ok..29 november..PROM NIGHT!..wooohooo..
hahaa..well..ok..hahaa..
hahaa..stupid seh..they ask to come school at 10 00am..
ok..so i tot..we would be busy cos we need to prepare
and all those shits ah..suddenly..
WALAU!
the first teacher, mdm kamariah, to reach
school reached at 11 plus..thats like so long from 10 am ah..
actually it wasnt suppose to be mdm k..it was suppose to be..
ms uma..
den only get to know that she will go der on her at 12nn..
den waited for mdm k..load some things on her car
from the staff room..den after that, azrial, sabri and me
went to buy balloon and wrapping plastic..
den on the way, we bought kfc for ourselves
and we meet mdm k at the car park..
took her car till
CROWN PRINCE HOTEL..
den after that, parked the car and unload all the
big2 boxes and bring it up to the ballroom..
the hotel was..awesome..cold air-cons..hahaa..
ok..den reached ballroom..
did some wrapping but we 3 ate first..den
bought kfc for mdm k..hahaa..
but we were suppose to buy right, but we walked arnd
first den az bought some shirt den buy kfc..hahaa..
den after tat, get hold of the chance to lie down
on the ground..hahaa..roll over and all..hahaa..
den after that, back to work, assisted ms kumari,
so i was her assistant ah..cos i was floormanager..
hahaa..last year also..wahahaa..ok back..
den did some blowing of balloons..hahaa..
after that, made some jokes..use as much props as possible
to make alot of jokes ah..it was fun..hahaa..
den after that, rest awhile, den followed mr toh
to the room dey book..hahaa..shower there..
BATH-TUB!
ok..den showered, put on the right clothings..
look smart once again..hahaa..totally love wearing those
type..hahaa..so smart..ok..den after that, went
back ballroom..took alot of pics..hahaa..but i dun keep any
of the pics, cos i never bring my cam..
den after that, kay and i working together, assist on another..
so another words, kay help me with mine, and i help
her with hers..
understand?
hahaa..ok..den..actual prom starts, saw sec 4 going in with
with nice clothings..smart and most followed the theme..
HOLLYWOOD NIGHT!
cant wait for my prom night..errrmmm..
i have in mind what to wear already..
hahaa..
ok..back..den after that..the prom first programme starts..
BUFFET WAS SATISFYING!
was full..then the waitress always refill the cup
with coke..even if the cup still got 3/4..walau..serious..no joke..
so have to drink it up, den alot went to toilet a couple of time..
den most were feeling ok after awhile cos the time
was getting closer to the opening of dance floor..
Cyn and Karl performance was nice..got guitar sound wat..hahaa..
so enjoy ah..den getting free from job..
so was also enjoying with the crowd..
hahaa..den after that..the time has come..
prom king and queen..cool!..
den after that the king and queen dance first,
den the floor was open..we can dance..hahaa..
so enjoyed..dance till tired..hahaa..den at 12 plus,
dey close the whole thing..
so prom night 2005 is officially over!
awwww...how sad..
den clear everything..
put those necesarry stuff back to the cars of ms uma and mdm k..
den after that, we were dismiss..
relax at the hotel lobby..sat, made some jokes..den
slowly, 1 by 1 left..
so it was trudy, kay, sabri and me left..we wanted
to take bus..NR but netha said only got on fri, sat and sun..
so we actually plan, to walk2 first arnd town eventhough
all close..but den trudy bro called den she ask us
to follow..her bro paying..so we said..ok ah...
but we dun want to go home asap actually..wanted to go home..
VERY LATE!
but trudy wanted to go home..so ok..
oh ya..we dun want to take taxi at first cos all
of us dun want to waste our money..
hahaa..
ok back..
den after that, told trudy to drop us at mrt station only..
at yishun..so we alighted..bid goodbyes..
and kay, sabri and me left..hahaa..we walked down the mrt station,
the underpass..den only got 3 of us..
so like lonely..so i scaring kay ah..hahaa..
but really got footstep sound at underpass..serious..dunno whose ah..
so ok..we walked..take pics under der..den..
walked to gv..den to the block opposite gv..
den from der, we hang out till 2 40 like that..
den after tat, at mac, we seperated..hahaa.i go my way,
dey both go deir own way..hahaa..
so i reached home at 250 or 255 am ah..den went
toilet cos got stomache ache..hahaa..so
i reached home..
PUT PUT!!
den watched tv..den sleepy, den sleep..hahaa..
den after a few hours, i must wake up cos got
HOCKEY TRNG..hahaa..ok..im done..wahahaa..
ok..tomorrow morning, 1 December 2005, i have to be
in school at 630 ah..cos bus leaving at 7..
and..im out of sg..hahaa..going malaysia..got hockey trip..
bloghoppers, dun miss me ah..wahahaa..juz sms me..wahahaa..
k larr..bye..if i wake up early tom,
ill try to update in the morning..hahaa..before i leave..
over and out!
jEn
i miss you at 8:31:00 PM
Monday, November 28, 2005
exactly 1 year ago, i was bored..hahaa..
hahaa.i juz realised that 1 year ago, i was very bored..
hahaa..i juz realised that my entry titled..'BORED' is
1 year already..i juz read it..hahaa..still having crappy
feelings..alot..hahaa..
anyway..
today is 1 year aniversary of..'BORED'!hahaa..
Happy Aniversary 'BORED'!
may boring and u last till eternity..
hahaa.
i miss you at 8:49:00 PM
OBS pics...hahaa..cool..i miss OBS! Cousteau!

Our only lunch at OBS..hahaa..
Rice, 1 piece fish, a scoop of veges and a large, super large
BEARCURD!!!
wth..i dun eat veges for goodness sake..hahaa..
but i finish it ok..hahaa..good boy..trying to stop myself from kfc and macs..
juz veges..
I LOVE VEGETABLE..!!errrr..i tink..
:D..hahaa..

Top: Sabri, Sheila
Bottom: Syaz, Jen
'as we kayak to the left....'
kayaking time! nila utama and cousteau kayak together-gether..

Half of Northlanders who went obs..
inside OBS boat..

Northland at OBS..just rain heavily..flooded tents..hahaa..
From left: Lyonn, Haikal, Syaz, Sheila, Mahes, Jenmark, Sabri

OBS sun-rise..
i hope that we are looking at the same sky every night..
especially whenever i miss u most..

To serve, To strive and Not to yield

waaaalaaa... COUSTEAU!

thats us..COUSTEAU!
hahaa..i miss OBS ppl..
i learn alot..hahaa..
TO SERVE, TO STRIVE AND NOT TO YIELD!
i miss you at 8:39:00 PM
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
OBS Song
linger
i miss you at 12:57:00 PM
OBS camp
Day1:i was excited, i went to school, board the bus and fellow northlanders wereenjoying the bus ride to punggol jetty and finally, we reach punggol jetty..we were looking at some ppl..wondering, is this going to be a fun camp?will the other students from other school be as sporting as we are?we were hoping that they will be sporting, friendly and not the action type..finally, we reached OBS camp 2..we assebled according to our watches,look into my watchmates eyes..den slowly we meet our instructor, serene yar..slowly, we assembled outside our stores as 1 group, surrendered our valublesbut i didnt surrender my mp3..wahahaa..if not difficult to sleep..hahaa..ok back..get to know each other slowly, introduction, played small game..if finally, my watchmates are..hong kah sec: fareez, nic, peisi, hong kuanxin min sec: qiao li, dylis, ellynahill grove sec: atiqa, nisa, jian ming, crystalnorthland sec: lyonn, haikal, sheila and meintructor: Serene Yarafter that, took a watch photo and then we settled the important stuff first,such as, corrected the number of stuff in our store, settled our ration and soon,soon, we pitch our tent and cook our dinner, rice took a long2 time so we decided toeat it, porridge style..hahaa..eat it along side with curry chicken and sardine and baked beans..den the night was fast, we slept for the night and woke up early the next day,we brushed our teethand went to kayak, kayaking was fun except those fibre glass that poked into my skin.. kayakall the way to camp 1 and had our lunch der cook for us by the chef..after kayaking was high elementwent to belayed and climb 1 difficult element, it was a buddy system so haikal and i went uptogether, at first log, haikal wanted to give up already but i encouraged him cos serene said, if 1 gave up, both have to go down..so i encouraged him cos i really want to climb that difficult element..i told myself, if jian ming and hong kuan can reach the top, i can climb that too..despite being tired anda partner who nearly give up, i tot of some ways to encourage him and made the climb easier for him..den climb and climb and climb and finally der we were, at the top.. looking at the beautiful sceneryof the sea.. den finally it was dinner, cooked for us again..dinner was better cos der were fish and chickenunlike lunch that has, fish and vegetable and a big beancurd that look like jelly..yucks..but i finishedthe food cos i told mahes, im going to eat the veges no matter wat..(i dun eat veges)hehee..ok..den actually, we pitch out tent first before dinner..hahaa..den after dinner, we get to bath, and agood sleep by the sea..ahhh..den woke up at 6, unpitch our tents and was given time till 8 plus toeat breakfast and bath and we played a lil game with other watches such us..columbus, nila utama and cook..so there were 4 watches together we are are called, MOBILE B..MOBILE B was better than MOBILE A..hahaa..everyone in that mobile looks boring...hahaa..so bad of me..den..it was time for trekking..everyone was already complaining before we even start cos our bags wasdamn heavy..hehee..den..we trek together den after along trekking, we had a relaxing quarry dip..we had a quarry jump den inside the quarry, we played captain ball..hahaa..was kinda fun but it wasdifficult to swim..hehee..cos we couldnt reach the ground as it was really deep..hahaa..den after that..trek all the way back to our campsite..a bit more to our campsite, it was cat1 again..aiyoh..so we had toset up the blue tarp and cook our dinner der while it was raining.. but it was alright also ah cos wesang in the rain with the other watches..den the rain was gone and we pitch our tents in the dark..den we had an early night..but many didnt sleep and we decided to talk to each other..and i find that a memorable night cos that was the day wen we all get to know each other and made thebonds greater..we talk till 12 plus i guess and some wer tired so we decided to have our sleep..den at 4 plus, we were disturb..not by wild boar ofcourse..but rain..heavy rain..the rain went in our tentand there was flood in der..and it felt like, there was no tent at all cos the rain can pass throughthe tent..damn..our bags was wet and the shirts and other stuff insider our bags was wet..arrggh..but being tired, we tried all means to sleep..den we gave up..we woke up and talk2 outside..withother watch also..den we drank milo and sang and disturb one another..den after that we waitedfor the drizzle to settle down and den..we have to walk back to camp 2..den i was feeling a bit sadtat day already cos it was 1 day left and we all have to part..i wasnt alone..there were other watchmatewho were feeling like that..fareez was feeling like tat also..as we were walking, i decided tomake some jokes..so according to my watchmates, i was the joker..hahaa..ok..den den after that seetled down back to our store and take out all the things we brought and cleaned the store a bit..den we settled our personal bag and stuff..i was frustrated cos everything was wet..hahaa..den after that,we assembled at the mph and we have to run to the intructors, and the last watch will have to performthier skit and cheer ferst..we were second last..hahaa..nila utama was first..after cousteau, which wasus, was columbus and den followed by cook..hahaa..ok..den it was our turn..we performedand we cheered..hahaa..cool..den we played 3 games challenging eachother..we didnt manage to getthe be the best group for the 1st 2 games but we manage to be top for the last game..hahaa..was proud of every one..and each individuals learnt some lessons..tat is..dun be over confident andevery games, requires team work..hahaa..cool..den..den after tat game, every one was sad again..tomorrow we are leaving..den we pitch our tents and cook our dinner..our tent was juz beside nila utamaagain..after our dinner, we have to meet serene..she said we still have 1 more last activity for the day..and that is solo night walk aka confindence walk..we have to walk his path..a hill in this forest..we have to follow the light sticks and the path will lead us to our instructor serene and from der..she willlead us to this tunnel..totally pitch black..hahaa..we have to find our way out..we completed tat walk and we went down to wait for serene..while waiting for her, we talk to one anotheras it was the last night..we tell each other wat we are feeling and asked questions..and we all decided to look up in the sky and everyone started to think..think of many things..think of thosethey are missing.. and i started to think of everything i didnt treasure before..i think back and started to thinkof those things that my instructor told us..den we have to go to our tent..we wanted to thon but serene said we all have to sleep and if we allsleep, she will bring us to see the sun rise..so we all pretend to sleep in the beginning..we talk..joinednila utama..talk to dem..made more frens..den fareez ask for a small candle cos nila utama was playingwith candles..so we talked over the candle and played with the fire..it was kinda more romantic..den after that we slowly, everyone started to sleep..den some snore and some talk while sleeping..hahaa..new story yo tell the next day..so the next day, we woke up at 5 plus..and went to meet our instructorcos she promised us that she will bring us to see the sun rise..den while watching the sun rise,i was abit sad..i started to like to nature and the environment...the cool water in the morning..the morning dew..ahh..i miss all those stuff..seeing moricette, columbus instructor, enjoying the sun rise,i find it cool..sitting all alone in the jetty hugging yourself..looking at the sun and the sky..looking back atthe things u didnt do well..haizz..i juz wish i can watch the sun rise again..see the sun set..look up in thesame sky with the one i wish to look at the same sky with me..haizz..kinda feeling sad right now..serious..haizz..den after that..we got back our valuebles..a while more and we have to leave..really sad duringthat period of time..den went to shop for the shirts i want to buy and the shirt my sis ask to buy for her fren..den..after that we have to go meet our instructor to play our last activity..the activity that really requires teamwork and team encouragement..we have to jump from a platform and hit the bell with our palms..den everyone did it except for elleyna..so we encourage her..she tried and tried..and continuied to try till shefinally hit the bell..we were happy and she was happy..den we were told to sit at the platform and telleach individual and our instructor our most memorable activity..s we tell..and i wanted to say the rainyday but nic already said so i said..the whole camp..i said it with feeling cos it was the time to really tellwhats on our mind..so this gerl..ellyna..she tell and she cried..before that qiaoli cried..den soon..almosteveryone cried..even..i cried..cos i really was sad wat..and other cried..den sudenly i also cry lar..atleast..sweet rite..hehee..den fareez also cry..hahaa..den our instructor also shed a tear..she has red eyes..she told us that we were the first watch that she cried for..isnt that sweet? den after that, she sang us asong..a song that i will never forget..a song that has alot of meaning..a song that made me realised whatlife is..a song that will linger in me..a song that explains..it is not good bye yet..it is juz good night..haizz..i miss it..and there is this sentence that serene told us..even if we manage to face the OBS camp, we still have one more OBS to face..and that is the route of our lives..haizz...after the confident walk, this thing get into my head..that is..not always u have someone der for you..sometimes, we have to face life alone..do everything on our own..we cannot always depend on someoneelse..cos somehow or rather, we have to take care and lead our individual life..
i really miss obs and wish to learn more stuff.. i want to thank every single watchmate and obs mateand especially my instructor and other instructor for making our OBS camp a special one..ill write more..kinda sad right now..wahahaa..haizz...gtg...jEn
i miss you at 12:53:00 PM
Monday, November 21, 2005
blog is not rotten yet..
wahahahaa...after so long and im updating now..hahaa..what a surprised..anyway..many things happened this year..fuhh..didnt quite like some of the things that happenedbut there were some that was ok and i enjoyed..kinda forget what happened for the rest of the monthso ill juz start from november..this is the month that im almost everyday im not at home..hahaa..November 5..hahaa..kinda worked for 3 hours as an usherer for a deepavali concert..it was kinda fun but also tiring cos have to standfor 3 whole hours..hahaa..but it was also okay..but the only best part was..hmmm..the money..hahaa..15 bucks in my pocket..hahaa..it was kinda a short day for me..November 7 to November 10..that was the first day i left my house for camp..a leadership camp also known as YLDP camp..it was kinda boring but also relaxing ah..we have to facilitate the junior leaders..hahaa..cool right..we are the seniors..hahaa..well..everything was alright except for the food..and when i say food, it means..breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper..the food sucks..the caterers are cheaters..school pay money and they give lousy food..cartons of water that was expired and 2 more daysand it will expire..wat the heck..4 days 3 night and the breakfast, lunch, dinner and supperare all the same..hate those caterers..kinda scolded dem behind their backs..then during the camp, there were hockey trng..so we kindaskip some of the things..hahaa..there were trngs on mon, wed, thurs and fribut some of i couldnt go for the thurs and fri one cosi have another camp going on right after yldp campwhich was also november 10..i went home to juz take new clothings and go back to school..was at home for only less than and hour..November 10 to November 12..GEMS camp..it was at pulau ubin..hahaa..we were suppose to facilitate also..but instead, we became campers also..kinda fun and interesting..the gems we interesting...my group was happening and my instructorsname was sunny..hahaa..he was okay..well..the first day, it wasnt bad, except for the sunny sun..we pitch our tentusing poncho..hahaa..pathetic..den it rain..we continued until we heardthunder and saw lightning..all 21 of us including 2 instructor went to settle downat a small hut..the instructor told us some ghost story including ubin story..and we all played games..hahaa..den the weather also ok so we continued pitchingour tents..den it was almost dinner..we all went to walk to this very far place ah..very far from our tent to juz cook and eat but the cooking didnt happen cos the camp chiefcall the instructor that the park rangers cut our tents cos the twine was on the trees..so we have to go back to cut all the twine on the ponchos..arrggghh..that part, everyonewas already angry and frustrated cos we were hungry and we havent eat cos out ofa sudden, we have to go back to settle things first..and that was already 7..and it was very darkand there was no light in ubin..so after unpitching our tents, we all carried our heavy bagsand the heavy box full of food that contains, can foods..damn..we walk to our next campsitewhich was also far away from the first campsite..before we even reach the campsite,our bags are killing our shoulders already..so as soon as we reached our campsite,with our frustrated face, we cooked our dinner..and dinner was only..maggi mee..cos it will take a long time for the rice to cook..and we were very hungryso we cooked the fastest to be cooked..hahaa..ok..then der were accident.. the bunsen burner cos a fire..but the fire soon disappear..it was juz small..den as soon as we finish our dinner, that was already 9 plus,we were given the next intruction.. that was, we are going to have a solo night sleepin the forest..SOLO i mean..den many were like scared..then wen we were given our place to sleep, some moved to their frens place to sleep..but i didnt moved..i stayed at my place and sleep..hahaa..i was tired..den while i was having my itchy sleep(there were lots of spiders and mosquito), we werewaken up by the camp committee..that was 4 oclock in the morning..we have to run from oursleeping area which was the forest to the small hut which was our campsite..we have to run a couple of times..den i thought it was already 6 plus and we have to wake up..den we were instructed to take our bags and follow dem..we thought dey were up to anotherstupid ideas of theirs..hahaa..den suddenly, dey bring us to this small to continue our sleep costhey said, they called the weather forecast and it was cat 1..haiyo..den 21 of us have to fitourselve in that small hut..den 7plus was the time they woke us up..we have to bring our bagsback to our 2nd campsite..den once we placed our bags down, we had our morning pt..we joggedfrom that campsite to the jetty..tat was so far and we have to jog back..aiyoh..den after that, 3 GEMSwent back cos dey were complaining that dey couldnt take it anymore..the teachers was alreadyangry so dey juz say, leave if u all want..and they really leave..stupid..hahaa..actually many of us were thinking of leaving also but we stayed..hahaa..den after that, our breakfast..bread and a bottle ofwater..hahaa..den after that, we have to prepare our selve for the next activity which is trekking cumamazing race..hahaa..den we had lunch and diner at noordin beach..the dinner and lunch was notbad..den both the group merge as one and we all walk to the jetty(thats were we were going to sleepfor the night) so called night walk ah..cos cannot use torch light..only must depend on the moonlight..den as soon as we reached the jetty, many went to toilet and den we had briefing..finally..but thenight hasnt ended..we were told that we were going to have a solo night walk at pulau ubin..i told myself, this is another challenge i have to face..i have to complete this..so i have to do the night walk..den we were allowed to sleep first den dey will wake us up1 by 1 then go for night walk..i was the last person..hahaa..scary huh..ok..so i walked..walked till i reached the end..ok..i wasnt that bad after all..den we all have to walkedback together to the jetty to have our real sleep..the camp is about to end..wen i was about to sleep,it rained heavily with lightning..haiyoh..den the teachers decided to ride the bum boat to go back tomain land..that was only 5 plus going to 6 and we all planned to leave ubin at 7 cos bus is arriving at 8..but plan was change..we left early and reached mainland early..so we all decided to sleep first whilewaiting for the bus..den at 8, the bus reached..we have to say good bye to the instructor..was kinda sadcos it was a cool camp and also a torturing camp and we gained experience and learnt new stuff..hahaa..so we reached school..some juz went home straight while some of us went to the toiletto shower first cos we were going to eat first..ok..thats about it for the gems camp..
im actually hungry now..so ill eat first and continue with the entry..
brb..hahaa..out to eat..jEn
i miss you at 3:46:00 AM
Sunday, January 09, 2005
First Event
ok...Hi people..i'm back from camp..fuuuuuhhhhhhyyyoooohhh....so tired ah...but i still had fun...thanks sseo....thanks seo...thanks jlo...and without the cooperative Sec 1's,the sec 1 orientation camp is a failure...Thanks alot...ok...how the event started...azura, sabri and me reach the HQ at 1130...exactly...late???YEAH..hehehe...sorry guys...ok...so...went to carry tings from leaders room to HQ..and then..finally 1215...have to entertain sec 1's....ok...so all the leaders went up to entertain them...
and again...the same problems occur..people were late..haiz..so yarr...we entertain them...so sabri,azura,mahes,sheila and me entertained them...and we have the seo's to motivate them..and tings were pull back...coz tats wat S3 wanted to do..so we juz follow..fellowship 2 was started late..hehehe...and then..entertained...entertained...entertained...entertained...entertained...and so came to 7 plus...Most of us didnt had our dinner coz we were doing the seats upstairs..ok..its mine and azura's show...like normal...we were nervous..we were the emcee for campfire...ok..so emcee till the end...so..like i said...the sec 1 were cooperating with us..thanks yarr..and then...they were dismiss at 1200...due to the decision whether to have a night walk..after that...and we are free from 1230 to 130...we took our time to bath and relax..we talk and talk till finally the debrief...130AMdebrief started and ends at 3 plus...so late...and finally...they gave us the time to sleep till 5....but many leaders never sleep..dey were talking and talking..me and mahes were there butabout 4 plus..we went to 1ED girls bung to chat with mahirah...and we were talking and talking till 5..and but mahes fall asleep earlier on the floor...me and mahirah was at the tables...we were talkingand i fall asleep at 5i had a good sleep even if we only get to sleep for 15 mins..mahirah woke me up at 515...and we woke mahes up...Thanks mahirah for everyting...and we had a briefing for the activity of the day..many were restless...mr shaiful was there...the camp comm was shoot..and ok..6AM we were dismiss to take the sec 1's from their class and bring them to the hall..ok..we had the first activity...the morning PT...Taufiq show..so all were restless..the sec 1 too...hahaha..after the PT..they had deir breakfast...after breakfast,everyting goes well...tings started on time..and ends on time...ok...so they had their workshop and while having their workshop,we had debrief... and we were ask to do some tings...we had to clean the school..and after cleaning many were sleeping..so u can call it as our free time...so many slept...and after waking up, all went to the hall to wait for the workshop to end..and then..the sec 1's were ask to do an evaluation form..after doing the evaluation form,they were dismiss...tat's about 12...and after their dismissal,we had a second debrief..and it ends at 2...and so we were dismiss...finally its over.. but atleast we know we did our job and the camp was a success...ok..after that...many went to the mac to rest and to talk and talk..there were also sec 1 over there..so atlast..many went out from mac..some went to LJS..some went home...some went KFC...some went everywer..haha...for me, mahes, taufiq, sheila, yiru, andy...went home to change and went to LJS...we met some jlo at the NP...so after tat...we walked around and went home finally..and that is about 4 plus or 5 plus...and den i reach home...i ate..and i sms mahirah..and i fall asleep..and woke up at 12..den went to sleep again..den woke up..den eat..and then...here i am...writting an entry for my blog..so...i'll end here...see u tomorrow..people...see u tomorrow mahirah..see u tomorrow sec 1..i'm missing u rite now mahirah...
sms me later yarr..and mazlinda..im always here for u larr...and plz...dun fight anymore ok???i went away for 3 weeks..and wen i come back..der u r fighting with ur frends...plz...dun fight..ok??thanks..ok...signing off...`jEn~10~bb-elephant bro~mazlinda broand my name is JENMARK...heheh..ok bye,,MUACKS..LOVE YOU SIS..!!
i miss you at 8:34:00 PM
Friday, January 07, 2005
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Mahirah Mahirah Mahirah...
Mahirah Mahirah Mahirah...
Mahirah Mahirah Mahirah...
Mahirah Mahirah Mahirah...
Mahirah Mahirah Mahirah...
Mahirah Mahirah Mahirah...
Mahirah Mahirah Mahirah...
Mahirah Mahirah Mahirah...
Mahirah Mahirah Mahirah...
Mahirah Mahirah Mahirah...
Mahirah Mahirah Mahirah...
Mahirah Mahirah Mahirah...
I always thinks of u...u r really the most special person to me..u became special to me last year..wen i first saw u, its like...WOOH!!! i felt my heart melting...and i tenk u for that...i tenks u for everyting...even if there is another person in my life....u will always be the first in line for me...first...first...and always first...I LOVE YOUi'll write another entry soon...i miss you very much...hmmmm...MUACKS...
i miss you at 1:38:00 PM
Sunday, November 28, 2004
bored
ok...feeling bored rite now...and also feeling sleepy...duhh...look at the current time...does tat tell u the reason why??hahaha...ok...juz now i was occupied..now im available..shacks...i mean..juz now i was doing someting...now..im not doing anyting...ok..juz now..i sms mahirah but she havent reply....den i sms limin...so..i called her on the phone..talked to her..and den put down..and den i sms her..and den...she go to sleep..early ah.....so now..12 plus..waiting for mahirah..guess...i must wait till morning again..but no choice..have to wait..really want to chat with her...i miss tat lil sis of mine... ok...juz wanna tell u a lil bit... previously..wen i was stress....i got listened to tis sad song ah...den while listening to tat, i tot of alots of tings ah..i tot of all the tings tat has been going arnd..den i tot of my life...haiz...damn sad ah...den somemore the song very sad..and its for ppl who are sad...and it happened to be ME..!!!haiz...really sad...den i almost cried ah...lucky i was at home all alone..my eyes became watery and 1 tear drop...but i pull myself together...and i never cry..really was sad...i felt like going to somewer far and being alone and screaming my heart out..!!!the pressure was der the whole time!haiz...guess... 1 day, i'll break down and cry!!!
haiz..ok..i guess till here onli guys...and gals...u all tot tat imsomeone who isalways happy and having tis big smile.but you are all wrOng...im juz a guy who always have a crappy feelings!!!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!CRAP!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!IM IN CHAOS...!!!HELP ME!!!HELP ME..!!I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE...!!!WHY DO I HAVE TIS CHAOTIC LIFE...!!!
TOTALLY CRAP..!!!TOTALLY CHAOS..!!!JUZ A CHAOTIC LIFE..!!!WHY DO I HAVE TIS SHITTY FEELING IN ME..???WHY???JUZ LIVING A SHITTY LIFE...!!!ATTITUDE BROUGHT ME HERE...!!!!DO I DESERVED TO BE LOVED BY ALL THE PEOPLE WHO CARE??.........................................................................................................................WISH SO.........................................................................................................................OVER AND OUT...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!------------------------------>BYELOVE YOU...!!!
i miss you at 3:28:00 AM
Thursday, November 25, 2004
Over and over again...
Cause its all in my headI think about it over and over againAnd I can't keep picturing you with himAnd it hurts so bad, yeahCause it's all in my headI think about it over and over againI replay it over and over againAnd I can't take it yeah I can't shake itNoooI can't wait to see youWant to see if you still got that look in your eyesThat one you had for me before we said our goodbyesAnd it's a shame that we got to spend our timeBeing mad about the same thingsOver and over againAbout the same thingsOver and over againOhhBut I think she's leavingOoh man she's leavingI don't know what else to do(I can't go on not loving you)Cause its all in my headI think about it over and over againAnd I can't keep picturing you with himAnd it hurts so bad, yeahCause its all in my headI think about it over and over againI replay it over and over again yeahAnd I can't take it yeah I can't shake itNoooI remember the day you leftI remember the last breath you took right in front of meWhen you said that u would leaveI was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anythingBut I see clearly now And this choice I made keep playing in my headOver and over againPlaying my headOver and over againOhhI think she's leavingOoh man she's leavingI don't know what else to do(I can't go on not loving you)Cause its all in my headI think about it over and over againAnd I can't keep picturing you with himAnd it hurts so bad, yeahCause its all in my headI think about it over and over againI replay it over and over again And I can't take it I can't shake itNooo(Now that I've realizes that I'm going downFrom all this pain you've put me throughEverytime I close my eyes I lock it downI can't go on not loving you)Cause its all in my headI think about it over and over againAnd I can't keep picturing you with himAnd it hurts so bad, yeahCause its all in my headI think about it over and over againI replay it over and over againAnd I can't take it I can't shake itNoooCause its all in my headI think about it over and over againAnd I can't keep picturing you with himAnd it hurts so bad, yeahCause its all in my headI think about it over and over againI replay it over and over againAnd I can't take it I can't shake itNoooOver and Over againOver and Over againCause it's all in my head
i miss you at 4:02:00 PM
Thursday, November 18, 2004
stress...!!!
HERIANDY...will u stop with wat u r teasing me..??I DUN GIVE A FUCK BOUT TAT ANYMORE...AND I DUN CARE ABOUT IT ANYMORE...!!!SYAFIZAH...!!!u tooo...STOP TALKING ABOUT ME..!!!WAT HAVE I EVER DONE TO U..!!IF I DIDNT TALK BOUT U..!!DUN TALK ABOUT ME..!!!I DUN LIKE IT..!!!I KNOW U WONT LIKE IT IF I DONE THE SAME TING TO U..!!!ANDY AGAIN..!!!JUZ STOP IT OK..!!!IM PISSED OFF BY TAT SHIT..!!!STOP IT..!!!IM ALREADY STRESS WITH LOTSA TINGS..!!!IF U TINK ITS FUNNY...!!!WELL DUDE..ITS NOT...IT'S VERY IRRITATING... U WONT LIKE IT IF I DID THE SAME TO U...!!!JUZ STOP IT FOR MY SAKE...I WONT CHANGE MY MIND..!!!ITS OVER AND ITS REALLY OVER...I WONT CHANGE MY MIND...!!
ITS THE PAST AND IT IS FORGOTTEN...!!!I DUN WISH TO BE BACK WITH RAHMAN ALL....AND I DUN WISH TO REGAINED THE MEMORIES I GET FROM DER...ITS OVER....I ALREADY LEFT THE FRENZ...DEY ARE JUZ MY NORMAL FRENS...!!!!
ALL OF THEM ARE NORMAL...DONE AND OVER WITH THEM ALREADY...!!!LIMIN....TAT IS WAT IM TALKING ABOUT...!!!ITS ABOUT MY FRIENDSHIP WITH RAHMAN AND 'GANG'...SO SORRY...DIDNT GET TO TELL U FACE TO FACE...!!!MAHIRAH....I MISS U VERY MUCH....I STILL REMEMBER HOW MANY MESSAGES I USE TO SMS U YESTERDAY NIGHT...[18.11.04]
I USED 10 MESSAGES TO SAY ALL THOSE TO U...
i guess...i have to stop here..i juz wanted to let the steam out of my body...it is irritating...im feeling better...`jEn~chaOs
'My life is not confusing, it is chaotic''Manage to hold on but as soon as they started teasing, i just fall from the high cliff. But i was lucky to have u[Mahirah] to catch me from such a high height just to help me. I don't know wat would happen to me if you weren't there for me.'
'My heart belongs to u and no one else. Treasure it with care.''You wouldnt know wat I'm really feeling, i could have been hiding it from u as i dun want to hurt u. Some day, u may see me with a delighted look in my face. But deep down, all the troubles are hurting my heart.''You may see me as someone who is a "happy-go-lucky".But actually, my heart shed a million tears every day.'
'When u feel hurt, i have to comfort u. But maybe, u will reject me.And i will be hurt. But even before im rejected for comforting u, i'm already feeling hurt. As when u are hurt, my heart aches.'I cared for lot of tings. But u are the first one i cared for!Just my sis, Mahirah.
Tats all i wanna say FOR now. I gotta end tis entry.Bye Friends!!Muacks`jEn~10
i miss you at 8:24:00 PM
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Bad Feelings
men..im bored..i can't go out...have to stay at home...coz im sick...so unlucky ah..i missed the NKF day camp...today...supposed to go..but mum dun let...men..wasted..tomorrow also have..but...am i going to be sick till tomorrow..?..also got trng...gonna miss it...must inform brian...i wont be able to see my god sis....haiz...juz have to sms...and chat....hope she will be online ah..mmmp..somemore wat....mmmp...oh yarr....alot of you noe tat it is hols redy...and its boring...haiz...sommore im sick..cannot go and play soccer...so...more boring...aiyah... oh yarr..yesterday...i play soccer...in field... my team challenge taufiq team...which is also called.... masjid team...another words...its reál dragoons against masjid team...and we won...yeah...we already played 4 games...and we never lose any game..not even a draw...good...have to keep tis team going...oh yar.r.tis is the second time we challenging tis team..the first game was....we won 13-1....and noe...we won...6-3...actually..the game was very tight.....first half...we played...dey score first....we were losing...1-0...den khairuldin equalised..the score is 1-1...den its half time...oh yarr..tenks to fifi...he is our coach yesterday...he is a good guy men...really a good guy...he come to support us and give us tips..coz he wanted to help us be a better team...and den...second half...we score and score...and they also score...and so..the scorers are...khairuldin(1), Sabri(1), Khyrul(2), Me(2).....so it is added up to 6...deir scorers are..Izat(1), Faez(1), Shafiq(1)....it is added up to 3....shafiq score in the last minute...and oh yarr...we are onli 10 ppl..and they have 11...we still win.....we really are a good team..now...our nxt challeger will be deli's team...actually...half of his team belong to us...but...dey betray us and they form a new team...'Golden Dragon'... we want to win dem... to prove to them tat we are better...and we dun need them to win...we juz need our players who are commited to our team...ok larr...i tinks till here onli...ok larr..bye... going to update again..if im not bored...ok larr...bye
i miss you at 3:51:00 AM