"就像刺鳥的宿命　悲劇卻勇敢
"-- F.I.R. , ci niao

5/25!

thats how much paige got for her maths test. HOW IS IT POSSIBLE? its so illogical.

how can i get so low for my maths test. its like one fifth of the total. its like totally stupid. and i cried over it. many times. so disgraceful. its so not fairr. i thought i would at least pass! i will get an A1 for my mid year man! i sreiously dont believe i am that DUMB. i will do better. totally! i dont believe i am naturally like that. its just carelessness i hope. and its ridiculous how we need to learn all this rubbish. will we need it in the real life next time? like i will go to the supermarket and see al this equatiions huh? like so idiotic. weirdo. no purpose.

I WILL LAUGH AT MATHS IN THE FACE ONE FINE DAY.

i need to listen to energy to sleep. seriously addicted. and i have made an important decsision!

HEBE will be with WILBUR. was listening to some wilbur songs. found it bloody gandong, thus the HW is born! taahdaaah`! i hope so. ayeees.

"Kids go where there is excitement. They stay where there is love." -- Zig Ziglar

new blog arrives!

and guess what? there are no spaces for L-O-S-E-R-s to tag rubbish. cos i have done away with all the shit taggies and comments thingy.
cos i figured, my blog should not contain the crap and shit and disgusting comments of not so worthy others.
like, this new blogskin in 100% made by me, see the meredy? so no idiots can tag like
:"what an ugly and disgsting blog!"
haha! so if anybody wants anything jsut send me a msg at spy_fairy instead. HAHA!

less blogging from now on.
studying is what i really need! gonna study and get all As and get all the presents so i can be smug and show off. being mean again.

anyway, today i feel pity for all the kids i silently ostracised and abused.
its not their fault. but something in me just wanna be mean sometimes. really sorry.

nobody ever calls me by my real name "shu yan". for some reason this makes me happy. they call me "paige" or best still "hebe" haha! really nice.

for some reason, my simple life has gotten really complicated over the past 3 days. i found out that the s.h.e. alarm clock still exists! ayee! and it is jeopardizing my entire life! wth. where am i gonna buy it? and the SLY and F.I.R. thing too. and the hebe/wilbur/toro thing. aiyee! but i love fretting over stuff like that. ^-^

i really love my blog.

SHIT!

i feel like eating KFC.

stop me somebody!

"You can determine how confident people are by listening to what they don't say about themselves." -- Brian G. Jett

ahhhs! i am sick. temp just now was 39.9 degrees celcius. damn sucky. unable to go to sch and get my certificate of perfection. and my stupid sorethroat hurts. ahhs! interesting news hapening. hope i can go back to sch by tmr. X) feeling sick all over again. arhhs.

"If at first you don't succeed, failure may be your style." -- Quentin Crisp

hiassh. the odyssey of the mind competition.
we could have gotten third place! the weird and freaky judges gave us 20 penalty points for NOTHING. it was just a box thrown near them. like, HUH? 20 isnt a small amount u noe? that caused us to get into 5th placing. wth? t least spontaneous was nice. we got third. after RGS and ACSI. at least the "in your dreams" team hada 1st runner up. *3 cheers* hehes. good for them. i will miss OM. so much to say but..... hiassh.

i really think its a pity bout the 20 points. but i just wnana say that the peeps of OM rocks. wanna thank them for everything. all the paint and pain that we had to go through. all the rehearsals and everything. all the sparks. HAHAs. all the fun and stuff.

hiass. knew a secret. a damn cool one in fact. guess will miss all the OM times.

"And if I try to save him My whole world would cave in" -- Kelly Clarkson, Beautiful Disaster

the round today was okay. i guess. not fantabulous or just terrible. just acceptable. hiassh. saw the rosyth peeps. it was seriously scary. we werent nervous until we were waiting outside the room. hahas. not bad larhs. HAHA! acting totally idiotic before the competition. all the answers were like ____. nothing to say. some were creative bahs. but ahhhs! feeling damn nervous for tmr.

thanks to all the nice and loevely peeps who good luck-ed us. hehs. thanks!

"Nothing great will ever be achieved without great men, and men are great only if they are determined to be so." -- Charles De Gaulle

i cant believe it! competition tomorrow. and my spontaneous still suck. oh man. hope nothing screws up. arrrhs. not enough sleep. hope cheryl wont be too upset. PEOPLE! please laugh at our play. ah well.

meredy chao tian zhen. part of the chao ren zu!

ah!!!!
i cant believe it.
my love for hebe is quavering.
this is impossible.
it better not quaver by tomorrow.
i believe that tomorrow whwn i wake up,
hebe will still rock my whole world.
she is not les.
maybe i wont buy that alarmclock anmore.
wallet, here i come!
"my hebe rocks" xin nian better be there tomorrow.

"You don't always have to agree with someone like me." -- dont know, dont care

this is one fugly day. one terrible and ugly day.
first i had to insert some stupid thing into my tooth bcos i had a hole. an assy hole. and it sucks. but i still like going to the dentist.
then mrs lai sucked.
whats the deal with the fucking CME thing?
she should be glad that ppl actually passed up with sensible answers.
one sentence answer also not allowed.
her children must be emotionally traumatised and emotionally scarred for life.
i HATE her.
and she must hate me for the rest of her pathetic life.
wadever.
den OM sucked too. hadta run all the fucking way to p.s. to buy a tiny amount of props.
and then got critized by lingum.
HAH.
then maybe i will slack until competition day,
then i will probably score like 59/60 marks for mine and phoebe part.
that'll teach him.
and i learnt that hebe has a new boyfriend!
some stupid ass of a guy named some ah bang.
heard it from eugene .
but i just learnt from the more reliable s.h.e. webbie that it is not true.
WAHAHAS.
and my handphoen thingy dropped out from the phone. arhhhgs.
and i still hafta study my e*maths.
plus my sore throat still fucking hurts.
and i ran to the bus stop in the rain. got lightning.
damn scary. like the lightning in front of me and luoling.
thnks again, insensitive parents.
and i havent eaten my dinner even though its 9.
*bursts into tears*
bloody cough.
the only comfort is that i can d/l f.i.r. songs. ! yay.
wadever.

"You know you did it, I'm gone, To find someone to live for, In this world" -- Kelly Clarkson , GONE

David should stop going aroud calling people wilbur. such an insult.
jac's hair is so cute.

ahhhs. its 9++ and i just reached home and bathed. so tired. graaahs. bio prac test tmr. nothing to say. haiish. tmr must stay at home later. i am saddened by the insensitivety of my parents to the well being of their daughter. they could at least volunteer to fetch their precious daugther home from sch. what if she gets u noe, kidnapped? ahhhhs! streessss. so scary. still deeply saddened.

so confused. s.h.e. alarm clock or roxy wallet? HELP ME!

"Believe me! The secret of reaping the greatest fruitfulness and the greatest enjoyment from life is to live dangerously!" -- Friedrich Nietzsche

FUN ! amksian family is fun. hahas. big surprise. went to sch first to fetch the senior citizens. den walked all the way to the beach. felt sorta guilty cos never take much care of them. x= i went to play and eat. i ate "angel"s fried nice. quite nice larhs. den went to play by the water, help throw cheryl into the water den got thrown in by her. argghs. got all wet and sandy. got thrown in subsequently after that by a whole buch of others. den jia yu went ard collecting food. like ! greedy! she take all their potato chips and sandwiches. LOL. the ham and cheese one was quite nice i guess. played frisbee a lottle with eunice. ahhs. didnt getta play soccer cos all guys. hahs! den we missed the buffet thing cos jiayu ate too much and the rest didnt want to go. *bish! i was so looking forward to that. threw many peeps into the water . HAH! i tasted sea water. why so salty aniway? and guess what? my hair was still dry and untouched by sea water after dunno how many times in the water. XD

aniwaees after that jia yu, cheryl , feli and me went to the extreme right of the beach. can pai MTV. got wind and waves and we sit by the rocks. den jia yu and cheryl saw this BIG wave. and we were like " BIG wave lehs! Big wave lehs!" den we sat there while the big waves came and we got soaked by the big wave. damn funny. was singing songs and everything. den went home with jac and jiayu. i hate getting bullied. and getting all sandy.

reached home and got a shock. there were frogs and crickets and mealworns at home! cos my bro and friend were doing dumb project. euugh. imagina if one tiny frog or worn crawled up and snuggles beside me. and i like sleep indirectly beside the stupid box of wiggly creatures, with only a wall separating us. eeeeeks! mega gross. so tired. needa sleep.

today rocks my shit off!

"Rich Girl"

If I was a Rich Girl
See, I'd have all the money in the world, if I was a wealthy girl
No man could test me, impress me, my cash flow would never ever end
Cause I'd have all the money in the world, if I was a wealthy girl
Think what that money could bringI'd buy everything
Clean out Vivienne Westwood
In my Galliano gown
No, wouldn't just have one hood
A Hollywood mansion if I could
Please book me first class to my fancy house in London town
All the riches baby, won't mean anything
All the riches baby, don't bring what your love can bring
All the riches baby, won't mean anything
Don't need no other baby
Your lovin' is better than gold and I know
If I was rich girl
See, I'd have all the money in the world, if I was a wealthy girl
No man could test me, impress me, my cash flow would never ever end
Cause I'd have all the money in the world, if I was a wealthy girl
I'd get me four Harajuku girls to
Inspire me and they'd come to my rescue
I'd dress them wicked, I'd give them names
Love, Angel, Music, Baby
Hurry up and come and save me
All the riches baby, won't mean anything
All the riches baby, don't bring what your love can bring
All the riches baby, won't mean anything
Don't need no other baby
Your lovin' is better than gold and I know
[EVE:]
Come together all over the world
From the hoods to Japan Harajuku girls
What? It's all love
What? Give it upWhat? (shouldn't matter) What?
Come together all over the world
From the hood to Japan Harajuku girlsWhat?
It's all the loveWhat? Give it upWhat?
(shouldn't matter)What happened to my life?
Turned up side downChicks dat blew ya mind,
ding, it's the second roundOriginal track and ting
You know you can't buy these things
See Stefani and her L.A.M.B I rock the fetish people you know who I am
Yes ma'am, we got the style that's wicked
I hope you can all keep up
We climbed all the way from the bottom to the top
now we ain't gettin' nothing but love
If I was rich girl
See, I'd have all the money in the world, if I was a wealthy girl
No man could test me, impress me, my cash flow would never ever end
Cause I'd have all the money in the world, if I was a wealthy girl

" The truth hurts." -- somewhere

tired. OM again. made some progress. competitors suck can? all the gd schools. den we are only amkss. like NJC, nanyang. hurhmm. celebrated the who birthday. dunno how to spell. its a surprise thingy. sorta cool. iLOVE OM.

had 2.4 run today. i did it in 16 mins plus plus. and fathima is LAN. even jia yu is faster. LOL. jia yu wei wo zheng qi! yay! den one mysterious person came running behind me and "jiayou"! den so funny. he also encourage jac! den we wanted to run after him and jia you but he run so fast la. cannot jiayou. cheryl say i showed attitude to mrs sim today! first time being an ah lian!! HAHA. so cool. i love the mango fruit plus sweet. i hpoe my hair dun sheds too much. haiish. gonna be a terrible week tmr. not gonna see much of me. hmmm.

iLoveMe

"Who you are speaks so loudly I can't hear what you're saying." -- Ralph Waldo Emerson

oh man. i feel damn fucked up.
i have to stop bitchinging around.
stop getting pissed easily.
stop wanting to give everyone a kick in the ass.
stop finding fault with everything.
stop hating everything that i have.
stop being dissatisfied with everything around me.

and guess what?

i really hate fatihma. she is such a lousy person. i felt damn good when we "shoot" her today. i realy hate her. she is such a loser girl witha fucked up brain. she thinks that she is so great but guess what? she is just a piece of shit. i know i have to stop bitching bout her. but her attitude just sucks. she dont deserves the attention we give her seriously. and she gives off an air of fake arrogance. i just wanna slap her. i cant tolerate anymore.

plus i am still confused. hebe/toro or wilbur/hebe. wilbur is a dman sweet guy. but toro is dman suai. arrhs. maybe i shoud support htw. ot thw or wth. YES! maybe wth is the solutionn. hmm. SUCKERS.

"Kids go where there is excitement. They stay where there is love." -- Zig Ziglar

whee. OM camp rocks. after sch wenta eaat den started painting. and painting. all the props and stuff. den we finally bathed at 10++ bathed at the staff toilet. phoebe and cheryl were scared to. so we cramped in the toilet. it had heater. and a fan! weird. but its damn funny in a way. sang while i shitted. den went back. to eat. got a bit of packet food/rice thingy. cheryl said i looked "qian jin" with my hair wet.

HAHA! heard that people?

then erm, yeahs. den more painting and props in the hall until 3 plus. den went to sleep in the room beside the band room. and

GUESS WHAT? it wasnt scary. no chairs dragging or machines mystriously turinging on by themselves. MUAHA. the brave people. den woke up the "oh-so-quiet" band. with all the shouting and instuments. den went to camp on the big bluesquishy thing on the third floor. much more comfy than the FLOOR. seriously. the floor at home is much beta.=) had sponsered mac. the bread was hard. i have no idea why. the others said i had morning sickness. i wonder why. den finished the props and went home. the props are like, COOL.

slept for 18 hrs at home. gonna watch ru hua and study chem. no ides how to accomplish that. hmm. so see ya peeps.

p.s.: in response to the comments, teh teh means breasts.