"You're never beaten until you admit it." -- George S. Patton

its great feeling shitty. everyone should get to feel shitty at least once in their lifetime.

yeah right.
la bitche.
ate ramen today. with jac, feli and eunice! before that we were watching soccer. i love soccer. the people are nice and it rocks to see ppl kicking the ball. its so much beta than UG or NETBALL. mrs lai scored 2 goals when the teachers played against the soccer ppl. it was damn hilarious! didnt go for netball. mrs ong didnt scold me when she saw me sitting at the field. i hope then its okay. i promise to go for all netball trngs!
hatred.
i refused to go back to rosyth. even if i miss andrea and vanessa. i miss the feeling of having bestest best pals again. but i cant go back. even gabriel and david and cara are unwilling to go back. gabriel says he will only return if he tops the o lvls. so i guess we all are feeling shitty that we came here. i do not wna see succesful ppl when i go back. cant bring myself to face that i didnt work hard. and when i got back home i saw all the mighty assholes returning after their visit to rosyth. the batch that probably graduated after us.

i shall not be worked up/ fucked up/ upset/ over silly antics like those.

lets all give whoever a kick in the butt and may all morons/ idiots/ JNRs burst into flames. let them react with oxygen to combust! *cheers*

"To know what is right and not do it is the worst cowardice." -- Confucius

note: the below account us entirely true based on the fact that i saw it happen with my own eyes. witness jac and feli can clarify too!

its unfair. justice has to be done! thus, i feel a need to complain about the very unfair finals of the ICS. (interclasssoccer) its terrribly unfair cause one opponent FOULED his opponent in the most OBVIOUS way. his arm was pratically around his opponent. and when his opponent pushed him he raised his hand like he was innocent! THE LIAR.then he kept obstructing the guys path and the referee didnt blow penalty! and he pushed one guy down. damn despicable ehs i think. its thoroughly not fair to the other side. NOT NOT FAIR especially when the opponent was obviously much stronger. sucky! unfortunately, i speak from a fair point of view as i was supporting the fouling team until i saw the unethical entics when i decided to change my support to another team. the grps name is tainted thanks to one individual. i am sorry but thats the way it is.

p.s. jac and feli's way of commenting was hilarious. it was like," jim, jim, jim, jim, jim, tze hern tze hern tze hern" repeating the player who had the ball's name continuously!
p.s.s.we all thought the bird was the ball.

all the way home all three of us were gossiping! we love gossiping!

i love soccer. i love watching soccer, love knowing all about soccer BUT i just cant play soccer. its sad. which is why i have retired from being the gk. HAH!

i feel good today! i feel good about helping others. i helped an old lady, and i feel great that i helped her! X) its the little things that matter!

its been a great day!

"Try not to become a man of success. Rather become a man of value." -- Albert Einstein

got back my result slip. SUCKS. L1R5 18. at least i have 3 a1s NO A2s! NO A2s. i just realised. dammit.

i got a effing F9 for combined humans. shit shit shit. at least i have been improving. ^-^

i was on my way home with xy at the bus-stop then this old senoir citizen came up to talk to us. it was like a gesture for us to sit but we politely declined. then she stands up and walks towards us and ask what bus we take! fearing that she might follow me home, i didnt want to answer her. xy too. then she said she was taking 74. nooooooo! what if she was one of those scheming SC who follows me home and forces me to buy apples or something. cause she kept touching my hand. and xy was taking a different bus. den luckily, a double deck 74 came and the lovely lady went up in, and having extremely good eyesight, i spotted another 74 behind! behold, the luck! and i clambered onto the non double deck 74 relifly.!

not that i am uncaring or anything. i DO NOT mind people talking to me. but i draw a line when they come up and start to touch me on my arm and asks me what bus i take. its okay if they talk about their sons and daughters and what they used to do, BUT NOT ASK ME WHAT BUS I TAKE. cause that will make me VERY suspicious of what intentions they have. maybe so they can take the same bus as me and stalk me home? i dont think so.

lots of people have talked to me on my way home but none of them has ever asked me what bus i take or come close to me and touched my arm except for this one indian lady but she was sitting beside me. so that cant be helped. i MUST have the nice face. at least i will listen to what they have to say. i do talk to them too! just not in dialect. i guess.

recruitment drive was disapoointing but expected. grsh. hmm. better than none. X)

MOFOFOFOFO! xxxx!

"You are what you think. You are what you go for. You are what you do." -- Bob Richards

bought my gg badges today. and little home makeer ME sewed them on. ME. ME. i SEWED it. not my momma but ME. i can sew. *smirks*

gonna work on my writer's badge right this instant. i LOVE wriing essays. they spark me with delight and peals of glee.

by the way, which mother ever lets her child eat pure chocolate for dinner?with ice-cream? MINE! maybe not pure chocolate but this cupcake things filled with 97% pure chocolate and hot dogs! its heavenly.

clever shit. i am gonna buy history and ss assesment books tmr. to make up for what effing mrs SIM has lost.

"believe me, for i will make you fly with me someday." -- Some guy, Some place.

dinner should not be made a neccesity. after dinner, you sit around and watch tv. or sleep. you get fatter this way. so what is the purpose? just a little funny thing thought when people gorge themselves at dinner, then they get all round and chubby.

bio test tommorow. chem is much easier to study. one read, and all is in my head. but i have to re-read bio over and over again. all the oxygen debt thing makes me dizzy. i have to study all over again.

came home straight today after school with david, jane and eunice. damn funny. we ate MOS! and we LOVE mos! we eat the most sauces. there was this whole bunch stack of chilli and ketchup at the side of the tray.and i wasnt even helping to lick it. and that time at mac we stole 4 or 5 curry sauces and chilli sauces. and we finished the whole lot. crazy or what.

fundamental maths, i can do it.

note to self: MUST buy more t.y.s. !

shall live life the shu yan way.

"I am the master of my fate; I am the captain of my soul." -- William Ernest Henley

tests, tests and more tests. damnn.

btw, i got 1/13 for my ss test. but i dont care because mrs sim sucks. she asked us to stay last minute today! every single time also like that! SHITTY ASS. and a whole bunch of us were sent out to stand for not bringing our eng TYS. stupid teachers. studying is blahs. cant we study every alternate days? waking up early every morning is draning me of my rest, my energy, my happiness and my sleep.

first time in 10000 years going for netball tmr. i think. feel just the little bit of excitment. the thrill of lactic acid in my limbs.

blahs and blahs. just gna study hard and everything. and angry at yu le bai fen bai. i had to wake up from my afternoon nap and tear my eyes open only to find that CYNDI WANG is on the show. how perfectly horrifying. its shitty because i cant watch LZX in action. and i love him so much.

working hard on my gg badges. HAAHHA. behold, you jealous people who do not have as many.

feel a little agitated uhs. feel like slapping victorians. no offence or anything but they are JUST A TEENY WEENY little bit complacent or obnoxious or act patriotic or something but WHATEVER. i DONT CARE.

doubt i will be going back to rosyth. even though i love rosyth and everything, i cant bear to go back. i just cant face it. i MUST be suffering from those "too ashamed to return" sort of symtoms. i cant face it. green and other colours dont mix.

"听着自己的心跳, 没有规则的跳跃" -- 元卫觉醒 天空

summerland is great.

i am gonna work doubly hard from now till the 'o's cause i am gonna do all i can to get into a GREAT JC. i have alrdy let myself down by not doing fantasically in my PSLE so now my os are gonna be GREAT. X)

i will not be put down any longer!

"Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of life, the whole aim and end of human existence." -- Aristole

i am very dislikeable. that is why most ppl in the world hate me and pretend i do not exist. which is why ppl do not care even if i cried my socks off. which is also why ppl do not care if i am left alone or ignored. I AM ONE TRANSPARENT PERSON WHOSE EXISTENCE MEANS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO EVERYONE.

there is no point. NO POINT AT ALL of having other humans in the world if they do not speak to you or care about you.

FUCK IT. this lousy world with its lousy ppl. EAT SHIT.

there is only a tiny minority who would actually care about your feelings, the rest just treat you like wooden. someone with no feelings and can do whatever youw ant to the. whenever you need them find them, when you don't need them, THROW THEM IN THE SMELLY RUBBISH BIN.

FUCK. NOBODY CARES OR GIVE A FUCKING DAMN. NO ONE IS EVER TRULY AND REALLY SORRY. NO ONE IS EVER OR REALLY THANKFUL AS WELL. THIS SUPERFICIAL WORLD WHO DISCRIMINATES OTHERS. AND THAT REALLY SUCKS. SOME WORDS ARE JUST EMPTY VOIDS. NO MEANING, NO REASON YET PPL DARE TO USE THEM. IT FUCKING SUCKS WHEN NO ONE CARES.

I HATE THIS WORLD AND LOTS OF PPL WHO HABITAT IT.

MAY IDIOTS IN THE WORLD BURST INTO FLAMES.

"Humor is the most engaging cowardice" -- Robert Frost

disgusted. thoroughly disgusted. bleahs. >.<

my grades will improve.

"What you don't know can't hurt you." -- Someone.

I LOVE LUO ZHI XIANG. this is the type of guy i wna marry when i grow up. *sighs*

i love him. just like how i newly love wesley of yuan wei jue xing okay! okay, i am not sure of who is who but i love the shorter hair one!

they are very yummy ppl with very nice personalities. love is in the air. LZX!

LZX!

!XOBILE.

"Each of my days are miracles. I won't waste my day; I won't throw away miracle." -- Kelley Vicstrom

Huang YiDA is kinda gay i guess.

my Chi teacher sucks like nobody's effing business. she scolded me for writing "zhou zi" in class. please tell her to eat shit. she seems to be prejudiced against the last row. la bitche. a biatch who goes ard picking on the less helpful. hasnt she heard of the phrase "better late then never?" or maybe she is too cheena to realise the intelligent meaning behind that phrase.

mrs sim is just as prejudiced. AMKSS has some lousy teachers. not that rosyth didnt have, but they taught less impt subjects like health ed. but amkss just sents impt subjects to lousy teachers. CHINESE and COMBINED HUMANITIES are 'O' level subjects if they didnt know that.

CHINESE IS A SECOND LANGUAGE FOR GOODNESS SAKE. its becasue of teachers like LY that the chinese culture is slowing fading away. and the reason why we have to promote chinese. shiat them.

lets just forget about those incompetent teachers whom we fund to teach us.

i got my reader's badge! stupid cheryl just will not do any badges. i always thought minstrel was kind of a jester. hmmm.

"你转身向背 侧脸还是很美 " -- Jay, yi lu xiang bei

i keep dripping. and dripping. and leaking. and leaking. it happened today again. AGAIN. and i hadta run all the way to the loos. why me? i very angry.

sian. i wna get my badges! my lovely badges! grhs. must. stop. using. sound. words.

chinkaa.

still shitty.

leftout.

"Obstacles beautify my." -- Unknown

i feel like shit. and my homework is not done.

super terrible, bad smelling shit that has been left in the toilet bowl for millions of years.

ignorance is bliss.

just leave me out of everything. just not to me. and not boast to me while i am having shit.

FUCKING LEFTOUT.

this FUGLY WORLD, its full of PANGSEH_ING.

I AM NOT A HAPPY GIRL TODAY.

"Imagination was given to man to compensate him for what he is not; a sense of humor to console him for what he is. " -- Francis Bacon

i am changing my blogskin. i will miss jesse. i shall miss seeing his face when i click on my blog favourites. sucha yummy guy.

but for now, i am angry with wilber. think he a bit smelly now. and blind.

he likes girls with, long hair, big eyes, and who has her own thinking.

now which of the above points does hebe do not fit. NONE. which is why i do not understand why hasnt he hooked up with hebe tian? HUH? illogical and ridiculous. He makes me very angry sometimes with his ATTITUDE. just because she doesnt penn her own lyrics and compose her own tunes does not mean you cant go steady with her.

guys are an idiot bunch of people.

FH(&Y%(*HIHV(&UTI)JE)*RYH.

luckily she has toro and shawn to comfort her broken heart. *GUFFAWS*

"As the twig is bent the tree inclines." -- Virgil

arhs. ndp reherseal today. final thing on mon. nervousness.

lots of hw. shiatty. less sleep each day. dammit.

stress!

everything is changing, just like how the world keeps revolving.

"I never made a mistake in my life. I thought I did once, but I was wrong." -- Lucy Van Pelt

*beep* this world and everything.

what a nice, lovely and sensitive world we live in.

i love it when ppl DO CARE.

sucker.