Hey everyone!!
So this letter is gonna be a little different from the past
letters! I want to talk about the personal, spiritual experiences
that I've been going through the past little while instead of the
lessons or people we were able to talk to!
So as I'm drawing nearer and nearer to the end of my
mission I've been really thinking and reflecting back on my mission and how
I can make the last 100 days the best I possibly can.
Lately I've been feeling a ton of inadequacy which comes
with a ton of regrets and feelings of being I guess worthless. I've felt like I
haven't talked to as many people as I should or I haven't said the things that
I needed to in past lessons that could have helped that individual make
the decision to get baptized. I feel like I haven't been the leader the Lord
expects me to be. I've really felt like it's just too late in my mission to change,
to become who my Father in Heaven wants me to become!
So all week I've been studying and praying a ton probably more
then I ever have my whole mission just trying to overcome this trial in my life
and to really have a change of heart and to really become what my Father
in Heaven wants me to become! Progressively throughout the week I've seen a
change and I've felt a difference in my attitude, my desires, my willingness to
submit. I kept praying and was receiving answers that were telling me that
things were gonna be ok to just keep studying, to keep praying, to keep talking
to people, keep following the spirit in lessons, to keep doing what I'm doing. On Friday night I had an experience that was a turning point in my mission. As
I was praying that night before bed and giving thanks for the love that I've felt
for the extra strength that I've been givin to continue on with my mission. I
then asked what I could do more.. how can I continue to change, I'm stuck... after
I closed my prayer I felt an added measure of the spirit I felt so much love
from him! Then the spirit told me that he is gonna show you how to truly become
who he wants you to become.
That next day (Saturday) we had a mission wide DLC
and I went in there thinking it was just gonna be another meeting that we were
gonna discuss our districts and how we can help them out some new training ideas
that we could use and just a regular meeting. The whole meeting that we had
on Saturday was on Becoming who the Lord wants you to become and it was one of
the best meetings that I've had on my mission it not only was an answer to my
prayer but it really showed me the direction I needed to go and that it's not to
late to change and it never will be! President talked a lot about having a
personal conversion, he talked about being willing to submit to the Father's
will just as his son was willing to submit, he gave us some talks by Neal A Maxwell that was really talked a lot about
submitting.
Later President and the assistants gave a training on being
a leader and how we can help others become one as well! That really hit me because
it showed me the importance of others and I now for the first time I feel like I'm
ready to help others through whatever their going through and to help them
become what their Father in Heaven wants! I now feel like I'm in the prime of my
mission! I feel like now is the time for me to make an impact on as many
people's lives that I possibly can! I'm very excited and grateful to serve for
the next 3 months!
I know God has a perfect plan for each of us! I know he has
a perfect love for each of us and that if we humble ourselves before him and
ask for his help we will be able to get through anything! I know that it
is never too late to change and to become! I know this work and this church is
true!.. In the name of Jesus Christ Amen!
Thank you all for the love and support you show me each
week! I'm truly grateful for each of you in my life!
Elder Hess
Scripture!
25 And the Lord said unto me: Marvel not that all mankind, yea, men and
women, all nations, kindreds, tongues and people, must be born again; yea, born
of God, changed from their carnal and fallen state, to a state of
righteousness, being redeemed of God, becoming his sons and daughters;