4:14 am

Overly sentimental post ahead. Back off.

I hate the fact that I am always easily affected by emotions and let them rule my head. And often, I can be very surprised by my over reacted tear ducts when I look back.

Even if he sends me a short message which sounds something like: don't be worried and always have a worst case scenario and be prepared for that. This type of words, I would describe it as - classic. Not that he never said it before but very seldom, very indeed. And that pulled the string of memories that worth reminiscing.

I have been very mean to him. I made him cried because thats what he always did to me when we were younger. I have made him threaten a guy who had been bullying me in class. Yes I'm very proud to be that bitch because deep inside he proved that he cares a lot. That day, I confessed because I knew it would help him in searching his long-lost confidence.

Well, due to time constraint and the be-earliered sunrise and the bed which I yet to greet, I am cutting this short.

I just wanna say: Thank you bro.

Facebook

Watch this:



It gives me an eyesore everytime there are these new friend requests from unknowns. Or more cynically they request to be a friend of yours merely because you are one of his/her friend's friend whom we have not even met in person. Where did all these people pop out from seriously. It is a shame when all social networking sites are turning into clones of friendster.

Besides that this Mark Zuckerberg is a genius. He successfully created this contagious disease called facebook addiction which resembles the issue of global warming very very much. People realised the problems and they promised to do something to it. But day after day not only the problem has yet to be solved, the hole in the ozone layer is getting much bigger before people even come to realisation. Sigh this is the only bad analogy I can come up with. Just bear with it okay.

I think I know

This is evil.

By this, I refer to the rapid interchanging state of mind which I have obviously lost control of.

For instance, I thought of CPP when I was studying for DDS and now, vice versa.

And I gotta put a stop to this. Or else, possession by schizophrenia is most likely.

Deep breathing may help. But I think nihilism works way much better for the time being.

Right. I think I know what to do now.

Monday blue

Strings fever is gonna be the best album of the year!


p/s: Listen closely to the lyrics!

Learn to play violin/ cello will the #58 of my things-to-do-before-I-die list!

Geez. And this guy is definitely one of the most talented artists, after Jay of course:



This is one of my fav as well:



Sigh. I gotta go back to study before I get overdose of destressing. Which I am already. =(

C is back and this is doing no good. =((

Random facts

I'm so tempted to list them down ever since I read this.

1. I used to bite my nails in class when I was in standard three. OCD. The teacher could not stand it she invited my parents to school and discussed about how to help me kick the bad habit. But it was not successful and I carried on with it until Form 3 I guess. The reason I stopped biting my nails because I realised how beautiful long nails are. And I turned to bite my lips instead. Haha.

2. Speaking of that, I suck my thumb when I was a kid. I did this subconsciously and often accompanied by hair twisting by the other free hand. Omg I'm uglifying myself already.

3. I am afraid of height. My palms get sweaty everytime I look down from the top of a building or even by imagining. I have certainly stretched my limit to a higher level when I successfully climbed up the Eiffel Tower.

4. I was once a big fan of F4. And now I feel embarassed by the fact. =/

5. I have never held a conversation in English for more than 5 minutes with anyone before I went to Taylors. And I could not understand a single sentence in English during primary school. Strong chinese background and introversion are to be blamed. Therefore I have no idea why people are praising my so-called good command of English when I launched this blog. Seriously.

6. I have lazy eye. I have perfect right eyesight but the power of my left eye is going to reach the big 5 if I prefer not to wear my lens.

7. Realist I am. I doubt the existence of eternal/ immortal love whatsoever. Don't ask me why and don't come lecture me about this zzz. if you are so into fairy tales and happy ending, go live in the castle and don't ever step out of your comfort zone alright.

8. Punctuality is not my cuppa tea. No point reaching early and waste time waiting for others right. =D

9. I am very afraid of needles. I never had my BCG jab when I was standard 6. I getaway with it eventhough the teacher phoned my mom up to come to school and persuade me. Well, obviously they failed haha. No, I din't cry to do wonders, I was just being stubborn.

10. Breakfast is vital. Thus, #8.

On a side note, I've changed the settings for posting comments, yes for those who want to remain anonymous. -____-