I freaking cannot wait for the December holidays to come. My airticket has been booked--I'm flying the very next morning after my last paper. I'm so looking forward to my China trip! I don't think I will come back until the start of school in January 2009.

Today is the last day of my recess week. Looking back, I've spent the entire week slacking, living in my own world so to speak. I have the mood to do absolutely nothing.

I'm so fucked up now.

How?

Something that I'm so in love with. I'm born to be violent, and I will break your bone.

A little sad that I had to miss the grading some time back. The next one is still another half a year away. Sigh. But it's ok, building the foundation is more important. Just that I want to learn more techniques so that I won't always be the one being thrown by the seniors during sparring. Now I'm bruised all over, all thanks to a senior with Taekwondo background who doesn't control her kicks, not at all!!

Argh. Pain!

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I know this is kind of too early to say but I want to have my very first birthday party when I hit 24, the year that I'll be graduating from university. Alright, that's only a possibility, because I think parties are boring.

Upon graduation, I want to backpack at some places again. I was thinking of going back to Europe, but due to the lack of funds, I have no idea whether that is possible or not. I don't know if I should make it a solo trip either. I don't have anyone in mind for such a trip, for not many people are keen on such things. Even lesser people are as crazy as me to have spent almost all my savings on travelling as well. But I think I should get someone along for security reasons. I know this sounds very selfish but backpacking is no joke. I hope to get my brown belt before going on my next trip so that I am capable of protecting myself in case no one is joining me.

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Why always blog because of me? So many times already.. I'm not worthy of all that..
And I'm not angry at you or blaming you loh. Don't get my tone wrong, you shit. LoL.

Would it have made any difference should I have said that it matters rather than it doesn't? Nah, I don't think so..

Today's training gave me strained neck, injured toe, torn fingernail, bruised knee and a painful butt.. But they are merely physical pain.

It's raining...in there..

I need an umbrella..

I've been feeling quite gloomy lately and shit friend isn't really very free to talk to me. I'm literally staring at my laptop screen day and night, waiting for some miracles to happen. Sigh. I was telling shit friend that I need to be less dependent because I cannot be so dependent forever (I know this sounds lame). Shit friend was being very kind and replied me, 'I'm fine (with it).' Feeling quite guilty actually.. Sigh..

I know I ought to lose weight desperately now but I just cannot keep my mind off pizza! Ahhhh kill me! I'm just so in love with pizza! And, I want to eat xi gua (watermelon) too. I know watermelons are cheap. But one slice is far not enough for me, usually I'll finish half a watermelon in one go sia. I mean those medium to large ones alright? And if you want to know what will happen to me after that, I'll just keep visiting the toilet loh. Weird cravings ah.

Perhaps I should call for delivery later. Hmmm....

Will you ever take your words back someday?

Because it hurt so much and I was just pretending that it didn't matter.

Or maybe I was just trying to convince myself that it didn't.

Somehow I wish this semester will end faster, so that I can hide myself up somewhere soon. I've been feeling gloomy for the past one week long and I am not feeling any better up till this point in time. Whenever I'm lying on my bed trying to sleep I would crave for someone hugging me from behind, tightly. Weird feeling, oh wells. Dark chocolate cakes.. I need them..

On a lighter note, I've seen vast improvements in my punctuality and attention span (basically to stay awake during lessons that is) for school in the past three days. All thanks to sleeping earlier and waking up a little earlier.

Haiz, I shall get myself gummies from 7-Eleven now. Bye!

Oh ya, not forgetting to present to you my lovely parents!

Photo taken at 千岛湖, or Lake of a Thousand Islands!

It was moon cake festival last Sunday and my family got treated by a family friend. The restaurant was somewhere in Raffles Places and the food was fantastic. I was so busy eating that I didn't bother to take any photo of the dishes. Oh man, I gained 2kg in the past one week! Thanks to the moon cakes! Sigh!

Photojournalism:

Dinner at Noble House
Lobby.
Table for 13!
My napkin and chopsticks.
My dearest handsome cousin and I, after stuffing our stomachs with tonnes of good food.

Anyway, did I mention that I'm finally done with my formal laboratory report? Though there's still a long way to go for the Technical Communication project, I can finally sleep in peace everyday. I should really change my habit and try to sleep before 0030hrs every night.

3 more tests this coming week and I am done with the first half of this semester. I am currently looking for studying partners for my September holidays. Anyone interested?

Happy me, after completing my lab report.

还是傻傻的男生最可爱! 呆呆的男生则最有魅力！

bleAh.

Have been watching some movies recently.

The last thing a guy should ever do is to let the girl go for the operation alone should they both decide to abort their baby. Be responsible, don't be a coward.

People change over the years. It's saddening to see shit happening my friends. But that's life, isn't it? Everyone has to go through some sort of hard times in their lifetime.

Photojournalism:

Lunch with darlings =)
YL, Hx, Mitch.
Me, Fel.
My sweet and sour pork spaghetti. The pork tasted bad.
Fel sucking the egg yolk. Ewwww.
Pretty and elegant Hx.
Dessert.
Yandaos and chiobus.

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“回忆也只是回忆，回忆并没有力量。” --《我叫金三顺》

I've been so tired lately that I skipped school today, which is something that I so shouldn't have done. Yet I don't see the point of going school when my tutorials are undone and I could foresee myself dozing off throughout the lectures. A break is all I need for now.

Below are some long overdue photos taken in August.

Photojournalism:

National Day Preview


Shit friend took this photo for me. haha.
Cam whoring.

Singapore Fireworks Festival 2008
Marianne and I.







Ruth's Birthday cum Thanksgiving cum Farewell Party
Yummy cake baked by her sister.
For the first time the girls outnumbered the SJIMB guys.

Seeing Ruth off at Changi Airport
Goodbye, my dearest Dajie..

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Thanks Jc =) Talking to you made my day..

While juggling between tutorials, laboratory reports, tutoring and trainings, I don't know how come I still have the time to finish the entire episode of "My Name is Kim Sun Soon". It's a very good show, I learnt a lot of things from it.

If I have a chance to celebrate my 21st birthday again, I'll definitely spend that day in a more meaningful way. Just a random thought, oh wells.

Many of the times I find myself trying to overcome lethargy. I have no idea why I ended up this way. I need a source of motivation. As the amount of work starts to pile up each time, I can't help it but to panic. And whenever that happens I would have this urge to hug something tightly so as to calm myself down. Will this ever come to an end?

I have fallen in love with Coke Zero! Haha zero calories! I can't believe it, but I've 'quited' from drinking soft drinks for years. Yet somehow I liked the after taste of Coke Zero the first time I tried the free sample.

Next, I am going to talk about my upcoming China trip. My last paper is on 27th November and my class chalet is on 19th December. So it means effectively I have exactly 3 weeks to spare. I have already missed the past 2 X'mas gatherings organised by my class so I really don't feel like missing the chalet this year. Then again, I hope to spend more time in China. Shuyi will be completing his O-levels this year so the two of us will be able to have lots of fun in Harbin together, finally. Never have we had the chance to go back together ever since we migrated to Singapore! I want to do SO many things together with him-shopping, eating all sorts of local foods, watching movies, drinking, and the list goes on. Haha I so love my cousin! Papa and I decided to spend a week in Yunnan as well. And I might be going to Beijing to visit my aunt and another cousin too, and perhaps also making a short trip to Qin Huang Dao to visit my grandparents. ahHhHhh! I just have so many places to go and so many things to do! I seriously doubt 3 weeks are enough. How?? I can't decide! I mean, I'll be spending Christmas and New Year alone even if I come back in time for the chalet (cuz Mama won't be coming back to quickly). Therefore, I might as will spend my holidays with my family in China, right? But the class chalet... Grrrrrr. Howww...?

Pardon me for lousy expression or whatever, I'm typing in layman's terms.

My body is exhausted! The mind is still fine but my body is giving in. Thanks to 3 days of tough trainings last week. I'm having muscle ache all over again, plus brusies on my arms, knees and hip and a twisted ankle. But I'm loving it! I mean the trainings, not the injuries! Haha. The best thing is, I can see my body getting more and more toned each week, especially my arms! (But shitty shit shot me down by saying that I have bigger muscles but no strength -_-")

My lao3 dou4 (daddy) is coming back to Singapore next Thursday for 5 days! Wah. Haven't seen him since the beginning of January this year!

Meet up with er zi and Zz last night! So damn happy to see er zi la-he's getting more charming than ever! Haha.

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Waiting =)