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Friday, January 30, 2009
30 Jan 09, 03:18 qingxiao: I WASNT SERIOUS WHEN I TALKED ABOUT LEAVING HOME! oh my tian... =.=
i know.... u can't do that.... but i was prepared....
50% real / 50% fake 11:20 PM
wah sian... type one post... but tio deleted by com when hang... shit-te
my current magical 3 word: GO DIE BEH! / 去死呗!
carmen got really very lame.
Carmen says: 什么果汁最辛苦？ Carmen says: anyway it is 绞尽脑汁!
the sec 4 running made me realised that i 老了 cuz can really die from it... like forcing myself to run when i can walk... i will run.... when i tio chased by something.... something that posed a threat.
qn: ue metal rod and wooden rod hit head, which object more pain? ans: the head pain!
nice lah... the melody... but not using it. nvr will, nvr need.
at least cldd got ppl want to be vice-chair... o.o
50% real / 50% fake 10:43 PM
Thursday, January 29, 2009
gah. one part of myself is the "bad character" thingy... -i can't resist adding insult to injuries -i will sometimes use ppl like objects lor.
must apologise to ah ma [qing xiao] cuz like sometime i really will like go dig out ppl sad things... actually she quite nice liao lor. but from her blog lah... it is like her parents are siao one lah. they will like make her study all the way.... then she talked abt leavin home....
i got think abt that before.... -get bottles one litre one, then go toilet at kpt, fill with h2o. -$$$ is spend as little as possible. just bread lor. -somewhere near the kpt can le.
everyone appears to be in this state of screwed mood. i now okay le.... or more of can supress it lah. the existence of pillows is use it as a punch bag when u peik cheh.
now is the time when u should not trust my appearance... cuz i dun really care wat really happens.... my "shen xian" thing is back again. no need eat so much.... but leh, a bit the not much sick stuff to say...
the sick stuffs i have on mind now is that
eco -crisis, sex toy sale increase. all the ppl worry stock, so the femine need the toys to applease their ****
the bugis sex shop got sell a pair of soft toy boobs.
guys are really like.... die die must look at the "coconuts" it is in the genes...
it is irritating, to see, to know that it is just beside u, but cannot stare nor touch it. [ thus the song by faber drive - killin me. thats my interpretation of that song.]
test results...
wah A math damn careless. so 22/24 physic the thingy got A2.... *surprised look* chem got A1. but is really si beh careless. wah lao.
all the careless thing is normal math. positive, negative signs...
then SS leh.... forget it. it is actually perfecting my art of crapping.
hmk -eng newsppr -study for : bio, emath, chi, eng, geog. -cldds the script lor.
wah sian. need go sleep le.
50% real / 50% fake 10:18 PM
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
now is seriously got this *sian atmosphere* really no drive to do anything... not in the mood to do anything... dun wanna think sick... no 'appetite'.... cuz now is ..... just no 'appetite' for any such things... ppl at orchard wearing those... damn damn damn low cut one.... won't even bother to look.... ha! maybe is FULL le. must digest first.
sometimes... ppl act act one... act like siao... so fake lor.... u wanna fake... can. continue faking lor. i do synchro with u... accompany u fake.... when u r tired... then i wanna see how u really r, when u drop ur act.
someone is doing it le. let them do lor. as if the more the merrier. small things lah. relax-e. when need u to do, then u do, or else continue to appear blur blur. aiyo! simple theory like this u also dun understand. haiz.
50% real / 50% fake 10:38 PM
She takes me to the edge This waiting so frustrating She puts me to the test To break me, she takes me Round and round When will I win? Well here we go again
Oh no! Here we go she's killin me (Here we go again) I can't say no I can't believe she's killin me Teasin me again Why does she play with me? (Why does she play with me?) Like it's just pretend She pulls away from me (She pulls away) Oh no! Killin me again
Her kisses just like wine Intoxicating Just maybe she'll give me more this time Cause I'm craving what she's saving Round and round When will I win? Well here we go again
Oh no! Here we go she's killin me (Here we go again) I can't say no I can't believe she's killin me Teasin me again Why does she play with me? (Why does she play with me?) Like it's just pretend She pulls away (She pulls away) Oh no! Killin me again (again)
She takes me to the edge This waiting so frustrating She puts me to the test To break me, she takes me Her kiss is just like wine Intoxicating Just maybe she'll give me more this time Cause I'm craving what she's saving
Oh no! Here we go she's killin me (Here we go again) Can't say no Can't believe she's killin me Teasin me again Why does she play with me? (Why does she play with me?) Like it's just pretend She pulls away (she pulls away) Oh no! killin me again
Oh no! Here we go she's killin me Killin me again Can't say no Can't believe she's killin me Teasin me again Why does she play with me? Like it's just pretend She pulls away (She pulls away) Oh no! Killin me again
i really like this song.
for ss test, i only can say shit-te.
now i'll try to add the "-te" to the typing.... just like "beh"
oh yeah. says: *and I can totally imagine you with devil horns. hahaha.*
me and yong quan downstairs, praying our class win the cny decoration... okay. 4e1 won...
watch the lion dance....
the lion throw the vege to sec 1...
the sec 1 boys throw the vege back to the lion.
the sec 1 girls also follow.
the lion throw orange.
the sec 1 catch the orange,
peel it open, then throw back at the lion.
one guy go up stage, go irritate the lion...
haha. we all laughing. nowdays the ppl are really losing their "ROOTS" so no culture...
the vege represents luck. u throw away the luck, here comes ur recess detention
then on sat... go out steamboat. with TS ppl.
gosh "she" can be so late lor.... 1/2 hr++
good grief.
then we go one steamboat shop.... shi lun was standing infront of the shop, but did not notice it...
that place FREAK LOTS OF SMALL COCKROACHES....i wonder where are the big cockroach?
the "she" was so afraid of cockroaches....
-girl relax k?.... it is just cockroach....
so ordered three pots. 1 spicy, 2 not spicy.
some ppl paid $15 for maggie mee.
someone , i guess "gold hair" ordered beer.... then use the bottle go crack the crab shell. then i call them help me crack. severely lazy.
later go bugis, cuz shi guang wanna buy watch. on the way there and back, jing wen slipper spolit....cheap goods.... then shi lun comment that bugis got lots of sch dropouts, come here work.
aft that at bugis junction.... we go shop shop, then i only one, die die must watch movie.
[the wedding game] not bad lah. i can only say... everytime i watch jack neo movie is when something bad happens.... aways one lor.... but nice lah...
-leave me 12 cm -mine only 10 cm
-hey that thing of urs touched me
-why? u getting high?
blah....
the magazine got one test..... abt ur child....
qn: got 2 pigs, one skinny, one thin, meet a wolf, wat happens?
1. fat pig tell thin pig that the wolf will eat him.
2. thin pig says, use fat pig so more meat for soup
3. fat pig tell small pig that it big size will protect it
4. both pig kanna eaten.
5. all become friends.
i chose 4.... then the results is
- ur age and mentality is different
- like old ppl think "over"
- will predict things, have pessimistic point of view
- if really like something, ownself will suppress urge, so result in misery....
orh horh! the editor die le.
this is kia yi.... i dun know how to spell ur name. i'll call u "ikea" easy to remember haha.. he cute lor...
wat we makan on
the steamboat shop
good present for my ah ma [qing xiao]
complain time:
that steamboat stall is sabo one lor. shi lun call ask price, say is $15 go there, eat finish then they say is $18... *got feeling tio conned* dun go there.... i got take the name card.
[spoil the CNY mood]
wah lim and zhi min gave me the mac. $$$ i think i will give to some really "in need poor ppl" cuz can't remember if got collect the $$$ or not.... as in...err.... those kpt, sell tissue ppr one hor. that one i will not give... but sometimes really see the old folks, that are really "ke lian" then i give. must touch me first lor.... like that time at the somerset there, got one old ah ma.
i like synchroniser or something for "her" u wanna hide, pull, drag.... by all means lor. i dun really get affected by it. "she" quite poor thing one lor. be patient with "injured ppl" as if "her" those sudden randomness can really affect me much or drive me crazy.... when i go random, i more siao lor...
long long time do something nice lah. then when ppl okay le, then disappear. oh yar horh... i haven't say that "she" is the wei ting from TS...so cherpy, u wanna dig u dig lor.... u really nothing better to do.
when is bio test huh? i haven't study yet. SS. i finish detterence not diplomacy. tmr must chiong hmk.
sleep le.
50% real / 50% fake 11:06 PM
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
ah ma [qing xiao] ws affected by something, so she was kind of sad... then ah ma [xin zhuo] said i very bad at guessing wat a girl is thinking.
de. i'm not feeling the situation now....thinking over it.... i sux at guessing feelings.
{qingxiao} says: aiyah why your feelings all diff from other ppls one?
wah.... very evil....*devil horns* honk honk.... not the car horns lah. nvr ask for sound FX. really? then too bad lor....
ah ma [qing xiao] wanna be shen xian. whole day nvr eat...she siao lor. later gastric. ( a bit bad leh, say other ppl when themselves also like that) but i cannot skip dinner. i like dinner. must have rice hor. i dislike mee and bee hoon. no rice = at nite no sleep.
tmr got phy test
20 Jan 09, 06:51 carmen:D: AH TECK! how can u spell ur aunty's name wrongly?! tsk tsk, terrible.... LOL.
-a bit the nice comment. where got? carmen mah. C-A R-M-E-N korrect lor [correct lor] and the "ah teck" - apparently she always use that name...like jefferson for pri 6A. ah teck...... good grief.
good grief. wat had u and ur friend got into wat prob
when i'm 17, ps get a handcuff and tie me up at nite if at some outing.... haha...cough cough.
sit outside under the sun. enter the class, everthing look green. class deco is done. the 4e1 FTW sign is up. if drop down, then wah lim is first to die.
FTW = for the win. FTW = f()ck the wall.
gah. sleep le. later got black eye, then need redo facial.
50% real / 50% fake 10:51 PM
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
the muttons to mid nite made me think of something.
14 feb = $$$ time.
engagement rings.... err, dun carve out the name of ur partner, carve out the words -for the one i loved so can reuse
the official wedding ring use the charcoal ring. not much difference from the diamond ring. still is carbon atoms. colour diff lah, but put under bed, use weight pressure, put in oven heat. aft 50 year aniversary, got specks of diamonds.
couple tee. for the girls: front logo is... back got words: cuz he is mine....
good grief. add some positive langauge lah. things look nicer.
50% real / 50% fake 10:41 PM
sorry aunty [carmen]... -good grief she said the two ah ma always read this blog... got meh? no lah. they not tat free one lah. (actually they got lor) -*smile*
yeah i can do two pull up. PE got do little running. apparently i nvr puke aft that. i really use strength and nvr use is got diff one lor.
tmr A math test. must pray.... now teachig zeke a math, talk to carmen, and blogging. now sleep le.
happy reading camren... i dare not go my own blog, later hang.
50% real / 50% fake 9:52 PM
TS OUTING: -12pm -bugis mrt -24 jan sat. -wei ting going -fabian also
at least wei ting going she is SGrean. i can't tell... or i die le.... my both ah ma-s [ qing xiao and xin zhuo ] are china nationality. my mam -yan ci and carmen [aunt ] are from malaysia... my blood line is totally mixed up.
hope nvr put same video... ah ma-s not online so talk to aunty. carmen.
new name by carmen: half deity
Carmen says: so, are u ok today? Carmen says: any diseases or illnesses again Carmen says: hopefully not
like i got terminal sickness like that. i very scary meh when i ????
now carmen is clever.... Carmen says: oh for in case, this conversation is not suitable to be put up or published in any public areas, for eg, blogger.
sian ah.... okay aunty. i'll keep quiet le. from now.
50% real / 50% fake 9:32 PM
o.o no wonder ah ma [qing xiao] not online.... o.o-ing gah. ms nor lesson is really "offline"
cldds suxs. the teacher unleashed her fury on us... we are like so tired liao.. push us past our limit... the show gets suckier and suckier...
solution: -on tues, we practise on our own, until we happy. -time is 2.30 to 3.30
teacher went -HUH?!?! so short time..... u agreed with the first condition... which time limit is until we happy. and trust me. we are very easily contented for performance.
thanks audrey, for helping us do the gold colour deco thingy.....
we take turns to leave. sometimes is i leave, sometimes u leave. nice co-operation
doc. gave an MC which is crappy. ??? is excused from work, from "19/01/09" to "thanks" the one is " " is wat he wrote...so wat he talking huh? eh doc leh...
before i break down again.... i wanna say...F()CK u.
that was random.... okay. sorry ah ma [qing xiao] it is at nite le. u can handcuff me up sooner. u also dun eat breakfast...
cherp peng is fast at checking ppl. give him the name, he will go call up friends, and find that person info.... whoa. he seriously nothing better to do.
cca now at 19 point. B3... need go SYF, so get more points. to get A2.... no participation.
newsppr, say if guy wait for 5ex, then tat person is not a bad guy.... O.O
i wanna watch two jack neo movie now. one is shown on 22 jan, by the mediacorp guy with heart prob. other one is wedding game, on 25 jan. by fann wong, and her guy.
today both ah ma-s not online...sian.
today bio lesson, go pluck leaves. / ellice got into some prob. lied her way through or something.
do i keep my promisses? yes, a few.
for ???? [pri friend] -all the best. for ??? [08 cube] -i wun hurt u physically. for qing xiao -err. try not to redo wat i did in TS 07 for myself leh -blur, sotong, weak, fake
ga. cherp and me are related in kindergarden. o.o i remember i owe ppl in pre-sch knuckes sandwiches. then he dun seems to "remember / have the impression" that one kiddo was run down by a car. maybe i saw it at some other place
tmr got ms nor lesson. see if she drives me nuts.
50% real / 50% fake 9:20 PM
Sunday, January 18, 2009
the SS teacher. ms nor, suddenly have SSP. nvr say, so many ppl late for class, some ppl go home... dunno whether got kanna anything or not.
cny deco. samuel like slacking. i aft cca still go help. he go home.
my funeral speech now got extra part... the big big thank you for qing xiao.... {qingxiao} says: [fighting the urge to o.o]
for cherp peng... it is LUCY LI XIN ZHUO! good grief.
yan wei ting. her person, and on the phone, like two diff person. the one on the phone is more calm, not very bitchy....well mannered.
1/2 time shen xian.... eat very little, but will die if car bangs... havent level up. need more XP.
chem test die le. practise correct. ppr do wrong.
parent forum... my dad laughing at the sch rules.
the recess a bit the clever hor.... now my dad want me write letter go complaint/suggest solution... nice excuse to practise letter writing.
want to see me bleed to death.... can..... see that ba long long tree. go there, wait long long... but! i nvr say will not happen. will one. need patience...
god help me! -for god, please press 1. for 1/2 time shen xian, continue talking.
haha.... "dun cheat ppl feeling" -nice line lor.... but it is sometimes fun okay... fear to relief, then panic.
breast milk is made of blood..... so "hey i want to suck ur blood!" *slap*
my fish = wah my fingers almost gone during feeding time.
sleep le. baka!
50% real / 50% fake 10:46 PM
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
go peer tutoring... found out who is desmond... orh. that guy ah..... then learnt a new phrase:
Memento Mori -Latin phrase
meaning: Remember that you are mortal," "Remember you will die," "Remember that you must die," or "Remember your death"
PE sucks today.. invent ur own game.... so we got handcock p liao... but "HE" like against us... not happy with it... we created a game that can be played anywhere, anytime, with the least requirements... all u need is a windless place and something to hit... and it is done...
then HE make it into damn strrict. must like this.... only this place only... cannot change.... wat is the point of a game where u can't change the rule to suit the surrounding? god! he a bit the SQUARE...not flexible...
a bit over anxious...so a bit rude lah...
50% real / 50% fake 6:10 PM
Monday, January 12, 2009
11 Jan 09, 03:13 yes: i agree. 11 Jan 09, 03:00 sct: u dam asshole O$P$!!!if not u see an unremovable pighead on ur table tmr!!!
clever clever.....
qing xiao say i got appear on newsppr... o.o send me the pic then...
yan ci asked if go out steamboat...the TS 24 jan...sat.... i thought that day got the parent forum thingy...then i cannot le...
gundam 00 season 2 episode 14 is out... blade of an immortal dun have epi 10 and 9 one...
the sch result...add pressure to us lor... sian....
today damn cold. so stand under sun for 10 min... sun tan a little... body the homeostasis a bit the haywire...
my ah ma-qing xiao wants me to be guai. so i wun hit anyone hard...
tuition ah... sian leh... i go doddle in class. :D
the apologise by muttons to midnite is damn nice lor... listen and listen again. i owe kah jun $5.... better return be4 forget....
50% real / 50% fake 4:51 PM
Sunday, January 11, 2009
know that lia go 4N also.... poor thing.... see lah! one year without my help then she Game over le.... wah lao!
sam lim is so serious amd formal lor.... sian.... hard to ntroduce him to my ah ma-s...and mam.... then yan ci asked if today can go out.... go support friend competion... yi jin... the man tou zhang lao...
qing xiao ask why i go out of topic during last nite convo.... orh...err.... at nite le.... then the brain will lag and go dead... that is the most obvious change u can see lor.... everynite like that one. so will be out of focus... her reply to [ lim say NY girls not nice ] is very cute/child like type.... -orh hor... he die le like my P1 cousin....
lim commented tat i should not be so proud.... no lah... not proud.. just more kiam pa then usual. need more distraction....
my conclusion about xi yun.... he does like carmen lor. haha.... yun that sucker.... he seriously like spoilt brat lor.... or he is one... he follow his instinct..... say everything out... loser!
my hands are like damn cold... if ur nails reflects ur health, then ur hand reflects ur state of mind or ur emotions.... now is a bit the more cold then usual.... sian ah....
the muttons to midnite the "apologise" damn funny lor.... i like it!
i trust my "ah ma" judgement.... during pri sch u r suppose to learn how to differtiate good and bad.... i nvr leart that... so need my "ah ma" teach
anime: blade of immortal -a bit the sick lah..... i cannot stand it lor.... not my type... i prefer hellsing... the ppl are so kiam pa!
50% real / 50% fake 1:49 PM
Saturday, January 10, 2009
today morning, saw my dad watching some stuff. on the com... then he hurriedly close the browser.... maybe it is PoRn.... but nvr go check...
collect the news ppr drive... notice my phobia for dog is still there.... so *knock knock* "BARK *run*.... today no blade lah... only got HP only.... then what....slide open the phone and poke the dog with it? then also, if it comes close enough... within kicking range...then kick it lor... hey! i'm doing my cip, and ur dog almost bit me... the only fair thing is i kick it.... flight or fight.... tio cornered then fight lor....
go make up class again... guan zheng that loser.... wah lao.. so guai. so tired, go tuition no point leh. siao. make-up class is FOC, then go make-up lesson lah.
A math got "desmond" as my tutee. i tutor him... ppl say "good luck" to me
sis got two lumps at the back of her head there... -either two big pimple -or something wrong liao mental preparation needed lor...
today yan wei ting was like coming to me and "oih u dun take my bio TB" *poke* then i was "offline" / not in the right frame of mind so nvr reply to her.... then the her rxn was "eh u okay or not?" reply: *twisty/two finger sign* then siam her smack....
i want these memories out of my mind.... sometimes many things in the brain get cogged up... i have other things to worry abt... first the $$$ and sis medical condition. the doc is like saying -observation...
screw him.
bad feeling something gonna happen... prenotion or watever u call that.
another convo i want to remember, but not keep in mind.
my hands now smell like blood... the fishy type...
go cut "meat" end up is the fish egg. frozen. fed it to my three fish... they love it... this is one smell that i always remember. the smell of fish offals. also the taste of ones own blood... salty salty taste..
now i'm more or less back to norm... yar.... then now is no longer "u very bad" upgrade le become "u very evil leh"
simply enjoy seeing certain ppl leading a sucky life now... totally enjoy it. why let him die? torment him first lah. slowly die.... injure a tat person, but leave the nerves unharmed, so he feels the pain....
it is nothing personal. i do not have any desire to see u dead, but simply enjoy seeing u in ur shitty situation. loser.
a bit the bad ah... but it's okay... quite normal one... especially if this words come from me... maybe it is a good time to question my moral values now.
hormones: prolactin -cause the breast to start producing milk...
qn: grab an adult female, inject hormone into bloodstream, does the effect take place instantly? [ dunno. ]
why i so no energy.... i had been busy at nite.... pushing someone on to bed, stare into that person eyes, deeply. gently, tenderly carress that person.... and basic instinct....
lame qn deserve lame ans, so dun ask me why i nvr sleep well.
50% real / 50% fake 10:14 PM
now my aunty aka carmen goes crazy... [thanks to me]
good grief... i still can smile means i'm not pissed or anything... how many time must i repeat this...!!! only when i can't even fake a smile, then i am deadly pissed off.
good grief.... for the first time ppl wanna know... dots.... cuz she nvr seen it... my ah ma -qing xiao seen it be4... then with the usual reply -"u very bad le" SO FUNNY.
hmk + revision for the A math chapter... sian ah. one holiday wipe out my memory.
interuption:
Carmen says: why? i thought u are quite interesting too
normal case is i drive ppl nuts.. now i met this SS teacher. ms nor"something something" wah! she will drive me crazy. my brain is not designed to withstand this kind of stuff. this is going to be a semi fast/ semi short year...
ivan lee became our councelor... if got emo probs go find him. then release the pressure... unleash ur potential.... wah this part is scarry lor.
morals values... i very limited... so boils down to emotions liao... if go councelling, solve the emotion problems... then i really become terrorist le... so got excuse not to go councelling...
so much for "unleashing ones potential"
so carmen did receive presents from xi yun... then she was like asking me if i was like doing another mind game or experiment thingy on her.... err... no.... xi yun is the test rat.... u r more of the results... my view nvr change... xi yun acts like a brat... those bitchy brat...
roger lee got sent to 4N1 tats wat the ppl say.... HORRAY! party... that asshole.
jia chin was saying how i was very evil, cuz i was imagining how cherp peng would be like, if he alight the bus, cross the traffic light and kanna run down by the bus we are on.... wah that time is like...
-u just told the person bye bye, -then not more then 5 min, that person die infront of ur eyes... -and u are on the vehicle that killed him... -and u dun know whether to LAUGH or CRY... -then u put on a huge grin on ur face...
a bit the evil lah... but okay lah...this kind of things dun drive me as nuts as the teacher....
so well rounded! so chim... so KIAM PA! wah i cannot stand it!
songs.... from vampire knight. opening theme.
sleep le.
50% real / 50% fake 10:40 PM
Monday, January 05, 2009
k... i like the tune 100%... the meaning is so-so...then video not bad.... sleep le.... recharge sex drive..... tats wat u can call it.... u can't think sick when u are tired okay?
50% real / 50% fake 10:42 PM
wah a lot of hmk for me lor... this nvr do that nvr do... eng got three band now... i still band 2... chi common test... mr ng nvr mark a qn... no wonder weird weird one... phy do wrong stuff. need relearn my math.... sci also....
maybe it is nice to see friends.... dun really feel happy nor high.... CCA the presentation is tiring...
my definition of "very tired" VERY TIRED: so sleepy, not energetic that even if some sexy hot model is totally naked in front of me, i'll still fall alseep. i won't even bother to look! no sex drive... HA!
so the teacher had this exercise, where u place an empty chair in front of u. imagine someone was there. someone u wanted to tell them something, but no chance.... then i was like thinking: "seriously.... need to chain me up be4 doing this thing if i really 100% let go of all my emotions...."
but leh... it looks fun mah... so try a little bit lor...
sci fact: ur tears should come down, running down ur nose...not the side...
mine is considered crocodiles tears.... purposely make urself feel sad and see can cry or not.... and... can work leh! but cannot keep repeating... cuz 1. get mental breakdown 2. get used to the sad stuff then really that time is i really no feelings for things le... [i dun want tat to happen]
i can't tell the it is purposely/unitentionally why u did it.. but not much concern le... just need six months, all my memories will be gone by then ... so horray.
now i got another reason why i rarely give presents, or really ask ppl for presents... it will be those look simple but slighty cruel type of presents... [- not refering to 1 nite stand -]
{qingxiao} says: dun so bad to her lah. {qingxiao} says: tsk. {qingxiao} says: =.=
lets play guess guess... ans is - wun tell u! ha! actually is wanna find out if that cloud got give present to carmen for x.mas.... i think yes lor...
lets talk abt songs.... [look random enough]
tears don't fall -bullet for my valentine it's over / leavin - jesse mccartney [ these one is nvr hear till sian ]
yeah. samuel lim beside me. / no comment for -ellice, qing lei, long wen / liwen infont of me... the loud speaker... / jamie the genius behind lim... good! / audrey behind me... got sweets.. / and wei ting behind me...cannot eat sweet in peace... sian.
sleep le.
50% real / 50% fake 9:57 PM
383 post....
2009 le....
GOD DAMN IT! [eric cartman]
sian ah... start 2009 with some bad memories... hmk undone.... ah....how "happy" can 2009 get? first post for 2009...
-changing hp on 11 march. w980 sony eric -the shop house deal go smoothly -good o lvl results... -somethings a re meant to be that way for a long time...so just lived with it, get used to it then. -get lucky... dun die.... avoid cars....and killer litters...
now i'm like watching a rerun of something that happened on the olympics...08 this time the show runs for more then 3 months plus...show still running. -[tats long] the protagonist still crying over it - [made me felt that i recover too fast or heartless by nature] the comforter is straight forward - [god i did not have one... why ah?]
for one brief moment... i must go check on how "heartless" i can be....
i got do charity k... try to make ppl feel better, at the cost of myself feeling worst... that is considered charity/random acts of kindness. so dun argue over this kindness thingy within me.
only kah jun / fabian sent the happy new year sms. [thanks]
nice way to start 2009. the emo-est new year i ever celebrated..
retribution lah.... so live with it lor...
to certain ppl...: jia you... i tried to teach u indepedance, but shouldn't do it then... dun regret anything.
the pressure is still building up within u...so when are u going to give in and drop dead? -not now..
50% real / 50% fake 12:01 AM
SCT the crapper.
SADIST
PARSIMONIOUS
POIKILOTHERMIC
PLEGMATIC
I.D.C AWARD WINNER
NON-CONVENTIONALIST
ATHEIST!
this is kia yi.... i dun know how to spell ur name. i'll call u "ikea" easy to remember
haha.. he cute lor...
wat we makan on
the steamboat shop
good present for my ah ma [qing xiao]
back got words: cuz he is mine....
good grief. connection lost! sian.i seeing things i should not see. god damnit!