boarding plane in... 15mins time.

& i'm sick. and tired.

my reunion dinner tonight is at 10pm. lol. so early sia. =)))

hope that i won't fall that sick if not i can't eat alot good food in hk le.. =(((~

1stly.. my spicy fishballs, desserts, & many other local stuff!!! lol.

yest i very zai. lol.. had work... then my parents & sis came to visit me, had lunch wif them & i bought my pink heels! (which killed me the whole of yesterday) then i shared cost wif my jie to buy my dad a new hp @ my counter.. lol. 1 more i-mode phone clear! the Nec 412i very hard to sell la... then yest got one potential but i think cos he cannot upgrade so sian. =(((~

*ber came to visit me.. chit-chatted awhile.. got a new staff today. *dominic. he's cute!! lol. he very nice to me also. but 2 bad la. 1 year younger. haha! (>.<)

then @ night *cey & *fanghao went to find me.. changed & went over to United Sq to find *lettie... then we headed to Indochine @ Wisma. my 2nd time clubbing!!! =))). finally not pang seh-ed.. lol.

it was boring @ 1st la.. but when everyone start dancing then very fun liaoz.. me & *cey almost killed by our heels can... lol. & we dropped died like ard 2.30am. & i saw *chee!!! with super short hair!!! lol. so cute! lol. *ruru came also.. finally sia. but she left early becos she got headache...

like that lor. & i woke up sick this morning. sian.

must be the *dominic pass his germs to me. & that day we did spring cleaning!! lol. he very funny de. but 2 bad he's not posted to my outlet. =((~ lol. talking rubbish now.

ok i gtg.. miss me kays everyone!! =)))

oh & *cey told me results are coming out on the 10th FEB la. OH MY FREAKING GOD. wat a nice chinese new year present. lol.

my fingers hurt when i type. duno why. =(((~

& i'm missing someone that i not supposed to...

happy chinese new year everyone who visited my blog! till then! =))))

today is a very very happy happy day!!! =))

so must blog!! (>.<)

morning had driving... did 3 test routes again... the instructor keep talking to me. make me distracted sia. then he keep telling me to be more observant lor.. rather on the traffic alone.. ok la. i can try. my U-turns are getting better. keke. (*cey laughed me abt the part on the 3-point turn.. =((~ wat sia!)

met up wif *ber cos she got her BTT there too.. then we went bugis to buy food then she accompanied me to work... brought alot food!!! but in the end managed to finish la lol. i was quite late. around 11.35am?! no one cares. =X then i went shopping wif *ber.. kinda like a pink heels. lol! maybe getting it.. if it's still around for me to buy it.

some managers came but not MY manager (i think everyone dislikes that ERM.. nvm lol.. nice looking uncle) *ber left & i was so tired which i duno why.. i think i dosed off for a little while lol. such an unpleasant sight but don't care la.. the stp FTT book made me fall asleep.. lol.

went all the way to United Square to get my Vitasoy but in the end i didn't got it becos of the stp queue & *ber & *stef was waiting for me to go back... i treated them magic-wok lol.. & i ate some Thai Ruby. yummy!

well.. they came for a purpose. to visit me LOR! lol. & to give comments. LOL

after that okay i DID my job okays... but didn't managed to sell off any i-mode phones.. made myself useful by buying back dinner for that *pf.. who erm. nvm. lol. hinted but ya.

then i went to meet *cey after WORK!!! WOOOHOOOO!!! =)))) that stp woman. think she grow older liaoz.. say where to meet also can't say properly.. -rar- say meet @ Taka at Level 2 then she & her friends @ B2. WAO LAU. alot of difference cans?! piak her! but i'm too happy to see her back liaoz... lol. then i become some crazy woman & keeps tokking loudly. who cares. i guess it's just always being wif her when i'm loud. HAHA.

wanted to retail but i back-out for a skirt that cost $75 from Zara. WAO LAU. more than 1 day of my pay okays. not worth it. lol... & i was promoting starhub to them. gosh... pple call this wat.. zi ye bing sia. lol~

then we went Cartel @ PS to have girl's talk. but then we didn't have any conclusions! lol. all my fault =X but i kinda got enlightened i guess. thanks *cey & *lili. =))). but i think wat *cey says is true. just don't think so much & be happy now. since i'm okay wif my life now. as in the way it is. so be it.

but funny sia. what's wif all the come & go pple again?? sometimes i feel what they treat me as sia. ZzZzz. but does my point of view really matters so much to them??? -weird-

oh my *darling cey called!!! keke! =)))~

did it occur to you that it was 24th jan today??

2 months...

the stupidest thing that could happen to you is that you finally have a day off & i could onli sleep the most till 9am. wth sia. what's wrong wif my clock man.. ZzzZzz.

did some retail & went for mani & pedicure. wat shld i say. i was so sad cos i have already ruined one of my nails. =(((~ & my mom & sis said that the color didn't suit me. but i wanted something else beside pink whats. & the crystals v easy come off de. sian. think i wasted my time & $$ sia.



*cey's back tomolo!!! wonder when then i can see her. but if she's nice she'll come & find me de.. i knew it. lol. somemore i can always go away for awhile. =))) i can bribe pple. =pPPpp & i think *ber & *stef is coming down tomolo wif me too!! hees. i'm supposed to treat them when i get my 1st pay.. sian. like must wait so long...

oh. & i went for a quick haircut. just to trim off my nasty ends. but the woman like keep cutting my golden hair away. =(((~ lol. & my fringe looks kuku now. =S

ya. alot things went thru my mind.. but oh well. i don't know where's there left for me to express myself.. -sigh- time will tell i guess.

& that stp friend of my sister snapped all my photos away!!! i was so pissed!! -rar- those i took wif my i-mode pals!!! eeks. I HATE HIM. & he fix the com = never fix. SIAN.

just feel like dying.

almost vomited just now. don't know why. maybe becos of the medication i took. but i had dinner whats. strange.

i woke up @ 7.30am. & now it's 2.11am. so i'm freaking tired. as per normal.

but tomolo's (i mean today) a off day. =))) self proclaimed. but i don't get paid so alrights.

had driving this morning.. i feel soooOoo.. detached from driving. really. but it has only been A WEEK since i last drived la. really need constancy derx..it was fine. i guess. i finished 3 test routes.. which was quite short actually. just that you have to remember at what places do what can lerx..but i can never map out the roads there @ ubi. jia luck.

had work. slacking away again. oh today Nec 412i came. so i need to sell it off. but it's ex.. duno can sell nots lehh...

the new staff was nice.. & i was helping them out again as per normal. i think soon i'll be able to operate every single model of phones available in that outlet le. lol. i'm doing stuff that i'm not supposed to do i guess. but they're under-staffed whats. not say i snatch their job... contracts/ paperwork still they sign 1 hor... i only like entertain customers & talk alot of rubbish. as usual wif my mouth. lol. all the v3 pink are sold out. i so sad. =((( but i'm sure that i'll be able to get it. a light blue 1 is coming out. damn chio also.. but pink's still my colour. forever. =))))

yep. after that i waited for *pf (my male colleague) to finish his job & we went for movie @ cine. *memoirs of a geisha. i find it kinda nice.. sad & sweet ending. but i was really uncomfortable. couldn't really move abt much & my legs are all numbed. lol. & i was tired. so i was home like almost 1am?! lol. never been out so late b4 for a v long time lerx.. or should i say it's like once in a blue moon kinda thing.

so. something was coming again. SIAN. duno why. i suddenly got sian-ed by the whole idea of being in a relationship again. why can't pple just be mutual friends? or perhaps it was just me. it WAS always me isn't it. but i really don't know this time. i feel so vexed again. did i have that feeling b4?! i couldn't remember. this time round was somewhat different i guess. -sian- i also duno what other words i could use le. perhaps i really prefer to be single after all. i duno. jia luck.

but anyways. maybe i was fortuanate enough. becos things that i once thought would happen, didn't. it saved me from more thinking & decisions making isn't it?? on the other hand.. what's wrong wif trying? wif moving ON? -sian- lol. duno what i talking la...

i'm happy.. but i just duno why i always think so much. that i couldn't sleep well @ night these days. pple are always bugging me to sleep WELL & early.but it's something you can't help isn't it?? so i'm always like trying to make myself ultra, super tired so i'll just dose off.

like now. it's time.i feel so uncomfortable.

i still feel like puking.

hate seeing what matters most.

really.

but i know i shouldn't be making such a big fuss. i really shouldn't.

-sigh-

why. being so insensitive. not that i should care but i just still do.

*yay memories are being worthless. no. they don't even worth a teeny weeny cent.

my 1st job was nice too. =))) though i only got 1 colleague which supposed to be my supervisor as well i guess. lol~ he's a very nice guy. & i think i'll grow fat becos he keep treating me to eat. YES. FOOD. lol~ actually my job was kinda slack.. but was happy enough to sell the only i-mode phone off the outlet though the auntie didn't want the service. yep. then i helped him to sell off other phones.. keke. though i dunno alot of things but will slowly learn from him lor.

YES! i'm getting my bimbo pink motorola razr V3 after i get my 1st pay or sth!!! it's quite cheap. i don't care it's functionless. it's so CHIO! omg! lol~ & getting my swatch too! keke! the heart heart one.. & i'll bring my family down to the restaurant *ber & *stef is working at for a meal. keke. they said the food was nice..

to think that i was so nervous for my job the day b4. lol. or it was just my outlet is slow moving. yep. that's the word. it's still quite pleasant la. at least i got to sit down for 10 hrs. lol~ & i went to meet up with *lettie yest! lol~ she's working at a pet shop.. SO KAWAII LOR!!! (i mean the pets lol)but she won't be working anymore after this month. =(((~ i'm still stuck there til end of March. but okay la. i'm okay wif the job. =))))~

tomolo there will be a new colleague!!! then no space to sit le.. cos the place was soOOooo small. lol. but more pple better barh. keke.

little did i even remember that today was Sun. everyday seems to be the same for me now.. lose all track of time man. & i almost 4got that i had driving early in the morning tomolo!!! WAHHHH.. i'll be so freaking tired. =X

-sometimes when any guy just know you from inside out, i guess you'll just freak out. am i a really such a easily seen-through person? i'm getting confused again. am i ready? or am i just seeing things again? what's with all the come & go pple in my life now? questions questions questions. but that's my life now.-

wah. i think i'm doing to die from exhuastion.

went to hos again.. cos my sis couldn't get discharged. i think i'm going to become a zombie soon.

work's starting tomolo.. i'm nervous. need support from friends man. but ya. duno all die to where le.. so i shall be strong! keke. i never even been to that place la. scarly is some ulu ulu place wif lao ah peks. =X jia luck.

training ended happily. but i'm sad cos it ended all so soon. wonder when will be the next time till we meet again. =(((~ oh! & the boss hates me!! cos i summarised whatever he said in 2 sentences!!! Zzzzz.. but that's the main point he's driving at what. i don't see that i'm in wrong lor. hmMmm.. hope he don't keep planting bombs for me to kenna.

all the facts like swimming in my brain. oh no. i scared i'll just go speechless in front of customers la. -rar- though we don't have targets, we're not supposed to go 0 sales all the way rights. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. jia luck.

*cey smsed me. keke. but my heart still jumping v fast. what's wrong wif me man. must be the boss la. scare me. =(((~



most of us! w/o *annie, *peichin & the only guy *byran.


me & *erina. =)))

wish me all the best tomolo!!! =)))

there goes my working life...

-never expects anything in return girl. it was a path that was chosen for you. time changes everything. even if the exterior is the same, even if you still feel the same towards this object, the object will still be somewhat different. perhaps you couldn't get over that stage that it has evolved, but what can you do abt it. really. wake up for a better tomorrow. but whether the tomorrow is better all depends on yourself. how i wish not to live in self denial.. but sometimes you'll just do the wrong thing becos it felt right.-

-it's aching.. crying out to get noticed. it's difficult not to feel the piercing pain.. but isn't that's becos of youself? you didn't let it go. it let you go a long time ago. but why. why are you so ever forgiving? as though the object has been treating you right? why doesn't it occur to you that this object will ruin your life?-

it's just emotions taking over once again.

& somehow.. guys seemed to be the weirdest creature to me now. i will never understand them. it's not that i didn't try. but it just wears me off time & time again.

okay. actually got tons to blog abt. but i v tired le. lol.

was at the hos just now from 5pm-10pm.. okay don't worry i'm fine. it was my sis who had an operation.hope i won't end up like her cos it's kinda genetic. =((~ then they always scare me. zZzz.. hope i not so suay ba. see her in so much pain.. eewww.

training was fun again. HAHA. dl tons of stuff like ringtones & pictures for free. okay maybe i shldn't be disclosing this kinda stuff cos it's kinda.. ehhh.. lol! & i realise the world v small de lor.. pple who i just get to know will know who's my ex. wao lauuu.. lol~ ya.

we ate some QQ noodles today. haha. i love the pple there. but tomolo is our last day together le. =(((~ i'll miss them...

the instructor today Fareez was good looking. keke. he's nice too. =)))~

& i-mode's got so much stuff to remember. oh gosh. must start studying le.. & i still haven studied for my FTT. jia luck. i think i don't have time le.. =(((~

oh. yest i was whining & whining, swearing & cursing. but i did get to talk to *cey. was very happy. keke. she's always there for me, well maybe not all the time... but last night she was there for me. =))))~ *muacks. *fanghao & *ber called me back too.. ty ty. i only remembered the most i said was "wao lau" & "wtf". haha. oh well.

*yay. & *cey is coming back next wed!!! but i need to WORK. DAMN IT! maybe i'll accompany her after my work. =)))~ miss her so much!!!

-sigh- maybe i was expecting too much. maybe i already wished for something to happen but it didn't turn out to be the way i wanted it to be. insensitive. but i guess it was just me. one shoudln't expect the other to know how exactly you're feeling i guess. but surprisingly, i'm feeling the same as before, even if it did not happened. i guess it's my disease. same as 2 years ago. keke. i suddenly thought of it. but don't worry. i'll be well again. i know it. it's just a life cycle. just like the old times.

but i'll continue to whine. =))) & perhaps doing the wrong stuff over & over again.

ya. it hurts but ya. ya. ya ya.

exhausted.

back from training today. oh. we'll get paid for training. haha. =)))

this morning was horrible. i couldn't get out of bed... & i saw red. sian.

& i dropped off one stop earlier becos some stp uncle did too. & i stupidly followed.

my tummy aches now.. =(((~

the pple are nice i must say. i changed seat so that i could sit wif *geraldine lol. not really close to her but ya.. at least i know her b4 hand la..*miguel the instructor was nice too. =))) there's this ONLY guy in the whole batch of us. i wonder why. i thought they only recruit girls. -weird- anyways... we learnt alot of stuff abt Starhub la.. all there services for mobile users. maybe i'm not allowed to say so much. haha. so yarh. like going for lectures lor.. lol~ i was seh-ing at the end le.. really nothing can go in... lol. i was scribbling @ my seat.. stoning & trying not to look so sian. thanks *cindy for lending me for jacket.. if not i sure freeze to death liaoz.


my pass! lol~ for 4 days only..

& i heard the tee-shirt was UGLY. wao lau.. =(((~ & i wasn't the only one that had differed thinking regarding the i-mode ad. lol~ but i'll be my job till end of March. jia you ba. =))) oh! *ber & *stef got the waitress-ing job! *yay. but they can work together lor.. & can get off so easy.. me jia luck lor.. must work 6 days. sian! =(((~ pple must come accompany me for lunch & dinner okok! lol~

today. i had some different thinking running through my brain while stoning.. lol~ well. i was happy that i thought that way. maybe that's the way i want to feel and life with it. ya. =))))

i like keep blogging & cancelling whatever i typed. lol.

i guess things are better left unspoken of.

-greed- always get into human's path isn't it?

weird.

i'm looking forward to something that i know it's so wrong.

still...

weird chemistry. or do you call it telepathy?

had retail today again @ bugis again.. lol. wif *ber & *stef. had driving b4 that.. was learning U-turn & 3-point turns.. i almost drove the instructor to his grave.. esp while i was trying out for the 3-point turn.. lol. i think he will rather choose to bang the wall & die instead of tahan-ing me.. lol. but it was fun in the end.. cos i said it was HIS fault cos he never tell me properly.. haha.

ate nice nice er.. Mini-wok noodles today. very long never eat le.. last time in cchs that time always go eat wif guides they all. the auntie also don't recognise us le.. i brought a top, a dress, a long GREEN necklace & a pair of cheena shoes. lol. i wanted to buy heels de. another time i guess. HAHA. & i think i hang out too much wif *ber. i'm falling for green & *stef fall for white.. lol. but we really had so much fun together today. we'll be retailing again soon after our 1st pay! keke! =)))~

*20-cents & *30-cents shared a little secret just now. lol~

tomolo have to go for my job training le.. i was digging for wat to wear lol. what's casual. hope it'll be fun for the next 4 days.. like go for day-camp like that. lol~

happy birthday *cey!!! =))) byebye to all those jerks in the world. we'll be fulfilling our marriage on 16th Jan 2013!! her 26th b-day. HAHA.

& i still haven see my kiss goodbye MTV's ending. -growls-

i'm like so easy touched by songs these days.

the com is making me so pek cek now. i feel like killing it. -growls-

well, yest was quite a tiring day...

there's this little kid from china who will be staying over @ my house for 2 weekends. some exchange program thingy... i don't even remember his name. but he's like SO homesick & he keeps crying & skip meals.. we're all like SUPER nice to him la.. & i realised that i have a forte for looking after little children. HAHA. at least i saw some light in my future directions hm? lol~

anyways after lunch we brought him to Sentosa. it's been like 4 years since i last went wif my family. the photo we took back then i was still in Sec2. short hair, in specs all the time, the skinniest perhaps. HAHA. those were the fun days.. we all had alot fun.. after all.. it's like a rare chance that we'll actually go out & have fun as a family. not even 1 was left out. =))) but then CNY we're all going back to Hong Kong to Disneyland! keke. looking forward to it.. CNY i also nothing much to do in Singapore.. perhaps it'll be a different CNY this year.

yeP. i tried the SentosaLuge! lol! FFFFUUUUNNNNNN!!! lol~ like driving like that. can chiong v fast one. haha. but i think the route was kinda short la. but how much could you expect from $5 bucks. lol. (had my ride at special price) then the little kid finally SMILED & stopped looking sad/cry. then we went Underwater World. hee.. the sea creatures all SO KAWAII lor!!! i love the sea angel or angel fish la.. i only know the chinese name... bleah. it'll like glow in the dark one lor!!! so chio!!! & graceful. then the crabs & seahorse so kawaii... then JELLYFISH!!! haha. their movements like.. -bloop, bloop, bloop- aiya i duno how to say la.. i sound like a kid hor. heck la.. lol! i'm still young at heart okaysss... hMmm.. oh. then went on the travellator.. saw the Dugong. at 1st all of us were like thinking wth it was.. seal? sealion? then in the end the guide told us that it was a SEA-COW. lol~ it was saved from Palau Ubin.. it's mon died. =X & it's all white in colour & eats seaweed. LOL.


that's me & starfish. =)))

then we went to watch the new 4D animation. my 1st time seeing 4D. COOL EH! lol~ don't feel giddy derx.. & the experience was funny. lol~ there's this guy in front of me & my jie who jerked away from the telescope. then my jie laughed until SO LOUD. ZZZzzz.. she so bad la. though it was funny. =X then i was screaming cos they'll suddenly spray shots of gases & water out. lol.

after that we went to Dolphin Lagoon. it's my 1st time there too.. but the place is just for the Dolphin show la.. but I SAW A PURE PINK DOLPHIN!!!! lol~ so kawaii! lol! the guide there says they'll all lose their grey as they grow older. so older dolphins are pink lor.. lol~ & by then it started to pour heavily lerx..


random photo my brother took. Retro mode. lol.

had dinner @ some cheena restuarant there.. the food wasn't that bad. & we watched the Musical Fountain lor.. well. same old one as the one i watch the day b4 my bday last year wif *him. but oh well. nice old memories. another example for me to say that things don't change but people do. lol.

then i rushed down to Marina Square to meet up wif *ru, *shiling & *peiyu. i was like lost @ marina la.. Zzz.. then i was so tired & i'm just like wondering around in circle, finding that stp pizzahut. lol~ weird eh.. that was also where i went wif *him for his bday celebration last year. what's wrong man. lol~ the idea just got into my mind somehow. was supposed to go MOS wif *ber & *stef..but was cancelled in the end becos of some events. yep. but i was damn tired le anyways..

then we chit-chatted lor.. i had my Kiwi-Lemon Fizz. lol~ it's fun to meet up again. everyone was working except for me. but i'm starting like this week le lor! lol. but the pay also somewhat the same de la. everyone was complaining abt the usual stuff & *ru spent a BOMB. oh man. lol. duno wat she doing sia. & ya. *shiling said sth then somehow that was OUCH. & *peiyu keep reminding that i'll lose all my friends if i'm gonna do something. jia luck. =(((((~

& i had a COMBO last night. COMBO attack. shaln't elaborate.

i was pek-cek-fied too. cos i couldn't see my ending for "Kiss Goodbye" mtv by leehom! & now i found the link online BUT couldn't view it becos of the DAMN wireless connection. I WANT TO MURDER IT. -RAR- why can't i just use back my cable?! stp jie.

and it's *cey's bday tomolo!!!! 19 le lor.. OLD WOMAN. too bad i couldn't spend the day wif her.. b4 my training actually starts. but i'll take a day off just for her keke. when she come back la. still duno what to buy for her..

& weirdly. my life hasn't been going on normally.. lol~ everything's like going crazy. & i just found out something AGAIN. wat's wif me & my detective skills sia. lol~ i think i really DAMN ZAI lor.

*ber says not to think of the motives. ya. but i thought of all the bad ones already. there ARE no good ones. i think. so.. maybe i'll just stay in this state. *yay.

haiya. i duno la. things happen for a reason i guess.

tata. =)

duno can blog not.. (>.<)

my sis told me my com is NOT pretty much fix. yest i used until i so pek cek!!! ZZzz.. RAR. lol~ cos i can't log into blogger nor comfort driving.. i wanted to cancel 1 of my lessons.. becos of training for work next week.

yep. & i'll be working at Novena Square. haha. can have lunch wif *jason & *lettie liaoz... even *ber!!! who are working/living ard that area. not bad la.. at least got straight bus from my house down.. lol~ thank god. but i still thought i would be working at Cuppage so can even walk to work liaoz.. oh well. cannot choose de la.. & i need to work till end of March... jia you bah. hope really not so sian if not really jia luck liaoz..

driving today was fine.. i'm progressing quite fast i think. keke. but my FTT is on 7th Feb la.. wao lauuuu... wait so long lor.. cannot fail if not must queue for like 1/2 months for the test again. v sian 1 lehs... =X who ask me that time overslept & miss the test. =S

just now went out wif *ber again. keke. my presented best friend. haha! she sure stares at me de.. =X cos we know that i needed to be out today and she accompanied me.. hehe. thanks girl! =))) guess where we went. HAHA. met her @ bugis & we went National Library. haha! my 1st time there.. hers too. & we borrowed books!! lol~ duno got time to read finish nots.. cos next week start training for work le.. hope got pay man. if not then sooOOoo sian.. we met *Amandia outside the library.. so qiao lor.. last time i also met her @ parkway during Guides camp.. lol~ we like always meet outside like that.. fated ba... this morning @ comfort i also met *eeping.. chatted awhile wif her..

then we went town.. had very very heavy lunch @ Cartel.. Pork Ribs + Fish & Chips.. *yummy!!! then watched Family Stone.. not bad la the show.. the ending was sad. then b4 that we tried turning for those $1 small key-chains @ those small machines.. then spoil.. then we so sad though the machine didn't eat our money.. cos the key-chain SO KAWAII lorx... but in the end we still got it @ hereen. wahhahahaha! =))) i got PIGLET!!!! lol~ after 2 Tiggers.. HAHA! so stupid lorx.. i turned 1st.. then it was tigger, which *ber wanted. then she got piglet. so diao! but we decided to give out some to others. keke.

met *yuhong & *yetsiau.. but didn't have dinner together then went home le.. we were still so full lah! oh my choco still wif her again.. lol! Zzz.. my food stuff always wif her one.. the food stays wif her sia.. then i always 4get. =pPPPpp

yest.. went for facial lor.. SO PAINFUL CAN!!! but finally got rid of that BIG BIG BIG pimple near my nose. lol~ then saw doc for my face.. my parents wanna remove those moles on face ba... still must go plastic surgeon. ZzZzz.. can do w/o lah.. oh well. my face is for them to slaughter. lol~ whatever la. i can't be bothered. better remember to eat medicine if not i die le.. =X

wed... had driving then went out wif *ber again lor.. lol~ oh! it was fun too! cos we went retail. HAHAHAHHAA. i spent $100+++... (>.<) *listener was so shocked.. lol!! but i also getting sth i wan from him... whahahaha.. he promise de. i seeing wat i wan liaoz.. come out from army then become rich le wat.. *hs maybe also can slaughter. =pPPp but he's v weird ehhh.. can't be bothered la. i brought a bossini top & crystal jeans, another GREEN top from Ebase & a denim mini. lol~ the jeans is for WORK ok.. lol! but it's true. but then i so broke now.. ZZZzz...but lucky today my mom gave me some cash again. HAHA. =))))

then went her house & watched Mr & Mrs. Smith b4 i went home.. still remembered that it felt so good to be in the rain.. lol~ v long never get drenched le. & i actualy enjoyed it. =X i'm weird ehhh... but things happen to you to make you become weird & different wats.. lol. am i correct to say that.

tues.. went k-box wif my mom & jie.. saw.. er.. *cey's... ya. lol. but i pretend that i never see him. heck la. not like i got anything to say to him like that.. can't be bothered. =X

hope this entry can be put up!! =)))

& *ber to get a job soon!!!

& *cher to get well soon!!!

shall blog b4 i couldn't.

cos my idiotic sister spoilt the com!!! zZzz.. and she KEEP insisting it WAS me. wth rights.

but then.. she brought a new CPU. HAHA. $800++ i think. i'm not bothered at all. cos it's her $$ anyways. & i SWEAR the com was fine when i was using it 2 nights ago. *whines*

*yay. i have de-kampong-nised myself. wahhahaa.. *ber will be jealous. =)))

i just finished watching disc 10 to 16 wif *ber & *stef at my place. FULL HOUSE. wahhaha.. i really really want the house lor... wao lau...the scenery so freaking nice can?! i also wan a handsome & cute husband!!! okok. the songs' still in my brain. lol~

ya. *cey called me yest.. i was freaking happy then. *yay. though we only chatted for awhile & she didn't call back. really missed her soOOoooOOoo much!!!

& i packed my room yest.. saw alot things which will make me sad/shocked/stunned/sigh. but ya. it'll just pile up in a corner in my little room until someday i came across them again. but then again.. i know my feelings for the things will be much more different i guess.

i duno wat i''m typing. lol~ i feel so lost w/o being online at least once a day. suffering from withdrawal symptons.. (>.<)

& my long nails keep getting stuck btw the keypads of the laptop. so annoying... lol.

& ya. i got the job. the contract was freaking 4 pages long. thank you *ber & *stef who accompanied me while i was going thru the process... keke. well.. actually the contract was damn wordy.. but the person kinda explained to me so that i don't actually feel so conned. lol. but then again. i hate having to go down to tampines at least twice a month again to submit my time-sheet or watever it is called. ya. maybe i'll get my mom to do it. i'll be working wat. where got time?! i think they are crazy.

but i'm kinda happy to get a job la. no need to search for others liaoz. the pay wasn't really that bad & sort of near my place.. but everything isn't comfirmed yet. so ya.

to those who said not to accept that job offer. i'd accepted it. lol~ the most *ching will just sort of disppear from the surface of the earth lor... lol~ but i can still make it for clubbing. HAHA. =))))

& i heard that A's results will be out in FEB. oh man. i rather that they'll just burn all the results away...i don't wanna get it back at all. i'm still as directionless as ever. haha. it's nice living in denial.. but *stef just sort of said that the world will be ending in 2006. lol. just look at all those frequent disasters & all. i guess it might be somehow true. so i shall die at the age of 19. =))))

i just feel like whining.. lol.

okay la. let me die then. haha.

haha. i made everyone close to me addicted to Full House. lol~

shld i have a sense of pride?!

anyways.. i finished watching it le.. 16hours of craziness.. plus i think i watch a few episodes for the 2nd time.. & *ber's coming my house to watch finish the rest on monday. HAHA.

it's really a niiccccccceeeeeeee & xin fu show. maybe i need to immense myself into this kinda dramas.. loL~ so i'll be filled wif love & happiness. but the show was really sweet. sad at times. but it'll always be a happy ending right? =)))))

i'm not saying anything abt the drama in case i become a spoiler. =pPPp

my mom brought me a pair of earrings & a necklace today.. it was like a set la.. i liked it. *yay... thanks mummy.. her mood has been nice for the past few days.. lol~

& i irritatingly used like $15 bucks with my ez-link card.. IN JUST A WEEK.

wth!!!! i hate travelling now!!! it's not the distance but SO EXPENSIVE!!! *whines*

and i always 4get to tap my card the 2nd time!!! ZzzZzz...

many pple went into NS le... this few days.. gonna miss them.. & my listener's gone too.. i need to find another one liaoz.. lol~

went for nose check-up today. my nose's getting better. *yay

had marche for lunch wif my mom & bro... it's his birthday tomolo.. but didn't buy anything too.. nvm de la.. we'll go shopping wif him tomolo.. hees. and more FOOD. oh no. when i'm supposed to be on diet. damn.

& mon i think i'm just gonna sign the contract liaoz... me & *ber decided not to go for the 2nd interview liaoz.. her another friend said that the job sucked too... hmMmm.. so i'll become a busy busy busy woman lerx... or girl. or whatever you call me. lol~

but i'm not sure. *ber is accompanying me to sign the contract anyways.. keke! =)))

my brain is filled with korean songs now... those in full house. & it's also my sister's phone ringtone!!! lol~

today. well. no stories.

cos i was more of.. normal. lol~

yest i totally lose myself. i wonder why too.

& i'll marry anyone who can afford to live in a FULL HOUSE. lol~

i mean it.

sooOOooooo damn bloody nice la can?!

anyways.. maybe i'm kinda on the lucky side.

went for 2 interviews.. & i got one. the other one waiting for 2nd interview on mon...

but i duno neh.... must work for like quite long.. but the pay is kinda okay.

i think.

i'm still thinking.. i'll then be a very very busy person le. haha.

no time to even go out wif my friends. esp when my dear *cey is finally back from taiwan on 25th. no words can express how much i missed her.

somehow pple have never been really around for me. but okay. i guess it's just me.

i'm still considering abt the jobs.. hm.. my driving will suffer man.

anyways today i had my 5th lesson already.. i drove all the way to tampines. (stupid place) ya. & i don't have the guts to chiong to cut lanes.. i think the instructor wanna puke blood le.. duno why i so lag this morning.. he must say PLEASE!! then i step on the accelerator. lol~

then it was so dumb. when i had to go all the way to tampines again from ubi for the interview.. but when i got to the CPF building finally.. *ber & *stef were leaving for another interview le.. cos i was late.. lol~ so basically i was alone again. but okay la. caught up wif a few cchsm pple.. then at least they were nice & include me in their conversation.. =))))

then i went to katong to find them after the interview, which was so dumb cos the person called to ask me go back to tampines to sign contract. oh wth rights. i hate going to that place so much lor... but see how lor.. i'm still kinda undecided yet.

we had the nice nice chicken rice at katong shopping centre.. where i used to eat wif *him. but it doesn't matter. the food still tastes great. changes always happen to people anyways. then we brought some nice cakes to be eaten at my house.. cos they wanna come over for vcd session.. lol~

we rushed down to Apex Town for *ber's 2nd interview.. by cab. & we went there for fun like that.. becos the 2nd interview will take like 1.5hrs?! wth rights.. never even inform b4 hand de.. shitty pple... then *ber said to have it on monday lor.. then when we left that place.. the stp person called me & said that i qualified. oh WTH WTH WTH rights?! why are they so fickled?! so i'm going back wif *ber on monday lor... which explains why.

but *xinmin kinda said the job sucked. she quit after like 2 trainings.. i'm not sure wat i wanna do eh... the 1 i didn't get yet is more flexible & less tiring.. i'm not sure. my mom just ask me to go for the interview 1st.. dun sign contract. ya. that's what i gonna do. but then i still dunno. haha.

but it feels kinda great eh. 1st time in my whole entire life.. i'm actually earning more than $1000+ a month!!! haha.. okay la. maybe it's not a huge sum but it's still alot of $$ lorx... & i don't have any working experience...

then *ber came over to my house 1st cos *stef had another interview... we slacked & watched VCD la.. lol~ but once i start working then not so slack le... maybe it's better too. i'll get to know new people... & i'll have less free time to think of nonsense.

yepp.. promised to blog abt past few days but i also didn't..

well.. i had been OUT, OUT, OUT, OUT & OUT. lol~

5th jan: watched full house 2 episode. met *chee, *ber & *stef for laska @ katong. went got interview @ Apex wif *ber... then went ice-skating at jurong being bright light bulb.. lol~

4th jan: driving... met *fanghao @ bedok. watched "merry christmas" @ cathay. it was niceee!!! & the guys @ cathay are cute. haha! =X then he keep eating.. & i keep nagging like his mother cos he had sore throat & he still eat so much. he's my listener. =))) i always whine at him. haha. cos only he can take it i think. =S

3rd jan: met *ber @ paragon... waited for her to finish her face appointment. lol~ ate Thai Express! my 1st time eating there... & the mango drink was super nice. =))))~ went job hunting again. coffee bean's only offering $4 an hour. lol~ just to spread the message around. then she cam over to my house wif straits times lol~ we're circling ads & tried calling lots of companies. somehow i call those are not weird or sounds mean.. lol~ *yay

2nd jan: met *bear & *jason for "A Chinese Tall Story" @ PS. wao lau i cried la.. =(((~ & my right eye was still hurting like mad... duno why. but now okay ler.. & it had been sooOOOoo long since i last see *bear le lor!!! =))) hees.. the movie was nice.. then we chit-chatted v long at the food court there.. & *jason's happily attached.. lol~ he's in the diver unit la.. jia luck. he's so gonna suffer.

then i met up wif 04s06 peeps for dinner @ Suntec Swizzlers!!! it was so yummy!!! alot of food to eat la... my 1st time dining there too... then we wanted to watch movie but no slots.. then we look @ ppl playing House of the Dead 4. *peizhen played wif yy.. lol~ they weren't that lousy.. lol~ i remember that i was v tired. & *chiachin said to go MOS.. then she said it in MOS as in like MOS in MOS burger... then i was like so confused cos pple called Ministry of Sound as M.O.S de la.. as in letter by letter... haha! was kinda surprised lor!!! a suggestion from her somemore.. then she so dot-ti-fied de lor... we organised liao then she say NOT FREE. ZZzzZZz...

1st jan 2006

the 1st day of the new year. i had a new year resoultion for myself. but i hope i can really really stick to it. =)))

i reached home @ 7am.. slept till 3pm & knew that there WAS a primary school gathering that day!!! lol~ so i pia down to holland v... wao lau.. then all the guys hor.. i think more than half i duno who the hell are they. haha! of cos *cezheng didn't go la. as expected. but i really have fun at Settler's Cafe @ Holland V... the games were fun.. & had a great time catching up i guess.. keke. 6 years le lor... & everyone's so different now i guess.*ramona's so much taller!!! lol~ & i think she have a cool education named "early childhood"! lol~

31st Dec 2005

blast blast blast. me, *ber, *stef, *min, *jiawei, *megan countdown @ Siloso's beach in Sentosa... my 1st foam party!!! =)))) but i regret not bringing a bottom to change... other than that & those FOREIGN WORKERS... i'm fine wif everything!!! the lightings are fantastic!!! but the music kinda sucked around those wee hours like 4am.. lol~ cos it was techno. i really had so much fun that night!!! & we got to know this bunch of guys ORD-ing soon from NS. they protected us from the dark side. whahahahha!! then we did alot of stupid things. & it really felt great to be in a foam party @ 12am 1st jan 2006 wif fireworks blasting over yr head. definitely spaceous unlike esplanade i heard. so dumb crowded. *yay. but i was like dead after that.. cos...

30th dec 2005

well. had a party @ my house remember? =)))~ the annual gathering for guides & scouts at my place... b4 that i wanted to sleep but in end i was OUT again becos of *marcius. he was whining that i very long never meet up wif him so i forsake my sleeping hours.. lol~ but i'm glad that i meet up wif him la.. it has really been sooOOooo long le.. & that idiot is ALWAYS so busy. ZzZ... he treated me some tomato soup hehe. it was nice. =))) then we talked alot rubbish. from *kevin to *amy.. to him being left on the shelf. haha. now i pei him le lor... he's still as sickening as ever. but then if he's not then he's not *marcius le.

the party was okay i guess. me & *stef did most of the cooking... i'm not sure wat are the rest really talking abt... some ghost stories of the past i guess.. lol~ then *houston got gf le!!! wao lau.. he damn zai la... just hold hands then can liaoz.. haha.. then *stef is zai w/o the "Z". lol~ the log cake was nice. hazel nut & choco. thank you girls...

then *lettie, *stef, *ru & *min stayed over @ my house... we played mahjong & me & *min chong Full House from 3am to 10am... HAHA! 7 episodes lor... never sleep @ all.. i slept v little only b4 heading down to Harbor Front wif *stef. & it was raining. how spoiler. but thank goodess it didn't really rain until like 5am the next morning.. hee.


wahhaha.. yep. i covered all. told you i'm more of a normal today.

whee. i wanna watch full house liaoz.. *ber is watching at her place now too. lol~

let see.. a little story to share. =))

edits: by me.

there was once a boy who loves butterflies alot. he catches and breed them in little glass containers in his little storage room.

someday he caught this beautiful pink butterfly.

he was obessed with it... he took it to everywhere he go.

the pink butterfly loves the little boy too. he was the one taking care of her every single needs.

they spent many happy moments together.

but these moments don't last.

the little boy got tired of the pink butterfly...

he turned back to place his loving on a blue butterfly...he used to love too, alot.

so he decided to release the pink butterfly into the forest, where it once belong...

but little does he know.. the pink butterfly didn't want to leave her tiny home at all.

but it didn't have a choice.. the boy shoo it away.

& now the boy is obessed with the blue butterfly, not realising that the pink butterfly was so torned, tramatised & heartbroken.

when it thought it could someday be turned into a little girl, & live happily wif the little boy.


(to be continued...)


okay! i know it was crap. i re-edited this entry for 3 times already. so that it will become more decent & readable & presentable. & why the sudden urge to write a fucking story?? cos.. butterfly don't exist anymore. & that's why my blog does not have any butterflies anymore.

why? the butterfly died.

it really really crushed.

i think i went crazy while i was bathing.. i was screaming/shouting/crying & what have you.

ya.

but who is to understand.. who can understand.

that only i can pull it thro myself.

(continue of story.)

the pink butterfly flew to a witch's cottage. it asked for an invisible potion.

& the witch did gave it. but the pink butterfly didn't know where to go to look for the little boy..

it was flying thro miles & miles, cottages to cottages just to have a glimpse of the little boy.

it didn't care that she'll see the blue butterfly, or the rest of the boy's butterfly's collection.

but when it finally found the boy, the boy is turning the blue butterfly into a little girl.

the boy obviously did not see the pink butterfly. & neither the blue butterfly who is now a girl.

the pink butterfly happy to see the little boy. really. but it didn't know what to do.

for the little boy will never want it back anymore...

(maybe to be continued somemore...)

ya. i guess sometimes things don't need to say until so clear de. wat's the point man.

& i know i havn't been exactly been blogging.

but who cares.

i'm very confused now. & i feel sick.

& perhaps i'm closing down this blog le.

not sure.

omg omg omg!

i'm so in love wif this song.

i guess it's just too true for me i guess. -sigh-

but i really love it.

maybe i'll get slapped to wake up again. hmm..

but then again.. =X

i'm too lazy to blog tonight. another time ba. =)))

I LOVE THIS SONG!!!

我会好好的 by 王心凌

我会好好的，花还香香的，
世界一直去，回忆真美丽 我
是想着你，一直想着你，
你在我心底，变成了秘密

不要说你爱我，你想我，如果你的心里没有这么做
只是勉强的敷衍我，我知道了会很难受。

我要你默默走 不回头，
我会清楚明白你要的是什么。
不许勉强的安慰我 说奇怪的理由。

到现在还是深深的深深的爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以，
那是我心中的幸福，我知道他苦苦的
到现在还是深深的深深的爱着你，
是爱情的友情的都可以
那是我心中的幸福，我知道他苦苦的

不要说你爱我，你想我，
如果你的心里没有这么做
只是勉强的敷衍我，我知道了会很难受。

我要你默默走 不回头，我会清楚明白你要的是什么。
不许勉强的安慰我 说奇怪的理由。

到现在还是深深的深深的爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以，
那是我心中的幸福，我知道他苦苦的
到现在还是深深的深深的爱着你，
是爱情的友情的都可以
那是我心中的幸福，我知道他苦苦的

我会好好的，花还香香的，
世界一直去，回忆真美丽
我是想着你，一直想着你，
你在我心底，变成了秘密

到现在还是深深的深深的爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以，
那是我心中的幸福，我知道他苦苦的
到现在还是深深的深深的爱着你，
是爱情的友情的都可以
那是我心中的幸福，我知道他苦苦的

要给你远方的祝福，我知道他苦苦的

did i make the wrong move??

anyways.. the past few days was a blast. totally cool.

i'm not blogging as my right eye is hurting like hell. duno why..

more to come. promise.

right now i really really need a job.

any offers?

i'm feeling weird now.