Wahahaha I was supposed to meet up with er zi and xiong xiong for bball today. But I ended up dragging the two of them to NAFA to watch Ruth's symphonic band concert!! Oh man I haven't watched a band concert in a tortoise years. I miss band life!

My concert is just around the corner! Sadly I just cannot memorize the lyrics of one stupid japanese song. Sigh. Hopefully I can get it done by Friday. Anyway, I'm all excited once again! This is my very second concert in my life.

Still no photos! Didn't really see anything worth photographing recently. Sigh.

*AhhHhh I love pinching my er zi's cheeks!! Hahaha =D *

I have been absolutely absent minded this week.

Starting from Wednesday, I lost my cashcard in the library after photocopying some stuff. This is already the second time, because I always forget to retrieve my card from the reader!! There goes my $20 over dollars.

On Thursday, I happily went to school for my physics quiz, only to realise that I forgot to bring my formula sheet. Good thing was that I managed to borrow one from a friend just before the start of the quiz. However, after the professor gave out the question paper, I found myself staring at the questions for a minute or so, trying to figure out why I felt that something was missing. Guess what, I totally forgot about my calculator too! Oh man. How stupid can I get. In the end I had to borrow one from the guy beside me 5 mins before the end of the paper to work out all the final values.

Darn.

Oh, and today, I accidentally hit my big toe onto the cement while climbing the overhead bridge. There was a sharp pain but I ignored it as I was already late for lecture. But within the next 100m I walked, I felt something sticky and warm around my toe. Looking down at my slipper, holy, I saw the region around my big toe was covered in blood. It bleed all the way till late afternoon somemore! And I was supposed to SMS Fel regarding Mitch's birthday present as well. As I was SMS-ing Mitch before that, I didn't know what I was thinking at that moment but I happily sent the message to Mitch. Oh gosh. Kill me man.

What's wrong with me?
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Sigh... haiz you know in fact I'm so upset when friends whom I thought would support me for my very first choir concert in my life turned me down bluntly, or worse, ignore me when I ask them about it. It's just so disheartening..

Haiz. Fine. I'm not going to ask them anymore. It just makes me sound stupid and annoying. Why should I be begging people to come for my concert? I don't deserve that, not yet.

But again, it's also so heart warming to know that there are people whom I thought are always too busy to spare some time for me tried their very best to make it for my concert, despite their busy schedule and the fact that they are not really, or never, interested in choral music. Thinking of all these just makes me smile and keeps me going..

I have absolutely nothing to post about recently.

Sigh.

Let's talk about the Edison Chen sex scandal then, since he was the only celebrity whom I think I went crazy over in my life.

Personally I think he really did nothing wrong. I mean yes, he slept with many women before and recorded the details down using his video camera. Now, tell me what's wrong with that? That's his personal life. Not as if he wanted those videos or photos to be leaked out. He kept those videos and photos for his personal pleasure and I seriously see nothing wrong with that. Perhaps just a weird habit, if you really want to argue. It is Kira (and gang) who has been doing all the immoral and illegal stuff behind this whole incident. It was said that Edison wasn't careful enough with the photos but as a computer repairing company, you shouldn't be stealing the customer's personal data in the first place isn't it? And did you guys realise that so far none of the female celebrities has put the blame on Edison totally? This means to say that the videos and photos were taken at their own will too! There's no rules saying celebrities can't have sex life!

I guess Edison is the biggest victim of all in this entire incident. I hope the chaos would die down soon in HK. I shall keep my fingers crossed and hope the HK underworld people won't hurt him in any way.

Another entry today.

I've finally made up my mind to cut my hair shorter. It's getting quite long and troublesome at the same time. New year new start anyway. I can't wait for recess week to come, so that I can fled to JB to get my hair cut, dyed and maybe treated. It's time to get a new colour and a new look too!

And. Oh my goodness there're so many volcanic eruptions on my face-pimples are growing!! My complexion is terrible now. I suspect it's because recently I went to sleep with my make-up on as it was too late and I was too tired to bathe. Oh man that's the last thing I should have done. Now I have to stop putting make-up to school for the next few days. Muahhaha time to show people my 'true colours'.

I need to pull up my socks! I'm so far behind schedule for Physics and Maths and Management!! The lecturer said yesterday that we should have already read half of the textbook (out of about 500 pages) for Management but I'm still at the first 20 pages!! K.O.-ed!!! Physics quiz is next week and I have yet to start with my revision! Oh man I am so screwed.

Does anyone still want to buy tickets for my concert..?

You know now I feel like pulling out from my dancing role for the second half of the concert. I'm getting so discouraged by all the dancing steps. I just can't dance for nuts. My body is so stiff that I can't even shake my shoulders without looking like a robot! Now I regret making it for every dance practice, or else I'll be on the riser doing mostly the singing part! Saddened. Somemore my partner is shorter than me and we are supposed to hold hands and walk around the stage. So weird lah. I just cannot look deeply into his eyes the way I am supposed to. I know this sounds mean but I really mind it. Actually I just feel weird dancing with someone I'm not close to. It's like the holding of hands and other kinds of body contact-I'm just so not use to doing them with someone I don't know well. It feels so strange and odd. I'm so so so discouraged.. Sian. Feel like skipping the dance practice on Saturday but I can't.

It's going to be another hectic day tomorrow. One morning lecture followed by 3hrs of lab, one choir performance at lunch time, one lecture in the afternoon with another 4 fours of tutorials. And the day ends after a further 3.5 hours of choir practice at night.

Saddened.

aH! I need to lose some weight urgently. Oh dear I gained a freaking 3kg ever since I returned from China. I'm so out of shape now and my jeans are getting rather tight! There's no way I can put on my tailor made gown for my concert if I don't do something about this real soon. I have 2 weeks to lose 4kg!

Alright, for those, if any, who are wondering how I managed to lose that 11kg in 2.5 months in 2006 without doing any exercises, good news for you. I'm going to share this secret, successful and effective method of mine. Here the dieting plan goes:


It's going to be VERY tough for the few days because you will feel hungry most of the times. If you are afraid of gastric, drink some milk or yogurt. If not, just drink plenty of water. Water makes you full temporarily. Your stomach needs some time to shrink. So please be patient! Once when your stomach is smaller and you have got used to the amount of food you are taking in each day, you shouldn't feel hungry that often.

Now, I have to inform you that the rate at which your weight is decreasing will reduce after some time. This is experienced in most people is other dieting plans/weight reducing methods and is perfectly normal. All I can say is if you are still unsatisfied with your weight, hang in there and go on.

Never, ever starve yourself! It doesn't work that way and is extremely unhealthy!

Good luck!

Hai.. Just came back from Changi Airport. I was there with a few others to see rao off. I just can't believe it. A few months back he was still asking me about IDP and now he's already on his way to a foreign country to further his studies. I didn't know what to say to him when I first saw him. All I could do was to look at him and smile. I know I'm going to miss this friend of mine loads. He's still on the aeroplane now and I am already looking forward to his return in December. haha.

A lot of things happened this week.

I was in town settling some stuff on Tuesday. On my way home, my bus drove past the shopping centre where I used to have my physics tuition back in JC, and I had this sudden urge to get out of the bus and run to the tuition centre to visit my ex-tutor. Of course I did it. I had no idea whether my tutor would be around for I didn't contact him at all beforehand. I was praying hard and hoping that he would be there as I was somehow dying to see him. Well, he really did help me a lot and I have not seen him for a year or so. I guess my prayers were heard, he was really having lesson there at that hour! Later he told me that I was really lucky to have 'caught' him, because that was his first lesson this week at this branch. Oh man. I really love to do things on impulse. LoL. I forgot to bring my camera so there's no photos for this.

It's Chinese New Year eve and I was back at Nj with my classmates to visit our teachers and my IP kids (no long kids! They are already J1 now..). I miss my JC days!

There was a mini gathering Ruth's place on Friday night. We then went for supper at The Prata House when Mf ended her work. Oh man the mutubark there is freaking expensive! One small piece (with chicken bones inside!!!) costs $4.50! I swear I'll never eat there again. It's daylight robbery man!

On Saturday night, I met up with my son & Co. and watched Kung Fu Dunk! Personally I think the movie was rather entertaining. I liked it. We headed to a pub after the movie.The pub is a very cosy place and we sang karaoke while drinking. It was fun.

Photojournalism:

NJC!

Oh, my beloved school!
My lovely IP kids! I don't look too old, do I? =X
My dearie Avril.
Cherie and I.
Dikah!!!
CNY decorations outside Guan Yin Miao.
Inside the pub! Like I said, it was a very cosy place!
Ah ren and my er zi!!
Rao and I, our last photo before his departure.
Goodbye rao! We'll miss you and we look forward to your return! Take care..

You know, the longer it gets, the clearer the picture is.

The more I think of the whole incident, the more I think I was at fault since the beginning. I dug my own grave and jumped into it, though he gave me several chances to save myself. I read those SMSes again and again. After reading through them so many times, I'm starting to see his point, and to understand him. I was destined to fail since the start.

Honestly, I can't say I have no regrets. I failed to become someone he can trust, someone he can talk to, someone he can depend and rely on. Those are my biggest regrets because I couldn't accomplish my mission as his guardian angel. Not only did I screw up my part, I gave him a lot of troubles while trying to be smart.

I'm only left with my blog to spill my heart out now. I've no one to talk to this time, as I shouldn't be talking about the incident in the first place. But it's just so impossible for me not to talk and think about it. I've never tried to erase it from my memory, for I know it can never be erased. I don't intend to anyway.

"在将来的某一天,曾经的刻骨铭心是否也会销声匿迹?"

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

Below is my DIY CNY card =)



HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEL!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MF!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MITCH!!

China photos finally up, as promised!! =D

Photojournalism:


Er zi, Chris and Samuel seeing me off!! The poor boys had to carry all my stuff for me la! LoL. Thanks to the terrible camera shake. haha

Nan Jing

That's a lot of stairs!!! At the top is Sun Yat Sen's tomb.
The trying-to-be-jap me. I kinda experiment a lot with fashion when I am overseas. haha
Pa & Ma.
Eh? What am I looking at??!
Tada!! So many people!!
I just like this rooftop sia.
A door leading to more mysteries..
HeHe.
The colourful items outside the souvenir shop caught my attention.
AhhhHh I like colourful stuff!!!
I LOVE THIS!! It has always been my dream to hold my hubby's hand walking down a quiet street like this! You can never find this in Singapore man.
Nice buildings!
An ancient yet modern city. My lovely parents! Dad looks funny with the cap because his head is too big for the cap! HAHAHA.
Those white patches are snow!!
Countless stairs again! haha
Do-Ri-Me!! I can never reach daddy's height! LoL.
A small pine tree like this can be a few hundred years old! HOHO
Spot the mistake here! I challenge you! hehe..
The rocks thumbed up and so did I!
My family! Behind us is the most famous pine tree in Huang Shan-Ying Ke Song.
Eh? What are those hanging on the mental chains?
Heart-shaped locks! May their love last forever and ever! =D
This tree behind me is actually a kind of shrub. It's already a few hundred years old which explains why it managed to grow up to this size.
I was there!
My lovely parents again! My dad looks exhausted after a few hours of climbing! haha

I think I've made the right choice by tying up those loose strings. It can never be erased from my memory (I don't intend to anyway) but at least it won't haunt me like it used to.

Mr. Pooh Bear Tada!! My first Pooh bear! A gift from my angel, a senior in choir. He is a fantastic tenor! Catch him singing (solo) Josh Groban's 'You Raise Me Up' during my concert!! Now I've to think of what to get for him for St. Valentine's Day.. Headache ah! haha

I really, really love going choir practices. Even though it's long and tiring, singing those songs that we've learnt just makes me happy. The only thing that bothers me is the dancing. I can't dance for nuts!! My body is so stiff that I can't even shake my shoulders. And I am so tall that they can't find a guy who's taller than me to be my partner. Somemore I have to wear heels lah! aiyo. Will look so weird you know. Curse at my height!

Anyhows, Utt is CUTE and attractive!! It is very true that many mixed-bloods are good looking. The only 3 guys whom I ever considered as cute and hot are 1. Utt, 2. Josh, 3. A guy I saw at China Black 2 years ago. All the 3 of them are mixed-bloods!

Speaking of Josh, how I wish he can be back with me.. I miss crapping with him! Why must the person whom I confide in the most be taken away from me!? haiz. Every time I listen to those oldies I'd think of him. And all I can do is to tell myself not to dwell on the past and move on.. But I believe in him. I believe that someday somehow he'll contact me again. I've not given up on this best cyber friend of mine yet.

Below are some of the long overdue photos plus some recent photos. I think my thoughts are already exhausted so this blog is going to become more of a photo blog. I want to frame up ever wonderful moment in my life. Well, photos alone are enough I guess, for a photo speaks a thousand words!

Photojournalism:

I've got the cutest son earth!

Zouk (Dec/07)
Why!? Wanna fight!?
My son my son my son!!
Xiong xiong!
Samuel! I look wild in this photo sia. muahhaaha
And I bumped into Zhiyuan!! He was half drunk lah. I still owe him cab fare for that night, come to think of it. Oops.

School.
Shiyi!! Ms Banana!!! One of the handful of friends I have in school.
The ever so crowded lecture theatre. Astronomy is a hot subject. haha

@ NAFA visiting Ruth.
Wondering why I photographed these 5cent coins?
Because Ruth glued them onto her horn's valves!
Stupid Zz trying to take a photo of me while I was taking photo for him and ruth.
Saw this lovely globe while window shopping at Precious Thoughts.
Colourful Balloons!

Meeting up with ex-colleagues.
My boss, Julia, and Rosline!
Lame ros.
Me! Taking my very first scoop of Ben and Jerry's ice-cream in my life (I think).
The three of us.
Oh by the way, I've finally managed to solve the mystery of Rubik's Cube! So proud of myself! Thanks to Zz anyway.