我能预感到有人将会让我心碎，让我心酸。被人当成木偶玩耍的感觉是很痛苦的。他完全掌握了我的情绪、我的思想，甚至我的一切一切。我真觉得很无能为力。明明知道这只是一场游戏，但我真的无法自拔，只能任由自己越陷越深，跌进这个无底洞。

其实我并不知道我会从此得到些什么，我也不求能得到什么。我只希望他能把我当成一个好朋友；与我分享他的烦恼和悲伤。我知道我不能为他做些什么，也不能帮他什么，可是我真得很想让他知道到在他感到无奈的时候会有一个人在世界的某一个角落默默地准备好聆听他的心声。

我不晓得他是怎么想的。或许对他来说我是个非常愚蠢、很不要脸的人。也有可能他会认为我是个神经病，总是像个跟屁虫似的缠着他。坦白地说，我也不知道我为什么会这样做。我只能把这当成是一种责任，一个我必须负的责任。

他的所作所为让我很捉不着头绪。不知道为什么，心中总是有一种被玩弄的感觉 . .

- 如果你喜欢的话就继续吧，只要你开心就行了. . -

Shall use photo journalism as a form of record of the activities I attended after I returned from Japan.

OGL meetings.

Preparing for skits and walk-in.

Internal House Games trails. Shaun (our dear dear council president), Haowen (my dear dear classmate and buddy) and Suihang (my dear dear House Captain and god brother).

Zhiru (my darling no.2 in NJ). Haowen in the background.

Joyce, Zhijun and Xiaoting (all are my dear dear classmates).

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OBJ members outing at Suki Sushi.

Girls can eat A LOT too. Left: Lee Koon, Melanie, Shuqi. Right: me, Chang Xi, Sharon.

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Meeting up with long lost friend, rao.

Wah rao!! Keep running!

Shuyu and rao, first time taking photo together. lol.

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今年的圣诞虽过得没像往年那样的疯狂，但却也给我留下了很美好的回忆。那第一次的彻夜不归和初次在咖啡厅喝咖啡的感觉很不错，很令人怀念。周围没有因节日气氛而狂欢的青年，也没有节奏强烈的音乐，取而代之的则是浓浓的咖啡香和偶尔的欢笑声。

我喜欢他们的存在, 喜欢他们在我身边的感觉。那平静和安稳的感觉让我觉得很舒服, 很安心。仿佛我终于有机会放慢脚步来欣赏这个世界似的。虽然美好的时光是非常短暂的, 但我却已经很满足了。我不想强求太多, 也不敢强求太多。俗话说: 物以稀为贵。所以, 也许时光是以少为难忘的吧。珍惜与他们在一起的时间应该是我唯一能做的事。

- 我不知道那到底是意外还是命运，我只知道小鹿乱撞的感觉很不好受。-

I am confused. I thought that this will never happen. But it happened, though.

- What will you do? What shall I do? -

I think I must be insane now. From that day onwards, I've been wearing the following expression as often as I could, even during unexpected conditions and times.

hmm. I slept with this expression, crossed the road with this expression, even bathed with this expression. ahhhhh =) I can't stop smiling!!

There are 7 major wonders in the world. So have you ever wondered what are the 7 wonders in your own world?

I think I'm a bastard, seriously. I have decided that write this down finally.

I have many friends who bothered to wish me all the best or good luck, before exams, when I am ill, or preparing to go overseas and etc. Honestly, I can't help it but to admit that I am not really entertained by these well wishes. Of course, I know I should, but I am just not. This is complicated. To put it simple, I am someone who is only concerned about receiving well wishes from those whom I care for, and not those who care for me.

This is so selfish.

This is so wrong.

I don't know why I am like that. This is so sinful. It is something that is unforgivable, and should never be forgiven.

This immoral attitude should be changed. Or else I am going to hurt many people.

A big Thank You to all those who care for me. Especially those from 05S15.. Thanks for your support, you guys are one of the best gifts I've received in my life. This class will always be the best class in my heart. Ever so supportive, ever so funky, ever so fuzzy, ever so cheerful.. Also not forgetting others, like yijia, joseph, ruth, mingfang, zhezhang, teck kuan, hui lin, joshua, zhiru, the Aqua OGLs and many more..

That's why I say that I am rather blessed, because I have so many caring friends around me!

I've been able to recall some of the dreams I had recently. This is rather weird, considering I barely remember any of them for years.

The contents of the dreams are weird as well. They are just so incredible. But anyway, most dreams are inconceivable. Somebody once told me that dreams are usually the opposite from reality. Really? I really have no idea. Guess no one has, anyhow.

My OB mate messaged me last night, asking me whether I mind to be the Official Photographer No.2 for our OBJ trip. My answer was of course not! I'm no longer a member of Hockey and Track and Field. It's time for me to concentrate in my only CCA now. I'm so grateful that my PS president closed one eye to my poor attendence and the pathetic number of events I had covered. I shall not let her down now.

It has been really fun to be an OGL. I had the chance to get to know many real nice people. We laughed together, worked together, had fun together. Hope Orientation 2006 will be as wonderful as this year's, if not, better.

Life can be wonderful, if only one knows how to appreciate it.

I finally figured out what yueyun meant in that tag. It's a game. I shall complete it then, haha.

Rules of e Game1. Post 5 weird/random things about yourself.2. At the end of the quiz, list the name of 5 people who you want next to do this and leave a comment you are tagged in the tagboard and tell them to read ur blog.

1. My mood changes easily with the songs I'm listening to. Not sure if that's common, but at least I am like that.

2. I seldom cry in front of others, or anywhere else. However, if I'm watching a sad movie or reading a very sad story, do expect the pillow to be fully soaked by my tears.

3. I do not want to keep long hair.

4. I prefer calling Michael Buble 'Michael Bubble'. hahaha.

5. I like autumn. I like maple leaves and sycamore trees. See the photo below:

Nice, right?

hmm. Don't feel like asking others to carry on with the game. haha.

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Visit to No.1 Costume Shop at Beach Road.

Sailormoon!!?!? No la.. it's me. LoL. Got a missing ribbon though..
Aiyo... Scandalous.. tsk tsk.
Now, gimme my trumpet!
Haowen.. the new CHICKEN BIG!!
Witch Shuyu. Oops, trying to take out my specs. haha.
Zhiru: hehehe.. I'm going to be the next U.S.A. president!!
Do I remind you of the story 'The Three Riddles' in the Pets Course Book??
Starwars. eeeeeek! Monster Haowen!! But I think he looks more like a nun here =X
Cai shen dao!! Cai shen daooooooooo!!!!

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And.. After 3 hours of hardwork, our handmade cloak is finally done!! Tada!!!


Suihang: Do I look like a pastor (pasta) to you??

I'm out of his life. And I'm happy about it.
I'm learning to look ahead.
Friends come and go.
And, it's time to let go..
But.. one last thing..
Just want to let you know..
That if you ever need someone..
I'll always be there for you..
Yupp..
Promise..

Someone just made me cry. I don't blame him. Everyone changes, everything changes, the world changes.

Today is a sad day..

December is bitter.. It's bitter than you can ever imagine.. It's so much bitter than tears..

I'm going Japan soon. I can't wait for Sunday to arrive. I'm rather blessed. This trip is not cheap. Dad said that I could have gone London for a few days with the same amount of money.

I like to work. I really enjoyed those 4 days. I can't wait for As to be over, so that I can work, work and work. I will earn enough money to carry out my plan-to tour around Europe with friends. Calling for partners now. Anyone interested? I need 2 girls and 2 guys to come along with me.

Seniors Prom was great. It was at Swissotel, the one beside Cityhall Mrt Station.

Below are some of the photos:

Shuyu and Shermine, photographers of the Seniors Prom 2005!

Pretty girls from the Student Council.


Senior and Junior of PEPS, and also NJC.


Princess Krystle and Prince Christopher.

Da jie jie and Xiao di di.
Oops, it should be 'Da' kor kor and 'Xiao' mei mei. haha.

NJC.

Andy - Our Mr Nice. Teck Kuan - Prince of Romance.

Daddy and I!! Miss those days when we rehearsed together for the Drama Night.

Guys of 04S15. A bunch of handsome guys.

I can't believe it. I had a slight fever last night as well. Felt feverish throughout the entire afternoon and evening while working. Got home at 10pm++ and realised that I was having fever. Took some medicine before sleeping. Woke up at 3am++ and measured my body temperature. Hey! I was ok then!!

hmm. Tonight will be Senior's Prom, I'm not sure if I will be fit enough to go. Hope I am.