A Little Help From My Friends

To be honest, I'm struggling with my attitude in this new church I'm attending.

Problem #1 It's not them it's me. I keep trying to blame them for my attitude problem. a) They aren't my old church. b) They have weird lighting. c) The worship pastor bugs me. d) I don't like the songs. e) They have weird pictures. f) I don't trust Southern Baptists. g) The pastor is talking about a building fund, etc. Unfortunately I could go on and on. I am Way critical and I hate it.

Because in my heart I KNOW those are. . .well stupid excuses. It really is my heart that's the problem. If my focus is on the Lord, I could forebear past my personal preferences for music, and worship styles, and for goodness sake. . .building funds, right?

Problem #2 I am way too distracted and am having an awful time shaking it. There is, well, a lot going on and nothing going on all at the same time. So Much Change has happened and I'm still adjusting from it all, so my mind goes so many places with my new life, responsibilities, and things to come.

Through all of this, I confess, I need help. I've tried to fix it myself, to drum up the self control and discipline to focus. And it's not working.

I'm asking for help, prayer, help me fight this battle I am losing on my own.

This is my prayer:
Lord, I need your help to even be able to worship you. I can't do it on my own. Take all of this, I trust you with it Lord. Thy will be done. Amen.

Those Moments

This is one of those moments.

Where things just feel off. Everything is different around you and you wonder, just wonder, if what you were relying on will still be there. If God is who you thought he is. Everything else is different, maybe he's different.

This is one of those moments where you can choose.

Regardless of what things look like around you, or how you feel inside, you can still choose to keep going on what your faith has shown you to be true. Even if everything looks different. God is. Here. Now. In this moment. Even if everything else looks different.

I can choose to trust him.