hmm.. hi? feeling equally crappy. tired & screwed. perhaps i'm finding too much fault in myself... doc says i'm stressed. that's why my face is full of crap. how true is that? & when the left side of brain hurts, it means becos of my studies. if it's on the right, it's becos of relationships. but so far, no headaches. =X

so, what the hell m i talking about? well.. high high high: ta-dah! that's how *dar wants me to be. i'm sorry for being such a mood spoiler at times. (or presently, everyday) but seriously, i think today i'm just drained from all those mugging for the chem faculty test & bio SPA trial, which in turn, studying everything comes to nothing useful too. I still (think & most prob 99% accurate) flunk my chem test. & i duno what the hell i was writing for that trial. i think ms. chua can laugh her head off.. seriously.

school's fine today. seriously monday blues. all my mugging goes into the drain. =(~ -bah- & that stp mr. lim cannot be more understanding.. still take down my name cos i never do until Q6 for his stp tutorial.. but maybe i shouldn't complain, cos how come the rest of my classmates can do his stp tutorial, but i can't? oh whatever.

today was so humid during PE... *dar didn't come to school today, cos he was sick. ran 4 rounds ard the field at quite some speed (not tai-tai-ing anymore), did some warm-ups. chew is finally back! wearing his arm-supporter like some bowler's hooking equipment sia... lol~ every1 must beware! cos he's back to catch tucking-out of blouse/shirts! lol~

today i wanted to offer help.. but i was scared that i will be rejected flat into the face, so i didn't say anything. but i know * needed help to hold some of the stuff...
so much for starting a conversation, but nothing is working. * just never looks me into my eyes anymore. what's wrong? i grew tansparency? *sigh* don't get affected ching. but even if how many pple tell me this, how not affected can i get? try to be me for just 1 day. perhaps it's not noticable after all, or once again, i'm over-reacting. but.. isn't all so obvious? we just don't stick anymore. or it's just... tomypointofview.

yEp. & after school, i went to meet *dar. we walked ard tm central for awhile, dunno what to do, dunno where to go. but we ended up at our *new hang-out spot: subway.. lol~~ ate some food & went 7-11 as i wanted to buy some gummies to eat. (not ligim lol~ =p) then *dar spotted this eeeWwww delicious white choco from nestle!!! really soooOOo nice lor.. can eat till like duno how many bars of it!! it's white choco wif rasberry & black currant! yummy!!! (>.<) but contain protein, carbo & 13.1g of F.A.T.S! beware ching! you gonna turn into some fat ass if you keep eating that bar of choco!!! (but it's sooooOO nice! +((((~) oh wells, where's my dieting plan man? it has been hardly activated.. lol~ i'm too easily tempted by food. =X help!!! i'm growing fat!!!

get well soon *dar. miss ya so much! =)

hmm..wondering where's *dar. hope he's safe.. still haven on back his hp..-worried-

anyways. hopefully i'm feeling better. thanks everyone.. =))) i promise i'll try to be happy just like the old days... i'll try. so that *dar or anyone else who bother won't be sad together wif me. but the sad feelings just can't leave me alone. they keep coming back to me. perhaps i'm experiencing at full-gear every single day. that's why. or am i avoiding the problems? -bah- i dunno larh. whatever. it's not my fault. really? are you serious? shld i physco myself into this mentality or.... do something/anything abt it? =X but i guess it's not easily solved.

i'm so sorry.. i cannot give my fill committment... but i just feel so out of place now. or maybe, not exactly. -sigh- i do not know.

havn't been having studying mood.. must start to mug ler.. not much time left. i have to score well. I HAVE TO. perhaps putting all my focus on studying will be the best. i can't afford to be faulty in that too..

anyways, today's pretty fine? had a long weekend =)) time to rest again.. duno why but i'm feeling so bloody tired everyday. yest i didn't even study/do anything when i got home from bowling. i was freaking tired & i just slept & was nearly late for school today. so late till *dar had to sms me & asked why i didn't call him to wake him up. -bah- i wanted to wake up early to study for chem SPA. but i just didn't have the determination to get up. so i pressed off my alarm & went back to sleep. & i keep dreaming these days. things that could happen on the next day, as though telling me whatever to expect the coming day. but of cos, none happened. i duno why also. =X

this morning i was like so crazy woman... i was late. woke up at 6.23am when i'm supposed to wake at 6am?! then i haven pack bag what-so-ever. taking stuff for *cher [when then on the car then i realised she sms-ed me last nite telling me that we're not meeting liaoz.. then i feel so wth~ rushing to take her stuff for what lol~] then my stp DARK pink socks stained on my uniform!! WAHHH!! good game. i think cannot be washed off le lorx.. lucky i got 3 sets then. hai. everything JUST have to go wrong rites? i'm seriously going insane le.. then i fa pi qi abit.. arugh. can't help it. everything HAVE to be wrong la.

school's okay i think.. was studying for SPA during maths, which turned out to be quite okay i think.. but i anyhow wrote for skill D (a). whatever la. nobody knows what to write anyways. mr lim also never teach.. zZz.. then SPE my class and some other classes ganna Mr. Samad. oh gosh. my 1st 3 mths class PE teacher. we got to play Hockey for 10 weeks. those from 1st 3 mths all suffered under him.. today was actually quite strenous lol~ tai-tai gang too long never exercise le la.. lol~ always never run.. just walk walk walk loL~ =p lazy tai-tais. then when he was teaching theory i was staring into blank space..

recess we tried to study for SPA as much as we can stuff things into our brains. had GP, which i have to stay back on tues at 5pm do the stp GP quiz. it's not that i dun wanna do whats. stupid system of tpjc dun let me log into the quiz again.. bah. waste my time. but tues got maths remidal then nvm lorx.. bio we finished more of genetics tutorial.. then given more work to do..

then gave PZ her beautifully wrapped bday present. her bday on sunday larhx.. so shall wish her then. lol~ =) think she like our present barh. still got addidas pink water bottle. though i didn't shop for them.. still is a thought from all of us worrr.. then after school went KFC for lunch.. met *cey & her darling. so long never see her lerx..

then me, *dar ,*chelle & her darling went to watch Ms Congenality 2. but then while watching half-way the whole GV tamp ganna short-circuit. then black-ed out lor. but got emergency lights larhx... then me & *dar decided not to wait for the show to resume, got our refunds & headed to town lol~ then we went cine to watch Sponge Bob.. lol~ funny & stupid show. but it's nicer than Ms Congenality 2. lol~ it was getting kinda boring.. or perhaps, haven get to the interesting parts yet la. we had some not-so-tasty dinner @ Pastamania in Cine then *dar sent me home le... we stayed at my condo downstairs for awhile then i finally went up to my home lol~ was quite a fun day larhx.. finally a day without any shoutings at each other or quarrelings. which he promised me. =))

bowling on wed was pretty okay.. maybe wasn't that pressurizing so i did a little better.. hees.. then that stp Darren & Nick keep using FAKE hong-kong accent to irritate the hell out of all of us at that 2 lanes. lol~ then went to have dinner wif *dar b4 i went home myself. & was almost died. lol~ i also didn't know how i finally managed to get home all myself. seriously. i think i became a zombie, not aware of my surroundings at all.. & i almost miss my stop.

yay. *dar's home. =) dun need worry le.

i'm so tired again. think it's becos of all those stupid medicines i have been taking.

& i keep getting bite from stp mosquitoes!! i hate them!! *arugh. make me soOOo itchy! (>.<)

-can't have the best out of 2 worlds-

2nd day of term 2.. school reopens.. hmMm..=) finally bloggin once again. but actually i didn't leave my blog ALONE kays.. i was changing the blogskin!!! hope it turns out pretty okay. at least my tag's up & *cher's is happy wif it.. HaAs.. sorry for MIA-ing for soOOoo long. lol~

today.. had school as per normal?? met *dar in da morning @ the usual place.. he's later than me. then he didn't want to wake me (cos i was laying on da table) , went to hall 4 assembly.. my eyes were swollen (god knows why.. but okay, i admit. i cried the hell out of me last nite.) then PeiYu's & PeiZhen's eyes were swollen too!! but they didn't cry.. they peeped at their brothers while they're bathing!! lol~ [i mean, their brothers were the ones bathing lol~ =p] & *chelle knew that i cried the 1st look she looked at me.. cool yeah? too bad my looks aren't deceiving enough to cover up for my sadness... hmph.

anyways.. had GP [wrote part of an essay], bio [tutorial on genetics still], recess, maths lect [when my heart aches soOOo much, nothing goes in I guess. I do not know why either. I just feel soOOoo sad, my heart's aching soOOo much. i'm tryin my best to get back to normal.. but in the end i did larhx.. =)] went to eat abit more again @ the canteen then went for maths tutorial.. wasn't really listening.. didn't have the mood too.. & we didn't have maths remidal!! *YAy! double yay-ness!! =)))) i don't even feel like going.. didn't have the mood to STUDY, or to do anything larhx.. then *dar accompanied me lorx.. hEes. went his house then went home myself cos *dar was too tired, anyways he had lots of maths to do too.. so yeah.

hMmm.. why was i so sad? actually i also don't know. seriously. sh*t. am i back to my numb-ness again?? it had NOT been erupting for quite a loOOOnnnggg time lol~ oh well. okay i was still sad abt {someone} who still cannot be bothered wif me.. it's so difficult larhx.. i'm so helpless. but i'm trying my very best not to stand in the way.. so, hopefully, nothing WORSE could happen. but then.. i'm not sure whether i'm doing the right thing. or shld i initate? -bah- hate this stupid thing. arugh!

& maybe.. perhaps.. the other him who is no longer important to me now. i know i have *dar. but somehow i got this sh*t feeling again. i'm sticking to my decision. i won't find him, unless he takes the 1st step. [well, obviously he didn't, or perhaps he NEVER will.] i'm NOT pinning any hope seriously, but.. so much of a FRIEND. i just feel like a failure that's all.. maybe i'm someone who can't keep friends for life? -sigh- i'll just take it that.. he's gone for GOOD. thank you for leaving my life. so that i can have *dar why my side now... =)

-sigh- perhaps i'm just NOT A GOOD FRIEND MYSELF. tell me how can i improve myself? i seriously know i do not have all the time in the world... & i cannot be THERE for everyone i promised though i'll try my VERY BEST TO... MIA-ing for long yeah? i miss those times having sooOOo much fun wif my friends... but all of it seems soOOoo long ago. but. changes are inevitable yeah? i know that very truly muself. it was even in my previous blogskin. (>.<) Eeeee.. i hate this feeling i'm having now.

maybe i should have learnt to stay stronger, not let things around me affect me so much. but that's the way i am. that's the way i WILL BE AFFECTED. i even feel that there's hardly anyone for me to turn to now. i know there are LOTS of you guys out there, waiting for me to reach out to... but.. somehow i just feel that there're obstructions... obstacles. or perhaps. just give me some time to cool it off 1st. i'm so confused. =X

and.. i should learn to stop crying... so much.

i'm back. =) back from my shanghai trip, & back for blogging...

actually i'm back since wed morning.. reached home ard.. 6am in the morning?? lol~ took night flight.. the travelling was so, sooOOo tiring i tell you. can't even sleep properly on da plane.. zzZz.. anyways.. *dar missed me alot alot alot.. =pPPp he waited up for me the WHOLE night just to talk to me once i got home safely.. HeEs! *muacks! so sweet rites!! =X

before i continue abt the past few days.. let's talk abt my trip lol~ =))


hMmm.. my flight, MU586? left sg @ 240pm? then the flight's like 4hrs & 40mins? then by the time i reached shanghai was at night le.. WAO LAU!! so DAMN COLD larh!! (which it turns out to be the COLDEST night for the few days we went there, probably becos my family [every1 except for my sis who has to work] is not used to the weather...) then we check-in in da hotel, then went to this.. "xin tian di" (all the places' names are in chinese larhx.. lol~ china marhx..) which is like a street for angmohs.. pubbing & all the posh shops larhx.. nth soOOO special, (somemore it was so BLOODY cold) we went for some expensive dinner, eating western food & we settled for the night.

the next day.. woah.. damn tiring.. cos it's like.. it's my family touring, with 1 tour guide & a chaffeur.. lol~ then we had ALOT of time for the tourists attractions... in the end we toured many of the places which is supposed to be toured on the 2nd day.. going to famous temples, streets, hm.. factories? or shld i say shops? that show you how they manufacture or extract some goods & in the end they'll bring you into showrooms & "force" you buy stuff... so being the ONLY family, we keep buying stuff.. HaAs!! but the trip was more fun then expected larh seriously.. i thought it would be SO BORING.. anyways, it's also a very good time for my family to interact too (which is the MAIN purpose actually.. my mom's complaining that we don't care abt our DAD.. but it's like.. there's not much common topics all this while whats.. but i guess things are better after the trip?? which i'm not sure abt too..)

hmMm.. yarh then the 2nd day we continued to tour.. but we got alot free time, the guide also dunno where to bring us to lerx.. then the last day we went SHOPPING (again)... my brother brought the MOST THINGS!! i hate him!! lol~ nah.. i brought some stuff too larhx.. lol~ just that i feel like complaining.. lol~ =pPPp i brought some clothes &.. small gifts for my frens & *dar larhx.. hEes.. =X (*dar liked the customised key-chain & pig-pig kays!! =))) *yay) [which i also got a pair.. hees.. but cannot put the way he did in his room.. =(~ cos my mom will KILL me if she sees it] oh.. yeP. went to this very tall building too.. the view of the city is damn.. WOAH. lol~ & the night view of shanghai is nice too!! it's at least cleaner than hong kong! the streets esp! took some photos larhx.. but i looked FAT (cos i'm wearing layersSSs of clothings) so i'm not posting photos! HAas! =X & my face's in SERIOUS CRITICAL SITUATION NOW! sh*t! =((~~ i'm so ugly now!!!! bOOoo.. i'm peeling & peeling & my face is full of crap! (>.<) arugh!

yep.. that's abt it marhx.. i lazy to blog haas! (or shld i say recall~ =p) oh yeah.. then i went to see some cheena doctor too.. my dad larhx.. say he's pro blah blah.. then now i have to eat medicine for 2 months! -bah-


*yah.. while getting ready to go for training on wed..marcius called me.. [whenever he calls like nth good happens 1 lol~] asked me to go out lah.. this & that larhx.. then i said i got training.. then he told me.. that some other him come back liaoz... ohh.. maybe i'm the last few to know larhx.. but anyways, haven hear from him since then... actually we didn't even talk larhx.. i just heard him saying "hi" from far.. marcius holding onto the phone i think.. hmmm.. i admit. i admit that i over-reacted. but i think it's normal.. after all.. ( i shldn't talk abt sensitive topics here. youknowwhy.) called *cey to calm down (thanks girl) & *cher told me that she's meeting them... oh ya.. that's all...

training was okay.. i was DAMn tired la.. didn't sleep much after coming back also.. after that *dar came to my house awhile.. cos my parents are out (but there's still my brother, mind you =p) we went out for dinner then talked awhile then he went home le lorx.. MISS HIM SoOOOo much in shanghai!! can't even talk long somemore.. =((~ but everynite i'll try to call him so i can sleep! =pPPpp

hMm.. then thurs i went to the dentist.. (finally in like how many donkey years), had 2 teeth fillings & cleaned my teeth! =)) then went facial.. HaAs! make-over like that.. but my face is still like sh*t! ARUGH! =(~ eeeWWww.. after that went out wif *dar.. Hees! we wanted to go beach.. but in the end we met at bugis & went town wif ugly outfits. loL~ but WHO CARES =X we walked from somerset all da way to lido, had dinner & watched son of the mask.. the baby's soOO cute! =))) i kinda liked the show but *dar find it boring.. hMm.. =S

TODAY! hMmm.. had roll-off.. average 94~ =(~ tried my best le larhx.. some throws i dun even dare to throw la.. Zzz.. think i'm reserve for da girl's team.. unless for pro j1 girls coming in after 1st 3 mths larhx.. then went *dar's house.. *dar COOKED for me wor!!! 1st time yeah!! =))) some fricilli wif sausage, onions & meat.. hEes!! *muacks. thank-you deary!! (when i was spending time sleeping in his room while he's cooking lol~ too tired le.. can't really sleep well for the past few days.. duno why) then b4 i went home we went tm to buy some pill boxes for myself, dad & mom.. (cos all of us need to take medicine from the cheena doc.) then i brought twins new chinese ablum for *dar!! lol~ still say dun wan buy.. see his face already know he wants it lor.. that dumb dumb! lol~ =X then we explored the cd, ate some mushroom bread (yum!) & ice-cream then i go home myself le.. cos *dar was too tired to send me home...

yeah! finish updating! wooTs! =))) did any1 miss me? =X

hmm.. shall blog b4 leaving for shanghai tomorrow..

end of term1. can say for the past few days hadn't been really happy, but oh well, at least i know what's going on now.. shaln't say much in my blog larhx.. cos.. it all happened becos of my blog perhaps. i shall just be waiting for the day, ego-ness & ....??? will go away & 1 more friend willing to talk to me once again. =)

today had a short day @ school.. nth much of the usual... we had this talk on tidal waves & if u invent things that can make use of tidal & wind energy & sell off electricity produced, you'll become a millionaire during our bio lecture, which dragged on for soOOOo long that it eaten our Maths period, OBS wasn't free to take us on later of the day.. & so we'll have to catch up ourselved.. =((~~ but it's not even our fault.. we need to stay back for bio lecture somemore.. ZzzZz..

& my auntie visted me today.. SO SUAY LORZ! when i'm gg for my trip tomolo.. wth sia.. but when it's late for so long, i started worrying too.. but then.. COME NOW?!! ZzZz.. -___-"

after school had some fun time wif *dar! =) then cey called & scared me.. cos she's crying becos of her baddie.. but they're okay now i think.. =)) then i was thinking WAH we have some telepathy sia.. (cos' i just cried becos of... in front of *chelle & in front of *dar) anyways.. after changing into the "mickey house" shirt *dar brought for me.. my mood was better le larhx.. hEex. then i looked so KIDDY!!! EEeeeEEeeeee!! =(~ but also he look at me anyways! =PPpp

we went bugis for lunch cum dinner.. cos we ate at sakae.. (my mom suddenly ask me to eat outside cos she dun wan cook le.. zzz) then we went to walk walk abit.. & went to play arcade!! Haas!! it's fun kays!! we played some mahjong game, throw "basketballs" game & some other machines larhx.. hEes!! then got this stp guy playing the same "basketball" game as us (when u just keep shooting into the basket for 1 min.. kinda kiddy but WHO CARES rite?! =p) then he got the score of 146 i think.. then we're trying to break the lower score (cos got 2 machines of the same type) of.. 133 i think.. then we broke it!! TA-DAH!! 154!! Wahahah! =pPPp THEN!! the stp guy come back again to break our score.. EEEEWwwwwwwwww.. so EVIL RITE!!! he gotten 168 i think.. then we very bu shuang!! ARUGH!! cos our victory was like only for.. 10, 15mins? then ganna thrashed!! ZzzZz.. then we went rockery.. (sort of fav pak-toring place) & rested & took up the challenge to thrash that stp guy!! Whahaha!! then we won!! YEAH!!! 179 kays!! then we faster leave the arcade, if not later see our score ganna thrashed then sian 1/2.. HaaAs! =X like so childish.. but that's us.. =X

then *dar sent me home.. then we saw my condo downstairs sent up a small soccer court & half a full size basketball court.. COOL YEAH!!! then i can play anytime ler!! then next time my frens come can play also.. hees!! then i went home to take ball then we went to play together.. WahHHh.. my skills like S.H.I.T. cans?! how can i ganna thrashed by HIM!! when he so NOOB!! hAhaas! =X =pPPp kidding la *dar.. must get my skills back!!! hmph!!

then *dar left.. unbearingly.. Haas! =XXxXxx that dumb dumb~

& now.. i'm so tired.. having my auntie torturing me.. but at least my mind is clear of doubts now.. thanks *cey & *ber for consoling me.. =)))) *muacks. hope i'll have a nice trip then. miss ya guys soOOoo much. everyone. lol~

& mostly.. my *dar of cos. =) *maucks. -emu ilusion-

& yest.. was such a S.A.D day.. *sigh. perhaps i shld just 4get abt it by not blogging.. Haas! but maybe i'll continuing blogging.. but not now. tata! i'm off!

woah.. i'm like S.O B.L.O.O.D.Y T.I.R.E.D larhx.. ZzzZzz..

hmMm.. ups & downs this week.. i'd realised there are ALOT things in life that is incontrollable by me.. i'm just a nobody to prevent any unhappiness from happening... -sigh-

anyways.. just let me get sth off my chest...

1.) to those who don't like my bf.. SCRAM the F***ing off!!!

like hallo??? give me some breathing space cans??? -arugh- so many things to let off, but i just duno where to start. perhaps i'm just pms-ing.. this month's late. so what my bf's a wimp or whatever, i LOVE him. *HMPH* what i cannot stand is that THOSE who say MEAN things are actually those who i cared for soOOOooOo much! wif a good/close in front of the word "FRIEND". it just hurts so much, to the extend that my tears can just give way...

2.) I'm sorry that i cannot be the BEST friend on earth.

& it IS my FAULT that i couldn't juggle my time well btw my friends & my bf? who can actually understand the tiniest, weeniest BIT? maybe i shouldn't complain at all, No NO. but somehow, i just experience times & times of disappoinment... m i really THAT sensitive? maybe i should LEARN: to let things go easier, so that i won't be affected THAT easily...

anyways, today i went to the Career Fair @ Suntec today wif *dar.. saw silvia, shiling & ruru.. but when i see them they also dun wan care me like that.. (-sigh-) anyways *dar kinda liked the raffles institute & as for me.. just went bronchure collecting.. *sigh. still didn't have any SINGLE idea of what i want my career to be... soon i'll graduate from tpjc.. & then depending on my results, i'll end up in SOMEWHERE, hopefully some Uni will accept me...

my mom still scolded me for not looking up info on overseas college, she WAS the one who said i'm NOT gg overseas.. then she scold me for not seeing.. wth rites? then she say wat if i couldn't get into a decent Uni? how the HELL do i know rites?! -bah- My "A's results are like so DAMN important to me now.. & my dad's like.. why cannot study medicine? & become a doc.. like hallo!? i also wanna be a doc.. but DO I HAVE THE *toot*ing chance?! i dun even have the LEAST qualification of 4 A's? hai~ when will some1 finally get the point?! (fustrations!!)

anyways, conclusion: i still duno what i wanna be anyways.. perhaps i'll just fit in whatever i can apply for. perhaps being a teacher is the FINAL option.

today.. hm..not a bad day i supposed, but was hurt awhile.. mindy said she keep calling me but i never hear.. in the end also never meet up wif her... went to have meals (lunch & dinner) wif my family.. & went mache wif *dar, walk ard suntec, esplanade.. my whole body's aching larhx.. i'm so tired.. but we did have some fun time together.. =)))

yest i got back my chinese A's results. gotten A2. was really happy larhx.. out of my expectations.. cos all the while in school i only hit a b3 the most.. at least i've got an A to slap into my mom's face.. she didn't even know i took my chinese last year larhx.. so she'll see my results next year i supposed. but it doesn't matter.. she dun give a damn abt chinese. cos my chinese is FOREVER GOOD. i ALWAYS excel in chinese.. cos i WAS born in hk? WahhHH.. chao bia-ness.

anyways, WAS very happy for the rest of my frends too.. cos we could all go to WAR!! hEes.. (some private joke here) & anti-PEACE!! (the stp cheena teacher) but *dar wasn't happy wif his results.. took quite long to cheer him up.. friday was very tiring too.. though had a SHORT day in school, i was aching all over cos thurs i climbed the rock wall in school!! hEes!! & i was the 1st 1 to climb to the top & reach the "rock" for my group!! =))) shiling & chelle managed to finish the route too.. & i'm sorry to be SO FAT & HEAVY & caused ruru to fly in mid-way.. (she was belay-ing me you see) & i was SCREAMING & SCREAMING. (the USUAL me, who elses.) yepP.. & i was travelling to tm, back to sch, back to tm, went to safra to take *dar's ball (met some stp AH MA, keep scoldin the hell out of us.. just becos we can't stand straight on the freaking bus?!) & went to katong pocket bowl on a stp 10 which air-con's SPOILT?! i feel like fainting canS?! so bloody HOT... cannot stand the weather & heat these days...

after bowling (2 plain hours of bowling cos coach didn't come..), me & *dar went to bugis (Terra) for dinner.. HEes.. the usual U.S played silly games & talked abt alot things.. =pPPp but we did really had fun during dinner time!! just the 2 of us... HeEs. =X reached home ard 10pm.. which i'm told that i'll be gg to shanghai during my march hols!! 4 days.. 12th-15th march i think.. WahhHh.. some last minute decision by my parents.. no chance to say no.. *dar's gonna miss me lots lots! HAas! =S but i'm not keen to go anyways.. heard that it's DAMN COLD (snowing?!) when i'm so afraid of the cold... +Xx

anyways on thurs..had maths lect, SPE (rock climbing), Chem SPA (which was OKAY), GP (cross word) & Bio (Tutorial).. then we were all so tired & hungry, but only me, zhen & ruru went to eat KFC @ t-mart.. we're soOOOo hungry that we ordered a 4 person meal!! wif the KFC coupon~~ lol~ but in the end we couldn't finish the food too.. gave some to *dar, then walked back to school (drenched) & waited f0r him after his maths remidal.. was supposed to teach him maths but in the end we end up slacking at his house...

hmmMm.. friday was really some experience for me. i swear to bia hard for my A's. cos lucky isn't on my side this year & i need the freaking grades so that i can please my parents & end up somewhere decent. never cry over spilt milk.

bah. i know i'm pms-ing... cos i'm NOT feeling any better after typing so much rubbish.

to my dreamland cos *dar's playing mahjong... i miss him. =(~

1st of all: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHILING!!! =))))

hope you've enjoyed the choco cake we "secretly" baked for you on Sat!! we had such a difficult time trying our VERY BEST to hide it away from you larhx.. but we knew you had seen it anyways.. =pPP but anyways.. u still like it rites!! =))) all our effort nehs!! then thank god it still taste O.K.A.Y, after staying in the fridge for.. 3 days?! hEes.. we brought white chick VCD 4 her too.. hope she'll have a nice birthday?! =)))

school's fine today.. *dar was late, so i sat until the bell rang at the canteen & went to join da class.. had civics... (when we celebrated shiling's bday..) had GP to finish up essay (=(~) and did some grammar error WS. Bio we did tutorial, ate during PE, had maths lecture, 2 breaks (doing maths) & had maths tutorial..

in the end all of us decided to pon CHINESE once again.. (since results coming out on friday) the tai-tai gang (expt chiachin) wif *dar, jason & apple went cs to watch Howl's Moving Castle!! =))) it's a very nice anime!!! or it's just that i like it alot!! HaAs!! (>.<) i realised i still liked to watch cartoons!!! =pPPp i'm Y.O.U.N.G @ heart okays!!! +PPPpPpp HEeS!! anyways it's sort of like a love story larhx. the little boy's soOOOOOooOOo cute!! the doggy too!!!! =))) the girl also very xin fu.. cos howl's VERY HANDSOME!!!! lol~ (>.<) gg crazy..

after that we settled for @ the food junction after much idling ard, duno where to eat.. me & *dar ate japanese food & da 3 couples sat on 1 table, the rest of tai-tai gang sat next to us.. we're just like talking & eating when something hurtful was said...but it WAS not from *dar...

it's not the 1st time already.. perhaps most (or shld i say ALL) of the time i choose to ignore those ill comments... but why she had to say it, even IN FRONT OF my boyfriend?? I dunno how many pple heard... but the both of US definitely heard it. you can say it's just some STUPID COMMENT, or maybe she didn't mean it.. but still, it's so H.U.R.T.F.U.L. did she spare any feelings for me, this friend, whom she knew for like 6 years already? -sigh- or perhaps, i shouldn't be so sensitive. but WAS really hurt.

went home after walking ard wif *dar.. was feeling kinda unwell.. dunno why.. *dar didn't send me home.. both of us were so tired.. today i ate ALOT of rice!! =(~ CARBOsssSSs!! oh no!! =X

yEst.. Hmmm.. long day.. 410. had bio SPA.. wao lau!! think i left out alot of stuff.. =((~~ hais!! seriously no time to write finish larhx.. my hand is like so NUMB after that... then we went for the NTU biological talk.. it's quite boring.. then ALOT of questions.. got this girl wanna be a DOCTOR soOOo much.. too much to tahan~ lol~

after that went to meet *dar, he went bowling wif his frens.. we went bedok to eat & bugis for rockery.. the uncle also recognises US liaoz.. lol~ cos we like keep going there to pak tor like that.. lol~

then slept early cos i was very very tired.. (due to PE barhx.. & somemore was mugging hard for SPA.. we ran 2 runs & played soccer for PE. there's this girl like 4EVER getting the ball w/o passing to her team-mates.. then she WHACK DAMN HARD.. me & peiyu [being defenders] ganna the ball quite some time...pain lorx.. & i seriously CANNOT KICK. HAas! then ruru scored!!! she play soccer that time very funny.. seeing her backview~ loL~ =pPPp then during break WAS wif *dar... he was tryin to ka jiao me while i was trying to study 4 my SPA. & HE DREW ON MY FINGERNAILS!! EEeWWw.. lol~ luckily can rub away.. & HE BULLY MEMememmeE!!! =pPPpppPPp BEAT ME SOMEMORE!! =((~~but we're just playing larhx..(>.<))

the weather these days are horrible isn't it? HOT & smoggy. irritating for my nose. -bah-