I've been rejoicing this past couple of days and I just want to let all of you know: My back doesn't hurt, my ribs are in place, I have energy, and I'm not sick! I thank God for a body that is healthy and is working.
As you might know I've been struggling with health issues for quite some time and then this winter I feel like I've been sick for several months straight. The aftermath of several different colds brought my body down to the lows I felt when I had Chronic Fatigue. It was stressful, depressing, and really hard for me to deal with. But these last couple of days I've been dancing as I go about my duties. The affirmation that I have a body that can do remarkable things has filled my head with so much gratitude that I sometimes feel like crying when I do dishes, or vacuum, or play with Samuel - because I can do those things. I am so grateful that I am currently living and experiencing my life with a mind that is free of pain and fatigue.
I am feeling so hugely blessed, in part, because I know that God was with me when I was sick. When I contemplated Him, I was able to see my life as productive and meaningful. I was able to enjoy what I had and rejoice in it. My expanded blessings now make me look toward the future and the greater capacity to enjoy the love of my family, the wonders of the world, and the perfect health that God will give to me in my resurrected body. I want to be worthy of such blessings and I want to have the kind of mind that will appreciate all that He will make of me.
Suffering and the task of trying to be cheerful while in suffering has taught me that happiness and contentment are states of mind that we have the ability to enter at will. I have learned that when I feel love I cannot be afraid, or furious, or despairing - but rather, my heart is full of the wonders of my life, the gratitude that I have loving family, the precious body God has given me. And I have learned that I can develop a mindset that will allow me to experience heaven to its fullest glorious perfection. And not take any of it for granted.
I love my healthy body and I can only imagine how wonderful it would be to be free of the imperfections still rampant in my mortal body. It has become another motivation to strive to be worthy - to improve myself as much as I may so that I can see and experience the future miracles God will place in my life.
As you might know I've been struggling with health issues for quite some time and then this winter I feel like I've been sick for several months straight. The aftermath of several different colds brought my body down to the lows I felt when I had Chronic Fatigue. It was stressful, depressing, and really hard for me to deal with. But these last couple of days I've been dancing as I go about my duties. The affirmation that I have a body that can do remarkable things has filled my head with so much gratitude that I sometimes feel like crying when I do dishes, or vacuum, or play with Samuel - because I can do those things. I am so grateful that I am currently living and experiencing my life with a mind that is free of pain and fatigue.
I am feeling so hugely blessed, in part, because I know that God was with me when I was sick. When I contemplated Him, I was able to see my life as productive and meaningful. I was able to enjoy what I had and rejoice in it. My expanded blessings now make me look toward the future and the greater capacity to enjoy the love of my family, the wonders of the world, and the perfect health that God will give to me in my resurrected body. I want to be worthy of such blessings and I want to have the kind of mind that will appreciate all that He will make of me.
Suffering and the task of trying to be cheerful while in suffering has taught me that happiness and contentment are states of mind that we have the ability to enter at will. I have learned that when I feel love I cannot be afraid, or furious, or despairing - but rather, my heart is full of the wonders of my life, the gratitude that I have loving family, the precious body God has given me. And I have learned that I can develop a mindset that will allow me to experience heaven to its fullest glorious perfection. And not take any of it for granted.
I love my healthy body and I can only imagine how wonderful it would be to be free of the imperfections still rampant in my mortal body. It has become another motivation to strive to be worthy - to improve myself as much as I may so that I can see and experience the future miracles God will place in my life.
