Last Winter

Monday, March 07, 2016

when no amount of words is enough

2:14 PM

Sunday, January 19, 2014

12th Jan
Ordered a pizza hut meal for both of us, consisting of a regular pizza for myself, a curry zazzle for honey, and had some winglets and hash browns.

i think it was a $29.90 meal thingy, which came up to slightly less than $35 after delivery n gst etc.

19th Jan

We had a really nice dinner , whats new right? ;)

Bought Minced Meat Thai Basil rice from the nearby coffee shop for $6.50
added a curry soft shell crab for dearie too =) $10.90

bought a bbq chicken wing rice for $3.50 which was my usual nice food =)

9:06 PM

Sunday, December 23, 2012

how long has it been since i took on this journey? i'm not sure, 1st august?

I've learn lots of things, met new people, picked up amazing experiences on the way, totally worth it.

Today i'm almost reaching my break even point, it is a pity that there are limitations to what i can do, time constraints and lack of certain knowledge in specific fields have hindered my progress.

with more than 75% of my inventory left over, its quite a concern to me what will happen after i stop this. I've actually lost interest in these toys, when you lose the interest in something that made you excited initially, its actually worse than you can possibly imagine.

I've to concentrate more on my main business, i've picked up knowledge on the various exciting things in life you can do, i'm itching terribly to do what i want to do, cause i can.

somehow i feel constrained in certain ways.

But boy am i glad things happened, everyone should be grateful for what happened, for its an experience unique to you that no one else can ever take away.

2:25 PM

Wednesday, October 03, 2012

The legend says that, after Shakyamuni lectured on the Dharma in Balrampur, all people in the city became noble, polite and wise. They respected and helped each other. Balrampur was almost like paradise.

A non-Buddhist heard about this. He traveled a long way to Balrampur to visit Shakyamuni to ask for guidance. However, on his journey he came across something he couldn't understand.

Balrampur was in the tropical area. There were many poisonous snakes. When he was outside of the city of Balrampur, he saw a father and a son working in the field. Suddenly a poisonoussnake came out from the grass and bit the son. The son died shortly afterwards. The father was still working as usual. He didn't seem to be affected by the death of his son.

The non-Buddhist was surprised. He asked the old man: "Who is this young man?"

"My son."

"Your son just died. Why you are not sad at all? You still work as normal. Is he not your son by blood?"

"What for? Death is an element in life. The prosperity and withering of things has its own clock. Now that the person is dead, if he is kind, there will be kind arrangements for him. If bad elements in his life have matured, he will experience retribution right away. What good can I do to the dead person if I cry?" The old man looked at the stunned non-Buddhist and asked him: "Are you going into the city? Can I ask you a favor?"

The non-Buddhist said OK. The old man continued: "When you pass by the second house on the right after you enter the city, please tell my family that I only need one lunch and that my son is dead after being bitten by a poisonous snake."

The non-Buddhist felt very surprised. How come the old man is so cruel? His son died. He wasn't sad at all. Moreover, he didn't forget his lunch. How come a father can be so cold?

The non-Buddhist found the old man's house. He told the old
woman: "Your son has been bitten to death by a snake. The father asked me to pass the message to you that he only needed one lunch." The old woman thanked the non-Buddhist but didn't show any sorrow. The non-Buddhist asked, "Aren't you sad about your son's death?"

The old woman said, "This son came to my family out of his own will. I didn't ask him to come. Now he is gone. I cannot keep him. We are like travelers spending the night at the same inn. The next day, all of us leave for our own paths. No one can keep anyone else. In fact, there's no need to keep any one. It is the same between my son and me. I cannot direct my son's coming and going. It follows his karmic predestined relationship." The non-Buddhist heard this and thought that the couple was truly cold-blooded.

At this moment, the sister came out from the house. The non-Buddhist asked her, "Your younger brother is dead. Are you sad?"

"He's already dead. Why should I be sad? We are like logs tied into a raft. We are sailing together in the water. When a big storm comes, the raft falls apart. Each log follows its own way with the current. The logs cannot be combined together any more. We have become sister and brother due to random reasons and have come to the same family. However, life is different for everyone. There isn't a set time for life and death. He has left before I do. What can I do as a sister?"

When the sister has just finished talking, another woman in the house said, "Oh, my husband is dead."

The non-Buddhist was even confused. He asked the woman: "Your husband is dead. How can you act like nothing has happened? Are you truly indifferent in your heart?"

The wife said calmly: "Our marriage is like flying birds in the
sky. They rest together at night. They go out their own ways to find food at the next dawn. Every one has each one's destiny. It is his fortune that he doesn't have to come back once he flies. I cannot replace him. I cannot bear his karma for him. We are like people who get to know each other on our
journey. We have to go our own ways sooner or later."

Upon hearing this, the non-Buddhist was very angry. He even
regretted that he had traveled a long way there. He thought he
would be able to find the truth because he heard people in Balrampur were most loyal to their family members. He didn't anticipate that they were so cold-blooded.

Even so, he wanted to meet with Shakyamuni. After all, it would be rather pitiful to go back without meeting the Buddha.

After he met with Shakyamuni, he didn't ask any questions. However, Shakyamuni read his mind and asked, "What has made you so sad?"

The non-Buddhist said, "Because my hope didn't turn out to be true. Things I encountered are against my will. Therefore I'm sad."

"Sadness doesn't solve problems. You can simply tell me what you are sad about." Shakyamuni said to him compassionately.

"I came from a faraway place because I learned that people in Balrampur have heard your Dharma and are kind. However, once I arrived, I came across this ridiculous thing..." The non-Buddhist told the story of the farmer family to Shakyamuni. He thought that the farmer family didn't have any love not to mention compassion. He didn't think this kind of things should happen in a Buddhist country.

Shakyamuni smiled and said to him, "It's not necessarily so. What you wanted to hear and see was things within the principle of the human world. However, sometimes the Dharma doesn't have to follow the human nature. Cultivation is purifying the human nature and corresponding to the truth.
The family you met wasn't wrong on the principle. They knew that they couldn't forever keep their human flesh. When a person dies, everyone cries loudly for him. What good does it do to the dead person? Moreover, life has birth and death. Happiness at birth and sadness at death are signs of the confusion that the secular world has towards life and death. The circle of life and death never stops."

After hearing the guidance from the Buddha, the non-Buddhist suddenly understood. From then on, he converted to Buddhism and became a diligent monk.

7:16 PM

Sunday, September 30, 2012

i've a new shipment due to arrive next week ;) can't wait to set it up and do another update to my online shop.

Once things are stable, i'll do the things i've wanted to do for a long time.

yes i'll admit i've been lazy and non productive for too long. ~_~

Let me write my resolutions for 2013,

1) I will pick up a language, and be able to converse properly.
2) tbc

3:04 PM

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

well i got lucky and managed to be selected to be top 3.

sales surged and i almost couldn't cope with the demand~

revenue is at $1.7k now, got about few hundreds to go to cover cost, and i still have slightly more than 80% stock left.

6:31 PM

Wednesday, September 05, 2012

zj: my papa has a sport car, he told me its ferrari's little brother.
me: oh is it? what brand is it?
zj: ferralori

3:02 PM