a change of new blog skin, had some probs with the post though, hope this work

MY FAMILY:

mother:
every time when she got trouble, she would tell me and say about the things over and over again, instead of me telling her anything that bug me, i had to take over the role of the mother job by listening to her complaint over and over again... very irrating and when i got troubles, difficulties, i had no one to speak to and i do not trust councilor... people cannot keep their trap shut... even though i'm sad and angry or anything , depressed ... still need to act normal and act as if nothing happen.

dad:
everyday in the morning , he must say some de-moralising stuff and make me so sad that i don't want to attend sch. he wants me to score a single dight for L1b5 and he does not consider how i feel. the class, smart people like lim only get 15, or something like that and he want me to get 9, what kind of expectation is that.... he presumes i'm happy, but i'm not. when it comes to a crappy project and i know that the work produce by other people is bullshit, i had to do everything, and as i don't want to get screwed up, but when i just stop working and play for half an hour, he will start nagging about where i should stand in class and stuff that makes a night miserable. if i explode or something, i would be dead by then.

uncle:
that ass is the one i hate most in my life. i once told a friend hate is a great word and should use dislike but now i will use hate. he had been comparing results since pri 1 to pri 6 and all the time he tell my dad how good the daughter result is and i kanna the next day for no reason. he like to compare height and weight as he knows that i will lose to his daughter and he will say things like eat more, jump more and he does not know the fuckin meaning of puberty... girls are faster ,10-14 guy are 12-16 and like that, during chi new year, for 6 year , humiliated in front of relatives... how does that feel. i never believe in forgive and forget but is remember and revenge, this is the price to pay, an eye for an eye, matter of time only

sch:
in sch there is only mr rich-guy and nuk generator, both are rich don't know what some ppl life is but i seen the other side of rich-guy dick lee as he does show maturity but for puvi, he will learn it in the future a hard and pain lesson. mr lim became his old self again picking up insults and he will learn on his death bed that an ill mouth can kill. by not return a punch from puvan is a revenge good enough as let someone else be my killer.

i am never a kind soul, nudge me , cross the line, and you watch it, [ good thing for bitches is that i don't hit girls] displaying your colours is a mistake when the time comes show it and thats the end of everything. anything in the way get fucked off and it must not survive.
if i get a nice shelling for the results, i'll show my dad what he wants by going on a destruction course, study hard and be unfeeling as emotion is the nly thing that is in the way, he will regret this if he continues doing what he is doing by pushing me... to me Sherrie method is enjoy and enjoy method where she enjoys life and produc good results but it is not an option to me and it is either hard working, the slow method, not confirming results or destruction course, at the end of everything, the result will usually look nice but it kills one emotion, feeling and attitude, it is a trade with the devil.

so happy, what the hell, the exam was screwed up, mr ryan cheated and was caught, for 2 mark and then, 70 percent and 8 demerit.... ryan was given a nice beating from wilfred,.....so sick, want to die , can't die...... whaaaaa screw la....

got a new show,
-HELLSING
esp. 1-13
release at 2006

-TRIGUN
esp. 1-26
quite old...

both are available at you tube.

my two junior: darrus and jia yi
so sad only got two of them, but it is a headache already... its cldds extintion time...

-DARRUS
this guy is from 1e4 07, very quiet, like my friend yong quan, look like a nervous wreck...

-JIA YI
this babbon is from 1e6 07, very talkative, daring and he ... is like a duplicate of me in term of behavior but he speaks preety loud and he act like a gay and his acting is...... what the hell, he can win me.... that nit wit really help me to kill time man, his face is the same as clement that sec 4 guy, and only attending CL for 4 lessons, that junior talk bak at me, me, me.... and still dare call me 'see-nior' like to strangle him for one weird reason, talk as much crap as i do and ....sometime he out talk me but that is when i'm dozing off....

LAUGH
pick up a new skill, when ng get irritated or restless, continue laughing and it pisssed him off, when injure or feel pain also laugh, it helps as the brain produces more chemical to ease the pain buy the down side of this laughing trick is that after too long, you will look like a mental retard, feel like dying as the happiness was used up and better still, the cheeks hurts llike shit and it make you laugh more and it hurts more and..... sucide laughing, need some limit.. the murderous method learnt....

-DICK/RAJ
wah lao ...evrybody in class sabo me,the stupid sparrow came down with a broken leg, zheng yong saw it amd dick/puvan say: chin teck you break the leg right... please la, if the basket ball was shot at it , it would be already dead and that fucking clement told tobais that i shot the bird and he said that the class says it. who is the "class"???? all the crap is from those two , one a beer tummy another one a spoit brat [if they see this post, they wil be going [ %^%^^%%$^$^^% ] but who give a heckum about them.
later on during CE thatday, zhang was on the topic of pornography and puvan went " CHIN TECK!!!!!" than here comes dickcoinson the amplifier said it louder and than the class went CHIN TECK.....

let clear things up, i have the capability of talking dirty but i do not watch it . i found that talking dirty come in helpful when you meet an idiot and want that babbon to fuck off. in the outsider, that ponyboy said tha he can talk dirty to help dally but he does not watches porn!!!

-STUPID RIBS
kidda happy, can't stop grinning, the sci test was good, almost superb.
i guess dick lee crack me bottom right ribs as it hurts like hell. get the dates clear,

- 3 may 2007
that dicky shot at my ribs with the basketball and puvi witness it. i was in pain for ???? 10 minutes and when the pain kidda subsided, then comes the dead bird, so the sparrow came down when i was in pain, so how could i be the one who shot it

-5 may 2007
the first symptom of that stupid ribs, it hurts like hell, neither can bend or stand straight, 10-15 min rest than can move, still hurts now. lucky it is dicky as he can fot the bills and some demerit points if the sch knows it. he ain't gonna pay, but the family would as they have responsibility unlike him thus the name spoilt brat, keep on playing never knew the limit how musch one ppl can take, this will get him in big probs in future thus buy ticket to watch the good show
siyorana meet you in hell, you just won a one-way ticket to hell...

-SHERRIE
sherrie gives me the impression that as if she was never yell at or something and she is too 'warm blooded' during the crazy LAO session, she was so dumb to call in a guy in e3 just to prove e4 innocent, any way that LAO said that she heard ghost sound from our class , comfirm it is guys , it is our class and its like wooooohoooooo[cheering one]
she said if she is wrong, everybody pay her 5 buck [everyone is going for 'bark' ] to see doc and guess what, she was wrong.... it was those e3. back to the story, sherrie saw one guy from e3 come out and started shouting at that guy to come in to prove that we are innocent, the girls sitting around tanya also did the same , then LAO blew up, give us a nice shelling and left. i shot a look that says 'wah lao see lah...' than sherrie was like[ what..what, eh i was helping the class ]
nisa supported her no way she believe she was in the wrong, face redden, gonna cry. next day LAO said that she was wrong, and said that sherrie and nisa were in the wrong too for telling that guy to come in and wrong way of doing it, wrong time. sherrie tay shu wen look as if she was gonna cry. prob is, she is too hot blooded, can't shut of some emotion. if she was framed once, she was bound to cry ....... I BELIEVE THAT IF SHE READ THIS, SHE WOULD COME TO ME CRYING THE NEXT DAY SAYING YOU'RE HEARTLESS . look girl, i don't give a damn, i am cold blooded, i'm inhuman, that is why i chose the grim reaper when i can chose many things else as i want to die. every day is a mental hell to me, a torture mentally.i would not expect you to undersand as your live is so pure and good and gold.

-the mental hell
you can see the things you want, but can't take it, and after 5 years of hell, you are bound to be cold blooded.don't ever talk to me about how one god can save you , to me religion ain't true, as NO EVIDENCE. maybe still got a life time of another two years, if luck ,six years, luckier ten years, the thing goes , i go too, matter of time