Tuesday, May 31, 2011
matchbox20- bent
If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk
If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just hold me and then
Just hold me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
If I couldn't sleep could you sleep
Could you paint me better off
Could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot
I started out clean but I'm jaded
Just phoning it in
Just breaking the skin
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
Start bending me
It's never enough
I feel all your pieces
Start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just touch me and then
Just touch me again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
won't you keep my secret for me? 31.5.11
Monday, May 23, 2011
Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around
Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/t/taylor_swift/white_horse.html
And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry
Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
And it's too late for you and your white horse
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now
Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late to catch me now
won't you keep my secret for me? 23.5.11
Thursday, May 19, 2011
BSB i still
Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do? At this very moment When I think of youAnd when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
No matter how I fight it, can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you I still care about youThough everything's been said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But still no word from youNow look at me huh
Instead of moving on
I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
Yeah, I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)
I've tried to fight it, can't deny it
You don't even know that
I wish I could find you
Just like you found me, then I
Would never let you go
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from youi didnt need the pause.
won't you keep my secret for me? 19.5.11
Sunday, May 15, 2011
I was made the wrong way
Won't you do me the right way
Where you gonna be tonight
'cause I won't stay too long
Maybe you're the light for me
When you talk to me it strikes me
Won't somebody help me
'cause I don't feel too strong
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Or the combination I broke that did me have
You know I'm hoping you'll sing along
Though it's not your favorite song
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say
You know that some of us spin again
When you do, you need a friend
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me
And I hate the thought that finally being erased
Baby that's the best of me
Everything's behind you
But the whole things signs beside you
Living in the moment
Have I wasted all your time
won't you keep my secret for me? 15.5.11
Thursday, May 12, 2011
sometimes i really wonder if you even believe what i say. when i say no, i really mean no. do you think there's a reason for me to lie. over a luggage?
anyway, i've started packing already! ready to go back home. and on the last week before i leave, i'm gonna start changing my sleeping time so my body clock will adjust back to singapore timing. hahaha, i have a feeling that if i dont do something abt my sleeping timing, i'm gonna end up sleeping during PA and in the end, fail it. -.- that's just sad.
my work starts at 830am, which is amsterdam's 230am. how can i possibly wake up at the time that i sleep at? that's mental. illogical. killer.
how can i possibly start work one day after i touch down. ugh, isit even possible......
but i cant wait to see how we are gonna hang out in spore. saying byebye to my friends at mrt stations when we've never said bye to each other when we're here. cant wait to start using my phone to call someone, to sms someone. cause i dont even have a line here. to look at all the clothes that i havent worn. (IF I CAN WEAR IT NOW). look at all the shoes that i havent touched. to spend some singapore currency instead of the usual euros. to eat some mega good but mega cheap food instead of always considering abt the price before i can eat something that is not even that fantastic. sighs.. im missing singapore manz.
soooo near yet so far. i still got to go through the whole exam phase. and i got to start studying for exams that are less than 2 weeks away.... but on a happier note, we're going madam tussads this friday! :D and to vondelpark for a picnic on saturday! and monthsary on the 19th at some awesome restaurant. :D iiiiiiiiiiiiiiii cant wait. till june.
till im back, to where i belong. the place that i will always always call home :D
won't you keep my secret for me? 12.5.11
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
I wake up all alone, somewhere unfamiliar.
Been gone so many days, I'm losing count.
When I think of home, I see your face.
I know I have to wait...
So close, yet so far
It's tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
So close yet so far
It's tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you
I miss hearing your laughter
And all the little things
Forgotten what it's like to hold you
Cause where I am right now so unforgiving
It's numbing everything
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hoobastank/so_close_so_far.html ]
So close, yet so far
It's tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
So close yet so far
It's tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you
So promise
No matter how long it takes for me to get back to you
You'll wait for me.
I Promise
No matter how far away I go I'll come back for you
Just wait and see
I miss being at home
I miss your face
Don't think I can wait...
We're So close, yet so far
It's tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
So close yet so far
It's tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you
I promise,
It's tearing me apart
No matter how far away I go I'll come back for you
I promise
It's tearing me apart
What I would do
What I would do
What I would do to be there with you
won't you keep my secret for me? 10.5.11
Monday, May 9, 2011
im back from germany. the last trip on this exchange. went to frankfurt and berlin. and i will rly kinda miss travelling with the awesome bunch of people here. ):
& as the trip comes to an end, i've got to start readjusting back to singapore pace. the fast, hectic and busy lifestyle is back to haunt me. but i guess i've learnt a lot while im here. without my family, without my boyfriend, without my comfort zone.
i've learnt to be much more independent now. and i think i became a bit braver & i realised that, i really really do enjoy a bit of me-time on my own. (: i wash my own clothes, do my own dishes, cook my own lunch, prepare my own food, take care of myself when im sick, clean up after myself, spending within my budget. all these, are precious precious lessons that i wldnt trade for anything else in the world.
the friends i've made here, im pretty sure we will still be pretty tight.
"cmon, we how tight" (: our slogan.
im left with slightly less than a month now and i guess it's gonna be exams here and home sweet home next. got to start working immediately the next day so die die cannot sleep on the plane otherwise it's gonna be jetlag when im working man. and i really hope that i rly did change to become more independent when i return back. i hope i wont be so reliant on my maid for everyday household chores.
anyways, i met up with eileen sherwin candice and co. on queensday! queensday in amsterdam is just some super messy event man. we are allowed to throw rubbish on the floor and everything is under the queen's budget. (y) haha and people are partying on the streets man! pubs are out on the streets, dancefloors, stages. wow. rly an awesome carnival event. :D and i did my very first fake tatoo there! it was quite pretty at first, and aft that, i started to think that it's a bit too lian for my liking. eventually it became a disturbing thingy on my wrist. yugzxzxz.
in berlin i met up with zhenzhen & angela! how i miss them man!! :D:D so happy to see them and the 12 of us (2 groups of us!) met up for dinner and some chillax session at a pub. ahahha, so awesome to see so many singaporeans chilling out! heehee. and the next day i managed to spend the whole day catching up with them. :D haha and i walked back all the way from alexanderplatz to the hostel alone! :D with just a map in hand :)
i rly liked the long walk back though. although i was in a foreign land with absolutely no one with me at all, i wasnt the least scared. i had no idea why too, cause the thought of touring alone hasnt rly occured to me. and when it happened, i realised i kinda like it. but i do miss my friends, having to talk heartily and laughing all the way back. realised im gonna miss them a lot a lot a lot!
and i bought a lot of rittersport manz. it's only like 1.20 sgd here? haha compared to 3sgd. hahah. i can just set up a booth to sell the chocs, and the flavours are super abundant here. they have EVERYTHING :D
ogay tmr is my "ab214" presentation, in the form of a debate. sianz i hate debates. all the best to me and my friends hahaha
won't you keep my secret for me? 9.5.11
