I need to practise self-control.

I need to stop.

I need to leave more time for this.

I'm just a normal human being. So does ____.

I believe miracles will happen one day. Yes, I always do. Because I wanted it hard enough.

I'm rather blessed I guess, yea I really do.

It takes time. Yes, time.

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haha.

He is right. Why am I so desperate in such things? Who am I to make such a big fuss about it?

You think. Think hard again. Figuring ways out. Yet you are not sure whether the other party gives a damn about you. You are making your own life miserable. Everyone is stepping forward. However you are still standing at the starting point. Refuse to move. People are moving. They are going to somewhere unknown, despite they have no idea if the life there will be good or bad. A loser you are. You are scared. You are scared that you can't adapt to the new environment. You can't let go of the things you own now. Because once you take a step forward, no one will know what is going to happen to these things. Will you be lucky enough to keep some back? Will you lose them all? You are scared of the consequences of moving. That's why you hold on to them tightly. Afraid that you may lose them all one day. To you, they are your life. You can't live without them. But, others think differently. They think that these things come and go. They are very sure that they will adapt the new environment well, even without these stuff. For they know, those things are not part of them. If they lose them, they are very sure that new ones will come along the way.

Why. Why are you such a loser. Why can't you be as cool as the rest? Why can't you just throw away all those things and start afresh, collecting new ones along your way to the new land?

Trying too hard will only scare people off. Asking for too much will only make you demand for more the next time.

concentration.. concentration.

i need to concentrate.

tell me how.

quote from a senior, 'knowing when is the right time to become a mugger.. '

when?

may be that's the reason i can't concentrate, even now. i'm not expecting much from this common test. just hope i pass 3 out of 4 subs will do. or maybe at least 2. i've no confidence for maths at all. was trying to do the pass yr nj paper ytd. and my score is so miserable. F. yah. may be single digit i guess. i didn't bother to count. it'll just make me more miserable.

when i can hold on, think and digest first, that'll be the day i grow up.

uhm. Have been reading some of my friends' blog entries recently. I came to a realisation that people who thinks deeply are always those you can rely on. Those are the ones who can give you good advice. Why? Because they think before they say. They do not jump to a conculsion so easily. They will get a clear picture of the situation first, and weigh the consequences of the things they are going to say.

Don't live a life full of regrets. It's so easily said, yet almost impossible to achieve.

I regretted. Regretted so many times. I don't believe in the word forever. Nothing is forever. Even true love will fade off eventually. Friendship? No. Friendship can go high and far, yet not forever. No such thing as eternity. May be only if Bessler's secret to perpetual motion is undiscovered someday. I regretted for not being there. I hate myself for being so heck care, so ignorrant. I should have paid more attention to the things happening around me, especially to my friends. I should have done my job, or rather the responsibility, as a friend to take care of my friends. I'm such a bad friend. Always so insenitive, always so zi yi wei shi.

Now it has become a gap that cannot be closed up completely. It's so deep and wide.Even if it does someday, the trace of the crack will still be clearly visible. It'll never be the same as before. I'm trying. However I don't know the outcome. I guess keep on trying is the only thing I can do now. No matter what the outcome is, or whether there will be an outcome, I'll still continue to try. Reason being I can't let go of the past. I miss those days so much. I hope those days will come back. And continue trying is one of the best ways to achieve that.

hmm just had this urge to type something here. However this blog will still be closed, till i feel like typing something here again. lol

Enough of rubbish.

Aha. Why do I suddenly have this urge? uhm. Cuz I think my life in Nj has been really wonderful. Therefore I feel like sharing it with everyone.


Yes. I do admit that Nj is a mugger school. I am a mugger myself, to a certain extent. I have a friend who is an ex-student of Nj. He once said: there's no point for you to deny that fact you are a mugger if you are in Nj. So here, I'm announcing to the whole world, shuyu is a mugger!! BUT, to a CERTAIN extent ONLY.

However, if you are a student, planning to go JC, I will suggest you to consider Nj. Sorry I can't help it but to promote the school. Not that I like the school or the policies or anything. In fact the school policies are so screwed up. Think it's not any better compared to Rv, may be even worse. It's the people. They are friendly. Very welcoming.

I myself have 3 CCAs now. Was in the band for a fews weeks before I finally made up my mind to quit. My current CCAs are Hockey, Track And Field(field, not track. hehe) and Photography Society. I don't know what about other CCAs, but people from these 4 CCAs are really, really friendly and approachable.

Muggers we may known as. However most of the Nj-ians(or nationalists, according to a friend of mine.) are rather honest and loyal. Most. There are exceptions, just like any other schools.

hmm. Just some advice. Nj is a good place to go to me, cuz I'm very lucky to get into a cheerful, united, playful and yet hardworking class. I think I'm really blessed. However if you are one of those unlucky ones, chances are that you'll get into a pure mugger class. Yes, pure mugger class. I've heard of friends from other classes complaining how 'muggy' their classmates are. haha. Must pray hard!! Good luck!!

boohoo. June holidays are ending. And my Exams are coming. haha.

Had some chances to catch up with some old friends during these four weeks. Fruitful. Very amazing things happened as well o(^___^)o

I am happy!! And I hope whoever is reading this entry now(although i doubt so) will be happy too!! Smile!! Cheers!