I feel I can actually be quite a volatile person...I can lose my (nice) feelings towards things at some point of time and this drastic change scares me, because I fear how things can be very different next time. Maybe like if I don't like my home like how I love it now. Or if I ever stop liking someone I love. I may appear calm and stable but once in a while, I find myself bursting and lashing at others.

Seriously what's with the sporadic raining? Not only because I got caught in the rain today and when I reached the bus-stop for shelter the rain got lighter. For the past few days, it only rained at the start of every training. As a result, we had to go gym which sucks because we are just too tired and recovering from our aches to train any further. And obviously field is more fun!!

Hmm last week was great, training hard yo! Even though I'm really unclear if I'm performing up to standard. Haven't unlocked my potential. I mean obviously lah, but damn sian I'm really damn blur and lousy in game. Went back for GP remedial on thursday -.- but that's okay I had someone's company :) thanks! though you won't be reading haha. Really want some company outside and do something fun. The GP teacher was good though, good in the sense that, you can't compare her with A CERTAIN GUY because good would be an understatement. hais good GP tutor is hard to come by anyway, but hopefully next year will be different.

okay the weekends the weekends they are not good I have not done much for today!! Okay I got myself to concentrate and read my book but I'm still far from completion. Needless to say, I slacked the rest of the day away BUT only until 9pm+. Which means I decided to start on where I left off from CCK IMS (intensive mugging session lol) that is, maths. I was so glad I finally gotten myself to start on work, but the realisation sets in... I've lent my GC to my senior LOL. So the next thing I chose to work on was I&I lah since it's more urgent and confirmed that we have to hand it up. Looking at my progress now though, I am not even halfway through with reading a single article, crap. This is just another typical day during holidays when there's really nothing to do...okay at least nothing that you can look forward to doing and it's just slacking. At the same time, procrastination :/

Haih I don't like GP so much. I don't understand why...I have formulated a few reasons but I am not too sure T T. Mainly because I can't seem to develop my own views on current affairs. Lacking in opinions... Besides, when I write it starts to get boring easily...so I should really learn to write short and summarise.

The reason it is so tough to keep a blog is that you really have to write well to interest your readers... And hey even if you must say that you don't care whether others read your posts or not, it does not trump the fact that no matter what, there will definitely be one reader - your own self. It feels more demoralising to you than it does to anyone else if your writing is really boring.

Alright I obviously did not type this up under 1 minute (time's up long ago) but 1 minute because bai wan is on TV now LOL there goes my Saturday, perfect ending to an entire day of slacking around. bye!

Was reflecting about life. There are so many life lessons but I cannot seem to remember them all. Which kind of sucks because I will just commit the same mistake again. The feeling of having erred again really sucks... Wonder if it happens to other people out there? I think this is one of the most common questions to ask haha.

Yesterday we had our first CCK gang intensive mugging session...or take out 'intensive'? At least it was more intensive for the rest, I was just slacking around. It didn't feel too good and I couldn't say I did (much) work when my mum asked me where I went. So she started scolding/saying me and she said the same thing since p6 that I have not changed since p6, that I'm still lazy as ever. damn it D:

Kay gotta return to training the next week. That will mean less time as it will take away 3 days of my time weekly, also because training will be too exhausting that I cannot do much for the rest of the day. Oh on top of that I will probably sleep in late hahaha. However it may help me sleep better because I'm gonna be so tired. May not be able to join in for mugging sessions though...

Right, happy birthday Johnny :)

all these negative thoughts getting to me. i wish for things to be fine.