I got full marks for fitness test this time (although I have to admit that I cheated for sit-ups, I did 30 instead of 31 =x )! I know I was being a bit dishonest for sit-ups la but I was happy that I managed to get an A for incline pull-ups! I could bearly do 6 of them 5 weeks ago!! And talking about my 2.4km run, I managed to maintain my timing, despite not exercising as much as I did last year.

Anyway, I've talked to Yu Cheng and made up my mind. I am not going to throw for the school during Nationals. That's my final decision. Sorry, Mr Lim.

Photojournalism:

Leekoon's Mr Bean's Bear.

Adi. Busy filing during GP lesson.

The intellectual me, with the 'Secret Soldiers' poster. Secret Soldiers?? Referring to??

Eh? They are known as the Elite Warriors. SO WHO ARE THEY?!?!?!

TADAAA! They are the SAF COMMANDOS!!

I worship commandos!! =x

Aristal. NJ Dance Nite.

Hockey. Short corner!
The messy Hockey Corner.

Getting some rest before the match.

Fel fel was getting some rest too, but it was during Chem tutorial.

The trying to act chio me. Muahaha was practising my make up skills actually.. I want to be a make up artist leh. It's a very challenging occupation.

I miss the throwers. I miss Track and Field trainings. Hockey is tiring me out, both mentally and physically.

Pangsai Kia Kenneth is cheeky. I find it really challenging to talk to him.

I still think Wenhao is the cutest Big boy I've seen. SJI kids! What to do! haha.

I've not talked to Leekoon for some time already. Hope she's doing fine.

I finally managed to be on time for school twice this week! And I can't believe that I actually got up at 530am and reached school at 620 this morning to get the hockey stuff for the match. In fact I hurried back school after the match to attend the Chem lecture. However, I was so tired that I dozed off in less than 10mins after the lecture had begun. That's why I say hockey has drained me.

*I can't take my eyes off you. oh no.*

一场欢喜，一场空。

原来，一切都只是错觉。

原来，一切全都是我的幻想。

I worship commandos.

I promise to be on time for school for once tomorrow morning.

I'm the ultimate late comer in Nj.

I seriously have no idea when was the last time I attended assembly.

This is really bad..

人生最大的恐懼, 不是所愛的人消失了, 也不是那人仍未出現, 而是當你知道你所愛的人根本不存在於這個世界裡.

人生最大的遺憾, 不是錯過了真愛, 也不是在事業上沒有一點成就, 而是當我無法在你生前親口對你說聲 '我愛你'.

人生最大的痛苦, 不是分手時的傷痛, 也不是肉體上所承受的痛楚, 而是當我看到你傷心流淚時, 卻無能為力, 甚麼也幫不了你.

Just some random thoughts. The first phrase is copied from a book.

*Why do we hold on to something when we clearly know that it is just going to hurt us more? I don't understand..*

wah. With yijia's help, I finally managed to upload some of my neoprints to the computer. All of them are taken last year (haven't taken any this year yet). The length of my hair during my first 3 months was very different compared to that of December.

During 1st 3 months. I was wearing MGS uniform in the photo!! I miss those days.. my brothers..

Muahaha end of promos.

Yu Cheng, Lee Koon, Me.

*Christmas 2005*

Another shot. Yu Cheng loves rubber ducks but there wasn't any among the decorations. Therefore, I had to make do with that roasted duck. hohoho

OGLs outing! =)) Aqua! The Best House Ever!!!

为什么结局总是这样的呢？难道过去的事情就真的再也无法挽回了吗？

我不相信！即使结果真的是这样，我觉得我们至少也应该努力一下。如果说我们努力过后还是无法挽回，那也罢，至少我会甘心，因为我们努力过了！可是现在呢！你竟然要放弃.. 你就这么轻易地放弃了.. 为什么.. 那以前的那些时光又算什么? 你真的就一口咬定那永远只能成为回忆吗? 真的就弥补不了了吗?

好像见我, 那又是什么意思?!

那种感觉, 有如心如刀割..

The hockey people recruited me again for this year's inter-school competition. I wonder if I've made the right choice. The agreement was that I need to go for training once per week only. But it seems that they want me to be there for friendlies too, and in fact I don't really feel like going. It's really not nice to turn the captain down, for she's my friend. Aiya. I'm so troubled by that. May be I shouldn't have agreed in the first place. However, what's done cannot be undone. Aiya.. what am I doing..

A few seniors have been telling me that they miss school life quite a bit after they'd graduated. I must treasure the remaining 6 months of my JC life so that I can graduate with little regrets.

I like this long weekend. It's a rare chance to break away from everything. I don't know. Everything seems to be so peaceful today. It was as if I was living in Utopia. aiya. dunno.

Photojournalism:

I like this photo. Added some effects to it.

Got this big patch of blue-black on my thigh during my very first hockey training this year from the coach. LoL a gift from him.

April is indeed a gloomy month. Even the weather says so.

Feel like joining the police force.

Flowers outside a classroom. Pretty, aren't they?

The personality test said that my life is full of changes.. And I think it is really true. To sum it up, I've changed 7/8 kindergardens (so many that I've lost count) and 5 primary schools. My nationality changed and I migrated once. My CCAs are on and off. I don't know.. I've been trying to find something that can give me the sense of security. Sadly, that something never appeared. Or maybe (and hopefully) it's there already, just waiting for me to realise its existance.

For myself:

'It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power.'
Alan Cohen

'The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.'
M. Scott Peck

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My childhood playmate, my ex-neighbour, just broke up with his girlfriend. He's not really sharing his feelings with me for I think it's because of the age gap. Haha he still treats me like the little girl next door who would follow him everywhere he go. The little girl who loves to play pebbles and catch insects. Hahaha.. those golden days.. oh well. Changes!

Just hope that he can get over it soon and concentrate in his studies. He'll be a great director in the future I guess! And I promised him to be there for the preview of his first movie.. hhaha. So far yet so near.

Actually I promised him to visit him next year during Chinese New Year in China. But I'm afraid that it'd an empty promise, for I want to work and earn enough money to sponsor myself for my backpack tour.

Him. Money and my dream. Which one should I choose? They are equally important to me.

Am I digging my own grave?

Seriously I think I am.

Only few months left.

One chance.

One dream.