This fool is through.

The only thing going through my mind is

but you promised.

Evidently I need to do a little more growing up,

a bit more talking, and try to live in the present.

Please.

*

You do know I hate being ignored.

I hope you're happy.

*

Mixtape number 1346918572.

*

Replay.

I didn't realise that you were cool until

Why do I do these things I do to myself?

Cause I can't fight.

Beautiful, intelligent, funny, self-assured, bold.

Awkward, forgotten.

I'll tell you everything.

I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions.

I won't be training with you guys anymore, how weird is that?

I'll miss you.

Eva got honked at in her Cheong Sum

when we were walking out of school yesterday!

I wore fishnets with mine for awhile,

and Cel happily counted the number of people who stared.

Hong Kong Cafe, and cartwheels on the Esplanade rooftop.
*

I finished the last ever Harry Potter at 3.45 p.m.
And I am in shock.

The BEST out of the seven I think.

Tell me if you wanna be spoiled!

I heart Severus Snape.

<3

*

[Gawwwwwd, I'm such a loser.

I tripped out of bed early to get the book when MPH opened at seven!]

I miss the times we laughed.

Over nothing at all.

Happy seventeenth Beatbeat!

Beat, Bry, Regina, Clara, Va, NSN, Tai.

Pasir Ris Park and mosquitoes and picnics.

Bras and vibrators and Clara & I were a fish.

Power rangers cake and sandwiches.

Xin Wang and the long bus 12 home.

*

I wished and blew out the lighter.

You don't need me anyway.

I'm in the business of misery.

I don't know how you feel about that
If you're sad, if you're mad, if you're glad.
But I do know the feeling of waiting and waiting and
falling so slowly.

I wanted to cry, but you cried enough for the both of us.

[As well as for the rest of the stadium.]

And at the end of this, I feel the same as I have felt

at the end of anything else.

[It's a horrible feeling.]

And I don't see you around, anymore.

[That sucks too.]

*

Cause everything's alright.

Just keep on saying

NOTHING'S OKAY, we've been lied to.

The better part of me is stolen, whenever you go.

Cover up, wrap your wrists in gauze

Fill your heart with cause

If it’s real or not

Empty.

And sometimes, alone.

But not quite, because I had CelCel today :D
And everything's just floating from my mind.

I don't know.
And when I see you again, it may just feel like this again.

*

And here's a random picture of the kids from the stupid National Day thing, cause Cel and I thought they looked like they were rioting and it was damn funny.

How about enough.

OVER AND OVER.

IT. IS. WEIRD. THAT. PEOPLE. WON'T. LET. ME.

BE.

*

I danced and I saw you around.

I'll tell you everything.

I'm missing Clarity and Flights of Fancy on slow days, during quiet nights.

And I miss you the most.

We'll walk into the dancehall.

If I wasn't so bored with your shit, your ass would be kicked up and down the stairs tomorrow. I find it laughable that you think that we don't know.
[Or maybe you think we are illiterate?]
*
Random thoughts are invading my head.
[Maybe because you're the only one there.
All I get are the crazies and the one that I DO want is always
gone.]

So no, I'm just being stupid.

And I wait cause I know I'm sure.

BUT, BABY!! had fun, we hope you did too!

Late nights aren't so carefree anymore.

[But I mean, is the night really complete without our parents calling us every five minutes?]

It ended with our usual place and cabbing home with

Shiang Nee's head on my shoulder.

Thanks Beatbeat, I love you.

And Bry, you are lovely <3

*
Sayonara Supergirl says:
hello!
Casablanca lillies strewn about the floor says:
hello hello !
Casablanca lillies strewn about the floor says:
you know i think i like the perfume tree song !
Sayonara Supergirl says:
HAHAH OMG NO
Sayonara Supergirl says:
HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA
Casablanca lillies strewn about the floor says:
its very nice !
Casablanca lillies strewn about the floor says:
its playing now
Casablanca lillies strewn about the floor says:
!

*

Your one sentence answers hurt me.

I thought I meant more to you.

I wonder what it would be like if you and I were still

we.

Fuck lah, I miss you.

[Why can't I just say that and the 1864715273 things that I want to say to you?]