I was talking to WJ earlier on today and she expressed her insecureness and concerns over relationship problems. She said:

"I realise all my good friends are not attached."
"I guess it may be because of our in independency."
"Is it just that we are the type of girls who will not be swayed easily?"

Her friends in this context means girls like me, who have never been attached in the past 20 over years. And here is my reply to her:

"I think it's because we aren't sure what we want, but we know very well what we don't want."

Sounds pro yeah? I was quite surprised with what I came up with in fact.

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To that someone, you know who you are. There are certain rules that I have to abide. You know I have to, so don't try to tempt me, because you are destined to fail. You know you are fickle, then please do something about it. Know what you are supposed to do and what you should not do. Do think about the consequences of your actions first. That's all I have to say as a friend for now.

Exams are coming! Gua!

I suck la. I just cannot study by myself. Somehow I can study in whatever environment, conducive or non-conducive, as long as I'm not alone. Sigh. I shall frequent Sharon's house from now onwards. Gambetta neh to myself! Go Go Go!!! =D

The Czech Republic trip HAS BEEN CONFIRMED!!! I'm so excited!! And the practice schedule for May is out too!! (Seems that my rants worked somehow.) I need a job to sustain myself. My mum is going to abandon me for my dad for a while again so I need to find something to entertain myself. I need to emphasize again--I NEED MONEY, VERY BADLY!!!

Life in university is kind of getting interesting. Just last week I was sitting alone at the back during Astronomy lecture. A senior (should be) came very late and happened to choose to sit beside me. Then, totally unanticipated, he started talking to me. Quite a friendly person I'd say. And today during Maths lecture, I was again sitting alone as mingshu abandoned me for home!! zzz. I happened to be sitting behind this group of guys (strangers) who usually would sit behind us. And one of them was distributing chocolates to his friends. Then, out of a sudden, he turned to me and asked,'You want?' I looked at him in astonishment and my instincts made me shake my head immediately. Now I regret lah, I've never seen that brand of chocolate he offered before and it looked good! Besides, I haven't had any chocolate for weeks! Interesting people, interesting experiences. haha. University, a place where strangers talk. Maybe I should start talking to the stranger that's going to sit beside me next time. LoL!!!

Life has been great!

Unexpected things lead to unexpected results which could be unexpected surprises!
So, always take unexpected things positively!

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能够坦然的面对，
才算真正的放开。

Somehow these two lines flashed through my mind while I was on my way home yesterday. I feel enlightened suddenly! LoL. I need to achieve that and I believe I'm not too far from it already! =D

I like to have my plans finalised early. But the Czech trip is giving me a hell damn lot of problems. Things are still uncertain and I have no idea when it can be confirmed. And because of this trip, I can't plan for both my Europe and China trip. Neither can I confirm whether I will have the time to work in May. Darn. I need money, VERY badly.

Photojournalism:

My new pet grasshopper!! It's about 5cm long, as you can see. I'm going to name it Pepper! Hope it can live longer and break the 11 months record set by my previous grasshopper. But it's an insect after all, they don't live long =(
Pizza catalogues, showing how much I crave for pizza each day. But I cannot afford it.
After solving the Rubik's Cube, Nan decided to challenge me with slightly harder tasks. This one has all the edges with the same colour, but a different centre piece.
After accomplishing the previous task, she gave me another task--to form the letter 'H' on all sides of the cube. Of course, I did it! Insiders will know that both tasks are actually rather easy.
Spending almost half of the Good Friday watching Computing online lectures.
My favourite accessory, the ring.
Fooling around with Photoshop and my old photo again.

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You kind of know me too well. So much so that I think you know me better than I know myself. And that scares me. I don't know why.

Are Computers Men or Women?


A language teacher was explaining to her class that in French, nouns unlike their English counterparts, are grammatically designated as masculine or feminine.

"House" in French, is feminine -"la maison," "Pencil" in French, is masculine "le crayon."

One puzzled student asked, "What gender is computer?" The teacher did not know, and the word was not in her French dictionary.

So for fun she split the class into two groups appropriately enough, by gender and asked them to decide whether "computer" should be a masculine or a feminine noun.

Both groups were required to give four reasons for their recommendation.

The men's group decided that computer should definitely be of the feminine gender ("la computer"), because

1. No one but their creator understands their internal logic
2. The native language they use to communicate with other computers is incomprehensible to everyone else
3. Even the smallest mistakes are stored in long term memory for possible later review
4. As soon as you make a commitment to one, you find yourself spending half your paycheque on accessories for it.

The women's group, however, concluded that computers should be masculine ("le computer") because:

1. In order to do anything with them, you have to turn them on.
2. They have a lot of data but still can't think for themselves
3. They are supposed to help you solve problems, but half the time they ARE the problem
4. As soon as you commit to one, you realise that if you had waited a little longer you could have gotten a better model.

Adapted from http://www.computerjokes.net/.

坏的爱情会让人失去自我，好的爱情则会让人找回自我。

A bad relationship makes you lose yourself, a good relationship helps you to find yourself back.

Which category do you belong to?

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Stupid Zz stupid Zz stupid Zz!!!!!
Sigh.. I'm ok liao..

Yayy!! Good news good news!! It seems that our choir managed to source for more sponsors and our Czech Republic trip could be made possible! The total cost has lowered from 2.5k to 1.5k now! I'm so glad that this miracle happened! I shall keep my fingers crossed and hope that the trip is going to happen.

I watched so many movies that the hole in my pocket just gets bigger and bigger! I'm so broke! Sigh. 10000B.C. is nice! And so are The Leap Years and Step Up 2! I watched CJ7 online but it wasn't as good as I expected. Three more movies to go--Sky Of Love, L Changes The World, Ah Loong Ptd Ltd. Aiyo, I know I'm little behind time.. Haha.

Photojournalism:

Abandoned love. Will the presents from your bf/gf end up in the dustbin too should you break up one day?
A corner of my room! Looks cosy right? heh.

Sub-committee Appreciation Night
After much anticipation, here comes the prize winner of the lucky draw.. WHO!?!?!!
IT'S ME!!! I've won the FIRST prize!! =D =D =D
My lovely director, inspired by me, decided to act cute while congratulating me.
PnP Division! aka Publicity and Publications.
Candid shot.
A very helpful club service guy who offered to da pau the leftover foods for me. So touched lah!
Dang. Don't know when Teng Seng (left most) appeared beside me while the photo was taken.
TADA!!!!! Me and my masterpiece--The Banner!!!
We, and my banner.
designed this banner!! Muahahaha.

aiyoOo. Someone seems to be quite affected by that entry sia. Guess I should make it unavailable for the public to see. But I really needed some place to 发泄 what.. If not the explosion will be worse next time.

And I'm so happy today!! Haha I was smiling to myself on the way home. I'm going to watch Step Up 2 later will my dear bros and sisters! haha.

And and and. It seems that there are quite a few people who think I'm fierce. Really mehh?? Where got.. I'm just too lazy to type 'haha' or 'LoL' or those smileys in SMS what.. Somemore I've always been a joker so I should sound more serious now.. Where got fierce where got fierce where got fierce... Aiya sia la. Like that cannot find boyfriend already!! =X Sigh..

Ok. I have made up my mind. For my 21st birthday, I'm going to spend it at the theme park at Genting! There might be friends joining me but things are uncertain now. Anyway, I don't care whether there'll be anyone going with me. I don't mind going alone. It's just a one-day trip after all. I like to be impulsive. Hahaha.

And, ahem. I will be less dependent, I will be less sticky [to the person who thinks I'm getting too sticky]. I will leave you alone. Try la haha. My 'conditions' are getting better now so I guess it is possible.

《一场游戏一场梦》
王杰

不要谈什么分离　我不会因为这样而哭泣
那只是昨夜的一场梦而已
不要说愿不愿意　我不会因为这样而在意
那只是昨夜的一场游戏
那只是一场游戏一场梦
虽然你影子还出现我眼里
在我的歌声中　早已没有你
那只是一场游戏一场梦
不要把残缺的爱留在这里
在两个人的世界里　不该有你
喔　为什么道别离　又说什么在一起
如今虽然没有你　我还是我自己
说什么此情永不渝　说什么我爱你
如今依然没有你　我还是我自己

Blogger is kind of screwed up now and I had to upload all the photos one by one. zzz!!

I reached home at 12 midnight today, after nearly missing my last bus. I stayed back in school for choir appreciation night and at the end of the event I decided to change my mind. I am not going to leave choir next academic year despite the busy schedule I will be having. I love singing and I love NTU CAC Choir. It's so sad to see some of the final year seniors leaving us. But we had fun, we had joy, we had seasons in the sun!! =)

Photojournalism:

NTU Open House 2008
NTU CAC Choir!! A happy family =D
Cute girl Desy and I. *hint hint* *winks to someone*
Jessica and I.
Melvin!!! My dear dear dear senior!! So sad that he had to leave the choir as he's graduating already. I was so so so touched when he wrote me a small note and gave it to me at the end of the appreciation night. I mean, I'm actually not really close to him as I didn't really have enough time to get to know him better. AhhHHh!! I miss hugging him!!! He's just so nice to hug!! Now I realise I like bigger guys, for they are so nice to hug!! Just like teddy bears!! haha
Another graduating senior, Davin. I love messing up his hair. Oops.

Karaoke Session.
Kelvin and I.
Dear bro and I!! Haha we need to change pose the next time man, it's has been the same one every time we take photos together!
My bros!
Giant toilet roll.
Old houses.
Sing!!!
Chinatown!

You'll always love the person you have once truly loved.
It's a fact that will never change.

Sigh. I'm such a cannot-make-it last minute worker. Now I'm staring at my lab report trying to come out with some crap by morning. This report is pretty much different from the one I did last semester. I'm talking about the format. This time the Prof wanted nothing more than 5 pages for the formal report, which is very unexpected as the previous was more than 20 pages.

I made some important decision today. It took a lot of courage and a long time for me to do so. I don't know if I'll regret but I don't think I will. It's the final move for me!! And I would like to congratulate myself for being able to let go!

You know, it's very true that people always amplify things. They don't really do it purposely for most of the times. Ironically, even though you know they are just exaggerating the matter, you still want to believe in what they say. And when you finally wake up, you blame yourself for bring such a fool. Lesson learnt: Just let it be, man! Why give a damn?

Feeling really kind of lonely when all those whom I can talk to leave me one by one. Sigh. Well, that's why I firmly believe that nothing can last forever. It's bullshit, it's rubbish. I guess I really need to widen my social circle.

旧的不去，新的不来!

Isn't it? =)

But I'm losing faith. Or perhaps I've already lost it. I've lost faith in myself. Now I know how some of my friends were feeling when they lost faith in love, in themselves. If you can't get it, stay away from it then. That's how you can save yourself from getting hurt.

I've got use to the loneliness of university life finally. Eating alone, going for classes alone, sit alone during lectures.. I like eating wanton noodle at the rooftop. Very windy, very peaceful..

Eyecandy found!

Finally! =D

This guy actually used to stay in the same block as me back in hall. Now I regret moving out so quickly! In fact I got to know him through his roomie. Hehe. He caught my attention the first time I saw him with his roomie man. And he's getting cuter this semester! With dyed hair and a nicer haircut! AhhHh!! I like his eyes! Oh yah I think I'm quite lucky sia, he's my coursemate! Meaning I'll see him for the next 3 years! woohooO! Sounds like some despo heh. Haha who cares.. Eyecandy mah! Now I look forward to going school! Yayy! New source of motivation! XD

Updates, updates! After fighting with my uh, fat cells for the past 3 weeks, I've lost about 3kg! Back in shape again! However, I am going to aim a little higher this time. I want to lose another 3kg. Gambatte neh to myself!!

I haven't been craving for chocolate cakes for quite some time already I realise. Another good sign! Meaning my life has been good and I don't need anti-depressant to make myself happier.

Life has been great!

Oh. I came to realise this problem. My 21st birthday is about 2 months away from now! I've totally no idea how to celebrate it. I'm not going to throw a party because I've never had a party in my life before. Somemore it's so troublesome. Some of the ideas I have:

Some random photos below.

Photojournalism:

My best friend in my life. Something I need everyday, every meal. Something I'll die without.
I think I look kind of tired.
At Suntec! WoahhH! Fruit carvings!!
Bugis Street!DI've finally found out how those teenage girls manage to make themselves look so fair and angel-like in photos! Photoshop again man. A very good example shown using this photo. Now, compare with the orignal photo in the previous entry and you will see the difference.
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It's time to stop dreaming. I can't be so foolish again. I should never give all I have to anyone else again, unless when my heart really feels right.
Er zi is an exceptional case.. hee..

Our concert was a great success!!

I was so glad that I didn't make more than three small mistakes (oops) while dancing. Haha. And most importantly, I managed to look at my partner's 'eyes' without laughing during the performance (er well, I was looking at his forehead actually. muahhaa).

Thanks to all friends who came to support us-NTU CAC Choir!!

Photos finally!

Photojournalism:

NTU CAC Choir Concert 2008

'CANTEMUS VIVA VOCE'

Inside sopranos changing room! The German exchange students and I. They are really lovely, goregous and pretty!
Xiang Wen and I!
Waiting for our concert to start..
YL's upperstudy, Yu Liang, me, Yuen Ling, Lance. Haha. Thanks so much for the flowers my dearies!!
My dearest bro and my dearest ex-roomie.
Er zi and I!!! He geh geh lah.. The blue rose is actually from Hui Min. Haha. And I simply love this photo. I look so happy lah! As in, the happiness is from the bottom of my heart.. My er zi rocks my socks! =D
Ah Ting and I! Thanks to somebody's 'very stable' hands.. I had to add some special effects to offset the terrible camera shake.
The group of us.. With their incomplete banner for me =X
Flowers!
Gerbera lehh!! Aka African Daisy.
Blue rose.. I love this colour man. It's so pretty!!