100th

It's the 100th post of my blog and also the last post of 2009.
Haha such a coincidence.

Yea indeed I went through a lot of ups and downs this year. A lot of turning points and it forces me to grow up. In this year, I started my first job as kindergarten teacher. Although not really long but I do enjoy the working environment and I love those kids. I miss those time when I am teaching in class and they are playing or fooling around, they share their food with me or give me some really nice biscuit or candy, telling me all the cute stuff that happen around them. It's really sweet of them and I really enjoy myself with this bunch of 4 years old kids. Haha I miss Jewel and Marcus now :)

My dream to further my study in UK finally came true. I went through a lot of hassles from searching for university, a suitable accommodation, flight ticket, visa and lots of tiny winy things that sometime will makes me go crazy. Anyway, I am here in Newcastle writing this post. I have to leave my love one back in Msia and come all the way to this country for years. It's definitely not easy but I think it will be a challenge for myself. I believe I will surely gain and learn something from it and yea I want to achieve my goal.. at least get a 2.1 to get into clinical psy. Sometime it's really hard to achieve what I want, but yea I'm still that one who trying so hard to get what she want since she was young because this is what I really want.

Sometime I don't really know how to handle my relationship with friends. Haha or maybe I just sucks in this. Just want to apologize if I hurt you in any way this year. I really appreciate the friendship between me and my friends although we are so far away from each other. Those in Segamat, KL, Aus and some of them are in UK right now. Sorry if I don't really get to keep in touch with you guys. You know la hhaha I always don't reply the message in msn. Forgive me for that cause sometime I really busy and don't get to reply it on time. Keep in touch for the coming years ya.

For you, I really thank god for you and make me met you in my life. This year marks the first year we been together and I really appreciate it. Though sometime we have to face some challenges, like now we are having ldr. But, I believe this is a chance to make us grow stronger together and understand each other more. Just want to tell you I really cherish and treasure this relationship. What happen back in 2008 can be the most beautiful thing that happen in my life. Never thought will meet you back on valentine, never thought will get closer to you, never thought we will be like what we are now right now haha. I miss every moment we spent together when I'm still in Msia. I will be back soon and really can't wait to see you. Have a greater year ahead and... three words, eight letters ♥

Apart from my family also not that easy for me. Living alone at a different city is not new for me, but living alone at a different country is definitely hard. I have to do everything by myself from buy groceries till do laundry and I have to cook myself. All this can really makes me grow and be more independent. Haha I really miss my grandma's home cook food and little liang liang. And my room in Segamat.

There are indeed a lot of changes in this year, both good and bad. All these things happen for a reason and I believe it makes me who I am now and I thank God for all these :)

Happy New Year everyone!
Have a blessed and great year ahead :)

sevol

Won't have chance to go online for quite some time then because I will be off to Italy.
That's means I can't see you for sooo long :(
I'll definitely miss you lots
♥♥♥

Edinburgh, Scotland

话说以前常常会想世界上真的会有像童话故事里那样

满是城堡的地方吗
长大之后 我真的觉得童话故事都是拿来骗小孩的

可是 当我到了爱丁堡之后
我真的怀疑童话故事是不是都是从这边拿灵感的
它真的是被城堡包围着
让我觉得天啊 我是不是会在这里就遇到了传说中的白马王子

到了爱丁堡 天都暗了
我和哥哥去了附近的圣诞市场
很漂亮 有摩天轮 旋转木马
可是 天气那么冷 还有人要做摩天轮吹冷风
真不明白那些外国人在想什么 呵呵

是不是很想童话故事里的城堡？
我真的怀疑有王子和公主住在里面

人山人海的Christmas market
这里什么都卖 吃的喝的玩的摆的
统统都有
当天还飘着细雪 冷风飕飕

这时候来杯热巧克力加酒真的太好了
这杯饮料虽然蛮贵的 但是真的很赞

终于
终于让我亲眼看到了穿着裙子吹bagpipe的苏格兰人
他们说阿 裙子里什么都没穿
哈哈 我才不相信
本小姐穿了三双的裤袜都觉得冷
你没穿？哈哈我不信

铺满了雪的屋顶是不是很可爱？
我觉得很像ginger bread house :)

下雪爬山是一件很危险的事
路非常地滑 走每一步路都得小心翼翼
我就差点滑到了几次
没法咯 唯一能做的是一边骂一边爬

Calton Hill 的景色真的很漂亮
看到远处的雪山 我兴奋得不得了
长这么大 从来没看过那么漂亮的景色
一望无际的海 很多很多的雪山
真的漂亮到笔墨难以形容
真的没夸张的 那种兴奋与震撼我到现在还记得

Edinburgh Castle 的门票贵到有一点不值得
但是 那个view 很赞

West Princess Street Garden
满地白雪　很梦幻

The Elephant House, Birthplace of Harry Potter
喝了杯莫卡　心暖呼呼的

St. Giles Catheral
很漂亮的教堂

他们说　
在中间吐痰　
好运就会一直来
所以
我第一次　当众吐痰

爱丁堡的特色之一
到处都是小巷　他们叫close

Scott's Monument
整个爱丁堡　我最喜欢的建筑物
漂亮到.... 很漂亮
哈哈

回到纽卡索时
啊　下大雪！
超开心　第一场那么大的雪
为爱丁堡之旅画下很漂亮的句点

[171209-191209]

santa claus is coming to town

Merry Christmas everyone!!
It's my first time celebrate christmas oversea and it's my first white christmas too :) It's snowing this morning and it really makes me feel like very winter-ish christmas hehe.
I've been quite lazy for these few days but yea it's holiday so can chill abit. Going to do my last assign soon and I will be off to Italy baby!
Can't wait :)
Ohya.. and Boxing Day! :)))

Merry Christmas to those at Msia and UK.
Have a blessed Christmas with your love one and Happy New Year!

p/s: it's so sweet to have you with me during this Christmas, celebrating in our own way. Loves.

Back to the Geordieland

I am back from Edinburgh, Scotland yo!
It's really pretty there and the scenery was breathtaking.
I will never forget what I saw on the top of Calton Hill and Edinburgh Castle.
Sooo beautiful and it's like I only can see this kind of view in the movie.
Will update more details about the trip soon :)

p/s: It's snowing in Newcastle and Edinburgh.. Sooo pretty :))

yay

Hahahaha finally!!
I am done with the assignments and yay it's holiday!
3 weeks of winter break baybeh :))

Bro was here for few days already. Been to few places but too bad the weather was not that good these few days. It keeps raining and weather forecast stated it might snow this week. Haha can't wait can't wait. Everywhere in UK is snowing now except Newcastle. So disappointed. I want snow!

I will be off to Edinburgh for 3 days after I hand in my assignment later. Woo heard that there are a lot of events going on in Edinburgh now. Hope it will be nice and fun :)

I shall update more soon.
Happy holiday bpsych-ian!
Till then..

I miss home

Something happened back in Msia and I felt sad after heard that.
But no one can change it and we have to learn to accept.
I just pray those who involved can handle this well.. somehow the kids are still young and I felt heart pain see them like this.
Can't do anything much on it but anyway the whole family is still here.
Family is the only one who will stand beside you and give you the full support no matter what.
So, don't fear.

Mum and dad called me and haha they made my day.
The dad is super funny and keep telling me those funny little stuff happened back there. He said he missed me so much and felt like crying and I was like wth hahahahha. Sigh.. it makes me miss home a lil bit more.
Guess I'm still a very family person after all.

Talked to harnie yesterday night and she said she miss home so much because she just got her parcel from her mum, my aunt.
Then she needs to talk to someone from the family and yea so we chat.
No worries harn.. you will see me real soon.
Few more weeks k. Haha must share share your rocky with me! :)

The bro is here tomorrow and he said he will cook every meal for me.
Okay let's see how it goes.

Can't wait to finish my bloody assignments..!!
Grrr...

有时候

有时候 一些东西表面看起来很完美
其实 里面可能已经腐烂 很难看

有时候 人一直埋怨说没人了解他对他好
但他又没有想过 自己用了什么态度在对别人

有时候 以为当做什么事都没发生 就算了了件事
但是 伤痕已近深深地烙印在心里

有时候 对一个人一件事的期望太大太高
事不如愿 那种痛 无法形容

有时候 一直以为会在某限期内达到的目标
其实 因为种种原因 也可以让那个雄心壮志的心变成什么都不是

有时候 你一直相信一直以为存在的东西
其实并不存在 那叫发梦 幻想

有时候 你绝望一直觉得整个世界没希望了
但 请相信 有一种东西叫奇迹

有时候 当事情真的去到最糟糕的境界了
记得 回到你最爱的人身边
家 还是你的避风港

有时候 当一个人连家人爱人朋友都没有
对 有些可悲
但 不要放弃 因为你还可以自己闯出一片天
要努力地活着

有时候 当一个人在最困难的时候
往往能激发那人性要求生存的本能 创造更亮眼的成绩

有时候 累到连自己姓什么都忘记了
庆幸还有一个人戴着耳机透过视讯对你说加油爱你

有时候 你觉得这份报告怎么那么难写
请记得 它占了50% 或是该死的100%
所以 无论如何 死都要死出一份来

在这个十分难熬的关键时刻
加油咯
有时候 知足也是一种幸福

我心中尚未崩坏的地方

醒在陌生的地方 镜头变成了刀枪 耳语也变成了真相
吉他告别了肩膀 诗人弃守了边疆 我们活在巨大片厂
幸运的孩子 爬上了殿堂 成果代价都要品嚐
单纯的孩子 是否变了样 跟着游戏规则学着成长

轰轰烈烈的排行 沸沸扬扬的颁奬 跟着节奏我常迷惘
当人心变成市场 当市场变成战场 战场埋葬多少理想
回想着理想 稀薄的希望 走着钢索我的刚强
伟大和伪装 灰尘或辉煌
那是一线之隔 或是一线曙光

每个孤单天亮 我都一个人唱 默默的让着旋律 和我心交响
就算会有一天 没人与我合唱 至少在我的心中 还有个尚未崩坏的地方

歌手追逐销售量 记者追逐点击量 没有谁比谁更善良
无论天后或天王 无论小兵或老将 曲终人散都要苍凉
期待着彩虹 所以开了窗 窗外只有灼热闪光
所谓的彩虹 不过就是光 只要心还透明 就能折射希望

每个孤单天亮 我都一个人唱 默默的让着旋律 和我心交响
就算会有一天 没人与我合唱 至少在我的心中 还有个尚未崩坏的地方

其实我们都一模一样 无名却充满了莫名渴望 一生等一次发光
宁愿重伤也不愿悲伤 让伤痕变成了我的徽章 刺在我心脏 永远不忘

... 默默的让着旋律 和我心交响
... 至少在我的心中 自己为自己鼓掌

每个孤独天亮 我都一个人唱 默默的让着旋律 和我心交响
就算会有一天 没人与我合唱 至少在我的心中 还有个尚未崩坏的地方

孩子一样
不肯腐烂的土壤

Pull through

The lecturer just did some revision with us.
We need to provide references in our exam.
That's means I have to memorize all the names and year.
Tell me, how cool is that?
I'm sooo tired.
So sick of assignments.
:(

冬

我在英国的第一道彩虹 :)
超深超长颜色超明显
最近一直下雨
也是因为这样
雨过天晴 所以才有彩虹

其实有两道哦
另一道比较浅的彩虹在上面
看着这样的天空
超开心

最近这里冷到只要轻轻呼吸嘴巴就会像恐龙那样喷气
零下两度
快要下雪了吗？哈哈
每天出去都把自己包得紧紧的
手套围巾大衣都不能缺
以前都会幻想如果在又四季的国家生活应该很酷
冬天有雪耶 不开心都难
经历人生中第一个冬天后
你就会觉得一点都不酷
我只想购买一个礼拜的粮食
然后躲在家里冬眠
不要出去体验那种鼻子冷到红红手指甲冻得变紫色寒风刺骨的感觉

很悬疑的树，树上挂满了鞋子

上个星期心情有点低
对了某人发了很大的脾气
我知道某程度上伤害了你
对不起
无论怎样无理取闹 你都不会骂我
让我冷静下来后 才关心发生什么事
这一点 我很珍惜

那天拿了第一份报告的成绩
说真的 很失望
但至少知道自己的不足在哪里
就提醒自己别在手上的报告再次犯同样的错
现在手上还有两份作业
加油咯
幸亏终于煲完了宫心计
不然每天忙着看戏 懒惰写报告
呵呵

又是新的一个月了
好快
零九年的最后一个月
年头定下的愿望或要做的事情
如果还没完成就要趁早咯
我呢
哈哈 我要去旅行！

倒数两个星期 :)

A little bit here and there

I've been eating quite a lot recently.
The cold weather makes me feel like eating more.
Haha yea just so you know food can produce heat and it makes me feel warm.
Nah.. excuses. haha.
You can find lots of snacks or lap sap food in my room.
I tell you, choc digestive biscuit is soooo addictive... oreo as well.
I love oreo so much, and it goes so well with milk.
Just bought myself 1 huge pack of Walkers that contains 26 small packs inside. So fattening I know, but I still bought it. Sigh..
I need to control myself.. if not you will see a double me when I go back.
Oh ya I had my first maggie mee here in UK today.
I bought the maggie instant noodle at Chinatown and it cost 30p per pack. It consider ok for here but if convert the price then you will feel not worth it. Who said the maggie mee here is different compare to Msia one. It tastes the same for me haha. I tell you it taste damn nice and I feel like I'm in Msia when I had it. They sell Milo here as well but it's sooooo exp. Don't feel like spending on it because I can get very nice hot choc here and it's cheap :)

Time flies ey..
My brother will be here in 2 weeks time.
Semester 1 end in 3 weeks time.
Going to Bristol and Italy in 4 weeks time!! :)))
Then I will going to be a year 2 sem 2 student on Jan.
Soooo fast.

For me, psychology is getting more interesting and fun.
Yea I still struggling in assignments most of the time and sometime I still skip classes, especially the Biopsych class.
But, it's fun when you read those journal and find out wa this can be related to that and it makes human behave like that.
Mmm.. interesting.
Feel so glad that I'm studying what I want and major in psych had been a dream for me since young. Hopefully I can get a job that related to clinical or child psych in the future then I will be sooo happy and hahaha for everyday :)
For sure, I want to continue my post-grad study after degree. Undergraduate for psych is definitely not sufficient enough to get a job in the field, except being a lecturer in foundation courses. Maybe I should think about it though lol.

I've been thinking of something for quite some time.
Yea still can't really figure it out yet but I'm still trying my best.
It's kinda sad when things can't seems to goes in the way I want but you know not everything tend to happen in the way we want to be.
So, I will take it as a chance to learn, like what he told me.
Try to take it easy and humble myself to learn is what I need to do now.

Haha maybe the thing I need to do at the moment is my assignments.
3 more to go and I have to finish everything before my brother is here so that I can go lepak or jalan-jalan with him.
Hopefully my 'determination' is stronger than the 'procrastination'.
*finger cross*

Oh ya.. I changed my header.
I love it, do you? hehe.
It's about those people and things that I treasure and cherish in my life.
But I left out some of them because can't really fit everything inside.

Oh the Segamatians are organizing a gathering at my best friend's house.
I am jealous because I can't attend.
It's alright.. I believe it sure will be a chance for us to meet again.
Thanks Ja for calling me that day.. yea it's kinda long ago.
I appreciate it a lot. I hope it won't cause you a bomb for your phone bill hehe.
Btw I know a secret haha. I won't let others know because the person say don't tell. Anyway congrats mate! I am happy for you. Finally huh..
Hope you will be happy and enjoy your life with ahem. hehe.

I've been missing my friend back there so much.
Get to talk to some long lost friend and glad that they are doing fine at another corner of the world. Sometime it makes me believe that those high school friendship will last longer.
Most of my buddies are those high school friends. Eventhough we didn't really meet up that much but we still have lots of things to talk about. They are still understand me well and always ready to help me when I need them. Maybe all from small town and we have been knowing each other since primary school or even kindergarten. Growing up together till secondary school and we were sharing lots of memories together.
I feel so good to have those friends since young and we are still keep in touch now eventhough we are studying in different places. Actually quite a number of them though. Those in Aussie, Melaka, Ipoh, Sarawak or KL. Haha you know who you are la :)

Hehe don't intend to post this long.
But I feel good to express myself here through words than typing out all the psych term in the microsoft word sheet.
Anyway, have a great holiday for friends back there.

:)

distance kills.

It's kinda random I know
But all of a sudden
I miss you so much
so so much
and how I wish you are here to give me a hug
a tight and long one

Good news

My older bro called me today and told me that he going back to Malaysia on end of January for holiday! I tell you I damn envious.. super envious! But I felt happy and excited for him in the same time. Imagine you are away from your home for 2 years plus and now it's the time to go back. Excited ehh.. I can't imagine if I stay away from home for such a long period without going back once. I will be damn homesick by then.

Aiyo damn jealous la he can go back for CNY although he will be back to UK after that. But I think 1 month plus is more than enough already. Super nice la he can travel non stop before go back. Newcastle, Edinburgh, Italy then home! But I am kinda looking forward to travel with him to Edinburgh next month.. oh yea the day I hand in my last assignment will be the day I go travelling! Can't wait for that eh. Hahaha.. Work hard and earn more money gor! hehe :)

I miss liang liang so much. My bro going to see him and I am jealous. Take more pics of him and show me when you come back to UK. I heard that he can walk so well now and even know how to run already. He definitely looks cute when running with the cute smile on his face. Hope he won't cry when he see you since he never see this da gor gor before haha.

Okay. I shall stop dreaming on this already.
Back to assignment. Till then.. :)

I wish I know how to do it

This is the cartoon pic of my lecturer of advanced research methodology, Chris Dracup. He showed us this pic when he gave us the assignment, said that all of us will draw him like this because we will be freaking stress. Haha yea I am in fact stress with the stats assignment now.

All the statistic term is like alien word to me. Oh I need a lot of wisdom for this. I got to hand it in on Thursday and look! what I had done so far, not much ey :( Sad. I want to get rid of this asap. I am not a person that good in Maths. I choose Psych as major because I suppose I won't be touching any Maths for this major but I AM WRONG! I took Research Method since 1st year till now :(

Oh God I need wisdom.. lots of them, please.

14th

continue counting the blessing
three words, eight letters
♥♥♥

dear diary

The weather today is great.. not so windy but cooling.
I went out shopping alone.. yea alone.
When I was still in KL, I can't go out alone just like that. Can't eat alone, shop alone. If really have to eat but I'm alone, then I rather just tabao the food and eat it at home. I felt weird doing things alone myself, except driving la haha. But I am fine with that here. I don't know why, I feel quite comfortable going out alone now. Maybe it's safer here. No snatch thieves, no mat rempit, no one will kacau you here hehe. Went to some book shop to read some book, got myself a jacket, stop by at the roadside to look at the street performance, bought my favourite pastry from Greggs. I enjoyed doing all this now. Oh ya the christmas decoration on the street is really beautiful. The chirstmas songs they played sounds very lovely and peaceful.

Thanks dear that accompany me whole night. I really need it that time. Sometime it's just over my limit and I have to let it out. Cried it out loud makes me feel so much better. I am glad that you are there for me during all the seasons. I felt so so so much better now and ready for the new challenges :) Loves.

I received a long long long message from zoe. Oh I miss you lots girl! A lot a lot. I know you will be reading this. Stay strong k.. I know you are strong. You know sometime things just can't goes in the way we want it to be. I know it hurts but just pull through this hard time. I know you can handle it. I miss you so much wei. I miss those time when five of us sleep together in a double bed and chat whole night. Argh.. how I wish I am back there now. Stay strong k darling. You know I will always be here for you. Just send me message or email whenever you need someone to talk. I will definitely reply you. Hugsssss..

I was browsing through some foodblog. Oh I miss food in Msia. I will eat all I can if I back there. Ramli burger, satay, Japanese food, asam laksa, fried kueyteow, pan mee, CHAR SIEW, grill chicken wings, hokkien mee, lobak, claypot chicken rice, segamat wantan mee, Domino pepperoni pizza, Bbq plaza, maggi mee goreng, roti telur, tandoori chicken and the list keep going on haha. Argh I miss those food ah. I don't think I am geng enough to cook those the food hehe. Can't even find the ingredients here haha so pathetic. I miss those time I go makan with him in KL. Promise me you will bring me for those food when I go back. I want it all! hahaha..

Tomorrow will be the last day of my one week break. It supposes to be our enhancement week to do our assignments and do more reading in this week. Oh yea I did nothing except sleep, eat and watch series. I shall start my assignments real soon. Haha pray that I will be more hardworking start from next week. No more procrastinating!

6 more weeks to go and it will be my winter holiday :))

忽冷忽热

最近的天气变化大得可以
早上天阴阴的 心想又是一个雨天
只差是绵绵细雨还是小雨
倾盆大雨 想都别想 纽卡索没这一回事

好了 结果放课出来
大太阳耶 大得眼睛都睁不开了
头低低走路还撞到路人

结果晚上冷得把暖气开至最大了
房间还是冷得好像只有5度罢了
手脚冰冷到连呆在电脑前都想戴手套

天呀 你是要我怎样

睡觉时整个人躲在棉被里
不让肌肤吹到冷风 即使一小寸都不能
结果整晚就跟那张棉被不得空
搞得睡不好 落枕了好几个晚上

今天被冷风冷醒了
是的 又落枕
结果 下午三点半的现在又来一个风光明媚阳光灿烂到一个不行

忽冷忽热 挺好的 也挺坏的

wth.

I hate you.
Please use your brain before you take an action.
Damn mad I tell you. Damn mad!
Wth. I damn hate you.

♥

I didn't say it out but you can feel it
... and you are thousand miles away from me.
Is this call telepathy?
haha I guess so :)

Partners and Marriage

I read this article from somewhere and I found that it's really a good piece. It's talking about how a healthy relationship should be. It's a bit lengthy but every word is worth to read :)

PARTNERS AND MARRIAGE

By Eduardo Jose E. Calasanz

I have never met a man who didn’t want to be loved. But I have seldom met a man who didn’t fear marriage. Something about the closure seems constricting, not enabling. Marriage seems easier to understand for what it cuts out of our lives than for what it makes possible within our lives.

When I was younger this fear immobilized me. I did not want to make a mistake. I saw my friends get married for reasons of social acceptability, or sexual fever, or just because they thought it was the logical thing to do. Then I watched, as they and their partners became embittered and petty in their dealings with each other. I looked at older couples and saw, at best, mutual toleration of each other. I imagined a lifetime of loveless nights and bickering and could not imagine subjecting myself or someone else to such a fate.

And yet, on rare occasions, I would see old couples who somehow seemed to glow in each other’s presence. They seemed really in love, not just dependent upon each other and tolerant of each other’s foibles. It was an astounding sight, and it seemed possible. How, I asked myself, can they have survived so many years of sameness, so much irritation at the others habits? What keeps love alive in them, when most of us seem unable to even stay together, much less love each other?

The central secret seems to be in choosing well. There is something to the claim of fundamental compatibility. Good people can create a bad relationship, even though they both dearly want the relationship to succeed.

It is important to find someone with whom you can create a good relationship from the outset. Unfortunately, it is hard to see clearly in the early stages. Sexual hunger draws you to each other and colors the way you see yourselves together. It blinds you to the thousands of little things by which relationships eventually survive or fail. You need to find a way to see beyond this initial overwhelming sexual fascination. Some people choose to involve themselves sexually and ride out the most heated period of sexual attraction in order to see what is on the other side.

This can work, but it can also leave a trail of wounded hearts. Others deny the sexual side altogether in an attempt to get to know each other apart from their sexuality. But they cannot see clearly, because the presence of unfulfilled sexual desire looms so large that it keeps them from having any normal perception of what life would be like together.

The truly lucky people are the ones who manage to become long-time friends before they realize they are attracted to each other. They get to know each other’s laughs, passions, sadness, and fears. They see each other at their worst and at their best. They share time together before they get swept up into the entangling intimacy of their sexuality.

This is the ideal, but not often possible. If you fall under the spell of your sexual attraction immediately, you need to look beyond it for other keys to compatibility. One of these is laughter. Laughter tells you how much you will enjoy each others company over the long term.

If your laughter together is good and healthy and not at the expense of others, then you have a healthy relationship to the world. Laughter is the child of surprise. If you can make each other laugh, you can always surprise each other. And if you can always surprise each other, you can always keep the world around you new.

Beware of a relationship in which there is no laughter. Even the most intimate relationships based only on seriousness have a tendency to turn sour. Over time, sharing a common serious viewpoint on the world tends to turn you against those who do not share the same viewpoint, and your relationship can become based on being critical together.

After laughter, look for a partner who deals with the world in a way you respect. When two people first get together, they tend to see their relationship as existing only in the space between the two of them. They find each other endlessly fascinating, and the overwhelming power of the emotions they are sharing obscures the outside world. As the relationship ages and grows, the outside world becomes important again. If your partner treats people or circumstances in a way you can’t accept, you will eninevitably come to grief. Look at the way she cares for others and deals with the daily affairs of life. If that makes you love her more, your love will grow. If it does not, be careful. If you do not respect the way you each deal with the world around you, eventually the two of you will not respect each other.

Look also at how your partner confronts the mysteries of life. We live on the cusp of poetry and practicality, and the real life of the heart resides in the poetic. If one of you is deeply affected by the mystery of the unseen in life and relationships, while the other is drawn only to the literal and the practical, you must take care that the distance does not become an unbridgeable gap that leaves you each feeling isolated and misunderstood.

There are many other keys, but you must find them by yourself. We all have unchangeable parts of our hearts that we will not betray and private commitments to a vision of life that we will not deny.

If you fall in love with someone who cannot nourish those inviolable parts of you, or if you cannot nourish them in her, you will find yourselves growing further apart until you live in separate worlds where you share the business of life, but never touch each other where the heart lives and dreams. From there it is only a small leap to the cataloging of petty hurts and daily failures that leaves so many couples bitter and unsatisfied with their mates.

So choose carefully and well. If you do, you will have chosen a partner with whom you can grow, and then the real miracle of marriage can take place in your hearts. I pick my words carefully when I speak of a miracle. But I think it is not too strong a word. There is a miracle in marriage. It is called transformation.

Transformation is one of the most common events of nature. The seed becomes the flower. The cocoon becomes the butterfly. Winter becomes spring and love becomes a child. We never question these, because we see them around us every day. To us they are not miracles, though if we did not know them they would be impossible to believe.

Marriage is a transformation we choose to make. Our love is planted like a seed, and in time it begins to flower. We cannot know the flower that will blossom, but we can be sure that a bloom will come.

If you have chosen carefully and wisely, the bloom will be good. If you have chosen poorly or for the wrong reason, the bloom will be flawed. We are quite willing to accept the reality of negative transformation in a marriage. It was negative transformation that always had me terrified of the bitter marriages that I feared when I was younger. It never occurred to me to question the dark miracle that transformed love into harshness and bitterness. Yet I was unable to accept the possibility that the first heat of love could be transformed into something positive that was actually deeper and more meaningful than the heat of fresh passion. All I could believe in was the power of this passion and the fear that when it cooled I would be left with something lesser and bitter.

But there is positive transformation as well. Like negative transformation, it results from a slow accretion of little things. But instead of death by a thousand blows, it is growth by a thousand touches of love. Two histories intermingle. Two separate beings, two separate presence, two separate consciousness come together and share a view of life that passes before them. They remain separate, but they also become one.

There is an expansion of awareness, not a closure and a constriction, as I had once feared. This is not to say that there is not tension and there are not traps. Tension and traps are part of every choice of life, from celibate to monogamous to having multiple lovers.. Each choice contains within it the lingering doubt that the road not taken is somehow more fruitful and exciting, and each becomes dulled to the richness that it alone contains.

But only marriage allows life to deepen and expand and be leavened by the knowledge that two have chosen, against all odds, to become one. Those who live together without marriage can know the pleasure of shared company, but there is a specific gravity in the marriage commitment that deepens that experience into something richer and more complex.

So do not fear marriage, just as you should not rush into it for the wrong reasons. It is an act of faith and it contains within it the power of transformation. If you believe in your heart that you have found someone with whom you are able to grow, if you have sufficient faith that you can resist the endless attraction of the road not taken and the partner not chosen, if you have the strength of heart to embrace the cycles and seasons that your love will experience, then you may be ready to seek the miracle that marriage offers. If not, then wait. The easy grace of a marriage well made is worth your patience. When the time comes, a thousand flowers will bloom…endlessly.

Apa itu daylight saving

The daylight saving starts today!
That means the difference between Malaysia and UK is 8 hours now. Sigh.. I am sad.
It's like the distance with Malaysia is further now.
So, I will gain one more hour tonight or in another say there is 25 hours today.
But, what's the point?
Oh yea.. I have one extra hour to read the journal :(

Stressss

Argh!! I am stress.
Life is full with assignments now.
Lots of extra classes to attend, lots of meetings with tutor.
After finish this assignment, the next one will be due soon.
Sigh... It's week 5 already. Soooooo fast.
I have to pass up my social and development psy assign by next week. Then advanced research methods psy on W9, memory and learning on W11, eating disorder and individual differences both due together on W13.
From the timetable, I know I have to do my assignments continuously till the last day of the semester. Crazy wei.. I am so looking forward for the Christmas break now. Wohoo holiday! Haha..
Anyway, I should stop slacking and procrastinating now.
Back to assignment..
Ciaoz

秋

天气愈来愈冷
近乎所有的树叶都转黄了
地上的落叶也越来越多
秋天 到了

是不是秋天到了
所以心情也有点蓝蓝的
报告下星期就截止了
但 为什么我一点都不觉得紧张
每天就在做一些有的没的

还有
那个可以上网的手机真的是害人不浅
看youtube竟然比我的电脑还要快
你说我能不上瘾吗

我真的怀疑我上辈子是不是一只熊
冬天一到 就冬眠去了
现在这种天气 我已经开始有冬眠的征兆了
睡眠时间占据了大部分的时间
在这样下去 真的不行

拜托
我需要一些动力
让我完成我的报告
毕竟交了这份后
还有五份排队等着我
我真的需要动力

拜托！

quotes

Helen Keller said :
"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched.
They must be felt with the heart."

Yea I felt it :)

31 days

I already been here in UK for one month. Yea time flies. But there was a lot of ups and downs and lots of things happened in this month and somehow it makes me feel like omg why so long. Many dramatic things happened recently. It was really sad and shocked but yea life still goes on. So mates, let's move on! Tomorrow will be a better day :)

Uni is alright and I already got my first assignment. It's easier if compare to those we did at HELP. I think those who under Ms. Winnie at HELP will kill us after they knew how our lecturer prepared everything for us regarding the research thingy. Haha the lecturer prepared everything for us included the questionnaire. No need to go through the bloody ethic review board, no mock presentation, no need to do experiment in the lab, no research colloquium. It's much easier compare to the procedure we have to go through at HELP. Should I say I am lucky to be here? hehe I really hope I can get good grade in my assignment. I want to score high.

The weather here is crazy. There was once I was walking against the icy wind, and then its too windy until I felt like the wind are pushing me to walk. The weather are too cold until my hand and ear are numb. I seriously miss the weather in Malaysia. I miss the hot hot sun.

I miss you.

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

If I had to live my life without you near me

The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead a way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Khalil fong's version, damn nice :)

无意

说话是一种艺术
有时候说错话或会错意
对不起
我真的不是故意的

夜

电视播映着我不感兴趣的烹饪节目
窗外雾雾的 大概是今天下雨的关系吧

冷风阵阵 还是马来西亚的天气好

环境怎么好人怎么友善 毕竟还是身在异乡 一点家的感觉都没有

嗯 勉强来说 唐人街那间天天茶餐室或许能够让我觉得有些许的温暖

这里没有ramli burger 没有嘛嘛挡 沙爹更不用说

那天翻了翻他给我的相本 看着看着就这样哭了

原来 几张相片能够让我哭成那样

夜 没有家人 没有他 没有我习惯的天气

只有 一个人对着电脑写心情

敬，流浪

吴子云他说
爱情是happened，感情是built。
还有我也认同
写诗，是一种最美丽的说话方式。

我的爱在吉隆坡

Lotsa love

I am so so so happy for what had happen today.

Seriously I am so happy for you my darling.

You are back haha you are back.

I am so proud of you and yea Thank God!

I feel glad with what you doing right now and yea finally you can have a good rest hehe.

Rest well my dear

♥ ♥ ♥

崩溃

原来是这么一回事

很痛 很辛苦 完全不能呼吸

经历后得到的一定更多

至少我相信

:)

blessed

Life had been great so far. I am really happy and satisfied with what I am having now. Thank God for answering my prayer. I realised that the thing I always longed for is just that simple. I only need that kind of happiness and it really make my smile :) Thanks a lot and you know who you are ♥

坚持

坚持自己认为值得的事情

做了决定就绝不放弃

Life so far

I already been here for 1 week. Omg its like so slow haha. I am happy when I can chat with my mum, bro, friends and him :) it really makes me happy, very happy. I am quite used to the life here alrd, but yea not the weather yet. It's really really cold and I miss the sun in Malaysia so much. I miss Redang :(

Class going to start next week and I am kinda excited about it. I met some lecturer in my Psych department and they are really really friendly, especially my program leader. He is so helpful and I really feel glad that we have really great lecturer here.

We started to cook our meal here already. Haha although all of us didn't cook much when back in Malaysia, but the dishes we cooked are quite delicious haha. We cooked red bean soup and some chinese dishes. Haha I will learn more and hopefully I can cook well after 2 years of practice here hehe.

I really miss home. Mummy said liang liang know how to walk already. I miss him so much. But it's alright, I will enjoy my life here :)

=)

I am very happy now.

:)))

I hate it

Omg since when I become so sensitive and weak?

Tears drop non-stop when I think of something or even listen to certain songs.

I really need to stay strong here. I have to be independent.

The story

Broken dreams, broken dreams, hopin' some day you'll see me.
Sky is gray, sky is gray, but I'm dancin in the rain.
Live to sway, live to sway, will you remember my name?
Live a lie, live a lie, why don't you ask yourself why?

Don't you open your eyes?

Only the moon, only the moon, only the moon, will hear my plea.
Only the creatures of the night, will harmonize with me.
Missed you so, missed you so, and I wondered if you know;
The wind has blown me in this corner and it's hard to let go.

That's the story,
that's the story of you and me

That's the story,
that's the story of you and me

Challenge

There were a lot of ups and downs during this week. I only been here for 5 days, but I felt like I already here for many many weeks. It's very tiring to make sure things that important have to be done. Walking for so long just to get the groceries then walking back with all the heavy bags, have to buy whatever I need before 5pm since the shops all close on that time, clean my room, cook the meal, going for induction, looking at the uni map to find out where is the classroom and etc. I can't sleep well here, I can only sleep for 5-6 hours per day. It's getting colder day by day. They said there are no 4 season in Newcastle, there is only winter here. haha so you know how cold is here hehe.

I know this is the transition period, we have to face a lot of changes. Last time we used to do something together, but not now anymore. We used to talk on phone a lot when back in Msia, but not so frequent now anymore. I hope we can cope with all this changes. I know we can go through all these challenges together. We can be sad and cry, but just for a short period. After this we have to move on. No worries, everything will be fine :)

I think I really need to stay at home alone for a day just to do my stuff. Online, read some books, clean my room or just lie under my comfortable duvet. I want to rest.

First post from Newcastle

HELLO EVERYONE!!

I am safely arrived in Newcastle after the 16 hours torturing flight. I tell you Emirates really sucks. The seat is hard and they don't even have the paddle to put your leg for every seat. I felt so uncomfortable along the journey. Somehow I just sleep all the way, haha I even miss out the meal.

The moment I reached Newcastle International Airport, the first thing came into my mind is my luggage. My hand carry is super heavy already, the big luggage is super super super heavy. I got blue black on my arms now because of that heavy luggage. Sigh anyway, there were some representative from my university picked us up once we touched down Newcastle.

Newcastle is nice. Weather is great, the building around are really really beautiful, the flowers along the road bloom until its max. My accommodation is great, I have my own bathroom and the room is pretty big for me. University is huge but I don't have much time to walk around yet since I've been busy buying some bedding and other stuff. I felt really tired although I just been here for 2 days. Maybe still haven't fully settle down yet, lots of stuff have to be done really really soon =(

I'm homesick! When I stay alone in my room, I feel really lonely. I have the same feeling when I first staying at Hock Lee's. I felt so lonely and homesick and I cried. I miss D so so much. I just try to find a way to let him know I am safe here and everything is alright. Dear no worries I will try my best to adapt to the new environment. There were some bad things happened although I just been here for 2 days. I can't open my laptop! It stated there my OS and hard disk is corrupted so I can't open it. I was very worried about it but really thank God finally one of my friend help me to fix it.

I will try to upload my pics on facebook soon and for sure I will try to update more here. Life have been busy here. I hope I can quickly settle down and get everything done soon. Take care ya everyone back there. I really miss home and especially you. till then..

So long

Bye everyone. Bye Malaysia.

Take care yo.

I will definitely miss here.

1st

walk the road together for 1 year.

So many memories.

Sweet.Bitter.Romance.Arguments

All of these make us who we are

I am really glad and blessed to have you.

Loves.

Happy anniversary ♥

Foodie food

Ate lots of foodsss these few days.

All my favourite food.

Gaining weight but I'm satisfied :)

4 days.scary

好快

只剩一个星期了

时间 还真的不等人

气

有时真的会被一些人气到

你以为你在我心中很重要

重要到我难得回吉隆坡都一定要跟你见面

坦白说 我真的很忙

在那里短短几天但有很多事情要我办妥

我也想抽时间跟你这个好久不见的朋友见面

但有时候时间上不应许 我也没办法呀

为何要说那么难听的话中伤我

说我特地避开你 没当你是一回事

跟你道歉 换来的竟然是那种反应

算了

不要跟你这种人计较

反正你时常都会说这些没有经过大脑的话

拜托你说话时顾虑别人的感受

地球不是为了你一个人而转

They are here!

Last Thursday, Shing Yee,Daniel, Ken and Vincent came to visit me in Segamat. I really feel touched when they told me they going to visit me. At first I really thought they just saying but they really make it true. Haha drive all the way here leh make me feel so gam dong.

I informed them earlier that Segamat is a small town and it's kinda boring. But, luckily they just stayed here for 1 night. Basically, what they did here were eat and eat and eat.

First stop - Restaurant Long Fong

Before..

...after

Hehe hope you all like it :)


After dinner, we played bowling because not much entertainment here.


Then, we went back to my place to freshen up and we watched 'UP' with red wine we bought earlier. I don't have the wine opener so they had to use all kind of things just to open the wine. They were smart enough to use the spannar to open it and it's successful.


Red wine with mug? haha cheers!

Vincent's face is super red

Group pic :)

Next day, we had our breakfast at Nan Yang coffee shop.

Makan makan

Do you think that's all. We had wantan mee after our breakfast haha. Told you we ate a lot here although they were here no more than 24 hours. I follow their car back to KL after that. Few of us going to Cameron for camp. We had lots of fun when on the way back. Haha singing non-stop to keep the driver awake.

Vincent still singing haha.


I really had a great time with them. They are my first bunch of KL friends who come to visit me in my hometown. I really feel so touched and blessed to have them here. We shall visit some other places together when I come back from UK :)

lalala

Tomorrow!

They are coming tomorrow and I am excited about it :)

First time for them be here and hope they won't get lost on the way to Sgt.

Yay I am happy. Next stop will be Cameron :))

故事

每走过一个地方，就有一个故事。
主角只有两个人，背景就是正在下雪的天空，或是正在飘着的雨。

然后故事叠着故事，叠出一个厚度了，
许久之后再一次被翻动，就已经不叫做故事......

而是回忆了。

回忆之所以美好，是因为就算刻意再去重建，
也没办法跟原来的一样了。