I'm trying to..... haha
I am out
@ |Saturday, September 22, 2007|
