Synthetic Sensation

Me, you, and my medication



I wash these down with H-TWO-O, don't worry.

I'm giving up my lounging-around-in-my-pjs-with-bedhair look tomorrow and going back to schooooool.
Oh I could die.
Apparently there are a ton of people who are puking all over.
WHAT'S GOING ONNNN!

*

FOB is playing in Singapore on March 3rd!

Stay up all night and sleep all day

Cause our days were numbered by nights
On too many rooftops
They said we're wasting our lives
But oh, at least we know
That if we die
We lived with passion
They said we'd burn so bright
We burn this city and go




I puked my guts out all saturday night/sunday morning.
Then the nice doctor gave me a jab in my side to stop me from throwing up.

I feel so awful but at least now I don't have my head stuck in a bucket/the toilet anymore.
My mother insists on making me eat bland porridge that I can barely stomach and drink copious amounts of H-TWO-O.

The sick girl doesn't get any breaks.
It's time to do my overdue chinese assignments now.

I GUESS IT'S OKAY I PUKED THE DAY AWAY.

Hey, Singapore won.

If you saw a girl puke all over herself outside Mandarin hotel tonight, that would be me.
I'm shivering like hell now.
I feel like fuckkkk.
):

Endlessly, she said

QI XUAN'S BLOG:

but i think if im a guy, i'll like a girl like taina. if she reads this, she'll start getting all worked up. HAHA.

Lol, but why? :)

Do you think I'm a follower?
Maybe I am and I just don't know it.
I don't know why I always get surprised when I find out that people think I am a fake.

I am a fake.

[Zoe!]

I never knew I could run so fast.
I swear it felt like flying.

Hello, he lied.

Look what I found:

I miss us.

Lasting Impressions

We have nowhere to go
So let's just go nowhere then
Because here is perfectly fine for me
As long as here is where you'll be


Fasten your seatbelts!
I am a bit upset because I forgot to buy stickers/buttons at the door, damnnn.
I want.

Then the whole world went clubbing so we didn't.
POKING and smoking.
I love how everyone knew we were there, hidden away, yet nobody bothered us.
Because we're just a stupid bunch of kids who didn't go home when we have homes to go to.
I like lying under the bridge.
I like Bryant's coat/tie.
I like singing pointless songs and trying not to slide down the wall into the garbage.
What Regina did was particularly pretty.

Caused a ruckus in my house and then headed to the playground and then Macs, because "Mary" wasn't allowed in my house.
Had hotcakes and then clambered over into the booth behind us so I could curl up and sleep.
Everyone headed home but Clara stayed over on my wonderful blow-up bed.

I liked saturday, but now I am broke-kid number one.

*
Would it be completely and utterly horrible for me to say that I hate them?
Because really, I do.
And they act so fucking self-righteous and whatnot.
Oh god, it takes so much to not just scream at them.

Stay Where I Can See You

Silence is golden.

It kinda weighs a lot doesn't it?

We got older but we're still young.

We turn our music down
and we whisper
"say what you're thinking right now"

I went to watch Andre's and Egan's bands play yesterday at Gashaus.
Enstrung wasn't really my thing, but I had lots of fun during SOL's set.
I wanted to dance really badly but I guess it wasn't the most appropriate music to dance to.
But it was this sudden urge that grabbed me and wouldn't let go.
So I made up for it by jumping up and down and spinning around occasionally.
Everyone was moshing and Beat attempted to join in.
I allowed myself to be pushed around and hit but didn't try to flail my arms around wildly like everyone was cause I was content with my dancing around.
Clara maintained her spaced out expression for most of the night.
I went home feeling strange and lightheaded cause of the copious amounts of second-hand ciggie smoke that I inhaled.

QUOTE OF THE NIGHT:
Clara: I want to pierce my tongue web.
Taina: I want to get my lip pierced.
Beat: I want to kiss someone.
*

Sometimes I think I overthink things.
Sometimes I don't think at all.

You can have the best of me.

In the bathroom is where I want you.

*puts on stupid accent*
Taina so fat that when she go into the changing room, SHE GOT STUCK!
Haha, no it's just that the door got jammed.
Lydia Liao stood outside the door whispering "Push it! Turn the lock!" and she said I was laughing so damn loudly inside.
I got un-stuck after like 10 minutes.
OH THE EMBARRASSMENT.

*
We all bought the discontinued $1.90 stuffed toy snakes at Ikea, even though I don't know what I'm going to do with mine.

Let's just hope that nothing happens

RANDOMNESS ENSUES.

I feel like I'm breaking my resolution to not be BLAND and BORING by repeating the same things everyday.
I apologise for being so mope-y and...dead.

GAH, HERE YOU GO.
I MADE THE DAMN DUTY ROSTER.
IT IS A FUGLY PIECE OF CRAP!
: D

From next week on, we're gonna go check out the Polys during their open houses. I really don't know what I'm going to do with my life after the Os, so I really want to be able to keep my options open, and know what I'll be getting myself into.
[And to achieve this I have to...study? *coughcough*]

Please watch Blood Diamond, it's fantastic.
*
Oh dear, there she goes.
Burrrrrnnnn outttt.

I won't even know if you just happened to up and die.

I caught fire in your eyes

Who wants a life that's filled with semesters
and useless knowledge and wasted credits?
Who wants a life of lost adolescence
that's filled with regrets and anti-depressants?

School is bearable, but only just.
They're implementing this system to reduce late comings and people who cut class.
I am annoyed by the kids being unable to cut class thing.
Sometimes people just need a day, you know?

The sec ones are annoying little brats, as per usual.
[Haha, I sound 'typical senior'-ish. How awful]

I think the knowledge that I'm sec four now, and the added pressure the teachers have put on us - "We only have so-and-so number of weeks with you!" - has made me increasingly tense.
I feel like I'm holding myself in so tightly that it hurts.
Kind of like that feeling I get when I'm in a room full of people I don't know.
Weird huh?
How do those two things link anyway?

I just wanna steal your soul.

Emo Doggieeee.
This is Snowee, snowy, snowheeee! [???]
BeatBeat's beautiful little dog.
It's so quiet, and it has hair falling over its face.
I love it.
*
I want to do interpretive dance, Eva too, on the streets of Orchard, on a tyedye rug with a hat in front of us.
We shall do it to the poetry reading of Beat.


And I can't wait to write you a letter for everyday that I can't bear
You can fill these moments with words like forever

It's all a blur and I'm wondering how can I be that same girl anymore? It's a bit strange, it's a bit weird, it's constantly at the back of my mind, which is pretty annoying because I sometimes would like to be able to have complete use of my brain, please tankyert [clara, is that how I spell it? lol]

*
Strange strange strangeeee.
I saw Joakim from Singapore Idol, he raised his eyebrows at me as he went past.
I was sufficiently weirded out.
Then I saw the bassist from Caracal.
My day of strangeness was complete.

Perfection Through Silence

Part Two of the dancing in random places. I don't get away so quickly this time and BeatBeat probably has quicker reflexes than Roxygalzz.

They're as white as whyteout.

They're new and unscuffed.

At least it's thursday tomorrow.

*

These words don’t mean a thing but I’ll say them anyway

Ah fuck, it hurts.

And my name's Dignan, so what?

I can't keep telling myself that it's only a few more days, cause it's already been "just a few more days" for a whole month already.
Oh this is so fucked up.
It's quite funny actually, hahahahhahaahahahahahahahaaaahhhha.
I am wondering if yesterday [and all days like it] still holds any meaning.

CELESTE, LOUIS still has my ipod mini.
GAHHH.

It's school tomorrow.
Let's do a happy dance, it's time to go back and be oppressed and BE HAPPY ABOUT IT, because we all know, there sure as hell isn't such a thing as an UNHAPPY CEDARIAN.

WHOO HOO, SEC FOUR-DOM, HERE WE COME.

Ah, fuck.

Some say you're troubled, boy. Just because you like to DESTROY.

It's the first of January, yay.

We sat at the beach and watched the ships let off their distress flares.

This is what we sat on. [We were cheapskates and ripped up a packet of $1.90 garbage bags]

And lit candles.

And yelled Boom! at what was presumably 12 midnight cause everyone suddenly started to run around yelling and doing stupid shit.

Clara came over to stay. We didn't go out for supper, we didn't watch our DVDS. Cause I fell asleep.

Oh dear. It's all gone now.

Beating hearts baby

Uh oh, there goes my hair.