Ai Sio Kan Mai!

Rock For Wayne.
It was so amazing, I could feel it.
The love, for music, for Wayne, for life.



I don't have videos of West Grand, Caracal and Astroninja cause I was too busy singing/dancing/moshing my little heart out.
[It's okay, it'll be out on DVD :D]


I was on a RFW high, but an all time low the next day ):

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THIS SATURDAY.
[I really wish you'd change your mind and come.]

Plays pretty for baby.

A day of random-ness and being happy.

Cara: Eh, CALL KEVINNN.

We haven't met up in over a year.

We sat on the rooftop and soaked up some rays.

Cara and I laughed like every fucking minute, NO YOU AREN'T BLOODY FAT LAH YOU IDIOT KEVIN.

Jeeze hahaha.

Lunch with Cara was lovely.

:D

She wears her crown on the inside.

I don't know why, at the end of two hours, we're always lying on the floor, tangled up in mic stands and guitar cables, with papers of printed lyrics and chords littered all around us.

We club to the sound of Bry's beatboxing, if doing the fingerpointing dance and spinning round and moshing can be called clubbing.

BUT, BABY!! we scream, KISS US!

Bry runs away screaming and hides behind the drum kit.

It's so fun, it makes me forget that I have to study and I'm upset, occasionally.

Beat and Clara: Taina is in angry girl mode!

I'M SUNBURNT AND THERE'S A LITTLE SQUARE OF LIGHT OVER MY STAR.

IT'S FUCKING WEIRD OH MY GOD.

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Hey, you surprised me today!

BUT, BABY!!

No, that isn't me.

[hahahhahahahhahahahahhahahaha]

No, please, don't change the colour of your eyes.

Hey I saw you from afar
And I need to let you know
That this is intense for me
Because you're beautiful.

YOU'RE NOT THAT GORGEOUS

Don't be shy to be yourself

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New camera (:

You have my attention, like you've had all the while.

I miss being tiny to you cause now I'm just tall to everyone.

Icky Thump

I puzzled over Jung, Heidegger and Freud and became utterly confused.
I balanced it out with a book on Christianity and some brain-numbing chick lit and a book on love. [with strangely scrawled inscriptions and illustrations!]

[I just realised I really miss What Happened To Lani Garver? .]

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Beatbeat and I and Esplanade rooftop and FUCKING NATIONAL FUCKING DAY PARADE, FUCK and icecream and going wheeeee on beat's skatescooter and nearly crashing and dying.

Rush together.

"He's an insensitive shit." She says, looking down at her nails.
I want to give her reassurance that she's pretty still, that her heart will heal.

One day.
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"She came up to me all, LIKE THIS. But I was like, VERY BIG and I PUSHED HER AWAY, LIKE THIS. HUHH!" She waves her arms around, demonstrating.
I want to tell her not to feel awkward, this will blow over.

And yes, love does exist.
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"I don't want you to turn out like me Tai. It's been a year and I'm still not over her."
She ends her message with a sad smiley. ):
I want to tell her that sometimes I think I won't ever get over it, because I don't really want to.

And maybe she doesn't either?
*

And I want to tell you that

Haha, my god, I still have that problem, don't I?

I'm a sucker for a kind word

Yeah, Lifen, Lydia and I ate all that during our steamboat date.
As you can tell, I was appalled.
[Please ignore my retarded expression and marvel at the food]

When Paula sparks.

No I've never felt so alive.

But I kind of wish feeling alive didn't require me getting punched in the face and decked by the flying limbs of fat boys trying to bodysurf.

No, thank you.

Summer wind was always our song.

And i'm thinking of the night we met.

All these nights are a blur
and these days, they're too bright
I can't recall last week, or yesterday,
or five minutes ago.
I think I was holding your hand
Or maybe that was last year
Or never.

I don't remember
I don't feel
I don't know

But I still think we'll be fine
if you promise to lie to me
once in awhile.