Sweltering..

It's been a brutally hot season. Ask anyone how their Chinese New Year was and you'd hear the same remark from anyone - "very hot lah!"



Not surprisingly, the heat and dry season brought about forest fires. These terrible forest fires caused a terrible haze.



I woke up on Saturday morning and was greeted by a curtain of white haze as my first view of the outside world =P I hate not having a full view of a clear morning sky and fresh and clean air.

However, around dinner time and especially during the middle of Saturday night, the rain came, and come it really did. It rained the entire night and even up till the time service began at church at 10am, it was still raining where I was. Some of us felt that the rain was probably man-made, but for me, I believe God brought the rain. Many prayed for rain. Even though man might have gone up into the sky to make it rain, if God hadn't allowed it, their efforts would be futile anyway.

Thanks God, for bringing the rain. I couldn't help but let out a yell after church, that I could see clear skies again, for a bit...

*By the way, the 1st 2 photographs were actually taken during the morning, not evening like the 3rd picture. Imagine how hot the days have been lately. Morning sun and you get that kinda look on the sun. That's an angry looking sun for you!*

The other meeting

What a beautiful morning! A glorious one if you asked me =)



I said I was going for another meeting of sorts. I was going to tell Him what's been up, what's been going on, complain to Him about what that thing made me do. I did. I met Him. I talked. He listened. I fumbled to tell my stories and pour out my feelings at times. He still listened and He understood anyway. I don't say anything a lot of the times. He knows my heart even when I don't open it.

Both meetings aren't over though. I mean, chapters come, chapters go. Some come again. Most of them are closed for good. These meetings will carry on from time to time till the end of me. I guess I just have to keep drawing close, keep plugging at it and be closer to Him. I choose to be close. I choose to be mentored. I hope to get there one day. I hope to get there eventually...

For now...that first meeting that I wrote about, the one that caught the attention of my 'Jedi Masters' and some of my friends and peers; that meeting is over. This meeting has only resumed, and will carry on till I expire. I called out, but not in vain. He answered, and He answered good. That photograph is a merely a glimpse of how He came. Awesome.

Thank you Father. Thank you, again...


***I've got to remember to clean my lens =) Kinda spoilt my shot of the cross there.***

The meeting

It was a part of my life before. When I was saved, I told it to beat it and get behind me. It's powerful, underestimated at times but doesn't even come close to the might of The Father. Yet, it gets to us humans and sinners. It brings the worst out of us. It's brought the worst out of me before. I try not to allow it to get to me. But just as I meet God, I meet it too. I've scoffed and brushed it aside before. Sometimes I triumph and enjoy victories against it. There are also times where I fail. Today was one of those days. I met it. It got to me. I allowed it to get to me. I am angry. Very angry. But I shouldn't be, otherwise it'll get to me again. Our meetings are brief mostly, I think. I won't forget the meeting. I have a score to settle with it. I have another meeting now. I'm going to tell The Father. I need help. Lord, help me. I may not be able to stop meeting with the devil, but give me the strength to ward off it's attacks.
Who am I? What am I? I struggle with this every day. I blame me. I blame my weaknesses. I blame my deficiencies. Lord, save me...

Reunion

For the first time ever, as far as I can recall correctly, I am spending Chinese New Year by myself, minus my family members. Mum's overseas and sister's not back from KK yet. That means no reunion dinner also. Reunion dinner...hmm, it's not like my family really has that either. We've never really been close to our relatives. Don't get me wrong, we aren't at loggerheads either. Reunion dinner this year was with Jo and her family, minus her mum, who's Chinese but overseas as well. We had our dinner at Pizza Hut and I must admit it was kinda fun =) I guess it isn't so much about the food, but the company.

Lights out

Since completing secondary school, I've had to watch so many of my friends go abroad to further their education or some other reason. I've been here this whole time and I guess it's sad when some of your best friends are all not here. Had the chance to at least meet Emma after a while of not seeing that woman since graduation. But it's not fun saying bye to your friends and I had to say that to her briefly after meeting again and had to say bye to 3 of my closest friends - Benny, Tersh & Kylie, all gone to Australia. Australia sucks! *haha* No, I guess it doesn't. But...*sigh* On a lighter note, check out those pictures of Benny and the effects! =)

Malacca Frappin-gig

Was down in Malacca for the opening of its first ever Starbucks outlet with Fallen Leaves and Sue of Her Reverie. Met up with Kevin @ Broken Scar there as well. Good gig, nice trip out and a nice time.