"Once again, you have shown the sensitivity of a blunt axe." -- Nearly Headless Nick

i hate wilber and selina. adulterous pair. kissed during the bloody coca-cola ad. still say each others lips so *beep* soft.
shit'em, for now, its HT. until i get over that heartbreak. even my wall paper is HT. i miss the old toro. i want the old him back! and all my lovely fanfics all read, Hebe and Toro. and the *beep* ones say," Wilber and Selina. more shit.
i really want the old toro back. the lovable and kawaii toro from energy. i still cant "fang xia" the thinking of HT. damnned. they look so sweet together.

i *beep* hate wilber. i *beep* hate toro. why did they just had to go and do all those stuff that never was meant to be. why are guys such *beep* jerks. they are such *beep* freaks.ask them to go to *beep* hell. shit'em.

and my life is currently in ruins. i have so many problems and myself to tell. i see no point in sharing problems. it doesnt matter anyway. my own trival little problems. i created them, i have to solve them

and i am one strong girl.

my belief have never faltered. the fairytale which i so strongly believed in has crumpled before my very eyes, yet i still believe, it will come true one day.

i believe in keeping stuff to myself, because everything that isnt kept to yourself, may lead to your downfall one day. my problems cant be solved by anyone except myself. and i believe, people arent really that interested in hearing your problems because the nature of humans, are self centered, which is why, you pay a psychaitrist to listen.

i dont care anymore. i will stand back up again. when all is finished, i will find a way.

doesnt matter. no one cares. no one will ever bother.

"Today is where your book begins The rest is still unwritten " -- Natasha Bedingfield, unwritten

nomad ytd. had duty. kinda boring. didnt getta see any performances. dammit.

tis the season to be depressed. too many ppl depressed. *beeps* and i dont understand why.

blast it. maybe i aint a good friend enough.

"meng zou de tai kuai, she bu de xing lai. "-- Michelle & Vickie, Xie xie ni

ytd had ndp trg. but nvr paticipate cos my back hurts. so i had to sit there and watch. but erm, i look like a reserve. do diulian. but seriously, our drills are not that fantastic. mine aint that great either.

den had campfire ltr that evening. super high. but why all the scout there all is little children. so young and "se". terrible. nxt time, i wish that campfires would be full of mature scouts. no little kids that scream like nobody's business. but i love campfires anyway. u get to scream and sing! and sign language rocks.

i finally know what chinese superman phoebe was talking about. cos, i watched the video before. and it was hilarious. and vulgar, and racist.

and today was nice. i get to sleep in. and eat decent meal. and the heavenly chocolate cake with ice-cream. the cake was 80% filled with chocolate that melts when baked. and i saw creamy.

sch tmr. aint that excited.

p.s. i still HATE that slut, jolin sai.

"shou shang de chi pang, zong you yi tian hui man man de bian hao." -- Energy, yan lei de wei dao

got injured today. got blood somemore. hurts. and i cried. ah wells. the score was horrible lahs. fourteen times of ours.

at least there were ppl that cared. comforted by it. LOL. everyone was really nice about my injury. =)

busy day tmr. i refuse to share my emotions, my thoughts and happenings to everyone else.

shit this self centred community.

erghh. there are different kinds of ppl in the world. i like the kind that i am. a listener.

"Although Hebe is the youngest among the three, she is the most sentimental member of the group, sometimes she thinks too much, especially since she's so quiet. When she feels stressed, she seldom asks her friends for help, but rather indulge in books to relieve her stress" -- s.h.e forum

i see myself in her. the exact things i do. its fate. as i love hebe. i love wilber as much my heart gives an almighty lurch when ever i see his face.

BWAHAHA!

i love them both. but i love the hebe and wilber affair more!

"Time you enjoy wasting, was not wasted." -- John Lennon

i seriously didnt know that. until today. my condolences to LZX.

more frustrations going on. super stupid la. its just fcuking not good. it keeps in me a bad bad mood.

lots of tests coming up. dun wanna flunk them. i gta ace everything!

"The love we give away is the only love we keep." -- Elbert Hubbard

at this point of time, i just dont feel like sharing anything in my life. anything. all my frustrations, my shittiness, my accomplishments and my complaints.

all i want to share is that i hate jolin tsai yi lin. she is a complete biatch. she has just announced to the whole world that "she likes collaborating with wilber pan wei bo".

the audacity. what she means is that :" i secretly have fallen in love with mr wilber pan wei bo and i would like to seduce him from hebe."

arghhs. why is the whole world full of biatches who would like to steal away the guys i have chosen for hebe? e.g. include cyndi wang, fiona xie and now jolin tsai and angela zhang. stupid stupid stupid. dumbass. slap them, slap them. eeeyer. if wilber strays, i hate him. like how i hate toro guo wei yun now. X) i have faith in wilbur okay. if he kisses anyone else or anything/ buhbye wilber!

aiyah. i cant help it. i need to xuan yao a bit. it wil be in small small font.

i completed harry potter and the half blood prince, the second sisterhood of the travelling pants half of the rule of four, my a maths AND a maths homework and my bio homeowrk in just a mere three days while watching tv and going out. HAH.

okay its done. i feel prouder of myself.

"Any idiot can face a crisis - it's day to day living that wears you out. " -- Anton Chekhov

sick. sick.sick. cough. flu. fever. *sighs*

problems, problem, problems.

and how i wish that lizards would become extinct. and brothers too.

damn damn dammmit.

"May you live every day of your life." -- Jonathan Swift

wahlau. damn bloody freaked up. some ARSEHOLE deleted my initial D movie. the ARSEHOLE. i think "relac-ing" sucks. no offence but it just pisses me off for some really weird reason. whats wrong with relaxing? i just want to know.

and it sucks that some people distort the truth. and fugly actty people who think that they are "oh-so mighty-great" people who think they are correct and unwilling to LISTEN.

and it sucks to have sucha disrespectful person send a bloody sms to you in deliberate caps.

just eat my shit. and life is so damn stressed. no time for homework. i come home at 7/8 every single day. life is getting too meaningful. i play damned matches, stress over guides and its problems, screw over tests and sleep in class. this is not right. well, its gonna be over in august. studies presides over anything.

i have no time for myself. poeple who have the fcuking spare time squander it like nobody's business den ltr regret like fug. arseholes.


bloody hell.

" shen ming an pai she me, wo jiu gan xie she me, mei ge ren jie yan huo, quan dou mei li le wo." -- S.H.E. *tong kuai*

fcuking pissed today. i have so many discontentements.

this is truly provacative.

i really want a refund. four songs is too little. i didnt even get to watch the chinese orchestra. and i sorta wanted to see that but NOBODY to accompany me, so whatever la. den people kept banging into me. den i was so pissed off, i started whinning and swallowed my entire swet whole. excellent. and nobody cares that i am pissed. they gave me the blank looks. like what? cept for my 2 non-invisible pals.

i have no idea what made me feel pissed, but i seriously think that it must have something to do with the loss of $. then went to eat, bloody pasta mania was full. good service, and every single one of those civillians were eating like snails! no consideration for the three starving girls standing by the menu. at the foodcourt, one very kia su angmoh "chionged" for a sit. leaving 3 malnutritioned kiddy retards to scramble for a place to eat. and i wenta order a ramen thing but all i got was rice with egg and prawns. OH BLOODER.. not satisfying i tell you. dewn went to anutie annie's and ate a pretzel. costed me a fcuking $3. i wish people would label their products. how un misleading.

and i hadta go home alone. i mean the journey from amk mrt to my hse.and it sucks. luckily i have pals cherly and phoebe to accompany me. X)

i hate going home alone.
i hate paying more than expected.
i hate gettin knocked into.

when i grow up, i am gna find a boyfriend to accompany me home every single day of his entire life. or. be some rich asshole who has a chauffeur to drive me all around.
when i grow up, i WILL NEVER GO HOME ALONE EVER AGAIN.

and ytd, the theory lessons were great. i am more tthe intellect. i read, i write. drills were nervousie. actually, i have never ever reported strength before in my entire life. so that diulian portion was well and truly DAMNED diulian. goodbye reputation.

fcuking pissed.

i love cheryl and phoebe, nobody can tolerate me like they do.

"The poet doesn't invent. He listens." -- Jean Cocteau

i wanna share my happiness with me, myself and i because i am the only one who truly cares about me. and maybe the happiness is felt by the entire gst to. cos we like got 2-0. *laughs* cos they are great! dunwanna elaborate, cos i feel the happiness inside me, and its me tht matters anyway.

and nobody ever tells me anything. nobody ever responds to me. sometimes strangers are nicer than ppl u know, cause they will actually care and be nicer to you. oh well, i dont give a fcuk anymore.

i will learn to keep to myself and not share my thoughts and everything because revealing all that will sooner or later lead to your downfall. NEVER let ppl know the true you.

cugt tmr.

p.s. fathima is a certified nerd. she watches and listens to all wood (e.g. hollywood, bollywood) and she studies every single time she goes home. WEIRD. somebody like that does EXIST!

"I absolutely forbid any such outrage." -- George Bernard Shaw

i am hardworking today. gna do my maths homework later too! alrdy finished my bio!
was crazy during assembly. hhahas. playing with my sistas.



i am hardworking, so eat my shit. yeahs.

and i wish that some ppl wouldnt piss me off.

"Blah! " -- Squatty Squatty Squat Squat

lol. my squatty squatty squat squat. hilarious.

school was sorta fun today. was bloody hyper. had good food to eat during recess k! now i have a bloody sore throat. how excellent.

afta sch the commisioner came. as expected, she is not skinny. X) den was very nervous. like one mistake and end of life. period. but we had to redo colours. *coughs* den had hadicraft. so heartwarming. den comisioner went home den it was sweet sweet drills. me and phoebe and xy took s4. damn funny. everytime got 10 seconds to laugh. hahahaha. and its really nice, the self-proclaimed squatty squatty squat squat. S4. they can bond. LOL.

den went home with jane. sorry to feli and jac. sorry! cos sorta pangseh them like that.

snot going to do my history. feel too sick. bah! humbug!

"Truth is a tendency." -- R. Buckminster Fuller

somebody went suntanning today! but didnt get tanned enough but red la. at east coast beach. with jiayu, hong mei, shermin and their buddies. didnt dare to play truth or dare. its a play and die kinda game.

i will be tanned.

i will be tanned.

den wenta j8. took neoprint with jiayu. we literally dragged her into the shop and pushed her into the machine. but she was excited too. we can tell. ^-^ she got act cute! its damn funny. bought shinyyy ear styudds. gna pierce a few more holes! bwahhas. and the whole lot of us missed phoebe!

homework not done. v.good! chi textbk not bought. i will not be rebellious.

i am getting brainwashed by bloody winglin. all stories there contain hebe with TORO or zax. like huh? so incompatable. so completey stupid.

hebe is supposed to be with WILBUR. its wilbur, my man. not toro, the stupid flirty asshole. and all those ridiculous posters feat hebe and toro. its obscence.

its toro and wilbur. nobody ever portrays hebe and wilbur. what is this world coming too? last week i even doubted the love between my hebe and wilbur and had second thoughts about toro. i have learnt my mistake. my faith in the wilbur and hebe affair must never be quavered again unless wilbur belongs to a speciman of males like toro which i highly doubt.

hebe and wilbur have starred in a coca-cola advertisement together. love may just blossom. they will fall in love and have babies. they deserve to be together. wilbur is just the right guy. he is sweet and hilarious and cool. he seems loyal and non-flirty(i think). what more can a girl want. *minus that he is fat* they deserve each other!

i LOVE hebe and wilbur. and i have 100% faith that this fairytale will come true.

""Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is like a broken-winged bird that cannot fly." -- Langston Hughes

i fee like crap now. i have aching arms and legs. i feel wobbly when i climb the stairs. and the score ytd was 1-0 to them. i still feel terrible on letting the ball in. but it was my first game. first training. didnt know lots of people saw me. the embarrassment.

the soccer girls were really supportive! and wei xun and gabriel for helping me train before the thing. and the peeps on the benches. and the people who saw me and supported me!

hehes. i feel like playing defence. it seems much more fun then the current one. i really hope we win the next one though. when i was there, it was super scary. and my heart was like, THUMP THUMP. like so damn loud. hmmhmm!

g2g think up stuff for parties. mohoho. its gna be a busy week.

still feel guilty. cos my parents dont know about this whole "above entry thing i am invovled in". ayee. its gonna be a troubled week too.

i will be okay, one fine day.