1. Killing Me Softly – I’ve joked with Jen that this is our song…but really its God’s work. I mean those times when a friend of yours is speaking the same thing that is on your heart! It’s blows me away how often God uses friends and family in my life. When our struggles really are so similar and we can teach and sharpen each other if we just step out and share what’s really going on in our lives instead of trying to hide it so that we look put together.
2. Kierkegaard – My Mom sent me a card last week with a quote from Soren Kierkegaard that I just love “If I were to wish for anything, I should not wish for wealth and power, but for the passionate sense of the potential . . . for the eye which, ever young and ardent, sees the possible.” Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres…
3. Kris – God has used this new friend in my life more than I ever thought possible. I will continually praise Him for His perfect plan.
4. Kites – My family flies kites. It’s just something we do, we go to Mission beach and fly kites. It is frivolous and fun and brings us together as a family. I love it.
5. Kindred Spirits – I love this description of two friends that really know everything about each other and understand each other.
6. Kind – I used to listen to a song about kindness when I was a child, and I love that it is still in my head today. “When I treat you kindly, it makes you happy, changes your insides. Makes you feel encouraged, loved and special, and it makes you kind. Isn’t God good when he asks us just to love like he does? Isn’t God good, when he asks us, just to be so kind.”
7. Kindergarten – I’ve decided that if I could do it all over again, I wouldn’t be an analyst. I’d be a kindergarten teacher. However since I can’t do it all over again, I am so thankful that the Lord helped me discover such an intense desire to love the kids in my life.
8. Ken doll’s – without him, where would baby Barbies come from? OK not really. Man “K” isn’t easy! Moving on!
9. Kissing – It’s probably one of the best uses of your time in a marriage relationship.
10. Klondike bars – It’s a standard, but not required dessert at family functions. One of the things I will typically pick up on my way to wii night with my sister. We started getting them for family nights growing up and they stuck. They are so delicious!
11. Kahuna (as in The Big Kahuna) – A very popular movie in my family growing up was a movie called Back to the Beach with Annette Funicello and Frankie Avalon and…yes none other them PeeWee Herman (pre-scandal). It’s super cheesy but has some classic lines in it…one of them was a favorite “Mom am I adopted, if not, can I be now?”
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Thursday, September 03, 2009
Ten on Tuesday - J (Just a few more and I'll be back on track!)
1. Jingles - Gimme a break! Gimme a break! Break me off a piece of that ____. Oh I wish I were an Oscar Meyer Wiener... I really do enjoy catchy tunes that continue to ring in your ear...so you know what they do? Beside work (maybe) at reminding us of certain products? They bring a small sense of community. Just something else that people, maybe with little in common that is obvious, can relate to each other through. Yes sometimes I find myself watching TV because I am lonely...not because the TV itself is a necessarily good companion...but because I know somewhere there are other people in the world watching the same thing I am. That makes me feel like a part of something. And if I, who am surrounded by the Love and acceptance of amazing friends and family, feel that way I bet there are other people out there that feel the same way too...granted they may not have analyzed it to the degree I have...sheesh. But also maybe I can relate to them someday if they hear me humming that tune and it can be how we start up a conversation and find that we have other things in common, and then somehow bless each other through that. Stranger things have happened. And yeah I did just write the framework of a Hallmark movie, but I don't think that's all bad either.
2. Joey D- Yes ladies and gentlemen he eats diaper cream like its going out of style, but he's a product of two of my favorite people in the whole world...and him just talking to me can melt my heart into a puddle...I am so very thankful he exists and can't wait to see what is to come! Praise the Lord for His child Joey.
3. Josiah R- Yes ladies and gentlemen he pees on me...but if I am going to be peed on by anyone in the world, he's who I'd pick no doubt! I can't wait to get to know Josiah, see him grow in the strength of the Lord, hear his voice when the time comes, and watch his parents raise him to be an amazing man of God.
4. Justification - So this is the thing I'm learning a lot about now. This thing called Justification and how it is different then Sanctification. So at the moment we accepted Jesus as our Lord and Savior, at that moment in History, right when it happened, we were Justified. Done. No going to hell. God no longer sees our sin in the past present or future when determining where we spend eternity, he sees his Son in us. Period. That's the point of justification. It ONLY takes faith. That's the amazing part about grace that it happens "while we are still sinners". Sanctification is an ongoing process of us becoming more and more Like Jesus. I still have nightmares sometimes. Anxiety attacks that I'm going to hell. Maybe a few of you didn't' know that I ever had those but I did. It's been a gnarly last few years...but anyways. I still have those sometimes thinking, nope I screwed up too badly, I had a chance to be saved but I blew it. Or, what if I'm missing something, what if there is something that I haven't done that has been left out and I'm S.O.L.? I mean this is kind of an important thing to get right...you know? This isn't something that you want to, you know, just wing it or just take someone elses word...trust me...Man is Fallible. So when these anxiety attacks some I go back to what I know to be true (something my brilliant sister reminds me constantly to do) What do I KNOW for sure? What is consistent with what I know about Grace and God's work in MY life? God is Love, Faithful, Forgiving, Perfect, God sent his Son to die, and the Bible says that we are justified by Faith. Period. Whatever else happens after that isn't the point, we are Justified by Faith. And I can stand in his grace with That and Only that to hold on to till the end of my days and after.
5. Jelly Beans - Are so yummy, but seriously if they are the gourmet kind then I need the map. I Don't like mixing flavors that just don't go together and I REALLY don't like thinking I'm getting a Coconut and ending up with a Buttered Popcorn. I really like the super cheap barely flavored sugary gummy kind that is found around Easter time. They are delightful.
6. Juice - particularly Guava Juice - it's my favorite, its pink, it's yummy and it makes me feel exotic.
7. Jamba Juice - oh on hot summer days this is a lifesaver. And they were a great place for my sister Charity to work for a while.
8. Jessie - My stepsister that is moving in with Mom and Tim on Tuesday! I am so thankful for her and her baby daughter Olivia. I hope that we can be close and I Adore Olivia who is the most giggly one year old I ever met. You walk into the room and her smile and laugh and hug just absorbs you! I am so excited for her to constantly be in my life!9. Journey - Don't Stop Believin'! OK not really, I mean I o enjoy a Journey song but I'm talking about literal and metaphorical journeys. Where there is a beginning point and an ending point. Thank you Lord for the journeys you take us on during out lives. May we honor you.
10. Jen - Yes. I must say, I can't let J go by without saying...I don't think I ever met someone like her in my Life. When she came over the first night we hung out just us, we talked until all hours and I...well...I was terrified. We Both Freaked Out, we had shared a little more then was comfortable! But wow, in the Short time we have known each other I have been blessed and challenged in so many ways. Thank you Lord for Jen Brown, may you bless her and guide her to Love you, others, and grow more like you every day. Amen! (Happy Birthday Jen!)
Ten on Tuesday - I (I can't believe how behind I got on these!)
1. Independence –the opposite of being controlled by anything. Control by choice is very different.
2. Intergalactic – it’s the only way to travel!
3. Ice Cream – Oh boy oh boy I love love love Soy Ice cream!
4. Inspector – Gadget, Clouseau doesn’t matter I love mysteries. I love reading them and watching movies about them. Even the old 80’s one’s like Colombo, Murder She Wrote, and Hart to Hart.
5. Interesting – I use this word too much. Well, I used to use this word too much…now use the word “delightful” too much. I wonder if this work feels neglected? But I like this word. It’s handy.
6. Imagination – Where would we be without it? Let’s imagine… :)
7. Interdisciplinary – This is what I graduated with. I am very thankful for it because I don’t know that I would have bothered to graduate if I had to work much harder at something else. Sad to say but that’s probably true.
8. Inch-ah-lot-ah – I went to a Mothers and daughter camp with my Mom when I was about 9. They asked “What is your favorite meal that your Mom makes?” And this is what I wrote. I had no clue how to spell “enchilada”. I couldn’t figure it out of the life of me. So I’m thankful for my Mom’s patience with me in not laughing too hard when trying to read my writing.
9. Intercosticlavical – I’m truly not sure how to spell that. But it’s the type of bone that they talk about in Bringing Up Baby. I love that movie. I Really do think I could just watch old movies for the rest of my life if I needed to and be perfectly content. The wit, the glamour, the art. They are just up my alley.
10. “I love you” – The most amazing phrase ever. The only way that we can love is through the Love He has shown us. Praise God that He first Loved us.
2. Intergalactic – it’s the only way to travel!
3. Ice Cream – Oh boy oh boy I love love love Soy Ice cream!
4. Inspector – Gadget, Clouseau doesn’t matter I love mysteries. I love reading them and watching movies about them. Even the old 80’s one’s like Colombo, Murder She Wrote, and Hart to Hart.
5. Interesting – I use this word too much. Well, I used to use this word too much…now use the word “delightful” too much. I wonder if this work feels neglected? But I like this word. It’s handy.
6. Imagination – Where would we be without it? Let’s imagine… :)
7. Interdisciplinary – This is what I graduated with. I am very thankful for it because I don’t know that I would have bothered to graduate if I had to work much harder at something else. Sad to say but that’s probably true.
8. Inch-ah-lot-ah – I went to a Mothers and daughter camp with my Mom when I was about 9. They asked “What is your favorite meal that your Mom makes?” And this is what I wrote. I had no clue how to spell “enchilada”. I couldn’t figure it out of the life of me. So I’m thankful for my Mom’s patience with me in not laughing too hard when trying to read my writing.
9. Intercosticlavical – I’m truly not sure how to spell that. But it’s the type of bone that they talk about in Bringing Up Baby. I love that movie. I Really do think I could just watch old movies for the rest of my life if I needed to and be perfectly content. The wit, the glamour, the art. They are just up my alley.
10. “I love you” – The most amazing phrase ever. The only way that we can love is through the Love He has shown us. Praise God that He first Loved us.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Ten on Tuesday - H (Hope-ing to Catch Up by Next Tuesday!)
1. Hope – And Hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
2. Heaven – Where the streets have no name. I look forward to Heaven…some days more anxiously then others!
3. Handel’s Messiah – Love it love it love it. It’s like the ultimate rejoicing, especially the Hallelujah chorus. It’s not really Christmas until it’s played and sung to.
4. Holidays – I love Holidays, anything the gets family together to hang out and play together
5. Harry Connick Jr – Such a dreamy voice. I’m so glad music like this still exists and didn’t die with Sinatra.
6. Hotels – I am so thankful for hotels. It’s like one of my favorite things to do, I don’t care if I’m staying in the same city I live in, it’s always a treat to get to stay in a hotel. Thank the Lord of simple pleasures like that.
7. Hair – I think hair is a fascinating invention…I mean who but God would think of it? And create all different kinds and textures for different purposes?? Brilliant!
8. Help – When I was little I loved to “help” the grownups as much as I could. I remember not really being much of a help but I still loved to do it. Now a days…I still do. Makes me feel good. I love it that God allows us to “help” even though he can get his will done without us just fine.
9. Harry Potter – Great books! So entertaining and helps to build and stretch the imagination J
10. Hugh Laurie – He is brilliant. From P.G. Woodehouse’s Bertie Wooster to Dr House. He is a great actor, very entertaining!
2. Heaven – Where the streets have no name. I look forward to Heaven…some days more anxiously then others!
3. Handel’s Messiah – Love it love it love it. It’s like the ultimate rejoicing, especially the Hallelujah chorus. It’s not really Christmas until it’s played and sung to.
4. Holidays – I love Holidays, anything the gets family together to hang out and play together
5. Harry Connick Jr – Such a dreamy voice. I’m so glad music like this still exists and didn’t die with Sinatra.
6. Hotels – I am so thankful for hotels. It’s like one of my favorite things to do, I don’t care if I’m staying in the same city I live in, it’s always a treat to get to stay in a hotel. Thank the Lord of simple pleasures like that.
7. Hair – I think hair is a fascinating invention…I mean who but God would think of it? And create all different kinds and textures for different purposes?? Brilliant!
8. Help – When I was little I loved to “help” the grownups as much as I could. I remember not really being much of a help but I still loved to do it. Now a days…I still do. Makes me feel good. I love it that God allows us to “help” even though he can get his will done without us just fine.
9. Harry Potter – Great books! So entertaining and helps to build and stretch the imagination J
10. Hugh Laurie – He is brilliant. From P.G. Woodehouse’s Bertie Wooster to Dr House. He is a great actor, very entertaining!
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Ten on Tuesday - G (a week late and quite a few dollars short)
1. Gideon- Love those people that put the bibles in the Hotel rooms. I mean I don’t know much about their theology, but Bible in hotel rooms always seem like a great idea!
2. Gollum- Love love love the two characters in one that Tolkien portrays in Gollum and Smeagol. I mean seriously who doesn’t identify with him at some point in the books/movie? It’s an incredible way of looking at oneself.
3. Grace- Now God has us where he wants us, with all the time in this world and the next to shower grace and kindness upon us in Christ Jesus. Saving is all his idea, and all his work. All we do is trust him enough to let him do it. It's God's gift from start to finish! We don't play the major role. If we did, we'd probably go around bragging that we'd done the whole thing! No, we neither make nor save ourselves. God does both the making and saving. He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing. (Eph 2:7-10 the message)
4. Guitars- There is something about a simple song played on a guitar that moves me quite deeply.
5. Glendale- I’ve spent many a lovely time in Glendale AZ.
6. Geronimo- I love things that people say that I have no idea why we say them. Why yell Geronimo when you jump off of something. Really the only reason I know of is because that is what they do in commercials.
7. Gremlins- the first gory movie I ever saw. I Loved it!
8. Giraffe- if you haven’t had a chance to see them in real life, do. They are so amazingly beautiful and so graceful, like magic.
9. Guinevere – The most beautiful and princess-ly name ever.
10. Gary- There once was a man named Gary, who gave me some very bad advice. But I listened to it and followed it because it was exactly what I wanted to hear at the time. Well in one moment he, maybe even unknowingly, gave me the perfect advice that changed my life around completely. And for that I will always Praise the Lord for Gary.
2. Gollum- Love love love the two characters in one that Tolkien portrays in Gollum and Smeagol. I mean seriously who doesn’t identify with him at some point in the books/movie? It’s an incredible way of looking at oneself.
3. Grace- Now God has us where he wants us, with all the time in this world and the next to shower grace and kindness upon us in Christ Jesus. Saving is all his idea, and all his work. All we do is trust him enough to let him do it. It's God's gift from start to finish! We don't play the major role. If we did, we'd probably go around bragging that we'd done the whole thing! No, we neither make nor save ourselves. God does both the making and saving. He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing. (Eph 2:7-10 the message)
4. Guitars- There is something about a simple song played on a guitar that moves me quite deeply.
5. Glendale- I’ve spent many a lovely time in Glendale AZ.
6. Geronimo- I love things that people say that I have no idea why we say them. Why yell Geronimo when you jump off of something. Really the only reason I know of is because that is what they do in commercials.
7. Gremlins- the first gory movie I ever saw. I Loved it!
8. Giraffe- if you haven’t had a chance to see them in real life, do. They are so amazingly beautiful and so graceful, like magic.
9. Guinevere – The most beautiful and princess-ly name ever.
10. Gary- There once was a man named Gary, who gave me some very bad advice. But I listened to it and followed it because it was exactly what I wanted to hear at the time. Well in one moment he, maybe even unknowingly, gave me the perfect advice that changed my life around completely. And for that I will always Praise the Lord for Gary.
Friday, July 17, 2009
How often...
...do I feel so deeply about so many different 
things all at once? At times I simply exhaust myself...
This morning so far I have laughed, cried, sobbed, and sighed with contentment...I have felt joy, pain, disappointment, and sadness.
I see so much of myself in Nate and Lucy sometimes. They can go through the entire spectrum of emotions in only a few moments. I, in all of my years of growth and maturity, do the same at times.
Lord,
Thank you for being the stability in my life. That even when my emotions feel out of control I do not need to fear. You have everything in your hands. May I always submit and surrender all I am, do, say, and feel, to you.
things all at once? At times I simply exhaust myself...This morning so far I have laughed, cried, sobbed, and sighed with contentment...I have felt joy, pain, disappointment, and sadness.
I see so much of myself in Nate and Lucy sometimes. They can go through the entire spectrum of emotions in only a few moments. I, in all of my years of growth and maturity, do the same at times.
Lord,
Thank you for being the stability in my life. That even when my emotions feel out of control I do not need to fear. You have everything in your hands. May I always submit and surrender all I am, do, say, and feel, to you.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Growing
God doesn't expect us to have everything figured out, all he wants is for us to daily grab his hand and say "Daddy? I have a question."
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Ten on Tuesday - F
1. Frank - Lets be Frank. Lets put all out cards on the table. Frankly my dear... I am so thankful for the people and situations in my life where I am challenged to be frank. It's not something that comes naturally but it is definitely freeing.
2. Freedom - Wow. It is so desired and yet so scary. The cage is safe, familiar, but the wide open is...ideal, good for running and dancing. Thank you Lord for setting us free...keep us safe from things that would harm us and from ourselves.
3. Feelings - I am thankful for feelings. Though they are not always to be trusted, they are such a blessing.
4. Flee - I am becoming a woman who will flee (read I run like hell). When I am around a temptation that is too great, I run without apology. So many times in my life I thought I could handle things, I thought that I was strong enough, solid enough, mature enough to NOT give in. I really wasn't. So now, I run.
5. Faithful - I often take this to mean steadfast and true, committed. Like a knight defending a King out of duty or obligation to the King. But it seems like such a different picture in my mind when I think of it as "Full of Faith". My sister and I have had this conversation before, and it never ceases to bring tears to our eyes when we think of it. It's in the Narnia book/movie 'Prince Caspian' and its the scene where Lucy is facing the entire army with her little dagger in her hand. And she looks like she is going to take on this entire army by herself. The confidence in the face of this child. Why is she confident? Because she KNOWS that Aslan is behind her, though she can't see him, she knows he is there. She she does exactly what he would want her to do. It's so beautiful. It's even more poignant when you remember earlier she and Aslan had to have a little talk about her not following him when she knew what she was supposed to do but her brothers and sisters were against her. What tremendous growth in a child. How so very much I want to see that growth in myself. To stand firm in faith because I know that GOD is faithful. Though I only have a tiny dagger, it is exactly what God gave me for exactly what I need to do. And tomorrow I will have grown even more then today. Lord, I surrender all that I think/perceive to you, prune any area in my life not bearing fruit, so that I may stand for you and run this race without hindrance. Jesus thank you for your gift of faith.
6. Fun - I like, I love it, and I daresay I want some more of it.
7. Forrest Griffin vs Stephen Bonnar fight (the first one)- great UFC fight.
8. Forensics - I love crime shows. I love it that they always get the bad guy. I love it that they all have some sort of downfall that the good guys trap them in and BAM they are hooked. I especially enjoy Abby from NCIS. For some reason her character totally delights me.
9. Fantasy - as in imagining the impossible. Every once in a while my imagination takes me to different lands, where the sky is purple and the land is yellow and trees run the earth with their flying horses. Dragons are our teachers and flowers are our food and we can only smell when we are happy...but I do have to be careful. It way to easy to get lost there. I am still thankful for it.
10. Fellowship - I am so thankful for the time I get to spend with friends and family which has been so rich these last few days. I feel so wealthy. Thank you Lord.
2. Freedom - Wow. It is so desired and yet so scary. The cage is safe, familiar, but the wide open is...ideal, good for running and dancing. Thank you Lord for setting us free...keep us safe from things that would harm us and from ourselves.
3. Feelings - I am thankful for feelings. Though they are not always to be trusted, they are such a blessing.
4. Flee - I am becoming a woman who will flee (read I run like hell). When I am around a temptation that is too great, I run without apology. So many times in my life I thought I could handle things, I thought that I was strong enough, solid enough, mature enough to NOT give in
5. Faithful - I often take this to mean steadfast and true, committed. Like a knight defending a King out of duty or obligation to the King. But it seems like such a different picture in my mind when I think of it as "Full of Faith". My sister and I have had this conversation before, and it never ceases to bring tears to our eyes when we think of it. It's in the Narnia book/movie 'Prince Caspian' and its the scene where Lucy is facing the entire army with her little dagger in her hand. And she looks like she is going to take on this entire army by herself. The confidence in the face of this child. Why is she confident? Because she KNOWS that Aslan is behind her, though she can't see him, she knows he is there. She she does exactly what he would want her to do. It's so beautiful. It's even more poignant when you remember earlier she and Aslan had to have a little talk about her not following him when she knew what she was supposed to do but her brothers and sisters were against her. What tremendous growth in a child. How so very much I want to see that growth in myself. To stand firm in faith because I know that GOD is faithful. Though I only have a tiny dagger, it is exactly what God gave me for exactly what I need to do. And tomorrow I will have grown even more then today. Lord, I surrender all that I think/perceive to you, prune any area in my life not bearing fruit, so that I may stand for you and run this race without hindrance. Jesus thank you for your gift of faith.6. Fun - I like, I love it, and I daresay I want some more of it.
7. Forrest Griffin vs Stephen Bonnar fight (the first one)- great UFC fight.
8. Forensics - I love crime shows. I love it that they always get the bad guy. I love it that they all have some sort of downfall that the good guys trap them in and BAM they are hooked. I especially enjoy Abby from NCIS. For some reason her character totally delights me.
9. Fantasy - as in imagining the impossible. Every once in a while my imagination takes me to different lands, where the sky is purple and the land is yellow and trees run the earth with their flying horses. Dragons are our teachers and flowers are our food and we can only smell when we are happy...but I do have to be careful. It way to easy to get lost there. I am still thankful for it.
10. Fellowship - I am so thankful for the time I get to spend with friends and family which has been so rich these last few days. I feel so wealthy. Thank you Lord.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Wow what a WEIRD dream!
OK I have to share this.
Last night I had this dream:
Characters involved.
Adam - Salesman from work
Me - New Non-Smoker
Adam: Hey Kristy, here's a cigarette.
Me: (Incredulous) No, no thank you, I quit remember?
Adam: Oh come on, just take it, it's just one.
Me: NO! I can't! I can't just have one, NO! (backing away)
Adam: Seriously, (starting to chase me) come on, you have to have one!
Me: NO! (Running away)
The End.
Thank you Lord,
For the resolve YOU placed inside of me. Thank you for a funny dream that is so encouraging to me even after I wake up.
Amen
Last night I had this dream:
Characters involved.
Adam - Salesman from work
Me - New Non-Smoker
Adam: Hey Kristy, here's a cigarette.
Me: (Incredulous) No, no thank you, I quit remember?
Adam: Oh come on, just take it, it's just one.
Me: NO! I can't! I can't just have one, NO! (backing away)
Adam: Seriously, (starting to chase me) come on, you have to have one!
Me: NO! (Running away)
The End.
Thank you Lord,
For the resolve YOU placed inside of me. Thank you for a funny dream that is so encouraging to me even after I wake up.
Amen
Monday, July 06, 2009
Ten on Tuesday - E
1. Ella, ellz, Ellz bellz, Ella Anne: Man I love her. My heart would explode if it tried to love another child more then I love Ella (and her brother and sister of course). I am honored to be a part of her life as long as she allows me to from now on. Have you met her? If you haven't, try to meet her if you can. Really it's so worth it. She about the size of an 8 month old, with the brain of an 8 year old, and occasionally the attitude of a 13 year old, and the laugh of agelessness. Am I going on and on? Yeah I am, but that's my prerogative, I love her so very so much. Am I making myself clear?2. Evanescence: um they rock.
3. Earnest: I love the word earnest. not necessarily the name but the Word. Its so much more personal then zealous. Zealous seems showy and flamboyant but earnest is private and yet it eeks out into the world because of the truth of it.
4. Exegesis: According to wikipedia is "a critical explanation or interpretation of the Bible. The goal of Biblical exegesis is to find the meaning of the text which then leads to discovering its significance or relevance." They explained this in Bible school as pulling the meaning out of the text and not putting your own ideas in the text. Hahahahahaha! Good luck! Praise the Lord that He helps us through this!
5. Endorphins: I love love love endorphins. After or during a long bike ride, or a good hike, or a day at the park chasing around my nieces and nephews, or even helping move a refrigerator that feeling is really the best ever. These keep me going and definitely help my mood!
6. Epidural: Now, I haven't ever used one of these myself, and I realize that there are different opinions about them in general, however, I went from seeing my sister in INTENSE pain to quietly resting and for that I am VERY thankful.
7. Epignosis: Wow, I have no idea why this word popped into my head when trying to think of E words! I know I've heard it before and I'm pretty sure I can hear my Dad's voice saying it! But it's quite pertinent. I am thankful for it! Its a Greek word for acknowledge, or knowledge. I would be lost without true knowledge of the Lord. I cannot rely on my feelings and desires, I need knowledge of His word as a foundation for me. "Phil 1:9 This I pray, that your love may abound yet more and more in knowledge and all discernment;"
8. Everest: Probably one of the funniest conversation I've ever had in my entire life happened over IM. And in this IM conversation I was given the nickname of EVEREST. Sigh, it was one of those times where you think about it later it still makes you laugh but you're not exactly sure why...
9. Ents: Hands down the most interesting characters in the Lord of the Rings. I LOVE them! Of COURSE trees should have herders and protectors! It's so very sad that they can't find the Entwives and I like to think that at one time they were actually found and reunited.10. Exclamation Points: I use them almost to abuse. But they do such a good job of showing the intensity with which I mean what I am saying! What I really need is some sort of arrow I could use to show that my voice has risen during the course of the conversation! This way I don't have to keep following exclamation point with exclamation point and end up having to use multiple exclamation points just to make my point!!
Praise the Lord for all He has taught me this week, for the work he is doing in your life, and for what is to come! Amen.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Ten on Tuesday - D
1. Diet Coke: I have a lot of memories of taking sips of my Mom and Dad's Diet Coke. It was something special for them, and very special when I got my own glass!2. Daisy: They really are a friendly flower. I've had some excellent conversations with daisies through out the years. They are not as complex as roses but don't mistake their straight forwardness for a lack of passion. They aren't straight laced. They are unapologetic in who they are and their vivacious desire to bring joy and cheer make them an asset in the floral kingdom. They aren't silly looking so they don't bring delight that way, I guess it's really their vulnerability. They are wide open and don't care. They don't even close up at night like some of their relatives. They are out to smile at all who pass by at any time day or night. To me, they are truly a delight and example of living without inhibition or fear, living in pure joy. (Who reads into things?)
3. Darling/Dearest: I love these words. They are so tender and sweet when spoken gently or whispered into a welcome ear.
4. Dancing Queen: I took my very very first online quiz YEARS ago. Before myspace, before facebook, before blogs, before I had like 12 email addresses, there was this website that you could go to and just take quizzes. I have no idea if it's still around. But I remember my very first online quiz I took was, What Song are You? and the result was "Dancing Queen". I believe my response to this was, "huh? Whats that? " I had never heard of it! WELL since then I have been educated in the world of Abba and it has got to be one of my favorite songs. I'm even listening to the Abba station on Pandora right now. This is the perfect dancing around my living room song! Because I am a "DANCING QUEEN!!! YOUNG (ahem) AND SWEET ONLY SEVENTEEN (cough cough)!!!! Well I am when I hear the song at least :)
5. Dapper: Before there was 'metro-sexual' there was dapper. Isn't this a nicer way of saying the same thing? A young man who is neat and trim in dress. My he looks dapper. We should bring it back.
6. Dickinson, Emily: I'm totally unabashedly stealing this from Buttercup's list. Yes, yes I am, but I completely agree. She is incredible and really speaks to me. I had a conversation with my Dad that went something like. Me-"I love Emily Dickinson" Dad-"You are Emily Dickinson" Well that made me feel good, though I know he wasn't talking about my poetic verse. From what I understand she was a very private person, and I can see myself, unchecked, tending toward that type of lifestyle. I could totally live in the country, take walks through the woods all day, write letters to my friends, ponder, and be content. I don't think it would be a good way to live in the least, but definitely something my personality tends toward.
7. Dad - You have been more of a true Father to me then I ever could have imagined. Thank you.
8. Define - "a concise explanation of the meaning of a word or phrase or symbol." I love to find out what words really mean, making cloudy things clear. I love explanations and examples and anything that creates more understanding and lessens confusion.
9. Debate - Though I'm not really a 'fighter' when it comes to my natural fight or flight tendencies. I do enjoy a good debate, especially when its all in good clean fun. And very much especially if I'm winning. I don't completely enjoy winning in the end though, I ALWAYS have regrets. But in the moment, when your adrenaline's rushing and ideas are popping and you're in the moment...using words to parry and thrust and trying to not only formulate what you want to say but also wrapping it in a package that is palpable to the listener. It's kind of fun. And not I'm getting a little nervous about how much I enjoy it...well you learn something new every day.
10. Drive - I like to drive am so thankful when I get the chance to do so. I've had the opportunity to borrow my Moms car while she's been out of town and man, its nice. I'm definitely not saying that I'm any good at it, I could venture to say that I'm a moderate to poor driver if I want to be honest. But man it's nice. I love to go on road trips or just go for a drive around town. I am so thankful for cars in general and the opportunity to drive one a bit this week. Thanks Mom!
Monday, June 29, 2009
Rest In Peace
I have fought and given up the battle to quit smoking for some time now...I quit, then some stressful situation in my life will come up and I'll start again. For example, I might walk out of my house and sneeze...I mean that's like a near death experience right there, what if I didn't survive the sneeze?! OK it isn't really that bad, but I use smoking...as an excuse to get out of an uncomfortable conversation, a break from the day, and numbing agent when I'm not liking what I am feeling, a calming agent when I'm getting worked up, a chance to clear my mind, a weight loss assistant, friend when the night gets late and I feel alone, and probably much more. I have been convicted about quitting several times, asked for prayer, help, tried Nicorette, candy, telling everyone, telling no one, any trick I could think of, but what it comes down to is...
I don't really want to quit. I like the idea of quitting, I like the idea that I might not at some point in my future smell like an ashtray, maybe someday I'll smell like lavender or bubble gum (two of my favorite scents). I also like the idea that someday I may be able to have a lung capacity which allows me to ride my bike without wheezing, after a block. But that is not good enough. I mean I also like the idea of having buns of steel but you don't see me doing butt crunches as I sit at my desk work. Now that I just typed that I started doing them and they are making me giggle...ANYWAYS.
The only way to quit smoking is to want to, or die. Well I don't want to.
So I'll smoke till I die.
Yes I said die. Because if I don't quit, I will die...smoking will kill me...
I'm serious. I already had asthma problems growing up. What? You think I'm overreacting? Or do you know its true too? I can already feel the cough starting. You know the smokers cough? Yeah, I got that. I walk into my apartment and it smells stale. I don't even smoke inside, but it still hangs in the air.
It makes me sad. I try not to, but I do end up picturing Nate, Nick, Lucy, Ella standing there. The kids that I love so much. The ones I pray for daily and so desire to watch grow up! I don't want to miss a thing in their life! I can picture them standing at my Memorial Service, just not understanding why I would do such a thing. Why would I try so hard to guide them in the right way, and then make such a foolish decision myself. Thats what I thought when I was at my Grandma's funeral. Why didn't she just quit? Why didn't she want to enough?
I talked to a friend about this last night. I want to want to stop smoking. That's where I have to start, right? We talked about a lot, how the old self, our flesh, was crucified with Christ and now we are likewise living through Him. Yada yada yada, yeah I get it, I think. We are to live our lives in this truth...that we were dead but aren't anymore. So why did we die in the first place? Sin...sin killed us, sin killes all of us.
I am to live as if smoking already killed me.
For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body of sin might be done away with, that we should no longer be slaves to sin—because anyone who has died has been freed from sin.
I can be freed from smoking, not because this life is easier, not because I am a good person (HAHAHAHAHA) , but because I already died, buts its OK...even though I'm dead we already won! I never again have to wonder if I am going to die from cancer. I already know, YES smoking killed me, but I now live in Christ.
I realize this is really abstract, but when I heard that last night I cried for a good 15 minutes. It's like it cut out all of the other excuses, true or not, that I'd been feeding myself about how hard it is to quit and how I'll quit when I'm ready and how I'm just not strong enough, etc. It didn't matter how strong I AM, I'm dead. Died of Lung Cancer, died of Selfishness, died of Immorality, etc. But in the NEW life I live through Christ, and He don't smoke Marlboro's!
I no longer live- but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body I live for Christ who loves me & gave himself up for me! Gal 2:20
I'd love to hear your thoughts on this. Is it really true? Smoking officially killed me about 18 hours ago, my new life smells quite nice.
I don't really want to quit. I like the idea of quitting, I like the idea that I might not at some point in my future smell like an ashtray, maybe someday I'll smell like lavender or bubble gum (two of my favorite scents). I also like the idea that someday I may be able to have a lung capacity which allows me to ride my bike without wheezing, after a block. But that is not good enough. I mean I also like the idea of having buns of steel but you don't see me doing butt crunches as I sit at my desk work. Now that I just typed that I started doing them and they are making me giggle...ANYWAYS.
The only way to quit smoking is to want to, or die. Well I don't want to.
So I'll smoke till I die.
Yes I said die. Because if I don't quit, I will die...smoking will kill me...
I'm serious. I already had asthma problems growing up. What? You think I'm overreacting? Or do you know its true too? I can already feel the cough starting. You know the smokers cough? Yeah, I got that. I walk into my apartment and it smells stale. I don't even smoke inside, but it still hangs in the air.
It makes me sad. I try not to, but I do end up picturing Nate, Nick, Lucy, Ella standing there. The kids that I love so much. The ones I pray for daily and so desire to watch grow up! I don't want to miss a thing in their life! I can picture them standing at my Memorial Service, just not understanding why I would do such a thing. Why would I try so hard to guide them in the right way, and then make such a foolish decision myself. Thats what I thought when I was at my Grandma's funeral. Why didn't she just quit? Why didn't she want to enough?
I talked to a friend about this last night. I want to want to stop smoking. That's where I have to start, right? We talked about a lot, how the old self, our flesh, was crucified with Christ and now we are likewise living through Him. Yada yada yada, yeah I get it, I think. We are to live our lives in this truth...that we were dead but aren't anymore. So why did we die in the first place? Sin...sin killed us, sin killes all of us.
I am to live as if smoking already killed me.
For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body of sin might be done away with, that we should no longer be slaves to sin—because anyone who has died has been freed from sin.
I can be freed from smoking, not because this life is easier, not because I am a good person (HAHAHAHAHA) , but because I already died, buts its OK...even though I'm dead we already won! I never again have to wonder if I am going to die from cancer. I already know, YES smoking killed me, but I now live in Christ.
I realize this is really abstract, but when I heard that last night I cried for a good 15 minutes. It's like it cut out all of the other excuses, true or not, that I'd been feeding myself about how hard it is to quit and how I'll quit when I'm ready and how I'm just not strong enough, etc. It didn't matter how strong I AM, I'm dead. Died of Lung Cancer, died of Selfishness, died of Immorality, etc. But in the NEW life I live through Christ, and He don't smoke Marlboro's!
I no longer live- but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body I live for Christ who loves me & gave himself up for me! Gal 2:20
I'd love to hear your thoughts on this. Is it really true? Smoking officially killed me about 18 hours ago, my new life smells quite nice.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Ten on...er Tuesday C!
1. Carl's Jr - I am so thankful for this place. Without them, I might possibly starve. Not a big fan of their commercials though. I don't think I am technically their target audience.
2. Citrus - especially as it pertains to cleaning agents. I love the cleaners that smell like citrus. It's so fresh and I have fun memories of having spray cleaner fights as a janitor in High School. We had the aerosol cans of orange cleaner and would sneak around a corner and spray each other. It was great fun.
3. Can do - My natural tendency is to give up when things get hard. Unfortunately. I am definitely convicted to change that around in my own life as I grow and learn, but when I was little I would give into it a lot. Many many times I would say "I can't". i.e. I can't read, I can't spell, I can't say 'R' right, I can't ride a bike, etc. My parents and teachers would so often have to combat this on my behalf since I couldn't or wouldn't fight it on my own. Well it's been a long road and I've learned a little since then. I now know that so often on my own, I really can't, but I am not on my own. "His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness." And though in the short term that might not make me able to ride my bike faster, it does give me a sense of peace knowing that no matter what is required at the time, I will have everything I need to do what God is calling me to do.
4. Crayl - She consistently inspires me to follow the Lord and I love how much she loves my sister and family.
5. Christie - I honestly can say I don't know where I would be without her friendship. I would never ever want to be without it. She is such a blessing in my life and has shown me grace beyond measure. (Thank you Christie!)
6. Country Music - I love me sum cuntry music. Here is just a taste of some of my favorites.
Billy Currington - People are Crazy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EaMgb0JMTeo
Brad Paisley - Celebrity
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uEPe4fZNf74
7. Classes - I like take classes and being taught things. Whether it is another SQL class or a class at the gym, I'm so thankful there are people that are good at showing other people how to do things. I like to be on the receiving end of the knowledge stream.
8. Compassion - I am so thankful for the chance to show and be shown compassion. Its the safest place to be.
9. Chirotouch - If this happened to be a real company that employed people I think I would like to work here. I think I would like it a lot, the people, the work, the environment...pretty much everything. I think I would want to work here for a long time to come.
10. Clothey Chiropractic - They took such good care of me when I was a complete wreck. Someday I would love to help someone and show as much love to someone as they have and continually do show to me. Additionally I have a horrible sinus infection Tuesday and they gave me some nutrition to help heal it, I'm feeling so much better today!! Hooray!
2. Citrus - especially as it pertains to cleaning agents. I love the cleaners that smell like citrus. It's so fresh and I have fun memories of having spray cleaner fights as a janitor in High School. We had the aerosol cans of orange cleaner and would sneak around a corner and spray each other. It was great fun.
3. Can do - My natural tendency is to give up when things get hard. Unfortunately. I am definitely convicted to change that around in my own life as I grow and learn, but when I was little I would give into it a lot. Many many times I would say "I can't". i.e. I can't read, I can't spell, I can't say 'R' right, I can't ride a bike, etc. My parents and teachers would so often have to combat this on my behalf since I couldn't or wouldn't fight it on my own. Well it's been a long road and I've learned a little since then. I now know that so often on my own, I really can't, but I am not on my own. "His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness." And though in the short term that might not make me able to ride my bike faster, it does give me a sense of peace knowing that no matter what is required at the time, I will have everything I need to do what God is calling me to do.
4. Crayl - She consistently inspires me to follow the Lord and I love how much she loves my sister and family.
5. Christie - I honestly can say I don't know where I would be without her friendship. I would never ever want to be without it. She is such a blessing in my life and has shown me grace beyond measure. (Thank you Christie!)
6. Country Music - I love me sum cuntry music. Here is just a taste of some of my favorites.
Billy Currington - People are Crazy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EaMgb0JMTeo
Brad Paisley - Celebrity
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uEPe4fZNf74
7. Classes - I like take classes and being taught things. Whether it is another SQL class or a class at the gym, I'm so thankful there are people that are good at showing other people how to do things. I like to be on the receiving end of the knowledge stream.
8. Compassion - I am so thankful for the chance to show and be shown compassion. Its the safest place to be.
9. Chirotouch - If this happened to be a real company that employed people I think I would like to work here. I think I would like it a lot, the people, the work, the environment...pretty much everything. I think I would want to work here for a long time to come.
10. Clothey Chiropractic - They took such good care of me when I was a complete wreck. Someday I would love to help someone and show as much love to someone as they have and continually do show to me. Additionally I have a horrible sinus infection Tuesday and they gave me some nutrition to help heal it, I'm feeling so much better today!! Hooray!
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Ten on Tuesday B
1. Burritos - Especially the one I ate this morning. I often get a breakfast burrito from the Deli next door and its such a wonderful start to my day, to get my motor running.
2. Bethany - My beautiful, talented, loving, hilarious, tender hearted, bossy, older sister. Life would be so very wrong without you my sister.
3. Bethany - My Adorable, sweet, stubborn, feisty, delightful niece. I love her so much.
4. Britain - I used to be slightly obsessed with all things British. TV, movies, literature, books. I still have a great fondness for them and their beautiful way of speaking and sense of humor.
5. Blessings - what can I say? I like getting things.
6. Barnes and Noble/Borders - I don't really have a preference between the two, but man those places delight me. I love having some extra spending money in my hand and blowing it all on books! Anything that happens to tickle my fancy. I love reading.
7. Bike - I love my bike. I am so grateful for it. We've gone many many miles together, through all kinds of weather. And for some reason its easier for me to travel that way. So often I intensely crave transition time. I really like to take my time to gather my thoughts in the morning about what I need to accomplish that day or settle down after a long day of work to relax at home. That bike ride make such a difference.
8. Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen- best. song. ever.
Is this the real life-
Is this just fantasy-
Caught in a landslide-
No escape from reality-
Open your eyes look up to the skies and see-
9. Blessed be the Name by Matt Redman - Second best song ever :)
Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name
Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name
10. Babies - I never ever ever ever ever thought I would be this person. Ever. But I Love babies.
Now let me make this clear, this is very strange for me to say. God has done a LOT of work in my life changing my likes/dislikes, attitudes, emotions, etc for me to say this.
For example, my friend Tasha had her kids while I was in High School and College. I would go over to her house to meet her new child and my other friends would ooohh and ahhh as if they had received some sort of script ahead of time. They did not pass that script out to me apparently. I didn't see anything fabulous in the child, nothing to oooh about at least. It's not like it was something cute, like a puppy. (Now let me tell you, Tasha's children were, and still are REALLY cute. I mean these weren't little alien children. These boys could have been, and i think were, in magazines. The problem was with ME. NOT the child.) Well inevitably they would have me hold the poor child, perhaps just to laugh, but I think they were hoping that I would get better at it, you know if I did it more often. I remember one time in particular the child started fussing, and I started stressing out and I looked around for someone, anyone, help! And no one notices what I do, its obvious this child is going to explode or burst into flames or its head will start spinning or something. I yell out "Um HEY, can someone, er take THIS!" and I proceed to hold it out as arms length. Everyone finally turns to look at me and starts cracking up. Did she just call this beautiful child a "THIS"?
Well things have changed and I just hear the word baby and my ears perk up and my head turn searching, BABY!? What? Where? LET ME AT 'EM!
Yeah, very very strange. But really Praise the Lord! I would be missing out on enjoying some of the best friendships I could ever imagine! Skylar, Joey, Riley, Nate, Lucy, Ella, Nick, Elly, Boe, Cameron, Bethany, Felicia, Anna, etc... Sigh, I love babies.
P.S. Last time I was at Tasha's her youngest and I had an excellent conversation about UFC fighters, our favorites, different techniques, etc. Sigh.
2. Bethany - My beautiful, talented, loving, hilarious, tender hearted, bossy, older sister. Life would be so very wrong without you my sister.
3. Bethany - My Adorable, sweet, stubborn, feisty, delightful niece. I love her so much.
4. Britain - I used to be slightly obsessed with all things British. TV, movies, literature, books. I still have a great fondness for them and their beautiful way of speaking and sense of humor.
5. Blessings - what can I say? I like getting things.
6. Barnes and Noble/Borders - I don't really have a preference between the two, but man those places delight me. I love having some extra spending money in my hand and blowing it all on books! Anything that happens to tickle my fancy. I love reading.
7. Bike - I love my bike. I am so grateful for it. We've gone many many miles together, through all kinds of weather. And for some reason its easier for me to travel that way. So often I intensely crave transition time. I really like to take my time to gather my thoughts in the morning about what I need to accomplish that day or settle down after a long day of work to relax at home. That bike ride make such a difference.
8. Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen- best. song. ever.
Is this the real life-
Is this just fantasy-
Caught in a landslide-
No escape from reality-
Open your eyes look up to the skies and see-
9. Blessed be the Name by Matt Redman - Second best song ever :)
Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name
Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name
10. Babies - I never ever ever ever ever thought I would be this person. Ever. But I Love babies.Now let me make this clear, this is very strange for me to say. God has done a LOT of work in my life changing my likes/dislikes, attitudes, emotions, etc for me to say this.
For example, my friend Tasha had her kids while I was in High School and College. I would go over to her house to meet her new child and my other friends would ooohh and ahhh as if they had received some sort of script ahead of time. They did not pass that script out to me apparently. I didn't see anything fabulous in the child, nothing to oooh about at least. It's not like it was something cute, like a puppy. (Now let me tell you, Tasha's children were, and still are REALLY cute. I mean these weren't little alien children. These boys could have been, and i think were, in magazines. The problem was with ME. NOT the child.) Well inevitably they would have me hold the poor child, perhaps just to laugh, but I think they were hoping that I would get better at it, you know if I did it more often. I remember one time in particular the child started fussing, and I started stressing out and I looked around for someone, anyone, help! And no one notices what I do, its obvious this child is going to explode or burst into flames or its head will start spinning or something. I yell out "Um HEY, can someone, er take THIS!" and I proceed to hold it out as arms length. Everyone finally turns to look at me and starts cracking up. Did she just call this beautiful child a "THIS"?
Well things have changed and I just hear the word baby and my ears perk up and my head turn searching, BABY!? What? Where? LET ME AT 'EM!
Yeah, very very strange. But really Praise the Lord! I would be missing out on enjoying some of the best friendships I could ever imagine! Skylar, Joey, Riley, Nate, Lucy, Ella, Nick, Elly, Boe, Cameron, Bethany, Felicia, Anna, etc... Sigh, I love babies.
P.S. Last time I was at Tasha's her youngest and I had an excellent conversation about UFC fighters, our favorites, different techniques, etc. Sigh.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Ten on Tuesday A
1. Analyst Catalyst - He posted something on his blog that really impacted me the other day. It was the perfect thing at the perfect time. And it ended with this: " They also serve who only stand and wait." - John Milton. I tend to be a little impulsive and will pick things up, and RUN with them when I don't necessarily know where I am going. It also brought to mind a verse that sounded different this time then it ever has before.
Isaiah 40:30-31 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
How much work does hoping take? Can you say to anyone, "I'm sorry, I can't help, I'm really overwhelmed with hoping right now."
If I choose to stand and wait in the hope of the Lord, I won't need to run, He'll help me soar.
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD. Psalm 27:14
2. Ampersands - I am so thankful that my life hasn't had a period on the end of it. When one part of my life has ended (for good or bad reasons) God has always provided something else.
3. Anaconda - The first scary movie I ever saw! I thought I was so brave watching those huge snakes swallow those people whole!
4. Archie - I used to love those comics growing up. We had the old ones that had amazing Christian application and an article on how to become a Christian in the back of them.
5. Apparently - I use this word way to much, but it make me feel smart so I am quite thankful for it.
6. Ankles - I mean really, without them, we would have to hobble!!
7. Actions - Have you ever seen the movie or play "My Fair Lady"? Well there is a song in it that I love, it called Show Me. And I completely agree with it, on several levels. I'd much prefer people not say anything if they aren't going to follow through, myself included.
So I am very thankful when I do see peoples actions follow up their words.
8. Anthropologie - It just such a beautiful place to wander, not buy, just wander.
9. Ambiguous Cloud People - Their music is amazing, it just really speaks to me. OK not really. They don't really exist. But the dream of them exist. It's the band that I would be in, if I had the talent to start a band and/or write music.
10. Amazement - I am continually amazed by God, nature, people, pretty much all of the nouns. And out of all of the feelings, this is one of the best.
Isaiah 40:30-31 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
How much work does hoping take? Can you say to anyone, "I'm sorry, I can't help, I'm really overwhelmed with hoping right now."
If I choose to stand and wait in the hope of the Lord, I won't need to run, He'll help me soar.
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD. Psalm 27:14
2. Ampersands - I am so thankful that my life hasn't had a period on the end of it. When one part of my life has ended (for good or bad reasons) God has always provided something else.
3. Anaconda - The first scary movie I ever saw! I thought I was so brave watching those huge snakes swallow those people whole!
4. Archie - I used to love those comics growing up. We had the old ones that had amazing Christian application and an article on how to become a Christian in the back of them.
5. Apparently - I use this word way to much, but it make me feel smart so I am quite thankful for it.
6. Ankles - I mean really, without them, we would have to hobble!!
7. Actions - Have you ever seen the movie or play "My Fair Lady"? Well there is a song in it that I love, it called Show Me. And I completely agree with it, on several levels. I'd much prefer people not say anything if they aren't going to follow through, myself included.
So I am very thankful when I do see peoples actions follow up their words.
8. Anthropologie - It just such a beautiful place to wander, not buy, just wander.9. Ambiguous Cloud People - Their music is amazing, it just really speaks to me. OK not really. They don't really exist. But the dream of them exist. It's the band that I would be in, if I had the talent to start a band and/or write music.
10. Amazement - I am continually amazed by God, nature, people, pretty much all of the nouns. And out of all of the feelings, this is one of the best.
Monday, June 08, 2009
Today
Blah blah blah,
Ponder Ponder Ponder,
Question,
Answer,
Question,
Question,
Question,
Wish, dream....
Focus!
do, do, do,
eat, sleep,
blah blah blah,
Ponder...blah
sigh...
May the words of my mouth,
and the meditation of my heart
be pleasing in your site.
Oh Lord, my rock and my redeemer.
Ponder Ponder Ponder,
Question,
Answer,
Question,
Question,
Question,
Wish, dream....
Focus!
do, do, do,
eat, sleep,
blah blah blah,
Ponder...blah
sigh...
May the words of my mouth,
and the meditation of my heart
be pleasing in your site.
Oh Lord, my rock and my redeemer.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Idea #7
7. A cell phone that doubles as a Breathalyzer.
Sample scenario: You have had to much to drink and try to make a phone call (well known as drunk dialing) you call that ex girlfriend to tell her exactly what you think of her and the minute you bring the phone up to your head the sensor goes off and immediately turns the phone on mute. When she answers she is unable to hear even one of the names you are calling her.
There would be an automatic override if you are dialing 911 or a taxi company.
Sample scenario: You have had to much to drink and try to make a phone call (well known as drunk dialing) you call that ex girlfriend to tell her exactly what you think of her and the minute you bring the phone up to your head the sensor goes off and immediately turns the phone on mute. When she answers she is unable to hear even one of the names you are calling her.
There would be an automatic override if you are dialing 911 or a taxi company.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Falling in Love
by Fr Pedro Arrupe, SJ
Nothing is more practical
than finding God, that is, than
FALLING IN LOVE
in a quite absolute final way.
What you are in love with,
what seizes your imagination,
will affect everything.
It will decide
what will get you out of bed
in the morning,
what you do with your evenings,
how you spend your weekends,
what you read, who you know,
what breaks your heart,
and what amazes you with
joy and gratitude.
Fall in love, stay in love,
and it will decide everything.
Nothing is more practical
than finding God, that is, than
FALLING IN LOVE
in a quite absolute final way.
What you are in love with,
what seizes your imagination,
will affect everything.
It will decide
what will get you out of bed
in the morning,
what you do with your evenings,
how you spend your weekends,
what you read, who you know,
what breaks your heart,
and what amazes you with
joy and gratitude.
Fall in love, stay in love,
and it will decide everything.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Something I've Been Digesting a Bit
I used to pay attention to my Horoscope.
It started as an event we would do at work to break up the monotony of the afternoon. Dan would gather us all around and read the short little two liner yahoo horoscope for each of us, we'd laugh at it, discuss it, be weirded out at how 'accurate' it was, then get back to work. I was a little uncomfortable with it but I figured it couldn't really hurt, I mean I didn't really believe it so, no big deal. Well every once in a while Dan would forget, so I, ready for my afternoon break, would remind him, "don't forget horoscopes!" Well a few years later after most of them had moved on to different parts of the company, and I'd gone to a completely different job, and then moved back, I decided to start reading my horoscope again...you know "just for fun". I "didn't really believe in that sort of thing" but "just wanted something to do in the afternoon". Well I got into it. I'd read the mini yahoo horoscope, then I'd read the extended yahoo horoscope, then I'd find other websites with different horoscopes on them. I'd email them out to my co-workers even if they didn't ask for them, you know like a community service thing. I wanted to know more...more of what? More about Me, how I am, how I relate to the world, what I should do, who I should be friends with, what was going to happen to Me. Was I looking in the wrong direction? Yes. Weak minded? Yes. Filling myself full of worthless ideas that were of no benefit but could actually hurt me? Yes.
This brings me to my next point that is oddly enough WAY TO MUCH INFORMATION (Dad if you're reading this, stop now, I'll just tell you about it later)...but related.
I take much delight in something that is generally considered taboo for no good reason. Everyone does it, actually if you don't do it there is something seriously wrong, like go-see-your-doctor-wrong. And there are a ton of over the counter medicines out there that actually try to assist you to do this very thing. Of course I'm talking about pooping. It so freakin amazing how God made our bodies! We eat something, digest it, and the stuff we don't need or could hurt us, we send it on out!! How brilliant is that!? And seriously do you not feel a sense of accomplishment when this process works really well? Sometimes do you not even feel as if a weight was lifted off...or maybe out...of you? It's the best feeling ever! Well that's going a bit far, but for a daily activity, it does give Quite a bit of satisfaction when everything is working properly.
Well I just think, and kind of wish, our minds and hearts worked the same way. All of the worthless crap (pun-ny!) that I have put into myself could just be expelled daily and flushed down the toilet. But maybe that is why God wants us to make sure to come to him daily, to read his word and have a constant conversation with Him, so that he can help be our...um...enema? so to speak. Maybe that's why hiding my filth from him, or pretending it not filth, isn't all that great of an idea. Maybe that's why he wants me to bring it into the light and show it to Him, so he can show us how he already has flushed it down the great God sized toilet.
Is this getting irreverent? Or did I pass irreverent a while back? I really don't mean it that way. I was thinking a little about this the other day when talking to my Mom (oddly enough after going to the ladies room) and then after reading the Sweet Spot the parallels just kept coming. I mean sometimes it takes some work on our part...heh...heh to uh...expel the toxins, and sometimes its kind of painful. But that doesn't mean God isn't there, and isn't making sure everything works as he directs it to.
It started as an event we would do at work to break up the monotony of the afternoon. Dan would gather us all around and read the short little two liner yahoo horoscope for each of us, we'd laugh at it, discuss it, be weirded out at how 'accurate' it was, then get back to work. I was a little uncomfortable with it but I figured it couldn't really hurt, I mean I didn't really believe it so, no big deal. Well every once in a while Dan would forget, so I, ready for my afternoon break, would remind him, "don't forget horoscopes!" Well a few years later after most of them had moved on to different parts of the company, and I'd gone to a completely different job, and then moved back, I decided to start reading my horoscope again...you know "just for fun". I "didn't really believe in that sort of thing" but "just wanted something to do in the afternoon". Well I got into it. I'd read the mini yahoo horoscope, then I'd read the extended yahoo horoscope, then I'd find other websites with different horoscopes on them. I'd email them out to my co-workers even if they didn't ask for them, you know like a community service thing. I wanted to know more...more of what? More about Me, how I am, how I relate to the world, what I should do, who I should be friends with, what was going to happen to Me. Was I looking in the wrong direction? Yes. Weak minded? Yes. Filling myself full of worthless ideas that were of no benefit but could actually hurt me? Yes.
This brings me to my next point that is oddly enough WAY TO MUCH INFORMATION (Dad if you're reading this, stop now, I'll just tell you about it later)...but related.
I take much delight in something that is generally considered taboo for no good reason. Everyone does it, actually if you don't do it there is something seriously wrong, like go-see-your-doctor-wrong. And there are a ton of over the counter medicines out there that actually try to assist you to do this very thing. Of course I'm talking about pooping. It so freakin amazing how God made our bodies! We eat something, digest it, and the stuff we don't need or could hurt us, we send it on out!! How brilliant is that!? And seriously do you not feel a sense of accomplishment when this process works really well? Sometimes do you not even feel as if a weight was lifted off...or maybe out...of you? It's the best feeling ever! Well that's going a bit far, but for a daily activity, it does give Quite a bit of satisfaction when everything is working properly.
Well I just think, and kind of wish, our minds and hearts worked the same way. All of the worthless crap (pun-ny!) that I have put into myself could just be expelled daily and flushed down the toilet. But maybe that is why God wants us to make sure to come to him daily, to read his word and have a constant conversation with Him, so that he can help be our...um...enema? so to speak. Maybe that's why hiding my filth from him, or pretending it not filth, isn't all that great of an idea. Maybe that's why he wants me to bring it into the light and show it to Him, so he can show us how he already has flushed it down the great God sized toilet.
Is this getting irreverent? Or did I pass irreverent a while back? I really don't mean it that way. I was thinking a little about this the other day when talking to my Mom (oddly enough after going to the ladies room) and then after reading the Sweet Spot the parallels just kept coming. I mean sometimes it takes some work on our part...heh...heh to uh...expel the toxins, and sometimes its kind of painful. But that doesn't mean God isn't there, and isn't making sure everything works as he directs it to.
Ideas 1 - 6
I get so many ideas throughout the day, I'll never be able to accomplish them all. Who am I kidding...I don't think any of them will get accomplished, but somehow I still have the inner desire to share them with the world. So here is a list of the most recent ideas.
1. UFC fan wear that is not gaudy or slutty. All I need is a silk screen and a warehouse full of workout clothes.
2. A parable-like children's book for each of the children in my life, Nate, Lucy, Ella, Skyler, Joey, Riley, etc. Each with its own plot mixed with pieces of their personality and a parable in the Bible. Yes I already have plot line ideas.
3. A music video using children's voices, depicting various tombstones from which children's voices seem to come singing at first a haunting sounding version of "Go tell it on the mountain" then joined by many many children's and childlike voices singing it Joyfully in unison. Showing the immediate sorrow of death to the ultimate Joy of heaven.
4. Hand sewn cloth arm bands embroidered or silk screened or patches sewn on with a favorite saying or picture or something. Similar to the rubber ones but a little fancier and doesn't shift around.
5. Writing a poetry book.
6. Illustrating various articles from my friends Blogs. Yes I'm talking about all of you. I see pictures in my head of how so give an example of what you're talking about and so would love to have the drawing skills to put them to paper. Alas!
1. UFC fan wear that is not gaudy or slutty. All I need is a silk screen and a warehouse full of workout clothes.
2. A parable-like children's book for each of the children in my life, Nate, Lucy, Ella, Skyler, Joey, Riley, etc. Each with its own plot mixed with pieces of their personality and a parable in the Bible. Yes I already have plot line ideas.
3. A music video using children's voices, depicting various tombstones from which children's voices seem to come singing at first a haunting sounding version of "Go tell it on the mountain" then joined by many many children's and childlike voices singing it Joyfully in unison. Showing the immediate sorrow of death to the ultimate Joy of heaven.
4. Hand sewn cloth arm bands embroidered or silk screened or patches sewn on with a favorite saying or picture or something. Similar to the rubber ones but a little fancier and doesn't shift around.
5. Writing a poetry book.
6. Illustrating various articles from my friends Blogs. Yes I'm talking about all of you. I see pictures in my head of how so give an example of what you're talking about and so would love to have the drawing skills to put them to paper. Alas!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Thoughts from today
I don't know how people do it without God. I mean that probably sounds narrow minded. But really when it comes down to it...He is all that I have. When I am alone, He is there. There will never be a time, in this life or in the life to come that I have to be ever truely alone. I will never be laying in my coffin realizing that this is the end.
I just so wish the people around me could have that too. I see so many people hurting and lonely - and without God and the Holy Spirit to comfort and give perspective. I see this and I realize in my own life how I run around trying to meet my own needs, when everything I could ever need is in the Lord. He will provide, He promises to. So when I fall, and I always do fall after trying to satisfy my heart elsewhere, He is there to teach me, guide me, correct and direct. So that even when I completely loose it...I am not lost forever.
He makes good out of bad daily. And I get to watch it happen in my own life. I just so wish, especially today, that the people around me right now as I am at work, can see it in their own lives. But I know that too, the need I have to see people come to him, will be fulfilled completely in God's time.
Lord,
I am failing to trust in you right now. Thinking that somehow you aren't working or don't see the need people around me have for you. Forgive me Lord. Please Father I pray that they see you. And that you will give me a heart for them that shows you to them daily. You know that ways I have failed at that already, but Lord you do make so many good things come out of bad. Thank you for the reminder that you are their Father also. Keep me from trying to fill others needs when they can only be filled with you. Praise you Lord that you are so much bigger then I can imagine and that you have everything, even their very souls, in your loving hand.
I just so wish the people around me could have that too. I see so many people hurting and lonely - and without God and the Holy Spirit to comfort and give perspective. I see this and I realize in my own life how I run around trying to meet my own needs, when everything I could ever need is in the Lord. He will provide, He promises to. So when I fall, and I always do fall after trying to satisfy my heart elsewhere, He is there to teach me, guide me, correct and direct. So that even when I completely loose it...I am not lost forever.
He makes good out of bad daily. And I get to watch it happen in my own life. I just so wish, especially today, that the people around me right now as I am at work, can see it in their own lives. But I know that too, the need I have to see people come to him, will be fulfilled completely in God's time.
Lord,
I am failing to trust in you right now. Thinking that somehow you aren't working or don't see the need people around me have for you. Forgive me Lord. Please Father I pray that they see you. And that you will give me a heart for them that shows you to them daily. You know that ways I have failed at that already, but Lord you do make so many good things come out of bad. Thank you for the reminder that you are their Father also. Keep me from trying to fill others needs when they can only be filled with you. Praise you Lord that you are so much bigger then I can imagine and that you have everything, even their very souls, in your loving hand.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
My farm
So I realize this makes me...well I don't actually know what this makes me...any number of terms for someone who is addicted to anything online. I like to use the phrase "a bit of a goober"...so I will. So I realize this makes me a bit of a goober. But I really like myfarm. Its the online farming game on facebook where you essentially have your own farm on which you can grow and harvest any number of crops. You can also save up for a barn ,chicken coops, houses, and a woodshed for various uses. I use it as my art pallet. Here I am growing a lot of tomatoes (the brown boxes) and rice (the blue boxes). It's so delightful because you really do have to work, sort of, to build up your farm. None of this immediate gratification or anything, I mean it takes 20 WHOLE hours to grow your tomatoes to be ready for harvesting. Sometimes it feels like forever. I love it.
Ten on Tuesday
All things April, or more specifically things related to this April in particular.
1. I love my bike ride to work. The flowers are blooming so that there are daisy's all along the side of the road. It is just beautiful.
2. The air is so cool and crisp but not frigid as it feels in winter.
3. Easter!
4. It reminds me of my dog growing up. Her name was April because we got her in April. Though for the life of me I can't think why she received such a common name as that with all of the readers in our household. Maybe that was the only one we could agree upon. If I had her now, I would name her Guinevere.
5. Tax season, no I'm not thankful for taxes themselves, but I am thankful for the people who make it all that much easier to get through tax season. So I say, God Bless Randy Deegan my tax man.
6. Easter Candy...need I say more?
7. Growing up. This April in particular I've had to do a lot of growing up. I'm out on my own, need to get up on time, make dinner myself, do the dishes, you know all of the things gorwn-ups do. Though its not fun or easy, I am thinkful for the growing parts of it.
8. Bible Study. We met last week and it was a really good time. It kinda of reached the point where we'ver all gotten to know each other a little bit better and have let down our guard a little bit more. It was such a nice time of building friendships and encouraging each other. I used to joke that i hated women's ministry stuff. That I wanted to be in men's ministry,. I still don't quite go for some of the super-girlish events, but here I am, in a women's Bible study and well, these women are pretty great. They are raw and honest and kind. I think God for them in my life.
9. It's plantin time for the garden! My boss has this huge garden in his back yard and every year they have a big bbq and people come over and plant (almost) whatver they want in his garden. He'll take care of it they just need to do the plantin! I'm excited for that too.
10. April is a great respite after the month o' birthdays in March too. It's rather calmer birthday-wise :)
1. I love my bike ride to work. The flowers are blooming so that there are daisy's all along the side of the road. It is just beautiful.
2. The air is so cool and crisp but not frigid as it feels in winter.
3. Easter!
4. It reminds me of my dog growing up. Her name was April because we got her in April. Though for the life of me I can't think why she received such a common name as that with all of the readers in our household. Maybe that was the only one we could agree upon. If I had her now, I would name her Guinevere.
5. Tax season, no I'm not thankful for taxes themselves, but I am thankful for the people who make it all that much easier to get through tax season. So I say, God Bless Randy Deegan my tax man.
6. Easter Candy...need I say more?
7. Growing up. This April in particular I've had to do a lot of growing up. I'm out on my own, need to get up on time, make dinner myself, do the dishes, you know all of the things gorwn-ups do. Though its not fun or easy, I am thinkful for the growing parts of it.
8. Bible Study. We met last week and it was a really good time. It kinda of reached the point where we'ver all gotten to know each other a little bit better and have let down our guard a little bit more. It was such a nice time of building friendships and encouraging each other. I used to joke that i hated women's ministry stuff. That I wanted to be in men's ministry,
9. It's plantin time for the garden! My boss has this huge garden in his back yard and every year they have a big bbq and people come over and plant (almost) whatver they want in his garden. He'll take care of it they just need to do the plantin! I'm excited for that too.
10. April is a great respite after the month o' birthdays in March too. It's rather calmer birthday-wise :)
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Ten on Tuesday
GREEN OR IRISH!
1. Green: I have 3 green sweaters and 1 green jacket. I love them all, they all are so comfortable, can be layers, are easy on the eyes, and make me feel like I'm constantly being hugged.
2. Irish: Potatoes. Yum.
3. Irish: St. Patricks Day. It's seems to be the least controvercial of all holidays.
4. Green: Trees. I love trees. The sight, sound, feel, smell, everything. They are poetry.
5. Green: Avocados. So delicious with salt and a spoon.
6. Irish: "Lassie": I love the words Laddy or Lassie. Use the word "lassie" when addressing me and you wil lhave my undivided (and amused) attention.
7. Irish: I loved the book "How the Irish Saved Civilization". Excellent book, I've actually read it twice.
8. Irish: I'm a big fan Colin Farrell too.
9. Green: I'm quite thankful for my favorite hat, aka, my I-woke-up-too-late-to-do-my-hair or its-a-just-plain-bad-hair-day hat.
10. Irish: I'm thankful for the smell of Irish Spring, it will always remind me of my Dad.
1. Green: I have 3 green sweaters and 1 green jacket. I love them all, they all are so comfortable, can be layers, are easy on the eyes, and make me feel like I'm constantly being hugged.
2. Irish: Potatoes. Yum.
3. Irish: St. Patricks Day. It's seems to be the least controvercial of all holidays.
4. Green: Trees. I love trees. The sight, sound, feel, smell, everything. They are poetry.
5. Green: Avocados. So delicious with salt and a spoon.
6. Irish: "Lassie": I love the words Laddy or Lassie. Use the word "lassie" when addressing me and you wil lhave my undivided (and amused) attention.
7. Irish: I loved the book "How the Irish Saved Civilization". Excellent book, I've actually read it twice.
8. Irish: I'm a big fan Colin Farrell too.
9. Green: I'm quite thankful for my favorite hat, aka, my I-woke-up-too-late-to-do-my-hair or its-a-just-plain-bad-hair-day hat.
10. Irish: I'm thankful for the smell of Irish Spring, it will always remind me of my Dad.
Friday, February 06, 2009
3/6/09
In the light of my upcoming age,
I've decided to throw out the gauge,
Of time in the counting of years,
And count only the laughter and tears.
To not care for the wrinkles and sags,
How much I’m like those in mags.
But as a flash of a flicker of light,
Or a soft wind that sighs in the night,
I am here for too short a while,
To carry the burdens of style.
I've decided to throw out the gauge,
Of time in the counting of years,
And count only the laughter and tears.
To not care for the wrinkles and sags,
How much I’m like those in mags.
But as a flash of a flicker of light,
Or a soft wind that sighs in the night,
I am here for too short a while,
To carry the burdens of style.
Hello
Hello blog,
Sorry you have been so neglected that blogger thought you were a spam site. Now that I have kinda gotten into the swing of things at work I will write more soon. I miss ten on tuesday, flashback friday, and the like.
Yours truely,
Red Riding Hood
Sorry you have been so neglected that blogger thought you were a spam site. Now that I have kinda gotten into the swing of things at work I will write more soon. I miss ten on tuesday, flashback friday, and the like.
Yours truely,
Red Riding Hood
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