It Has Always Been About You.

Friday, April 10, 2009

'It' happened again. It's so frustrating. It just so happens EVERYTIME! I HATE IT! But I couldn't stop it. It happened yesterday, it happened today. I thought it's going to be OK, but it's not. There's not much progress.

Went out for dinner with BELLE's FIANCEE(BF) (I SWEAR i'm not stealing!) and Siti. Dragged her along instead of her waiting for you-know-who. Everything was ok, until Coach text-ed asking about results. I got SO distracted lah seeing words like "Fail cannot play", because, OBVIOUSLY, i did badly for my Block Tests. It seriously got me distracted that when otw home, I even almost missed my station.
Sorry BF my mood totally changed.
It was a distracted night, but despite that, I still get my long lost sleep.

Wanted to slept through the morning, but my sleep was disrupted by a call. An old friend called. It was very unexpected but I knew the purpose of --- calling me.
I'm sorry to whoever it may concern. I've told you before, and the answer will NEVER change.

My morning was sucky.
But words from you pulled me up. I know I haven't been a good friend, maybe I don't deserve those words from you, but if there's any way I can make it up to u, I'll surely will grab that oppurtunity.
Thanks for being there when I really need someone, the both of you. =)

ANYWAYs,
got back PW results yesterday, and i got a B. Ain't that great but i'm happy enough. The rest of the group members got a B except for my leader. He got a C. Even so, this particular group member of mine, was utterly upset that he only got a C. HAHA! Can't blame her. He made us, esp the 3 of us, lost ALOT of sleep, because he DOENS'T DO HIS PART! What kind of leader are u?

Hope Saturday will turn out to be a great day with my friends! =)

Saturday, March 28, 2009

FIRSTLY,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IRA MAYA! =) =) =)

So paiseh larr. Asked her whether it was her birthday today, to confirm. TskTskTsk. What kind of friend i am right, i know! haha..

Had sports' heats today. Not much fun AT ALL. But of course, it's only the sports' HEATS.
Few of the hockey girls took part and AND, they were GREAT!
Elia got 2ND for high jump.
Lynette got 2ND for her 200m event.
Rinny got 2ND for her 1500m event.
And it was the finals already, so they'll just be waiting for their medals. =D
CT Huda got 2ND for her 400m event, but it wasn't the finals yet. Definitely, she made it to the finals larr..
CONGRATS TO ALL! =)

Belle, you shouldn't even be running in the first place! Familiar? HAHA! Cheer up ok? REALLY, i'll buy you the kinder joys. HEHE..
Mirliana, you're able to maintain your face when you run lar.. HAHA! Despite having painful thighs/legs, you still ran. Tercabut kaki tu baru tau.. =P

OK, and as for me, i'll be eagerly waiting for my kinderjoys on Monday. Me and my kinderjoys, HAHA!

Hate the "after-effects"! It only gets worst and worst.
Shouldn't it be getting better and better?
WHY?
How am i going to make it?

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Law of Seed
You reap your harvest after you do the work.
You dig the soil, and water the seeds --> Effort
Wait a little while --> Patience
And then you pick your beans --> Results
Effort + Patience = Results
There's NO 'TRY', only 'WILL'.
Words of motivation by Janelle..
We know where she got it from,
but,
the thought of her to write it out nicely on a card,
and, to pass it peronally to me,
was uber SWEET lahh.. THANKS! =)
Shall put those words to use before it's too late..
So, block tests are OVER, but I don't really feel that "glad-ness" that i usually feel after exams are over. It is SO unlike me. Perhaps what she said is the cause of this. Yes, I am going through what Belle's going through. I was even at the scene, the one being said at and all. Not really feeling well and in a kind of a daze, her words entered and left almost immediately, except for the criticizing part though. Nothing much to say, because it's just a repetition of what Belle had written.
Went blog-hopping and happpened to read Philo's blog. His posts are great, with bombastic words and deep meanings. Of course, his an avid reader, I think. At least he loves reading. Apart from that, his way of thingking is pretty balanced. He "argues" on both sides. Wouldn't it be great if everyone can have that kind of mindset? Like they would actually sit down and thoroughly think, the reason behind one's action for example.
I used to be able to do that, and patience is the result, but i've lost that capability, i've lost it all. (Hopefully it won't affect my GP. hehe..)
OK, talking abut Philo is SO random.
Anyway, I feel so tempted to create a facebook account, play the pet society, that Belle has always been talking about, and all, but BUT, i'm afraid i will get so addicted to it. AND it is SO NOT the right time to get addicted to something not beneficial at all.
I can't resist the temptation!

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Forget the times he walked by,
Forget the times he made you cry,
Forget the times he spoke your name..
Remember now you're not the same.
Forget the times he held your hand,
Forget the sweet things if you can,
Forget the times,
And,
Don't pretend,
Remember now,
He's just your friend...

Friday, March 20, 2009

Feeling all "weird" again..
I knew this would happen.
It happened once, and i knew it would happen again if i did the same thing..
Guess what, i am stubborn enough to do it again.
WHY oh WHY??????
Who's to be blamed?

Tried VERY hard to REALLY believe her words and swallow it, but there's a tiny weeny part within me that chose not to believe. It felt so real, it made me put all my hopes in it, it made me put my heart and soul in it. It's just hard to accept the fact that all the while, it has been a...LIE.
Things are suppose to be better when the day goes by right?
Apparently, it isn't for me. It's getting worst. "Thoughts"are just popping out in my head, one by one. How to forget?

Whatever it is, i'm still glad i got to know what i've always wanted to know. Thanks for telling me and have the chance to open up to u.. i'm glad i did..

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Came back from camp yesterday..
It was pretty slack, but i'm still tired.
Had a good sleep the moment i reached home, but it's too bad i couldn't get to sleep the whole day. There's assignments to be done, as well as, revisions.
Anyways,
camp was FUN! Especially the induction process. hehheh.. Not that i was the one who sabo-ed them but the parts where i get to watch them get sabo-ed.. HAHA!
And,
i missed the NJC friendly match. Didn't get to play or WATCH. It was really saddening, but i really have to go for that bio consultation after so long of begging. It's really VERY hard to get him. oh OH, and the girl's team won't 1-0! CONGRATS girls!! If we were to continue like this, i'm pretty sure we can mke it to the second round.. =)

Apart from all these,
it hasn't really been a great week, emotionally, for many, including me perhaps.
Close friends are having problems that i thought would never happen. Tried to help, but right now, the only thing that i can do is lend them a listening ear, because i too, can't help with my own problem(s). i wasn't in any position to help anyone, especially when it comes to relationship problems.
Even so, i'll still be there to listen to you and be the shoulder to cry on if there is a need to yea(to whom it may concern)?

Sunday, March 15, 2009

It has been a CRAZY week!
Not for my beloved friends and hockey team mates, I would have gone insane,
with the pressure/stress and tiredness from both school and hockey, the fluctuating emotions and the painful truth. It's all too much to take within a week, but yes, i survived, and.. I'm still SANE..
No matter how sane i am, the hurt remains. Hopefully, it will all go away as if nothing happened..
Anyways..
I'm off for my hockey camp for 3 days tomorrow. Not really sure what's it gonna be like even with our study sessions and all, but one thing for sure, it's not going to be easy.
Huda Keeper...
Don't force yourself if you're really REALLY sick. It's concerning your health, not stamina or whatsoever. So, don't push yourself too hard ok?