Honestly, I don't like uni life. It's so individual. 3 weeks had passed and I have made only a couple of friends. Everyone seems so distant. People appear on time for lectures and tutorials and disappear on time too when time is up. Seriously, I have no idea who are in my tutorial groups. Mingling with friends is no longer applicable in uni to me.

Staying in hall isn't that fantastic to me afterall. I'm getting very sick of carrying my stuff back to home and from home every weekend or on Monday morning respectively. It makes me feel like an auntie when I have to carry NTUC plastics bags, a few of them, and squeeze onto the ever-so-crowded buses together with other students. Not to mention that my bed has bed bugs and I had to sleep on the floor for one whole week to avoid being stung by them. wth.

My life is getting very disorganised (not that it has ever been very organised anyway) and I am feeling terrible. I think this feeling is periodical. I will just get this feeling at certain time of the year. I would feel dreadful and lethargic and have no motivation to do anything or get anything done. Of course, there're factors that triggered this off which I shall not elaborate here. To summarise, a long period of low will result in lethargy in me. I am mentally drained and desperate for a source of motivation. I have even stopped taking photos because things appear black and white to me now rather than vibrant in colours. I am taking things the way they are rather than they way they should be. In other words, I have no expectations in whatsoever. There used to be effective methods to tackle this problem. However, I can't remember anything about them at this moment. In short, I am lost.

September 2002 is coming back so I am expecting a few things to happen. But no matter what, things cannot go back to the same now. All I can do is to pray hard and hope that this period will end soon. Perhaps I should pay the temple a visit someday. Maybe I should go up to a fortune teller as well.

I hope things will start go right soon.

When it becomes so heavy for you to carry, you know that it's no longer a gift, it has become a burden. My heart is already dead so it's not going to die again this time.

I always thought that certain memories are to be kept deep inside the heart because those are some of the most wonderful times you had in life. However, I think otherwise now. I want to forget them all. I don't want them to haunt me. I want to move on and live a new life. I don't want these memories hinder my performance in life. I have already had my life screwed up once and I cannot afford to let it happen again. Recalling the past can bring back some wonderful times certainly. But what follows is pain, so painful that you wish that you are dead.

The story ended the way it was scripted. Things are expected and therefore there is nothing much to cling on to. I can't deny that I will take some time to get over this. It has been a big part of my life afterall and thus I will inevitably be affected by it to a certain extent. The time the story ended was a little unexpected though. Luckily I have been through enough shocks and hence it didn't come as a blow to me.

It sucked so much when you know that there is no one with you at that moment. You are left to bear everything alone. But oh well, I made it. I have been alone all along anyway. So many years of hardships taught me a precious lesson-that you only have yourself and no one else. Some people may have given you illusions while others made promises that seemed so real. As time passes, you have no choice but to accept the harsh reality that you have no one but only yourself. That's life.

Rewind, September 2002. That's where I came from, and it's time for me to return to where I belong.

It's the end of the second day of semester 1! I shall describe what happened in the past 2 days.

Day 1:
I woke up late and thus had to take a cab down to my hall after alighting from bus service 174. YL had already unpacked her stuff and the two of us hurried down to LWN Library to meet MS. MS was queuing to buy notes and the two of us joined her. Sadly, only 2 subjects were available and the rest have to be either bought on another day or printed ourselves. zzz. The 3 of us hurried down to the Undergraduate Office to collect out matriculation card before rushing down to LKC LT. Piang eh, our passport-sized photo was being squashed and all of us looked fat and round in the photo printed on our matriculation card. o(-_-")o It took us some time to find LKC LT, only to realise the lecture had already begun. However, many people were later than us. Hahaha.

The lecture was mostly about stuff we learnt in JC and therefore we didn't miss much. I stayed for another lecture afterwards. YL's and MS's lecture was not in the same slot as mine. At 1520hours, I headed back to my room to unpack the stuff I brought in earlier on. Then I realised I have no lesson on the following after taking a quick glance at my lecture notes. And this means.. I could go home! haha. Grace came over to dump her Elite stuff and the two of us met up with Weemin for dinner before leaving school.

Day 2 (Start of Add/Drop period):
For those who aren't sure of what Add/Drop period is, it's basically a period when students can register/de-register core subjects/electives. It is rather competitive, as in time here is crucial. One second makes all the difference, because many 'hot' electives have very limited vacancies. Furthermore, the school gives the seniors priority, meaning the registration starts for the Years 4s first and then the Year 3s and so on. Year 1s are the most sad-case ones. sian. The Add/Drop period officially starts at 0930hours for the Year 1s on today(Tuesday).

I woke up at 0920hours sharp and started staring at the computer, clicking on the link every now and then to see I was able to access it or not. At 0930hours sharp, I managed to log in! Fortunately, I was able to adjust my tutorials to my preferred timing and also added another core module. I dropped Principles of Economics at the same time, knowing that I would just flopped the subject. However, there was no vacancy at all for both of the electives I intended to take (Forensic Science and Modern Photography)!!! I was so disappointed.. MS was facing the same problem. The two of us were not willing to give up and went on trying our luck to see if anyone is willing to drop the subject(s). Then finally at 1123hours, MS told me that there are 18 vacancies popped out of nowhere for Modern Photography and we quickly grabbed it. I told wingy about it and she also registered for Modern Photography. Yay!! Well, I shall 'fight' for forensic science next term then.

I returned school in the evening to meet fel, ki and wingy for dinner. It had been a long time since we last gathered! By the way, surprisingly, all the 7 girls from my class that are currently studying in my university are staying in hall! Life would be exciting I guess. After the three of them left, Weemin came to meet me to help me with the printing of notes in the library. But damn it lah, we were too late (for the folders took very long to be processed and that there are simply too many stuff to be printed) and the printing counter close. SIAN!!! I have no choice but to wake up early in the morning tomorrow to print.

And.. Weemin decided to walk me back to my hall!!! Ahhh!! So touched lah! I mean it's nothing much lah but still.. I am damn touched ok? Haha. Xiexie!!!! Called LY up and asked her to join me at the Lounge to watch TV. Haha.

That's it, two days into the new chapter of my life!! =D

Below is my timetable:

Feel free to look for me for lunch!

Lastly.. Xiong is going overseas for training and he'd be flying next morning. All the best bear!! Jia you wor!! We're looking forward to your return! Take careee!

I went to school quite a few times this week. Mainly cleaning up my room (in the hall) and moving my stuff in. The room was terribly dusty with spider webs and things. YL and I spent nearly 3 hours just to get rid of the dust in this tiny little room. The orientation talks were rather boring but the food for the tea reception was terrific. I had a lot of junk food that day.

Highlight of the week:

I AM ZZ'S FIRST FEMALE (FRIEND) PASSENGER!!!

Oh man I was extremely excited when I was in the car! Steady sia! So honoured!!!

Now that Squid, raO and Zz had driven me, who's next? (Ben Goh maybe?)

Anyway, FYI, my first passenger is Grace Kay (hello, do feel honoured ok? haha).

School is starting tomorrow! I haven't had enough break yet though! But again, it's just another 4 years of studying and I can break for the rest of my life! It's an investment. It's just like buying insurance for your car. From the time you pass your driving test to purchasing a car, the longer the time period, the lesser you have to pay for the insurance. Similarly, the more (better) you study, the lesser you have to worry in the future and about the future.

Alright, I'll be staying in hall from tomorrow onwards! It's a new beginning, a new chapter in life!

Photojournalism:

This is my room, my officially second home!

Sum's Treat
Korean Ban Fan (do you call it 'mixed rice' in English?) It's damn nice!
Chicken.
Sour and spicy soup.

I'd say the food is really nice and yummy. The prices were acceptable (though I didn't pay). Check it out at The FoodRepublic at Wisma Atria.

NDP 2007 (Part III)

Managed to secure some tickets again. We were very early this time.
LoL. From left: Chris, Samuel, Xiong.
Xiong and I. He was very kind to carry my girly umbrella for me. *touched!* And yes, I dyed my hair again!
Where is my dear twin Yu Shu???!!!
TADA!!!! Click on the photo to enlarge.
Er zi and Jansen's gun firing!!! *I love Singapore too er zi!!* haha.
Zz's gun!!!
Act seh. But I gotta admit that these guys were really serious with what they were doing. They weren't even blinking! That's quite a tough thing to do! *sushi salutes!*
Fountains throughout the performance. Enjoy!





Watched Flashpoint with Zz and Er zi and Xiong they all after the NDP rehearsal. I now want to catch The Simpsons Movie!!!

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I am so glad that you are back with me!! Really really so glad!