30 June 2006

依赖与习惯。

因依赖而成为习惯; 因习惯而依赖。

可否不要依赖？可否不要成为一种习惯？

为什么看完一部感人的电影时总是有一种淡淡的遗憾和感伤呢？

穿梭在繁忙的街道里，看见的是忙忙碌碌的人群。停下脚步，抬头望上看，一片万里无云的天空展现在眼前。对着天空微微一笑，仿佛这个世界突然变得缤纷灿烂，多彩多姿。

人都是寂寞的。

永恒已不再存在。观念，也随着时间慢慢地改变。

我接受得了这一切吗？即使接受不了又会怎样呢？

人永远也在变。

人心真的那么的善变吗？你可否接受得了一颗漂流不定的心?

人摔倒了会再爬起来, 可一颗受过伤的心会再好起来吗?
Hida was gazing at the sky at 23:53.

22 June 2006

wahh all thanks to Van.. haha gotta answers these questions. LoL.

Favourites:

Fav colour: Green, Blue, White
Fav food: spicy foods
Fav song: Hidamari No Uta
Fav movie: The Cool Guy
Fav sport: Gate climbing
Fav season: Autumn
Fav day of e week: Monday. A brand new start!
Fav ice-cream flavour: Strawberry
Fav book: Origami books. Really.
Fav cartoon: Tom and Jerry

9 currents:

current mood: Mixed feelings
current song: Gao Bai, it's some Korean song. Click here to listen or see the MV.
current book: A Wolf's Temptation. Just finished the book though.
current subject studying: Mathematics
current thought: I'm in deep shit. I am going to screw up CT2.
current time: 2243hrs
current toenail colour: Natural colour, transparent, I suppose?
current boyfriend: I'm single.
current wish: Please let 'A' levels end soon so that I can earn money for backpacking.

Firsts:

1st best friends: I don't believe in best friends.
1st crush: hehe in pri sch.
1st movie: I cannot remember. My home had no TV when I was in pri 1 back in my hometown. So we went to the cinema everyday to watch movies. Of course, the movie tickets were much cheaper there, like S$0.30 per movie? haha
1st piercing: During 'O' levels, which was Sec 4.
1st handphone: Nokia 8250 in Sec 2.
1st sport: Swimming
1st pet: I cannot remember. But my last pet, which I'm keeping now, is a grasshopper! It has been with me for eactly 4 months today.

Lasts:

Last cigarette: I do not smoke. Never.
Last drink: My last alcohol was on last Saturday night, Flamingo Lambo. My last drink is MariGold Apple Juice.
Last car ride: Just now
Last crush: Not crush, only eyecandy - YU CHENG!!!
Last movie seen: In threatres, it would be Da Vinci Code.
Last phone call: Teck Kuan
Last sms: Yu Cheng
Last song played: Canon in D (piano version)

Have you evers:

Dated one of ur best friends: Not say date, but we did went out together.
Broken e law: Entering a Club where the age limit was 20 but I was only 19. The bouncer closed one eye you see.
Been arrested: Never
Skinny-dipped: Maybe when I was a baby. But I do remember going a river to bathe when I was VERY young.
Been on TV: Yes, my pri sch classmate asked me to take part in some competition with her held by MediaCorp when I was in pri 6.
Kissed someone u din noe: Never

5 things you're wearing: Nj Track vest (cuz I injured my shoulder so need to wear sleeveless tops), FBT shorts, earrings, undergarments, necklace.
4 things ive done today: Taking a nap, seeing my dad off at the airport, talking to Josh, smsing Yu Cheng, calling Teck Kuan.
3 things I can hear rite now: The noisy from my laptop, the cars outside, the noise when I type (the keyboard).
2 things u cant live without: Shampoo, watch/clock.
Things u do when ur bored: Sleep, read, daydream/fantasise, go online, hopping onto some bus, window shopping.

5 people to do this quiz: Mr Nobody, Mrs Nobody, Mdm Nobody, Ms Nobody, Sir Nobody.

BleAh.
Hida was gazing at the sky at 22:30.

18 June 2006

hmm. This week was rather unproductive. I invested too much time and money preparing for the party on Saturday night. And before I know it, it's going to be the last week of the June holidays.

Photojournalism:


Saw my dear 'mei', Weemin, while having lunch at KAP on Wednesday.

NJ Western Dance @ Street Fest 2006

Kenneth, Chuyun, Cherie.

My dearies from 06IP02.

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Clubbing at Dlb O on Saturday.

I think I was crazy. I spent a freaky $45 (excluding cover charge) just for the night, out of which $35.50 went into a pair of new heels. Yu Cheng was not any better. He spent $58 on just one shirt for the night.

Clubbing is bad. Waste money waste time. And you go there to breathe in all the smoke from others. Passive smoking is really bad for health.

2230hrs. The quality of the photo is quite terrible for the lighting was really bad and I was using my hp. World Cup was still on at that time so everyone was watching soccer instead of partying.

2330hrs. Because the party was only starting at 12 midnight and we were so bored, Sharon, Yu Cheng and I went for a walk near the club, which is near the Quayside. The water was very calm. Very peaceful.

605am, Sunday. Handsome, tired Yu Cheng and his gross half-boiled eggs. Eeek I can't take half-boiled eggs. Haha. He was mad sia he followed Sharon and I back to the region we stay and the 3 of us ended up watching Operas from 330-545am at Sharon's house -_-" After that the two of us left for breakfast. It was already 635am before we finally went home to get some sleep.

Hida was gazing at the sky at 22:02.

14 June 2006

no.Okay, I'm feeling damn damn damn stupid right now. I've been feeling damn damn damn stupid for almost a week already.

A few days ago Zhijun said something like, 'You go for decent looking guys is it?' I was like, yah, something like that.

So now, I shall list down the factors that appeal to me (although I feel damn damn damn stupid doing this).

1. Nice smile ( a MUST have)
2. Understanding eyes
3. Not so noisy ( unlike me =x )
4. Long sleeved T-shirts
5. Fair ( not so tanned)
6. Know how to play at least one type of musical instrument (preferably piano)
7. Decent looking
8. At least 174cm (cuz I slouch a lot)
9. Sporty and Adventurous (cuz I like adventurous activities such as backpacking!)

That's it! bahhh. In fact there is a little bit more to go, but I think I shall stop it there since it's only for show. Haha.

Because, eyecandy are just eyecandies, nothing more than that.
Hida was gazing at the sky at 23:09.

11 June 2006

Class Lunch at Swensens

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY DEAR ZHIJUN!!!
muackz muackz hugs hugs!

Birthday girl, Zhijun, and I.


From left: Winghan, Xiao Ting, Zhijun, me, Joyce.


Our dearest James. I learnt one thing yesterday, that the shirt he is wearing in this photo, which is his 17th birthday present from Teck Kuan we all, is the only shirt he has! Oh My! Time to stock up shirts, James!


Oh MAN, I can't stop drooling, no matter how sinful I feel! haha!


05S15 girls!


Us again.




HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZHIJUN..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!

I love you zhijun! More than I love _____ !! =D

Hida was gazing at the sky at 11:15.

10 June 2006

因爱而了解，因了解而容忍，因容忍而宽恕。

我不可以再小题大做了。这样反而会让自己显得很幼稚；很不可理喻；很小气、很心胸狭窄。

宽大为怀、宽宏大量是难得的美德，也是我真正应该向往的。

*很多话一旦说出去了，就再也无法收回，我得更言行谨慎才行。*
Hida was gazing at the sky at 21:36.

09 June 2006

Tadaa!!!! Below are the photos of 3 of the few VERY IMPORTANT guys in my life. Oh man now I understand why Hui Xian has a thing for guys in uniform, especially in army uniform! They just look so smart! Oh gosh..! I mean it! Just look at how great the three of them below look! I think I'm becoming like Hui Xian too. haha!

3 VERY IMPORTANT GUYS IN MY LIFE

Rao and Zz. Their name tags had been edited for safety reasons.


Yu Cheng (right) and his friend (I have no idea who is he though). I don't know why commandos have to wear jungle hats during POP. Look very funny but yet smart!
Hida was gazing at the sky at 22:43.

08 June 2006

My eyesight is so poor now! I really regret for purposely spoiling my eyesight. I used to think wearing specs is really a cool thing to do. Oh man, I was so DUMB!! In fact my short-sightedness is not really that bad, considering both eyes are below 100 degrees. It's astigmatism (Astigmatism: difficulty in seeing clearly due to a change in the inner shape of the eye)!! My pupils are not round anymore and I can see it from the mirror!! ARGH! I just get very annoyed when I can't figure out what bus is approaching the bus-stop at night, or worse still, whether a bus is approaching the bus-stop or not! Yes, it's that bad!

I CRY!!

I was told that there was no cure for astigmatism. Then, last year, someone told me that it can be cured. I don't know. All I want to do now is to do loads of research and find out how I can improve the condition of my eyes.

SADDENED. My eyes!!!

Photojournalism:

My cousin's family, getting ready to fly back to China for holidays. I miss my hometown!


New Fashion -Voodoo Dolls. I think few knows that Voodoo, is in fact, a peaceful religion that is very similar in emphasis to the Catholic faith.

Class Dinner At Crystal Jade on 1st June 2006

My Beef In Chilli Oil La Mian!

Our dear Daniel, trying to act cute in front of my camera. haha.


And.. TADAA..!!! Birthday Boy of the day! My twin! YU SHU! Happy 18th Birthday dear twin!

The SuperMarket trip..

African Daisy, aka Gerbera, my 2nd favourite flower, after tulips.


Carnations. I never know carnations can be so pretty!


My dear MaMa choosing eggplants.


Green Pepper! Good food.


Spices. WOW. I love spices. Especially chilli powder.


This is the first type of chilli I've eaten in my life, at a tender age of 3!!


And.. World Cup is coming. Even Kiwi fruits love soccer -.-


I've been going to this temple 3 times this year to pray.. haiz.. Will prayers work?


I tried out this brand of alcoholic drink recently. Not really that nice. The taste is not strong enough.

Class CIP (NTU ATC-Adventure Trail Challenge)

Squeezing on some tiny lorry. The wind was STRONG.


Hello Pulau Ubin!!


I winked. I suck at trying to act cute. Hence, I shall not do it again =(

Photography Society Outing

Mian4 Xiang4 Hai3 Feng1.. Xian2 Xian2 De4 Ai4.. wah..


The orbs are pretty!

Hida was gazing at the sky at 22:21.

02 June 2006

I've changed my mind.

Yes, I'm going to stop it here.

I don't dare to proceed, for I'm scared that history will repeat itself.

I'm scared of losing, hence I don't intend to even get it. Oh well, when you don't have it, you won't lose it.

What happened in the past did affect me a lot. Although I clearly understand that nothing will be forever, I just can't let go. I couldn't let go of everything that had happened. And it really took me very, very long to accept what had happened after that. I thought that I would manage to clear my mind sometime ago after knowing the theory of how certain things work. Frankly, I think maybe I did, but I developed a phobia about it.

To replace and to be replaced.

A simple and yet hard to accept reality.

Sometimes I think I am just paranoid. But then, I can't affort to let it happen again! I won't be able to take it! It really hurts and the feeling is really, really unpleasant.

I don't know how you'll take this, but haiz.. I'm sorry.

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I had my very first official Track and Field training today. Wah I didn't know how much I missed Track and Field trainings until I went for it today. My fellow throwers! My fellow friends from sprints/long-d/short-d/jumps. ahhhh. I feel that that is where I belong. No matter how many kilos of weights I have to lift, no matter how many standing broad jumps I have to complete, I am happy every single moment!

The difference between hockey and track is that I feel physically tired only, and not both mentally and physically.

ahhHhh Big Ron made me do 80 standing broad jumps today!! I think I better stretch lots n lots of times before I sleep today. Or else I can forget about getting off my bed tomorrow! bahhh!
Hida was gazing at the sky at 21:34.