pw....yeah......

somehow erm yeah confession statement.....okay not really confessions but observations.....shall say it in neutral tone......

1. you people love to start blaming...... eg pic quality issue.... hello......that one is a hp pic... not a digital cam pic... i using a digital cam that day so yar...... check and read up then complain.....

2. you people love to feel good. thats sucks.... meaning there is no way anyone could push u cuz in between u wun feel good under pressure. sucks to be you......

3. learn to contribute....seriously.

4. focus people focus....

5. practise what you preach.... like really. u preach u dun freak out. ohlala u were freaking out at the end. that day my heartbeat remained at 65 average....

6. why can't u see that this is that dude character ay? was been, had been, is like that.

7. 6th sense, woman instition, omens....watever. i prefer logic.... and practical test. if it is working fine, it is working fine......dun like make a big fuss and prefer something of a lower quality.

8. somehow, learn that formating and wat not will change, especially if the files ain't the 100% same format but compatible mode.... i changed for u ppl also, so why make such a big fuss when u return the favour?

9. yes shut up. really. shut up. learn to keep ur frustration to urself. stop expressing it and making the mood bad.

10. for the love of ur own self image. think rationally.....yeah.

blah.... wr submission day.. epic
morning go math lesson then ponned whole day.
did last min bibliography.
then later ws prinitng incident + several bad attitudes.
JUST CHANGE ON THE GOD DAMN SCHOOL PRINTER COM. SHEEZE.
handed in, then due to stress, regine cried.....

okay lets do the split personality analysis again....

MR NICE THINKING:
she is stress,
get christy and val to console her. give her a breather.
woman being delicate yar. best to leave it to women to deal with it.
destress destress.... warm tissue.....and milo......
stress isn't her specialty... avoid it in op

MR BAD THINKING:
if u are crying cuz of stress, means in the first place u got low stress tolerance... somehow u have managed to lived ur 17 years in stress free condition. amused but yar. grow up. [add in profanities here]


gah..... its hard...... when u have like split split split personalities..... its hard.... to manage them.......neutral expresionless is still the best....in case this ppl breakdown and cry.... accmualte negative karma......

blessed the ignorant and naive...... its good not to think much. life much more relax....

this is family upbrining stlye....
mum commented this as my dad attempt to make a replica of the "seng" family...... layman term "deadly to outsider"

on a normal day... observe ppl and find their strength and weaknesses.... when need them, use their strength. when aginst them, aim at their weakness...

and in the meantime, keep a facade.....:D
only 2 situation do u drop r fascade. at home and with woman.... yeah other then tat....nah........

thats why everytime with her is super relax..... till wanna sleep....................... no more acting nor wat so ever..... natural....
i'm tired. super tired. but as far as i'm concern... due to some messed up ppl in sch.... yeah........not showing u anyhting! EvER!

gah.... chi a lvl tmr... sianzzzz................

putting things in a lighter tone.......

I'm sorry.
[it's okay]

I thought I should be totally honest with you.
[i'm very glad you are]

Sorry.
[i'm sorry too]

我知道一切太突然，我知道以后不会再一样。

如果你在意我的过去，如果你嫌弃我的现在。
[i've never minded anything. since when did i minded anything.... other then the sun?]

也好。


证明我们并不适合在一起。
[i never wanna hear such anti-happily-ever-after ideas again.]

如果没有你，我的生命将缺了一块。
[there are benefits to be greedy. you never want to lose what you have. u cling onto your possesion with your life.]

Just want you to know.

Please just leave quietly if you want.
[i'm not leaving for anyone. *superglue hands together*

I'll do something about me after EOYs.
[will be with u]

today...... was thinking.... just a talk
later.... it turned into a nitemare...
bluntness for concern.....
worries.....
dun wanna lose her to some virus or watever.
smsed....
too direct.......

nite.
called.
saw this upset till sian aura...
[come to think of it, its the same as what i do......]
the tiredness of everything, the maturity of handling stuff......
the so full of wisedom part of life she usually dun show......
i'm truely glad to be with her....