Zzz I give up le. I'm getting tired of waiting for your responses, so tired.. I've done my part. The rest is up to you. I have no idea what you want, really. Stop being so nice to me for one moment and totally ignore me in the next. I can't take it.

I think I'm enjoying teaching more and more. The kids are just so lovely. They made me feel younger too, cracking cold jokes together with them. And the weird thing is, I enjoy marking practice papers or assessments. Well, I hope I can pass my practical test (in teaching) soon too so that my pay will increase! I have to admit that administrative work can be pretty dry. Luckily I have my dear colleagues who are always cheering each other on! I guess if nothing goes wrong, I'll probably be working all the way till July. Perhaps I will take up part-time there after that. Heh. 10k leh, not a small sum. Oh wells.

Moral values.. where are my moral values? Yes sometimes we should just do away with them. But why am I still feeling guilty now? What am I doing..? Someone please tell me..

Got to know this Secondary two boy recently. His brother studies at my branch. The first time I saw him was when he came with his mum to fetch his younger brother. The second time I saw him was when I was buying my lunch. Well, his father is actually the owner of the stall and the boy served me. I was quite touched by what I saw. The boy sacrificed his time to help out his father at the stall.


I would see him helping out at the stall whenever I go there to buy lunch. I saw him again today. He told me he was suspended from school for being involved in some fights. But I know he's a nice boy deep down inside. I can see it from his eyes. The way he looked at me each time.. Those innocent and souless eyes.. It hurts me. Really, it does. I don't know what else I can do to help him other than telling him to come and look for me if he was to encounter any problem in school work. I hope he won't give up. I really do..

There are many helpless souls in this world. I am so blessed to have a relatively good living environment. I am contented with what I have. Meanwhile, I think it's really time to do some reflections.

Attended a training programme at the headquater yesterday. It was for all the A levels graduates in my company, including those from other branches. Some of the talks were dry but the interaction games were really fun. I guess we need to employ more guys! I mean, there were only 3 guys out of the 25 of us! And I found out that one of them is actually my senior from junior college!

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My dear sec sch classmate/colleague--> Weijia!

Oh dear I've not written anything in the past one week! That's pathetic. However, I have to admit that there's nothing much to blog about recently. Working life is boring, that's something I've concluded. Luckily, I do enjoy teaching the kids! I was teaching Ratio and Speed the other day! I love the kids! Though some of them are really naughty.. zzZz.

Anyway, through the help of one of my colleagues, I managed to get to work 6 days per week in the company, starting from this week! That means more money! And one step closer to my backpack dream in other words! Hooray! =D Jia you jia you jia you to myself!!
And dear zhijun! Sorry for not being able to go Cambodia with you.. Too costly to me! Somemore 2 months without income! =X

Well, went to whack arcade games with mitch and yl after work last Friday. The 3 of us got so mad with the basketball shooting game that we played more than 5 times! Can you imagine me standing there shooting basketballs with 2 other girls in my work attire? Oh dear I'm pretty sure I must have looked really ridiculous that night. But anyway, all of us did have lots of fun, so much so that yl and I nearly missed our last bus! *phew*

Oh yah, I've decided that I should put it to a stop soon. Fine, not say completely stop, but at least to reduce greatly. I think I have been going too far and this is getting me nowhere.

Anyway, hit the beach yesterday. And oh my gosh it was only till yesterday when I realised that I have not been to Sentosa in nearly 3 years! How incredible.

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Sunny yc and act cool wp.
And our dear camera-shy boy, jc.
My slipper! And the sand.. Took it for fun since I was playing with the sand.
And ended up writing this.. Laugh Out Loudly.
The beautiful sky..
The beautiful sunset..
Goodbye Sentosa! =D

My twin is going to be enlisted soon! (OH NO..) Had a farewell lunch with him. I will miss you Yushu!! Thanks for all your encouragements these two years! Remember to sms me in camp hor!!! Don't forget me hor!! haha =D

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Small head, Big head!
Ohhhhh yeaH! TwiNs!

Hey.. I'm still alive.. Yup I am.

My whole life came crashing at that very second. I told myself to stay calm. I told myself to walk out of the place smartly. I occupied myself with work and more work for the following few hours, with endless photocopying and stapling of worksheets and then 4 straight hours of teaching. Countless smses kept bothering me and for the first time I hated to know that I've recieved a sms. How I wished they could just leave me alone. I was so lost for that few hours. I never felt this helpless before. My brain went blank and I had completely no idea what I was going to do next.

The pain eased just before I went to bed. I was so glad that at least someone was there to keep my company, from the moment I collected my results till minutes before I went to bed. Thank you so much for your accompaniment =)

Thank you dear Zz for your sms too. You know your sms made me cry that night? Really feel like giving you a big hug to thank you for whatever you have done for me throughout these few years. I never believed in best friends or eternity but you are someone that I will never forget in my life. I owe you a hug, and so much more.
Zz, thank you.
Zz, I am sorry.
Zz, I miss you!
Zz, I love you!
And.. Zz, where and when is the pie date!?

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Ok, so much of the heavy hearted stuff, it's time for some updates!

Well, since our dear yu cheng is the very first person among us that's turning 20 this year, we had a birthday dinner cum gathering for him and for the all of us. Oh man.. I can't believe it, I mean, we are already in our 20s! Hey, life is short, so I guess I'd better save up more and backpack around Europe before I hit the age of 25!

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Feast!
What more can I ask for? =)
Great friends, with lots of L.O.V.E.

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"When it is the darkest, men see the stars. Ralph Emerson"

"It's hard, or even painful not having you around."
With these words, I know my tears have not gone wasted =)