Been thru hard and tough times.
More to come...
At last i haf the time to blog or rather i finally felt i had to blurt out certain things.Whether if it lightens my heavy burden of thoughts or does not remains to be seen at the end of this blog.
Army life is a sickening journey. Day in and day out there is ongoing physical training and coming tightly towards the schedule is ongoing technical handling tests and theories on weapons.Its too regimental for me. Somedays i felt like reporting sick to make my life easier till now i haf not.I alwaes wanted to fall out halfway of a route march, soc or section movement pretending i haf heart problems or even fainting on the road.But part of my mind seems to tell me not to and endure after all i haf endured so much to give up last min,not to be a loser like i used to be.So there is much satisfaction when i complete a certain tiring event.Though i will not get used to such life. Sounds contridicting right? Dun like that thing yet force urself to do. Well thats life. At some pt of life its bound to happen and u haf to push urself to complete freaking tasks.So take it as a challenage, at the end of the road there is bound to b satisfaction and u can take pride in it.
Nowadays during book outs, i like to be a loner.I watch movies alone.I rather sleep at home den go out for group gathering. Family time seems much more precious den being wif friends. Army life seems to make me a dull person, the only topic i know is abt army life whereas the bunch of fren ard me r talking abt civillian life.I rather read comic den go for kopi talks. Haf i realli change? How to get back to the jovial me? I'm shutting myself out of this world and avoiding ppl.
WHAT THE FARK IS WRONG WITH ME? Blogging still doesn't help me...
X|nG 
11:24 AM
Another week is gone. 4 more weeks to POP. Really looking for it. Field camp going to commence this week. Wonder wat's going to be installed for us? More tekan or more push ups? Watever coming towards us , we had to take it to the chin and ENDURE.
Some of the events are still etched in my mind. Such as my live range, we had the day shoot where i got 16 shots of 16.I had high hopes of getting the marksmanship until i realised at nightfall i was a born bobo shooter in d dark. I managed 4 out of 16 shots. There goes my marksmanship and 1 day off. The following week was preparation for field camp and SOC( Standard Obstacle Course) practise. 11 different obstacles to clear. It was super xiong! Rundown 700m and den the 11 obstacles. Initially i got stuck at the low rope on the 1st attempt as i was wearing gloves to prevent the wound of my blisters from opening up. Later i realised tat gloves was totally useless as it didn't had any grip.Off went the gloves and up i went. After the 11 obstacles was the 500m run part. It was mentally and physically challenging. Had to tell myself tat its the last part after tat rest all u wan.I guess sometimes u haf to play mental games wif urself in order to achieve ur aims.
Btw Rajesh is in my company Taurus and he is oso in my section which meant he is directly sleeping in the same room as mine. But he is a totally an outcast and rapidly gaining the wrath of the whole platoon. He is very selfish who only does his things and not helping the section. Pushes responsibilities,Lazy and the worst thing is he likes to Chao Geng(Acting sick,even slept in parade)! Platoon Sergeant gave him the role of being the platoon ic and he often screw things up. Even my section starts to detest him. His attitude in army will not get him far or even in the society.
I'm still struggling with a bad flu. Hopefully i can get thru field camp without any more sickness. 7 days and i'll b thru~ Happy National Day!
X|nG
4:21 PM
Haha my current favourite song "Kiss Goodbye" by Wong Lee Hom,heard this in my section bunk.
Lots of things to blog about my army life but very little time to do so as i'm hafing a tekong cough and flu. Need more rest as field camp is going to start soon.
Wonder how are you guys out there? Seems like there is not much communications nor any outing going on much.
X|nG
8:56 PM
Where we come from? Who we are? We are from Taurus! Mighty Mighty Taurus! haha abit too siao on i guess.
Just booked out from tekong, the feeling is very very shiok to be able to see singapore and opposite gender. If i were to stay in there for another week i tik i might generate more interest on my same gender. Anyway BMT is quite regimental for me.In tat island u can't walk as u wish, u haf to march whereever u go and greet any1 whose rank is higher den u.Machiam like dog cos u haf to echo out loud "Yes Sir!" "No Sir!" no ya or huh if not we would be punished papaya or _|_. But fortunately our section is the most siao and entertaining in platoon 1. At nite b4 bedtime, we would off the lights and switched on the mp3 player loudly and the L torches light, waving it ard. To get the disco effect, den we would parade joseph who was is my bed buddy in only his boots and briefs.He would do his catwalk and shake his booties like in Milano Fashion Show.Freaking funny! Imagine 3 other sections consisting 50+ ppl and some sergeants inside the rm partying and dancing in the bunk Haha!Some events sure as tis realli made lifes in camp more rosy.
Of cos there were times we had our discipline problems and were punished. Or the physical Training and 6Km Road March which caused blisters and heat exhuastion.At the end of the day we would look forward to coy admin time where our bonding is put into effect and we would rectify where our problems lies.
Quite missed my family and Ah Soon but it can't be helped haha. Going back tml night. Another 1 yr and 9 mths and i'll be thru!!! =p
X|nG
4:09 PM
Tml would be my convertion course. From boi to man haha. Gotta hand in my pink ic to get my 11B. Dunnoe wat to expect but hopefully I can get in to ocs or sispec that is wat I hoped to get.Pay is good at that stage and there are many courses to keep me occupied rather den do admin work or other sai kang. See you guys in like 1 mths time? Take care~
*::Well Wishes::*To people who meant sumthing in my life
Guoliang- Thks for all the encouragements and support, didn't know that u r such a great person to be with till i met you. Sounds gay haha but i really appreciate for all you did.
KC- Hope your leg gets cured soon and we can get to tag team and play soccer together.Just dun break my leg =p
Derek- You are one great person tat i admire sumtimes. Love dun come easy grab it when things feel right. No need to consider so much
Sunqiang- Be strong! Dun gif up hope on urself.You are much better den u tik.
Ivan- May you get promotions and most importantly recognition in your work. Must hao hao zhuo ren ar.
Sherrine- Hope u haf more confidence in urself.Feel good abt urself.Dun buy so much clothings oso lar. Save some for ur future babies they will oso need nice clothings.
Shuhua- I guess I mentioned lot of times. Bottom line is try to start afresh and dun tik so much.
Meiting- Though things may not turn up as well as it should. But u still remained very much a fren to me.Oh anyway gd luck for ur world skill competition. May u scale greater heights.
Yaohui- ORD lor! must study hard ar. And hao xin ni lar get a girlfriend to control you.
Echin & Mel- Must learn to tolerate all kinds of nonsense in the army though i'm abt to experience some haha.
Weiliang(NYP)- When u come in i POP le. Hopefully we can continue our cycling trips together during our bookout days. Go East Coast no problem no need yoko yoko le~
Jade- Sumtimes i wished i had more guts to tell u how i felt, but somehow sumthing stopped me. I kinda dissapointed you once. But i'm still happy to look at you from a distance. Cos u're special to me.
Haha i'm old so haf to b lo-so abit. I'm afraid i may change my personality after i enter army so i really would like to take tis chance to blog down wat i feel. Hee~ Take care Guys!
X|nG
11:59 AM
After so long, I finally had the time and mood to revamp my blog. Nthing special just a change of outlook.
Anyway I'm going to narrate things during last mth since i haven't been blogging regularly. Starting from graduation day, I guess tat was the only day i made my parent proud by walking up on stage to collect my diploma. Diploma only ma big deal meh? I beg to differ. I always been a problem child in studies,i would rather skip lessons and tutions in order to play the most trendy games at the moment eg. pokemon,digimons and etc. During my period in ITE, I had the inferior complex feelings. During my journey to ITE, I had to wear the uniform of ITE and take this freaking long journey with stops at major JCs,Ngee Ann Poly and Singapore Poly. Sumtimes I even met my ex-sec sch mates but every greet that they made makes me wish the whole ground would suddenly swallow me up in order to gain some protection or in simple terms I dun wish any1 to see me end up at tat stage. So at one stage I didn't even bothered to attend classes for a mth. Of cos my parent got to noe tat and had to go back to ITE to beg them to take me in as they were going to fire me. My mum cried. They did not scold me nor nagged at me for that period, they seems to sense the reason. Change of fate, I was counseled by my mentor and kinda took away my barrier by driving me to school personally.Very grateful towards him cos it meant alot. End of the two year tenture in ITE, I managed to get a COM and made it to Poly.
Thats the reason I turly treasure my achievement cos i'm able to make them proud of their son again.The graduation day oso meant that it was the last time we would gather and meet for the last time. Dunnoe when would be the next time we can be together haf fun and talking nonsense,all walking the path of their own. Was kinda dissapointed some dun even bothered to turn up.
Anyway my new phase of life came in the form of an letter, I haf to report for NS this coming fri, 7/7/06. Nice date. Dunnoe wat to expect but its like another new point of life after which i closed a chapter.
Woman thinkings on love are often complicated, they consider many factors. Man thinking on love are simple and woman consider them naive. Wat for consider and prod on it when you nv try out and see if it realli works.Action speaks louder den works.
It doesn't harm if don't work out. If you tell me "Wat abt feelings put into the relationship?" I gave out more. If tats the case, you r not sincere enuff and selfish, u wan something back in return and in tis case u wan it back more den u gave out. U will nv go far.Its those moments where she reflect on times that you gave out tat counts.
X|nG
10:35 AM
