藕断丝连

What a meaningful word.

I miss chinese lessons. My class was walking pass this AO chinese class the other day. I stopped to listen. I miss that feeling. Not trying to say I enjoy chinese lessons, in fact I think chinese is as boring as social studies to me. But it is like when you have not been doing something that you are so used to doing for very long, you just miss it.

I want to travel around the world..I want to go U.S.A. to see Mount St. Helens.. I want to go Japan to see the lavender.. I want to go Holland to see the tulip plantation.. I want to go England to see the red buses.. I want to go Easter Island to see the giant statues.. I want to go Antarctic to see Emperor Penguins.. I want to go Europe to see the deciduous forests..

I like to talk to this person. I learnt a lot from the conversations we had. My imagination will run wild at the same time. I could picture things, unbelieveable things. haha. hmm. When the B-field and the current are perpendicular to each other, a force will be generated. Same thing here.

Although I doubt many people will see this, just doing something for my school.

I saw this well reading Reader's Digest in school today:

能与伴侣白头偕老只有一个可能，就是一同在意外中离世，但这样的可能性很低，子女也会很伤心，所以只是一个梦想。伴侣先离开比较好，因为伤心是由我来承受的，而不是她。

Meaningful indeed, I think.

I believe that there is something known as 'one and only'.

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Trying to decipher something. I know I'm still very far away from it, but I'm getting closer, I think.

Abstract from my dairy:

16 September 2005, 2 weeks to promos

I think I'm in love again. Or do you call it in love? I just watched this show on TV. It showed a young prince, wanting to marry this girl who had no status. He said to the girl,' I don't want anyone, I want you only.'

I'm under the love spell again.

I hate to admit it, but the olden days are back once again. Fantasies of a little girl, wanting to marry her prince charming, and live happily ever after. How beautiful. I failed to get my mind out of these improbable fantasies.

I can't stay focused. I'm distracted from studies. I've yet done my tuition homework, which is to be gone through later.

I'm so screwed up.

Quote from Mr Low KP,'Wake uuuup! Wake up! Wake uuuuuuup!!!!'

haha =)

A friend just sent me the song Hidamari No Uta by Le Couple(original version).

If not because of this song, I won't have noticed band.
If not because of this song, I won't have joined band.
If I didn't join band, I'd never have learnt to appreciate band music.
If I didn't join band, I'd have never come to know so many people who share the same interest as me.
If I didn't join band, I won't have so many friends around me.
If I didn't have these friends, my life would not be as colourful as it is now(although the colours are fading..rapidly..)

All because of this song.

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I realised I can't get along with someone around me. Let's call this person 'M'. M is not exactly a bad person. M can be really helpful and nice sometimes. But we live in different dimensions. I do get very pissed occasionally because of M(and obviously M doesn't realise it). However, I also feel guilty for feeling this way when M is being friendly towards me. hmm. Well, as long as M is not too much, I will still treat M as my friend.

Everyone can be a nice person. It's just whether you can see it or not. Or in some cases, whether you choose to see it or not.

Photo taken on teachers' day.


Trip back to RV is pretty disappointing. Our form teacher couldn't remember our names. Most of our teachers are gone as well. I see no point going back next year. My trip back to my primary school was much more better. I like my primary school.

All right I shall write down something before this blog gets rusty again.

Life now is all about mugging. It's about mugging all the time in fact, just that it's more intensive recently. I have so many things to study that I don't know where to start with. In the end, I end up studying nothing. I'm neglecting Chemistry because of Physics. I shall do something about it before I let Mr Low down.

PW is giving me some troubles. I'm ashamed to admit that I'm the group leader. My group is lagging behind. Not say that we have done nothing, but we need to do more. Or shall I say, I need to do more. We have almost all the necessary information and materials for the Written Report. Yet, I'm not getting the group to collaborate them. I'm freaked out by the amount of information/materials/results that are needed to be collaborated/analysed/evaluated and I really don't know where to start with. I just came up with this WR list, hope it will help a little. I'm so sorry, I know I should be doing more than this. Thanks to all my dear group members, who are always there to help me and give me support.

I realised how irresponsible I have become since after my nationals. I banned myself from any CCA activities. I have done so badly for the common test, and I am afraid that I will be retained. All I know now is to study hard for promos and dedicate all my time to academic related stuff. I know it's unfair to others. Why I can skip my CCAs while the rest are studying very hard and attending CCA activities at the same time? I cannot come up with an answer to that.

Blame me, kill me.