Walking on Broken Glass.

Your thoughts have taken their toll

jireh is a realist.
18 on the day of A level GP paper.

getting interested in photography.after a levels i would like to learn hiphop but i think i am the kind with 2 left feet. perhaps i'd pick up the guitar. or fine tune my piano skills. and learn french. hopefully i will be able to embark on all these grand plans and master something new with my pathetic weekends.

i have never experienced love. i have never looked at anyone and felt all fuzzy. all i have ever experienced, and this is sad, is lust, loneliness, and obligation.

Thursday, February 18, 2010 @ 4:15 AM

The botak egg is in camp! So I am here blogging for him instead, because he told me to! (: Hi everyone! I am very happy that we are back in each others' lives again IN A GOOD WAY after so long, maybe this is a sign that we are meant to be!

He rarely updates this space, I can see the cobwebs already!

It is currently 4.17am, 1 hr more before he wakes up! Meanwhile I am rushing through my lesson planning for tomorrow, I am on an MOE internship and I am also teaching at an equally ah beng school! Sigh this job is really time consuming and unfortunately despite all the effort I don't think my students appreciate or understand me. They never ask me proper questions pertaining to the syllabus but instead ask me random nonsense like my age, my name, whether I have a boyfriend etc.

A student just gave me a note and present today and asked me to be his gan jie and asked me to sms him my reply and included his number in the letter! Crazy! Really don't know how to handle because I don't want to be unprofessional but at the same time don't want to make him sad! Dear says: "Tell him to screw off! You are like, mine.", haha (:

So yup we spent Valentines' Day together. Unfortunately this year I had to go to Malaysia over the weekend as the big reunion was somehow at my aunt's place there, but I managed to catch a plane back asap on Sunday and we still had some time together. Watched Valentines' Day and every time Taylor Lautner came on he would cover my eyes -.-

I think I'd get scolded later when he wakes up and finds out I didn't sleep. Lol. It is a crazy week ahead!

As for the tags, he'd reply them himself or maybe I'd help him type it out when he next calls! Why is the readership made up entirely of GIRLS??? -.-

Nonetheless, xoxo. Have a good day everyone! Just remember that he's mine :)

Friday, January 15, 2010 @ 11:39 PM

I haven't updated for like close to a month! Cheryl bff just kindly reminded me to update this space of mine which I have been neglecting and will neglect even more next month onwards when I GO AND SERVE MY NATION.......

Currently, I am relief teaching at a super neighbourhood neighbourhood school. The best class consists of students with PSLE score of 200-210, so imagine the rest of the school standard k? I am teaching normal academic. Like what the HELL please, I have no idea how to handle these kids. All along I have attended pretty good schools with pretty decent students, really don't know how to handle these discipline cases. And in the staff room, the most lively topic of conversation are....how naughty the students are. School system sucks, the principal spies on the teachers and she is super unpopular. I shall not reveal the name of the school for fear of getting sacked or sued for libel HAHA.

So. Within the last month. I went....to africa for holiday. My africa trip includes South Africa, Zimbabwe, Botswana and Zambia. Not bad, quite fun. Got super suntanned though.

Victoria falls

Cape of good hope. Lots of other pictures but i LAZY. and I am TIRED....

Also went fishing? This is taken on two different occasions though.

Bedok jetty with friends

At Kelong

These are the two more prominent "holidays" la...I still haven't include the crazy drinking at some ulu playground at 2am to jie jiu xiao chou lol. The other activities are also mostly educational and part of my job so I cannot reveal pictures of much detail because just not allowed lol.

Hmm as for other updates...I am trying to learn the guitar. Driving lessons too! And I think I should be going to learn dance. Don't know how I am going to manage all this next month onwards though! But guitar is okay la, self teach only, slow and steady!

OH yes and I have gotten conditional offers to QM, UOM, and UOS in the UK for LAW! still waiting for LSE and Warwick...but that is okay because almost everyone I know who applied to UK applied to LSE and warwick, so it is pretty expected that they will wait till the UCAS deadline and see the selection of applicants before making offers. No news is good news!

Worrying about A level results everyday. About 1.5 months more to go? Just gimme 6-7 distinctions and Id be satisfied. I don't even ask for H3 distinction...merit will do! Quite annoying because whenever I complain or worry in company, they will just scold me. eg. "AIYAAA YOU FROM XXXX SCHOOL LEH worry what sure do well one!". When I am with people from my school, they will say "AIYAH you always win me in school! since when have you not beaten me? worry for what la i'm sure you will get straight A". Can you imagine the pressure? :(

As for personal life....super complicated haha. But then again, the recent entry into my life again has resulted in even further complications, though of course it is more than I could ever want considering the bad way things ended in June. I missed you so much, but you coming back into my life has brought me unnecessary pain since December and especially so in 2010 to the extent that my 2010 has so far been a rather melancholic one. I know you are deliberately coming back to torture me for how I treated you in the past; your flirting with other people at the seminar just proves it. At any rate, I am trying to take things lightly now...after all, having you as a friend, no matter how distant, is still better than nothing.

I know I screwed up the second time with the trust issue and I have since registered that we are not meant to be. You are not going to be reading this, but it makes no difference anyhow. I cannot continue living in those beautiful sugar coated months, it is but an illusion. Time to move on with my hectic life!

Friday, December 11, 2009 @ 2:25 PM

I think i spent about 400+++ in the last 2-3 weeks this includes contacts and excludes itouch.

Going fishing for the entire this weekend, quite excited haha bought a fishing hat which also looks a bit like the safari kind of hat, suitable for my family holiday next week! To South Africa!!!! Exciting right!

Actually its largely due to entertainment reasons la (and food) thats why can chock up so much cash, didn't even buy that many clothes and stuff like that also! Almost everyday eating good food, but SURPRISINGLY I lose even more weight -.- Weighed myself that day, lost like 5-6kg since J1!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know like 3-4kg lost during prelim and a level period one but the rest!?!?!? Dunno whats happening also. Shall have to eat more already -.- I have no idea why the general theory for weight gain during exam period does not apply to me, the reverse does.

Other updates would be getting a conditional offer into a top 20 UK university for LLB (law), conditional offer to USP program. very worried about a level results, like all the expectations and stuff, afraid it would be less than desirable and below expectations. That would be the suckiest of all.

I learned how to cook also. Must learn more zhao then like the Ryuji in Toradora (which I have been watching recently, along with glee (which ended alr) and some types of british comedy haha.