it's our *4th anniversary today, 21/06/2011.
happy anniversary to us, me <3. =)
feels like we had been tgt for a very long time alr.
indeed. 365 x4= 1460 days + that 7 days we knew each other b4 getting tgt.
growing up, moving on & compromising made this day seems less special to me, but i know you'll make efforts for this day to be special to me. =)
thank you for being there for me all this while me <3. thru all the ups & downs, withstanding all my whinings & sudden attacks (=pPpP). the other day i was just telling my *mom & *bro how thankful i was for you* being there on my *21st bday. i think i'll die w/o all yr help then. lol~
looking forward to saturday! whee! heehs!
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on the contrary to the joyous occasion, yest was quite a gloomy day becos i was called in to have a chat wif my hr personnel. well, apparently they are not that happy wif my working performance + attitude in short. oh wells. no doubt i was quite unhappy abt it, i guess i wasn't extremely affected (which i could have been, i know) becos i half-heartedly wanna leave this company alr.
likes: colleagues that i'll never have conflicts wif becos we hold diff roles in the company.
dislikes: my mentor. i think she's crazy. she can not talk to me for the whole week & suddenly act super friendly on a random day. -____-" but perhaps i havn't been taking enough initiative becos i feel that i had enough from her. since she will never help me wif my work, i also stopped asking work from her. & besides, even if i made mistakes, she'll never reprimand me at all! she'll just totally ignore my existence & asked every1 else except me for, as per the norm.
the hr pple said that every1 is aware of her weird personality & working style, that i just had to suck on it becos everywhere else in this working society is the same, the cruelty of the working environment. well, to be honest, i do not entirely agree wif her, becos i believe that there's somewhere in this working world that i can comfortably fit in.
besides, i'm kinda bored of my work scope alr. things are quite standard, just that at times, costing for the unknowns are really based on my mere instincts. & i also disliked rushing, rushing & rushing. changing, changing & changing. i have all the time in the world on my hands, yet i always had to rush out a quotation/cost estimation in 2hrs?! then oh! somehow i'm slow & inefficient becos i was the last in line to complete. wth?!
maybe i really am a quitter. but so what? there was this moment when i really took pride in my present job but that thought just wither off becos i really had nothing on hands to do. i'll just be in office everyday, waiting for time to pass & knock off on the dot. this is definitely not a working life i'll like to indulge in.
*sigh*
but i'll move on. the next problem on hand is to find another job/profession that interests me. but there's nth much that i really really had a passion for. oh well~
come what may.
