Valentine's Day.

So, one of the reasons why I love V-day is how I get to hear everyone complain about being single.  It is so funny to me.  Like, it is great how people vent about it on fb for the whole world to see. I love it so much.  The number one reason why I love V-day though, is the fact that it is so cutesy!  I think it is a darlin holiday.  Love is so presh :)  Also, it is a lovely reminder that we have so many friends and a great family that loves us!!! And heck, I love mine so much!!!  But while on the subject of love, I just want to rant about how thrilled I am someday to find that person that I just connect with.  It seems kind of impossible, but I know that it will be a reality for me someday.  Getting there is gonna be the hard part.  Dating is terrifying! And just knowing that it's the right person for you can be scary as well.  I am just excited!  Sometimes I get sick of being patient when I see all my high school buddies getting married and engaged, but I just need to remind myself that I am only 19.  It will come.  I will have my turn :)  We all will.  Don't fret.  Well, this was a disgusting, mushy post, but Happy Valentine's Day er'ybody!

Dreams.

So last night I had a dream that I gave birth to twins.  The babies just got pulled right out of my belly button. Haha.  Very easy birth :)  It was THE strangest dream, but it made me so happy!!  It was like an overwhelming feel of joy and love.  The babies were the most darling things in the world.  I seriously woke up and thought that I was a mom,... and then I started realizing that it was impossible.  ....I was disappointed at first, but now I am completely relieved. So, being the weirdo that I am, I interpreted my dream on some sketchy website, and it is actually quite interesting how the dream that I had relates to what is goin on with me right now.  How? Well, the dream of twins signifies opposites and contrasts.  It also represents good business, contentment and loyalty. Hmmm.  Dreaming of birth symbolizes a new start or an anticipated occurrence.  I found that pretty jazzy, because I have been waiting in anticipation for this weekend like no other!!!  I mean, I know that what we are thinking and feeling affect our dreams.  I think it's just interesting that I fell asleep thinking about upcoming events and stuff and then dreamed about birth.  The symbolism of that totally worked for what I was feeling.  I know, it's probably all pish-posh,.....but whatev.  Haha.  But having that dream got me so excited for motherhood and stuff.  As cheesy as it sounds, I cannot WAIT to be a mother.  That is why I am here.  I am supposed to be a mom, and I simply cannot wait :) 

Well, great.

It seems that every time I get comfortable with someone and feel confident and comfortable in my own skin around them, something happens.  I am cursed.  Bah, the guilt!  Friendly teasing always turns out awful.  Note to self:  For now on, being boring and shy is the safe route.  Now I have to re-learn how to act super autistic.  ....Just gotta think back to the junior high days where I would look at my feet when I walked, and when I would take a giant poop in my pants when someone would say hi.  This should be rull rull fun. 

Completely Frustrated.

I seem to always be frustrated.  Always.  It is because everyone is a big idiot fool but me.  Today, more than ever I have been frustrated.  I can't completely pinpoint why, but oh, there are reasons.  I am just so glad to have Hans O by my side.  Prolly the only person at Snow College that understands.  First of all, I can't STAND immature babies.  Yes, I have my times to act like a hooligan.  I like my vulgar jokes, and I laugh every time someone says "sex,"  but I would consider myself mature on many levels.  What really gets me, are the buttholes who will believe everything their friends say about people, and act towards that certain person how their friend would want them to.  Just have your own dang opinions people!!! Geezy louisy.  I have a lot of long stories that backup my point....but we really don't need to get into that.  Frustration number two:  Every male is a giant piece of excrement.  Yes, I may be without man at the moment, and may be longing for male companionship....but as of now, my opinions will remain stagnant.  I will admit that there are a hand full of guys who are tolerable, but mostly....not.  Speaking of immaturity.......    Anyway......  I am having trouble expressing my frustration, because really it is unexplainable.  Just believe me, if you were graced with my presence right now, you would be graced with my powerful feelings of frustration as well.  Well, I am bein all self conscious right now with this post, being it my first and all. Whatev.  It's not like I have followers or anythang.  Later beezies!

Yay! Ise all bein a classy blogger...

Well,  I have decided to start a blog.  I doubt I will ever keep up with this, but we shall see... :)