so fast, imf is comin to an end..and i have been goin to the airport for like i'm workin there.. i get closer to some ppl, also, gettin further away from some.. things change, the feelings of ppl too change as the time past.. live is always so unpredictable at times.. alot of thoughts again...family, friends, studies, st john and relationship... family as usual, shall not say much. friends..many friends made in airport, some friends become closer till i'm begining to fear, while some are ppl whom i wanted to talk to long ago...

has not been goin to st john trainin for many times.. can say i'm busy..also can say i'm lazy.. Just chatted with josiah with some stuff and felt tt things has become bad..in a way where it's not wat the few of us can do.. We're ppl of small rankin while wat we say my not be listened by the ppl on top.. troubles seems to come one by one, and all of us are so busy.. and it's tiring for me, with all the stress tt i'm havin even when it's holidays nw. Politics, biassness, conflict...i start to feel as i go older and into the world of workin with others of diff ages.. nothin i can do..just plan somethin for wat we can do to help a better result, and for wat others cannot do to us.. it's wat others wan to think...maybe it's the cause of diff frequencies....maybe!!!

Relationship..a big ? for me... Lookin at the results tt i have and thinkin of the amount of work load and stress tt i will have, they makes me scare.. i started to question myself to whether i'll be able to take it the next sem.."will i be cryin all the time at hm while studyin?? " i thinki will not have the time to go into tt for now and then.. If it happens??he will be under lots of stress too..cos he will shares my problems.. a person to make me happy, and understands wat i think..cos i will need alot of my own time to study..

i have my aims to go..i noe it's difficult to do. As long as there's a little improvment, it motivates me to carry on. i noe tt maybe i may not be very good in studies as compared to the others, i noe myself.. i noe wat i have done.. yup,..
it's abit stress of me now..but i'm still alright.. get over and done with it, cos tml will be a better day for me to strive!!!! just like Energiser!!hahaha

today is the last day of the whole imf thing and auty.. at last.. it ended early and tt means i got more time to enjoy abit...

imf start le, results get le, holidays ending soon...so fast..time past..and natural really takes it's cos by letting things fade..

off today..and the past few days was quite quiet...not many flights and was sitting down most of the time.. it's not i slack,,it's really no ppl.. think tml will better..cos most of the meeting startin..

the realeased of results somehow make me feel tt i must continue to work harder next sem..cos it's does show my effort pays..although not alot..bout i;m happy alr.. jia you.. hope tt a new sem, a new me with a recharge me...time for me to cong ci again though holidays really past fast with all the stuffs i'm busy with..

natural takes it's cos and i'm begining to feel tt i'm letting go of many many things... not to ask for much. i'm thinkin tt maybe the coming sem, i will fill with busy stuff, be a happy single 19 gal with a simple life without any disturbance... lol..although abit old la...

tire liao...tml still got duty at 7 at the airport..hope tml got better things to do..haha..but not too busy also...

went for chalet on on tue and wed..abit like touch la..and the cake was great..haha lots of chocolates... felt abit sad for nellie cos was like waste alot of money and ppl keep put aeroplane last min..dun sad ok..i got go... :) had a cake from ryza and jiefang..full of chocolates..and didnt expect nellie to smack it on my face!!!! but alright la..haha..cos neve kanna my shirt..
didnt sleep for the whole night...was watchin zhao an ni hao at 6 in the morning when they started to sleep...sob..haha... anyway,really appreciate wat u all have done ya..thanks....

went to shop for shoes for imf, got abit of chong tu cos keep sayin non-stop..and was very angry.. den i anyhow buy loh..suan le.. bough my cake as well at bishan..think it's gonna be nice..cos i chose de..haha...

it's my birthday le...abit old liao...lol... hmmmhope everythin will be fine for the ppl whom i care... and jia you for my studies... hope to forgot the unwanted things as well..
if we're meant to be, there will be directions and hope...
(happy)!!!!therefore put my fav colour..purple!!!

life are so fagile,
many ppl may wan to end their life,
many wants to stay longer,
they have their reasons.

alive or death,
it's just within split seconds,
treasure life...

it may not necessary be
enjoying,
having fun,
it can just be a fullfillment;
relaxing,
watchin a nice movie,
sleeping,
nice meal....
&
lookin at the beautiful sky(i like)

it all depend on wat u think,
a wrong decision may just take a precious life...

i treasure e ppl i care...