Hello March

Day 62 of 2017

I've been caught up with so many thoughts. Thoughts about work, school, myself and life. I really wish to quickly snap myself out of it. The start of 2017 was good (butterflies in my tummy) and right now, on the verge of giving up. haha what a joke. I was right in the beginning, to say to give myself 4 months. 2 months gone, nothing done. This feels so silly, like cmon, I'm so busy and I can't afford to be feeling what I'm feeling right now. ok. I admit. I like smiling to myself. That was a nice feeling. I hope I get to feel that more often. All the emo songs that I've been listening had somehow made me feel 莫名的难过 more often. I hate it. Why am I doing this to myself?!?! I feel like crying all the time?! Crazy much.
Hope I find time to watch a super emo movie and cry all out at once. 

I'll be back again. When I'm back the next time, I'll come back stronger and happier.

Separation

I thought I won't be affected by my boss's promotion. I was wrong. I sat in her office today, while doing work, I cried. I cried out loud in the kitchen. I couldn't control it anymore. I refuse to accept this. I cannot yet. I cried so badly I am having a migraine.....

I miss her like I missed my mother. I am finally feeling it. This separation feeling. I hope I get over it soon. Things are never gonna be the same again.... unless she comes back.

Monday blues

Talked to the liews last night and realised how much I really missed having them around.
Sundays are now quiet and dull, no more crazy laughters, picking them up at 8 and going to church together. Have to endure with this a little longer now............